i've probably lost all my karma since i'm such a bad plurker when i'm busy! should go check.
gotta make other plans for dinner since we were having mock-alfredo using blended cottage cheese http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Easy-Ch...II/Detail.aspxand i just went out in the living room and the girls ate the entire carton! think they were hungry...
gotta make other plans for dinner since we were having mock-alfredo using blended cottage cheese http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Easy-Ch...II/Detail.aspxand i just went out in the living room and the girls ate the entire carton! think they were hungry...
LOL. DD hasn't been eating her meals very well today. Forty five minutes after breakfast though she was begging for more food. Same thing with lunch and then snack time. Hello! Eat your meals and you wouldn't have been hungry so soon. And it isn't like I just put food in front of them. They picked out what they wanted and she still wouldn't eat it. I have got to get them back on a meal schedule. I am so sick of the constant snacking all day.
Bfast is a HUGE battle around here. Every morning you'd think I'm torturing them. Then 2 hours later when we are leaving the gym they are crabby because of hunger!
First let me explain my yard configuration. At the street there is a steep bank leading down to our "yard". Part of the yard, I have planted a nice lawn. In winter, (and much of the rest the year in Oregon) when it rains, this causes flooding in the yard, ripping out my lawn. Year by year, I have dug and placed drainage pipe along the driveway edge of the front yard, then placed river rock (from other areas of the yard) over it for both decorative and drainage effect. So, in the picture(s) you'll see how far I have come, today finishing up to the open area, tomorrow, on to the last leg of the journey. I had my nephew helping dig the trench and my daughter digging up rocks that I would collect in buckets and bring to my site (in the tractor-trailer). Quite laborious, but this is my art work, so I really don't mind. (The blurry spot is a water spot, the sprinkler hit me while I was photographing ) And that's the vegetable garden in the back of the second pic.
Thanks to Rhonda and Zinke for the oat recipe and to Nori for the Chicken Alfredo recipe.
Vixjean, it did seem like you were being left out of the loop a lot. And I admire your staying "clean". Thank goodness you have your sweetie nearby. Sorry I couldn't be closer, you seem like such a dear one yourself!. Hang in there.
Tawny - There were times I wanted to leave, to be sure. After a lot of tears and trials, when we moved here, I found a PTSD women's group that really helped me a lot. Like you say, unless someone has been where you are, they just don't quite get it. Don't give up if you love him, unless of course he gets violent. He definitely needs to be loved, and of course so do you. The ideal thing would be to see a therapist together. Perhaps, as you gain more confidence (since you're looking so hot!) and he sees you are going on with your life whether he comes along or not, he may find he would rather join you than have you grow away from him. Doesn't always work this way, but it can. I must restress, take care of yourself first. And feel free to pm me anytime you need to.
Dora-yeah, well, now he's hallucinating. It's so frustrating and irritating. I was on here last night again because I couldn't sleep-AGAIN and now he's saying he saw me looking at some guys profile that was animated on yahoo. He said the guys was bald with on earring. WTF?! Nowhere, nohow was I looking at an animated guy on yahoo. He has lost it!!! He said he stood by the door watching me and that's what he saw---that's the biggest BS because how was I looking at some guy when I was on here, looking at my cake website, and IMing my niece and cousin?! I never once complained about him when he can't sleep and he's online either looking at truck stuff or looking at porn. His response to that is that he has issues. My response, this is my issue---I can't sleep!!! I told him I swear on our childrens lives, I was not looking at some guys profile. He didn't wanna talk!!! He doesn't adjust to change very well, I have figured. I used to hold myself back because of him and how he feels but I do have to move on. I don't wanna be 70-80 years old looking back and thinking, "man, I should've done that" or "why didn't I do that, I could've done it." I have my life and I can't stop everything that makes me happy and content because of his problem. I will grow up to be very sad. I have come to realize that he can come along and be happy with me or for me or whatever but I am not holding back anymore, he's just gonna have to learn that I have my life too. I am the one who is stuck at home with 4 kids, 2 dogs, the house, the bills, the errands, and doctors visits. All the while, he just works, comes home and drinks and goes to bed. I'm not holding myself back anymore, I need to be happy whether he likes it or not. When I go to the gym or do my hair (even at home) or do my makeup (even if I"m not going anywhere), this is all for me, my time, my sanity, and my self esteem. I can't be locked up in a house all the time without feeling good about myself and being happy and content. Aaaahhhhh. I hate his PTSD!!!! I can't stand it. But whatever I guess. He's all huffy-puffy over nothing.
Ok, enough about my rant. How is everyones day? I'm confused on the plurk thing.
Oh it's going to be one of those days. Slow at work. Nothing much else going on. I did get the Transfirmer set from Dicks sporting goods to give me some variety to my exercise routine. It also comes with 3 DVDs. I'm going to try the first one today and see if it's good or bad. I believe each routine is an hour long.
Dora, garden envy here!!! It looks so beautiful.
Tawnya, and yes you deserve to take care of yourself. Follow your dream and desires. As for plurk, after you sign in copy the weblink and paste it here in 3FC. Then we'll add you to our friends list. You should get an Alert saying "so and so wants to add you as a friend" accept it and then you'll be plurking with us. The white space at the bottom is where you type and hit the plurk button once you've typed. It's timeline based. Once you sign in and have us there you'll see what I'm talking about. It took us all getting used to in the beginning. You can respond to other people's plurks so kind of like instant chat but better via plurking.
Vix, same to you too. Sign up and then post the link from the browser here.
Well, the changes seem to be paying off. yesterday's weight was obviously artificially low from the pukefest, but today's is probably the result of super low cals and adding the Pilates. I hope to post a nice loss this week.
) And that's the vegetable garden in the back of the second pic. 
. Hang in there.
morning chicas 
