Good decision today. Realizing that my massive desire to eat had nothing to do with hunger. It's straight up emotional. When I check in with my body I'm not low blood sugar and my stomach doesn't feel empty.
My heart does, but instead of eating to fill it up, I think I'll sit with it.
Wow, nobody has been in here for a while. Today I went on a 5 mile hike wit my dog. And it felt so good and I wasn't tired when it was over. (My feet hurt a little though.)
So I am cranky and PMSy. And I was supposed to meet friends for bowling. Most days that would be fun. Today...I just felt like I needed time to myself. I needed quiet (something not synonymous with bowling) so I bailed on my friends (who understood) and respected my mood and enjoyed the spring weather. I didn't listen to music or an audio book. I did hear a lot of woodpeckers and geese though. And I heard the water in the river and the rustle of leaves as lizards escaped. And I let my mind wander. And it touched on painful stuff, but it also touched on common day stuff, and good stuff. And I feel satisfied and pleased.
Nice job listening to yourself, Seana. It sounds like you did just what you needed.
My good choice for the day: getting myself a little bit organized. I'm always more chipper when I'm organized, and I end up feeling better about *everything*.
Gosh, I'm envious of that "cold autumn day", Noshoes! It is blisteringly hot and humid right now where I live, I actually start my dog walks in the dark to alleviate some of the heat!
My good choice today: some nice back stretches. I really need to work this into my daily routine instead of sporadically doing them.
Not killing my summer research extern. He is unbelievably arrogant and pushy, especially for someone with minimal skills and knowledge. How someone so junior to me can make my job so much harder is a head scratcher. So far I haven't been eating my feelings - I hopeto keep that up.
Mine is finding this forum again. I have been wracking my brain trying to remember EVERYTHING I did that made me so successful 5 years ago. This forum was a large piece of it.
Today's good decision is to decide to stop flying by the seat of my pants like I did last month (which resulted in an over 5 pound gain) and institute some extra structure this month while trying to take the gain back off.
I'm always trying to find the balance between a loosey-goosey approach vs. a completely OCD-style wickedly regimented structure. My happy place is somewhere between the two, but it is easy so slide off the goose and land in a pile of extra pounds.
Ok, I got back into this because my husband went back to working out of town, which means I only have to feed my son and makes it soooo much easier to stick to a plan. Then Thursday, day 5 of being really good, my husband calls to tell me that they over hired for the job and cut him loose. Major stress!! And on top of it, Friday morning the dear man went to get me Starbucks & doughnuts for breakfast, then got fajitas for dinner.
Anyone getting the picture of why I struggle? But!!! I did NOT eat the doughnuts, logged my food yesterday even with the cheats (and only ended up about 200 calories over).
And today I returned to the plan, with full knowledge this will be twice as hard with my enabler around.
Jelder -- my husband loves to bring me gifts of food, also, it is tricky! So hard to say no to, right? I have steered him towards picking me out fancy veggies and interesting looking olives, pickled asparagus, stuff like that.
Today's good decision: biking despite the brutal heat.
After ALL week working out, Friday I made Italian Pasta w/onions
