Yearning for… MYSELF.

Cause I’m not sure who this fat chick is!

Eek! November 27, 2011

Filed under: November — jewlz280 @ 10:49 pm

Just realized I haven’t been putting down my ‘official’ weigh-ins.  So, I put the number on the dates posted that were the closest on my home calendar.  As of right now, no loss for this month.  🙁  But, my last weigh in for this stretch is actually next Sunday.  So… we will see.  Maybe I will do REALLY well this week and have some sort of loss for the week.  As of right now, not doing great.  🙁  Too many sweets and leftovers in the house!  :O  We cleared out most of it by now since I didn’t cook a ton and we sent home some with fam.  Right now, there are some cookies (which I don’t crave, really), one slice of cake, some pie, and some odds and ends side dishes.  Most of which are going to be hitting the trash tomorrow!  Hubby said he was going to take some to work.  Whatever he doesn’t take, I am probably going to throw out.  I will probably use whatever is left of the turkey and corn to make turkey soup.  I was going to do pot pie, but I don’t think there is enough of the turkey left to do a pot pie!  I got a small bird — only about 13.5lbs.  And a good chunk of that was eaten the day of.  We ate the legs tonight.  So… maybe some thigh meat and wing meat.  Maybe only a small pot of soup at that!  :O

My point in all of this rambling is that I plan on being on track really well tomorrow.  Not that I did horrid, but not as good as I could do.  Like today was probably a half day of good.  So, back at it tomorrow.  I see lots of salad in my future!  I also need to go to the store and restock my fruit — I am OUT.  I have a few canned things, but that is it.  I plan on going either tomorrow or Tuesday.  Tomorrow I hope to do a smoothie for snack… gotta make myself do it!  I am SO out of routine right now!  LOL  But I can do it.  I really want to see 18? on Sunday.  I can do it if I just get back in my groove.

Well, I won’t go on and on tonight… I don’t know why I’ve not been very ‘talkative’ lately.  Maybe I will get ‘unblocked’ soon.  Have a great week!


Almost there… November 22, 2011

Filed under: November — jewlz280 @ 12:09 pm

My weight this AM was 190 flat.  OH, you TEASE!!!  I wish I could’ve just seen 189.5!  But Lordy, I am THANKFUL to see 190!  LOL  I guess that means my eating hasn’t been as horrid as I had thought.  I try to be really conscious of eating mostly veggies at meals and then protein.  I really try to leave carbs as the ‘last minute filler’.  Not that I wait and eat them until the very end or anything, I just try not to eat them first.  I try to eat just a few bites of the carby stuff and fill up by eating the other stuff then if I am still hungry after I have finished the other two, I may finish it.  I guess this idea is working for me!  WOOT!  I’m also doing better about water the last few days.  My water bottle was nasty (ok, not nasty but if felt nasty from where I’d been sick!) so I had wanted to run it through the dishwasher.  It being a rather odd shaped bottle, I hadn’t fit it in until the other day and got it nice and disinfected.  LOL  I then took it out and scrubbed it really good with a bottle brush, hot water and soap, just to be sure.  So, now I’m back in business!  I just don’t do well drinking water out of a glass.  I always seem to think I’ve had enough when in reality, I’m short!  Not doing so hot on the vitamins.  It goes in phases for me.

I’ve been thinking a lot on the exercise thing and really trying to figure out WHY I am not working out.  Yes,  a large part is that youngest doesn’t really give me any time at all, but I really need to be finding the time.  I am starting to think that I am going to have to do it at a time I really don’t like and just get over it.  I just don’t want to do anything too intensive.  Just some walking and toning.  I love the Pilates and I KNOW if I would just start I would love it.  Once you get into the groove with it and really start seeing the changes, you want to keep going.  And since it’s not going to get my heart rate up crazy high, I can do it at night even right before bed.  Doing that with some deep stretching would do me a world of good!  As for the cardio part… well… I’m pretty active with walking and stuff, but I’d like to try to add in a bit more.  Nothing crazy.  Just maybe an hour or so a week.  Now, I know that doesn’t sound like much, but I don’t really believe in the whole working out until you puke thing.  If you want a plan to backfire for me, that’s the way to do it.  I have no issues being active.  I love to work on the house, run around with my kids, garden and all that jazz and really believe that just MOVING is really what we need more of.  I mean, my 99 year old Granny never did formal workouts.  But she was always on the go.  So for me, it’s about the food and I am thinking I am doing better than I thought.

I WAS worried there for a bit.  I do seem to have a pattern, though, and that makes me feel somewhat better.  Patterns really help me feel… calm.  Like routine.  So, when I saw the pattern of losing and then holding and then losing again, well, it feels good.  The holding time is different but usually tends to be around the same time of the month, if ya know what I mean.  Tracking over all of this time has really been good and really helped me to see what my body does.  And it’s helping me to not freak out.  I know my loss is slow… and I know this isn’t for everyone, but it sure is what I need at this point in my life.  I do still get disappointed at times.  I mean, I would LOVE to see huge amounts of loss at times.  But then I think, do I really want to deprive myself and hate this?  No.  For once, I’m going to attempt to enjoy the journey as much as the destination.  😀

Well, not going to stay on here and keep going on and on.  I need to finish up some housework and then get oldest and run an errand.  That errand being buying my first stand mixer.  I am going to get one that I am unsure of and give it a whirl — it being the BHG or Better Homes & Gardens brand.  Had pretty good reviews!  So, want to try it out and see if I like it.  The one I REALLY wanted which is the Kenmore Elite is on backorder.  🙁  It’s basically a Kitchen Aid since the same company makes both.  I’d love a Breville, but honestly, I don’t do a ton of cooking so I don’t feel right spending that kind of money on a mixer.  Then last night, I stumbled upon a Bosch Compact and a Kenwood Chef.  I REALLY liked the Kenwood!  It also has a blender, food processor, and juicer!  That would get rid of a few different gadgets for me!  But I’m not sure if I really want something that fancy and I never could find a price.  So, I think starting out with something like the BHG will be good for me.  I just don’t know if I would end up using all the gadgets and if it would end up being more work to use it than what I already currently own!  Truth is, I don’t own anything but a blender and a hand mixer.  I don’t have a juicer or food processor now.  I generally just hand chop everything and never use a juicer.  And realistically, I don’t know that I would use them even if I had them.  LOL  So, starting out basic seems to be the way to go for me.

Ok, ok… enough rambling!  Going to get off of here and get to it.  Think I will start the dishwasher and do the dusting first.  Then get dressed and head out.  I’m surprised I’ve had time to write this!  LOL


Late November 21, 2011

Filed under: November — jewlz280 @ 1:00 am

I know, I know.  It’s late.  But I decided to go ahead and post my blog tonight because… well… I’m afraid if I don’t, I will forget and not post any this week!  I just posted a short blog that I somehow forgot to post the other day.  The other thing I forgot?  I’ve not been posting my food!  :O  I know, I’m BAD!  But I just haven’t felt good or had time.  Yesterday was NO GOOD.  We were all just big sloths.  Basically ALL of us spent the day napping and watching TV.  We all just felt horribly tired.  We didn’t feel sick or anything… just TIRED.  Oh, and I got my period early, too, and I’ve felt TERRIBLE.  I woke up in SO much pain the first day I just felt like dying.  I kept taking Ibuprofen until it let up.  I think I took 4.  That would be 800mg!  That’s basically prescription strength!  It kept up like that for two days, so the weekend was no fun for me.  I finally got up off of the couch and did pick up a bit and ran the dishwasher, but that is about it.

Today has been MUCH better!  I haven’t done a ton, but I HAVE gotten my dinner list together and pretty much decided on food.  The only thing I am going on about it whether or not I should make the dried apple stack cake.  I had originally thought, no.  But now I am thinking maybe…  The hubb’s family sorta wants one, but dang if it isn’t a ton of work to make them and I don’t really want to make it for them!  I know that is horrid of me and I should just suck it up, but they annoy me.  UGH.  I need to decide tomorrow what I am going to do.  Apple stack cakes need to sit for at least two days to be truly good.  So, I would need to make it Tuesday in the AM.  There are so many layers (I do between 7 and 9) to make and layer plus the filling.  UGH.  Then it needs to sit so that the cake absorbs some of the juices from the apples.  I should make one just so they will get that I DO know how to cook.  They act like I am incapable of doing anything!  Drives me BONKERS.  Aargh!

This week, like many people’s, is going to be VERY busy.  Since we’re going to be at his fam’s house on Thursday, we’re doing my fam’s here on Friday and decorating for Christmas.  I HOPE it will be fun.  Anyways, so I will need to do the majority of my cooking on Wednesday.  Mostly the dressing and the desserts.  That way Friday, the only thing in the oven will be the turkey and then whatever food needs to be re-warmed.  We’re not doing a HUGE meal this year, so it should be good.  I just need to decide on desserts… pumpkin pie and apple stack cake?  Or pound cake?  Or chocolate pie?  I just don’t know what to do…  UGH.  Tradition hasn’t happened in a while… but my Granny always did pumpkin pie and something else.  I like the idea of pound cake because it’s different… but my Mom wants chocolate cake… AARGH!  I don’t know what to make…  I think I may do the chocolate cake.  Everyone likes chocolate cake.  And I can make pound cake anytime.  Maybe I WILL make the apple stack cake for the in-laws…

GAH!  Just realized it is now 12 and I need to be getting to bed!  6AM comes EARLY and I’ve done NO prep for the AM!  :O  Not sure when I will write again… I hope to tomorrow but I guess we will see.  If not, Happy Thanksgiving to all you wonderful ladies out there!


Today November 20, 2011

Filed under: November — jewlz280 @ 11:42 pm

I decided to say screw it this AM and go ahead and weigh.  I was pleasantly surprised to see 193.5.  After the messy salt mess up called dinner last night, I am QUITE happy with the 193.5!  I don’t know what I did wrong last night, but somehow, my poor chicken dish got WAY oversalted.  Did I mention that in last night’s post?  I don’t think I did…. but it did.  I am going to try to doctor it up today and thin out the salt.  Mostly plan on putting it in a pan with the rest of the enchilada sauce and adding in some veggies.  Or I may do that tomorrow.  Not sure.  But I hate to waste it.  Either way, I’m a tiny bit swollen this AM, but nothing too severe so I’m darn happy with that number.  I honestly expected to be back over 195.  It’s not under 190, which is where I would like to be, but it’s not up a ton so I’ll take what I can get.  Especially when I should start my cycle any time now.  I am hoping it is on time this time and not early!

I’m feeling somewhat tired today.  I know I didn’t get enough sleep last night, but my head also feels tender.  I think my sinus cavities are blocked up again.  Which means here shortly, I should go ahead and take some more meds.  I had hoped that I was over the worst now and wouldn’t have to take any more, but I see that hope is WRONG.  LOL  At least I’m not coughing and sneezing my head off anymore.  I just feel tired and stuffy.  Of course, I did a ton yesterday and probably should do more today, but I just don’t feel like it.  I feel like having a lazy day!  I don’t think I’ve had a truly lazy day in a long time and I would really like to cash mine in today.  I don’t know if I will be able to, but I do know that I am going to try!  LOL  Hopefully I can find something to eat to satisfy myself and stay on plan, too.  I think that I feel outta whack just due to TOM coming.  UGH.  Tired, hungry and antsy!


Not on it November 17, 2011

Filed under: November — jewlz280 @ 12:16 am

Well, today is Wednesday and I’ve not been on plan.  Well, not true.  I’ve been somewhat on, but not 100%.  I’m not sure why other than I’ve been busy AND now sick.  Yesterday was rough — I felt horrible!  I haven’t weighed and I don’t know that will for a bit.  TOM is coming and I know that I’m going to be bloated on top of not doing well diet wise.  It’s not that I am going hog wild — I’m not.  I did fine all day today until dinner and dessert.  And even though neither were totally over the top, I’m afraid that it’s enough to keep me from losing even if I have been very active except for yesterday.  I am still not 100% feeling well today, but MUCH better than yesterday.  Yesterday I could hardly move or I felt like I would faint from so much pressure in my head.  I did a LOT of housework today and got caught up after being down yesterday.  Thankfully I had cleaned really well from before, so it’s not like it was really bad.  The worst thing is the dusting.  I STILL have not dusted!  It’s at the top of my ‘To Do’ list for tomorrow.  FUN.  I need to get over it and start making that the first thing I do so that I will do the worst and get it over.

Everything else is going well and that’s why I’m so surprised at my lack of ability to stay on plan.  The house is moving right along and I was able to do a LOT of caulking over the time the hubby was off.  He was sick at that time and didn’t feel like doing much, so I was able to work.  I also got a lot of the kids clothes (and mine) sorted, labeled, and ready to go in the attic.  I need to finish up the last few boxes and that way they can all go.  I may have some of them sold.  That would be nice!  I need to list the other things and just get them out of the house.  Plus, the extra money now would be wonderful.  lol  But otherwise, we’ve gotten a lot of progress done and we are feeling much more relieved.  I think the big thing has been knowing that we’ve hired someone to come in and do some of the things that we just don’t feel confident in doing.  That, and we’re at the point where we’re just tired.  So, having it done is just one of those things we no longer have to worry over.  We have a budget in mind of what we want to spend, and I’m not willing to go over $1600.  That’s about 80hrs. worth of work.  I hope he is able to do a lot during that time! And if he does a good job, hopefully he can come back in the Spring and do the cabinetry in the kitchen.  I did our last house, but I just don’t think I can do it here.  I may give it a try, but we will see.

Overall, I have NO reason not to be doing this and making progress.  I just haven’t.  I haven’t been awful, but I’ve not been good enough to loose I’m sure.  UGH.  I need to stick to it tomorrow and for the rest of this week.  Heck, until Thanksgiving!  I want to try to stay on plan through the weekend since I haven’t started this weekend out all that great.  I am going to try to be decent at Thanksgiving.  I don’t think it will be too hard other than desserts.  And even that I don’t think will be a huge issue because we are only going to one family dinner at my hubby’s family and I am not bringing back leftovers!  Then the following day will be with my family and I am the one cooking, so I know what I will be putting in my mouth and what’s in it!  LOL  I just need to quit being a ninny now and eat the way I know I should eat.  I need to quit being a lazy ass and workout, too!  I wish I had more motivation to do it.  UGH.

Well, it is now after 11 and I need to get going.  I need to get all the AM stuff done before I head to bed.  The hubby went to bed about half an hour ago and the bed should be warm!  I may post my food again over the next week just to help me get back on track.  Here is what I had today:

Breakfast:  1 1/2 chocolate chip pancakes with butter spray and SF syrup; coffee with heavy cream and sweetener

Snack:  Fiber One 90 cal bar (chocolate and PB), 1/2 banana; coffee and water

Lunch:  220 mac-n-cheese pack, Gala apple; water

Dinner:  Shredded enchilada chicken over multi-grain chips with sour cream and salsa, refried black beans and cheese; diet Mello Yello and water

Dessert:  NSA vanilla ice cream and crushed Oreos; water

Reading it doesn’t look that bad… maybe I did ok?  I think the worst with dinner was that it was probably too much of each thing all together.  I should’ve said no to the cheese!  LOL  And you know, I think I am going to try making my own refried beans.  These are SOOO good but VERY high in cals from where they add so much oil!  If I made them myself, I wouldn’t need to add the oil.  I think I would just add some chicken or beef stock.  Not to mention this brand is rather expensive.  I can easily get the bagged ones and make them!  LOL  Or even just plain canned.  Anything would be better than this pricey stuff.

Anyways, that is all for today and I am now going to head on.  Later chicks.


Same November 13, 2011

Filed under: November — jewlz280 @ 10:56 am

191.5 this AM.  I must admit, I’m a bit disappointed by that, but I am not totally surprised.  I was SO hungry yesterday all day.  Don’t you love freakin’ PMS?  Pain in my ASS!  At least I tried to eat healthy stuff.  I was SO hungry after dinner (which was a HUGE spinach salad with chicken).  I kept putting it off thinking it would go away but it got worse and worse until my stomach started cramping.  I was craving all kinds of bad stuff like chips and dip and sweets.  So, I ate some pretzels and fresh cheese and grapes.  Even if I didn’t lose this AM, at least I maintained with that.  I was like that ALL day yesterday.  I just felt starved.  It’s the main reason why PMS drives me nuts — I bloat and feel like a ravenous BEAR!  I was bloated up a couple of days ago, but I think that may have been salt.  I think my soup was saltier than I thought.  It didn’t TASTE salty, but apparently it was or I wouldn’t have been so swollen.  But other than that one day, my numbers have remained the same.  I hope to break 190 not this Sunday, but the Sunday after.  I am thinking that this week with the start of my cycle coming I will go up and stay there until it is over.  Then hopefully it will go back down plus a bit more.  At the end of the month, I’d really like to see a 4lb. loss, but I don’t know if I will.  I will try to be happy with 3!  But I am going to shoot for 4!  I just wish I had lost more this week.  I probably ate too much candy and salt!  LOL

I have somewhat of a cold today.  My head isn’t stuffy, but my throat feels… clogged?  I don’t know how to explain it.  I’m not even really coughing or anything, it’s just like my vocal chords are irritated and my voice sounds raspy.  Dealing with the kids has been FUN.  Not that they’ve been all that bad, just that my voice sounds strange and I think my oldest thinks it’s funny.  LOL  He hasn’t been mean about it, but he looks at me weird when I try to talk to him.  Younger just seems to feel sad for his sick ol’ Momma.  I don’t really feel sick….  I did SO much work yesterday!  I didn’t do dusting (can you tell I HATE it by the fact I keep putting it off?), but I didn’t finish sorting and purging toys downstairs, picked up, more laundry, more dishes, and etc.   I also got the upstairs floors done.  All that is left to do today is to dust upstairs and then dust and vacuum downstairs!  😀 😀 😀  I was SO productive!  And if the weather cooperates today, I am going to do some work outside, cold or not.  I need to finish caulking the front door and then all the stuff on the back.  If the weather is nice tomorrow, I will probably spend the day painting the back of the house.  I don’t think I will finish all the paint on this house, but at least the siding is up and all the windows.  If I can get the caulk up and then a good coat of paint on the back and maybe a few repairs to the concrete, I will be REALLY happy with that.  One coat of paint isn’t optimal, but better than nada.  I guess I will have to wait to finish all the paint in Spring.  I am hoping that we will make some more friends by then and maybe be able to trade out babysitting so I can get it done.  Especially since the good majority of the inside of the house should be done by Christmas.  In case you missed it, we decided to cop out and hire someone to finish up the work in some rooms.  Things that we just aren’t that great at like finishing drywall and hanging the doors.  Plus some woodwork.  I think dude will be here 2 weeks, but I could be wrong.  We hope to keep it to 2.  Every room should be done but the paint on the cabinets in the kitchen plus details and the downstairs bathroom.  We know what we want done in the kitchen, it’s just not a good time of year to do it.  All of them need to be disassembled, cleaned, and sprayed.  That needs to be done in good weather.  Not to mention, there are too many holidays and things to not have my kitchen!  LOL

So, that will be it.  OH, and the garage!  But we’ve been working on that bit by bit already.  It just needs the ceiling tiles (no other ceiling will work), fresh paint, and some other tweaks.  We will get to that soon.  That is where we hope to have our workout room.  We already have a storage area there and laundry.  I just hope to make some tweaks to make it more comfortable.  That way I have a designated workout area.  That’s one reason I don’t like to workout downstairs… my treadmill is shoved in a corner of the guestroom.  Along with a ton of other stuff.  Not to mention the garage is where the weight bench and other stuff is.  So, it will be nice to have a little workout area.  But if something were to happen, we COULD still use it as a garage.  Which is also good in case we ever decide to sell… which we probably will.  I still wish we could buy a steel garage or add a garage.  But right now we are looking into a steel carport.  Just something to protect our cars in storms and keep snow off when we do get snow.  Hopefully we can do that if nothing else.  I’d love to do a built on one, but the cost won’t work.  So, we will see.  Right now, I’d just be happy to have the garage so I could have a nice place to workout instead of a corner!  LOL

Crap.  I’ve lost my train of thought now!  I hate that.  I got distracted like a squirrel and can’t seem to get back on track.  BLEH.  OH WELL!  Guess I should be getting off of here for now anyways.  I need to get some food in me and get to work on a few other things while it warms up for us to do outside work.  UGH.  Oldest has a b-day party RIGHT when I need to be outside working.  I’m not sure how we’re going to swing this now.  Grrrr!!!


TGIF? Bleh! November 11, 2011

Filed under: November — jewlz280 @ 12:44 pm

So, I’m feeling somewhat BLEH today.  My weight is 193.  That’s not why I’m bleh.  I feel bloaty today and tired.  I feel BLEH because youngest was up during the middle of the night working my nerves!  He got up at 3 and it was darn near 6 before I could get him back to sleep.  I got to lay back down for maybe 30mins. and then I had to get up and get oldest off to school.  Then the bus ran early.  Thankfully I had felt like it would and we had gone out the door with his food in hand!  Sure enough, we had JUST crossed the road and he’d crammed in two more bites and BAM!  There she was.  I was like, REALLY?  I’m just glad he didn’t miss it!  Honestly, I’m surprised that we’ve been pretty good about getting up and getting rolling in the AM for him to ride the bus.  I’m afraid I’m going to have to start getting up a bit earlier, though, because I’ve been having a hard time getting out of bed.  I am just SO tired the last few days!  If I didn’t know better, I’d say I was preggo!  But I know it’s just that we have run to death over the last week and now I’m behind and worn down.  And then every day I’ve had stuff to do and today is no different.  I need to do a load of dishes, laundry that I never got to the other day, vacuum and mop and even dust if I can.  I forgot to dust last night.  I just ran out of steam and got ditzy!  What I DID do was my coups and cleaned out the fridge.  Not to mention got all the counters cleaned off and hey, I have a SINK!  LOL  Yeah, we’d been in and out so much the dishes had piled up EVERYWHERE!  That’s not like me at all, but I just hadn’t had the time.  I need to finish getting caught up this weekend or going into next week will be AWFUL.

Oh, and I’m not worried about my weight.  I did well yesterday and the only thing I had that was high cal was the PB cups.  I had two at snack time.  I believe that’s like nearly 300 cals.  But dinner was fairly light.  I had a beef frank and a big bowl of veggie soup.  I made my usual garbage soup, but I added a can of white navy beans.  YUM.  I guess that’s why I only ate one beef frank — enough protein from the beans!  LOL  I think if I eat it today, I will just eat it alone — doesn’t need anything else!  But I know my cals were good since the majority of the soup is celery and cabbage.  Well, and water.  It makes a HUGE pot so I know the beans didn’t add too terribly much.  I think it’s 100 cals per 1/2 c.  And I think there were 2 or 3 servings in one can.  That means about 300 cals for the whole batch.  Even if I ate one whole serving, that would be 100 cals but I know I didn’t.  That pot still looks pretty full!  LOL  I added it all up one time and it came out to be more than 8 servings, but at 8 servings it was only a little over 100 each.  So, not too bad!  And I LOVE soup, so I may freeze up a few batches.  I know I will probably eat some at lunch and the hubby may want to take some, but the rest I think I will freeze.  That way it isn’t wasted and I can have that as a quick lunch or dinner.  I am also thinking of freezing up some casseroles.  I just don’t know which ones!  LOL  I can buy a pretty healthy version of lasagna from Stouffer’s, but others I haven’t seen.  So, I am thinking of buying some of those aluminum pans in small and medium and making up some.  Just not sure which ones to make…. Shepard’s pie is quick and easy to make fresh so that is out.  But I need to figure out at least two.  Guess I will work on that here in a minute.  If I go to the store, I can go ahead and get what I need!

Anyways, I think I am all bloaty feeling since my cycle should start in about a week, lack of sleep, and some Halloween treats.  Which are going bye bye today when hubby leaves.  He was going to take it yesterday but didn’t.  Our oldest has gotten into trouble for the last couple of days after eating it and part of his punishment is no more candy.  It’s partially my fault.  I let him have cookies after school and then a couple of pieces of candy.  I may keep some for him, but the rest needs to go.  And I can tell you, and I will make it clear to him, he can still have candy and cookies, but not every day and not in the same afternoon.  We had been doing that, but I was off my game yesterday.  But that is not going to happen today.  We are both going to be better and I am going to get in a lot of water and flush myself out!  Plus, I hope I can go to the store here in a while and restock on our fresh stuff.  Once I do that and get in some water and rest, I think I will be good!  Well, except my craving day.  I hope that it hits early next week and I can just get it over with!

Well, this is going to be all for now.  I need to get going on those casseroles.  If you ladies have any ideas for healthy, easy, low cal casseroles feel free to pass them on!  😀


Insert title here… November 10, 2011

Filed under: November — jewlz280 @ 10:16 am

Sooo…. I’m bad and didn’t weigh this AM.  Not that I expected a huge change or anything.  But I will weigh tomorrow.  I just got up this morning and was too groggy to even think about weighing.  I DID have quite a few pieces of Halloween candy yesterday, but at my snacktimes.  Not sure if it will be a good or a bad thing.  LOL  I have tried not to eat more than a couple of pieces now and then, but I was so tired yesterday I just felt hungry all day.  I tried to fill up on other things, but the truth is we are out of so much!  I REALLY need to go get groceries!  But today I have to do more than that… I have to clean out the fridge and catch up on housework.  The house is WRECKED.  And the fridge just feels cramped.  So, I am going to do all that today and may try to go to the store later.  I thought about going as I go to pick up oldest, but I’m not sure how younger would take to it.  You see, he has a virus.  Luckily he doesn’t seem to feel too bad, he just has a rash all over his body.  I ended up taking him to the Dr. yesterday as a precaution.  Older is coughing and has a stuffy nose, but nothing else.  So, they said it was just a virus and to let it run it’s course.  Duh.  LOL  I’m just glad it wasn’t a food allergy like we originally thought!

Nothing much went on yesterday and nothing much but the cleaning and maybe groceries later, so I guess this won’t be a super long post like normal.  I just don’t have much to talk about!  Emotionally, I’m feeling good at the moment so nothing in that area, either.  LOL  So, hope you ladies are having a great week and I will check in tomorrow.  🙂


Where to start? November 9, 2011

Filed under: November — jewlz280 @ 11:23 am

I guess at the most important as far as this blog is concerned.  My weight is still 191.5 this AM and that alone is a MIRACLE.  We drove over 4hrs. to go get a car, were there for 2 or 3hrs., and then drove back.  We didn’t eat great, either.  Not even close!  Although, I guess my breakfast was small and my dinner was good.  Nothing else really was!  LOL  I totally expected to see a gain this AM.  So, imagine my shock.  And it was shock!  But happy at the same time.  I tried and well, I guess for yesterday that was enough.

We did NOT buy the car btw.  It was damaged and they didn’t disclose it before we got there.  AND, they gave us crap on our trade-in saying that due to a chip in the windshield (that we were told by two glass companies was too tiny to fix) and some hail damage (that we disclosed to them over the phone), they would only give us $1800.  No, there is not a zero missing!  THEN, when they finally let us look over their car, when we pointed out the same issues they tried to say that since their car was newer it didn’t affect it the same.  I called BS and said that because it was a newer car AND a less popular one, it would cost us twice as much to have those issues repaired.  An example is our vehicle’s windshield would be about $200.  The new ones would be around $500!  AND their crack was through the glass AND in the line of site.  At that point he said his manager was pulling the deal.  We said what deal?  We never made a definite deal.  There was an offer, but no deal???  And then we proceeded to tell him we understood why he was pulling the offer — because he knew at this point that we weren’t suckers and just going to take the car in the shape it was.  And yes, we said that.  I also said, you know, just because we drove all this way doesn’t mean we are required to buy one.  And if you thought you were going to sucker us because of that, you are sadly mistaken.  Hopefully no other sucker comes in here and pays that price for a car that is worth thousands less.

So, we got home late and today we are all run down.  My oldest is tired and cranky (I think it’s more just wanting to be here with us), youngest has some weird rash, and well we are tired.  But we have decided to just do a few things here, return some phone calls, and check on having our truck looked over.  I think we are just going to keep it for a while longer and wait until the perfect car comes along.  I refuse to settle or to get something just cause it’s a good deal.  So, we need to get our truck up and running as best we can.  Might as well put in a bit of money and be happy with it while we have it.  And then when we go to trade it in the future, hopefully they will still give us a decent price.  But that $1800 was a JOKE.  All the other dealerships we had stopped into had offered $4000.  I understand that it is like, 9yrs. old, but dude, it’s got super low mileage and in decent shape other than the few issues that we have taken care of and then a few that we are going to take care of now.  None of which have turned out to be major.  We are going to take it to a place locally to go over it with a fine tooth comb just to be safe.  Then we plan on doing a few cosmetic things just to make me happier while we still have it.  It would probably help on trade in the future, too.  Just a dent place to pop out some of the hail damage (if they can for a reasonable price), and it needs a really good deep detailing, plus I bought this stuff to ‘restore’ the black trim to dark black… it’s starting to lighten which is normal for this trim and age.  It already has new tires and we tinted the front windows.  And, we cleaned it pretty darn well before the trip on the inside.  I think if they can pop out some of the dents from the hail and give it a good buff and wax, I think I can be happy with it for a while.  Especially if mechanically speaking it ends up being ok.

So, it’s just pure craziness around here.  I’m trying on my food and trying to stay busy but I’m starting to feel fried and like I just need a day to be still.  I may try to do that tomorrow.  I would love to today, but I just don’t see it happening.  UGH.  OK, going to get off of here and stop whining.  I need to drink more coffee, get youngest a bath, and see where the day goes.  Hope you chicks out there are being successful.  🙂


Another day… November 7, 2011

Filed under: November — jewlz280 @ 3:20 pm

So, it’s another day and we’re here at home taking it somewhat light and easy.  I am thinking about going out to do a few errands today, but nothing crazy.  Just a few returns and maybe get a few things at Wally.  I probably should run to the grocery store, but that will have to wait until later after nap time.  I only have about 2hrs. til school pick-up.  I wanted to do this first, then get going.  Crap.  Just realized I need to do my bills and go over the budget for the next few months.  *sigh*  I think I will do that during naptime.  Not super happy about my card balance this month.  It’s a couple hundred higher than I thought it would be.  I mis-calculated due to returns and stuff.  I’ll get it sorted out!  But then again, I did end up buying a lot of shoes lately.  I hadn’t really bought shoes in a couple of years and in the last couple of months I have been trying to get them back in shape.  I had been hating having to scrounge around every time I got dressed.  However, I am returning some of the stuff I bought.  A pair of leggings, a pair of boots, and then I am going to check a pair of boots at Target and if they are indeed the exact same pair I just bought but $20 cheaper, I WILL be returning one pair and getting the cheaper pair as long as they fit as comfy!

I did my weigh-in yesterday but it was super early and sorta forgot until hubby and I were talking.  My first number was 191 flat.  Then when I weighed a bit later, 192.5.  And by a bit later I mean just a few minutes.  So, not sure what that was about.  I am choosing to go with the 191.5 that I have seen most of the week.  This AM I was 192.  And considering I was a spaghetti eating monster at my MIL’s, well, I think that is good!  I had been craving a good spaghetti and hers is SO good.  It was also the perfect meal for that sort of day.  I just wish more of the family had come over.  It would’ve been nice to see more people considering we were there for the wake.  The wake went ok.  I just couldn’t stand it.  Death is hard for me.  I feel almost empathic because I feel like I feel everyone else’s sorrow and I know I can’t do anything about it.  SO many people came to the actual wake.  There had to have been between 100 to 200 people.  It was busy!  I hope that this somehow comforted their family to know how much Uncle D was loved.  He was such a nice man.  It was closed casket but somehow that is good in this situation.  That way everyone remembers him laughing and joking.  My Granny’s was open and that was what worked for our situation.  It is still hard for me to realize she is gone.  I miss her so much.  D will be missed that way.

One strange thing that happened is that Michael got to touch base with his cousin.  They grew up more like brothers but hadn’t seen each other in forever.  And when he got married, not one single person thought to tell us from the hubby’s side.  Like I said, they are a STRANGE bunch.  And honestly, I was ticked.  But oh well, it is what it is.  Anyways, got to meet the cousins wife and OMG did we look like twins!  I have never really met anyone in person that looked so much like me.  We were even dressed very much alike.  It was kinda trippy.  Even the cuz was sorta surprised!  Just a weird little tidbit.  However, she was covered in these gorgeous tats.  I have never had the guts to get them, but from what I could see, hers were quite beautiful.  Although, I didn’t want to stare.  I was afraid she’d think I was a perv!  LOL

OK, I am back home now.  Didn’t get to finish earlier because I got up to do one thing and well, I ended up leaving and now I’m back.  I returned the one set of boots and the leggings and bought another set of boots.  I like them MUCH better so I may be returning the other boots, too.  In the end, it will be about $55 cheaper.  Good trade!  😀  And better more practical boots.  Hopefully the hubby likes them, too.

Well, I better get going with my day.  Trying to get youngest to sleep, having a little snack, and then going to get to work on bills and some housework.  Fun fun!  Hopefully all will be pretty well in order by the time the hubby gets in.  I will have to catch up on blogs later or tomorrow.

P.S.  Still no new car and now something on the car is ‘slipping’.  UGH.  I hope we can go tomorrow to get a new one!


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