I want this weight off!

 …except Friday night. That Friday night feeling is AWESOME! That glorious feeling with the whole weekend stretched out ahead of us.

Not much to report today. SOS. This afternoon I have a workshop on Risk Management. How exciting will that be? Hopefully it will make the day go fast. Tonight I may do a little shopping if I feel like it, or I may save it for tomorrow. I can’t wait to get out in the cool, crisp air tomorrow and get my glorious walking in! Oh walking - how I have missed you! LOL. Missed the fresh air, the outside sounds, the breeze, the fresh air, the smell of the leaves, the clearing-my-head-time, the exercise!

Make it a wonderful weekend ladies!

Filed under: Uncategorized on November 6th, 2009 | 6 Comments »

My back is killing me today - not constant but a certain way I move it grabs me. I think I slept twisted the other night, thats what started it, then last night when I was helping that lady clean she decided she wanted to rearrange her bedroom furniture so we did that and it didn’t help my back any. I took 2 Advil, hopefully they will kick in soon. I ended up cleaning for 3 hours last night, not bad and easy money. I think I’m going to take the money and try to buy myself a black purse this weekend. I’ve been looking for one for a while now and haven’t been able to find any that I like. Even though I didn’t “officially” exercise last night, I got some in with the cleaning and it showed up as a 1.4 pound loss on the scale this morning. Yay! Gotta’ keep it moving in the right direction.

Some of the clothes that I had altered like a month ago are almost too loose to wear again. Now that I look back I wish I’d have just both new clothes instead of paying $200 to have them altered. Live and learn. One thing is that she didn’t take a couple of the things in far enough and another couple pounds lost on top of that and they aren’t fitting right again. Its too expensive to buy dressy clothes for work plus casual clothes for outside of work. Now that I went down a little in size it is a little bit easier to find stuff that will fit me in second hand stores to get me by until I can afford other good stuff. 40 pounds ago I couldn’t find anything to fit me in the thrift stores. Wonder why there are so many fat people walking around but no plus sized clothes in the thrift stores. Hmm… Hopefully soon I will be out of plus size. What is the cut off for plus? 14?

Yesterday I was kinda thinking about if I will ever find another man. LOL. I’ve been single for over 2 1/2 years (after being with the same man for 18 years) and haven’t been on one date since. I’m not that bad, I have a good job, I’m independant, which should hopefully be attractive to a guy, I’m a good housekeeper and a good cook, I don’t drink (only socially) or smoke, I’m 41 years old, not that old. (Who am I trying to convince here? LOL) I don’t want to be by myself for the rest of my life. I’d just like to find someone to date and not live with. Someone to just go do something with and then go back to my own house at the end of the night or if they get on my nerves. LOL. But then again, once you start dating someone then they are going to start expecting sex and all that business, which I’m not up for right now, so IDK. I’m kinda torn between being okay by myself and wanting a little companionship.

I need to get myself in gear with losing more weight so I can get someone half decent when the time comes. LOL. I mean, I don’t want someone that is fat and gross so why would someone want me fat and gross, you know? I’d like to find someone that is kinda into fitness and healthy eating so we can do this together, someone that I can learn from. Not someone who parks it on the couch with a remote, chips and ice cream. So, to attract the kind of man I’d like to have, I need to become the kind of woman that a man like that would want, right? I have my work cut out for me. LOL. I also need to get out of the house to meet people. I’m not going to meet anyone if I stay home all the time. I’m not a very social, outgoing person so that is a little weird for me.

Oh well, I guess I’ll just keep working on myself and hopefully, when the time is right, I will attract the right person. I’ve been feeling old lately, I guess thats what got me thinking about all of this stuff.

Looks like it will be a slow, easy day at work today and only one glorious day until FRIDAY! Yee haw!

Filed under: Uncategorized on November 5th, 2009 | 8 Comments »

Random post today. Not much to report. We had a nice covering of frost this morning but it is supposed to warm up to the 60s today.

I didn’t get to exercise last evening. DD and I went grocery shopping for a dinner she is cooking tonight for her BF for their 11 month anniversary. I guess 11 months is a pretty long time when you are 17 years old. LOL. Anyway, she is making spaghetti and meatballs, salad, garlic bread and strawberry cheesecake. So when we got home I taught her how to make good old Italian meatballs like my mom showed me years ago. I told her to make them a day ahead so they can soak up the sauce overnight and be really tasty today and then she made the cheescake. Cute for her. I’m helping an older lady friend of mine do some house cleaning tonight so they will have a nice little dinner to themselves. I’ll eat a quick Healthy Choice Steamer meal before I head out.

So, it looks like no “real” exercise again this evening because of the house cleaning. I guess I will get a little exercise from that though. I discovered these frozen Eggo waffles to have for a quick breakfast in the morning - they are lowfat, multigrain with extra fiber. They are only 70 calories each (or 1 Point for you WW people). Just one fills me up from the fiber, I guess. I try to eat a banana with it but I’m always too full.

I have another dumb but short class this morning - its only an hour and a half so it probably won’t be too bad except for the usual hogs getting on my nerves pigging out like theres no tomorrow on the refreshments. I will be sure not to touch them.

I had 8 spam comments this morning on this blog. WTH?! Anyone else getting them?

Make it a great day ladies!

Filed under: Uncategorized on November 4th, 2009 | 4 Comments »

I’m not liking the time change. By the time I get home from work at 5:30 it is almost dark outside. I definitely don’t like that I’m not able to do my outside walking in the evenings. I will have to save it for the weekends. Yesterday as soon as I walked out the door at work to go home my cell rang and it was a friend of mine wanting to know if I was going walking. Hello? By the time I get home and change it will be too dark and when I told her that she acted surprised. WTH? Can’t you do the math? Sometimes I let little things get on my nerves.

I finally tried hummus. I bought some with roasted red peppers in it because it looked the most appealing to me. It was pretty good. I don’t think it is something that I’d buy on a regular basis but I’d probably buy it every once in a while for something different.

I love the resistance tubes that I have been using. I think they will really be good to tone up my arms. If I keep at it all winter hopefully I will have tank top arms by spring. My daughter asked me for my Christmas list; I told her to get me a couple of exercise dvds so I can switch it up over the winter when I am stuck inside. An exercise ball would be good too. It is my goal to be able to wear shorts next summer. I haven’t worn shorts for about 5-6 years. Too much cellulite. I will only wear capris now. I have about 40 more pounds to get to my goal weight.

This morning I have a short informational class on student involvement and activities. I think it is about how to start student clubs, organizations, sororities and frats and so on. How exciting. Luckily it is a short class. Well, I’d better do some work.

Make it a great day, ladies!

Filed under: Uncategorized on November 3rd, 2009 | 4 Comments »

This mornings weight - 202.4

Damn. Needless to say I haven’t been sticking to the diet or exercising lately and it is showing on the scale big time. I don’t know what’s up. I feel like I’m digging myself into a little rut again. Last night I came up with a plan to start fresh in November and give myself a little challenge to get me jump started again. Here is my plan for November:

Stay within my daily Points
30 minutes cardio daily
50 crunches daily
15 minutes of resistance tubes daily
Try to get to 195 by the end of November

I made myself a check list to be sure that I stay on plan. Wish me luck!

I went to talk to an attorney Friday about getting divorced. She wants a $1500 retainer fee. Damn! It may as well be a million dollars because I can’t come up with $1500. I didn’t think it would be that much. She even said that my divorce was going to be easy so WTH. I may try to get a bank loan for it and then pay it off when I get the divorce settlement or I may just shop around for a cheaper attorney. ::sarcastic voice:: Good luck with that…

On Halloween I went with a group of friends to “Fear Forest”. It starts with a hay wagon ride through this big field and they take you back into these woods where there is a half mile haunted walking trail through the woods. I don’t like scary stuff AT ALL so I was scared shitless. LOL. It was great fun though. All along the trail the “actors” were popping out at you (there are little scenes from different horror movies all along the trail) and there were 2 mazes that were pitch black while things popped out at you and made creepy noises and they had an insane asylum, a castle, a creepy camper and school bus to go through and so on. All along the trail there are actors terrorizing you and a couple come at you with chainsaws and stuff. They really put alot of money into it and people love it. It was packed. While you are standing in line to keep you occupied they have creepy actors come up and terrorize you in line and on the hay ride and they have a movie screen playing horror movies. All the little kids were screaming and running around. It was fun. I had to keep reminding myself it wasn’t real and thank goodness that they aren’t allowed to touch you! They’d just run up to you and stop. LOL.

My daughter went to see Paranormal Activity with her BF and she is still scared from it when it is time to go to sleep. No way in hell would I watch it! I’m such a wuss.

I’d better get back to work now. I’ma try to catch up on blogs this afternoon. I hope everyone is doing better than I am with the weight loss.

Make it a great day, ladies!

Filed under: Uncategorized on November 2nd, 2009 | 10 Comments »

I’m back. I called in sick the past 2 days. I have a sinus infection and my period was flowing like a river with cramps and backache so I just stayed home. I’ve had a massive headache for 3 days from these sinuses. Joy…

I haven’t exercised for 2 days aside from doing the resistance tubes for my arms. I’ve just felt like laying around but the more I lay about the more I feel like shit. I’ll be glad when I feel a little better so I can get back into the rountine. My co-workers are copping an attitude about me calling in sick for the past 2 days. WTF. I fill in for my supervisor for a week+ at a time and they get pissed for 2 days. I’m not in the mood today. I was supposed to take a personal day tomorrow and go talk to an attorney about getting divorced now I’m wondering if I should just go to the appointment and then come into work. Ugh. IDK.

Well, I’d better go do something. I hope to get caught up on reading blogs this afternoon. I pray that today goes fast!

Filed under: Uncategorized on October 29th, 2009 | 6 Comments »

Oh goody. What a way to start a Monday. TOM came this morning while I was getting ready for work, complete with massive cramps. Ugh!

This mornings weight - 202.3 I didn’t do that great with the food this weekend. Not that bad, but not that great either. I did walk 2 miles on Saturday and 4 miles on Sunday. After I did the usual house cleaning and laundry I had a “loungy” weekend since I was home alone. I just watched old movies: The Last Picture Show, The Graduate, Alice’s Restaurant, Taxi Driver, The Birds. It was nice not to have anything to do.

DD made it back from the beach last night with no problem. Praise the Lord! She went to Ocean City with her BF. They had a great time. Young and in love at the beach. What could be better? That little cutie brought me back Bath & Body Works stuff that I’ve been wanting but they didn’t have the scent in our area (Spiced Cider) and a set of resistance tubes that have 3 different interchangeable tubes for different resistance. They also came with a page of exercises to show you how to work different parts of your body. YAY! I’ve been wanting these for a while now. This will surely give me the change of pace that I need in the exercise department. I want to tone up these arms, especially.

I’ve been feeling slimmer lately even though the scale has actually gone up a little so I measured yesterday and I’ve gone down an inch in my hips and thighs and a half inch in my waist. I don’t know how, I even measured twice to make sure, but thankfully it was correct. I’ll take it! I’m trying to dream up a November challenge for myself but haven’t come up with amything yet.

Make it a great day, ladies!

Filed under: Uncategorized on October 26th, 2009 | 5 Comments »

Yay for Friday! It is chilly and dark here today and I think its supposed to rain later on. The big boss is leaving early so hopefully there won’t be much going on. I hope it goes fast.

Last night I did 3 miles at the track. It was so nice out - it was like 76 degrees at 7pm and there wasn’t a soul on the track. It was nice and peaceful. When I got back to the house I watched a movie that I checked out from the library - Shampoo. I thought it was supposed to be so good and got Academy Awards and all this but it SUCKED! BIG TIME! (What did I expect from a movie called Shampoo? LOL.)

Tomorrow if it doesn’t rain I’m going to another fall festival with a friend. I don’t really want to go but she asked me and I guess its something to do. DD made it safe to the beach yesterday, thank God! The house sure is lonely without her but I will enjoy the time alone and lounge around and watch old movies after I clean the house and do laundry.

I guess if it rains tomorrow I will break out the exercise dvds. I can really tell a difference after I do them; I feel so much better. I think I’ll also scour my WW and HG cookbooks for some new recipes this weekend. I’d like to find a couple LF crockpot ones. I love one-dish meals.

Oh yeah - sometimes now when I walk I get hip pain - not alot but enough to notice in both hips. WTH is this from now?

Thats it for me. Make it a great, fast Friday!

Filed under: Uncategorized on October 23rd, 2009 | 4 Comments »

Still busy at work. I had to make time to post while my boss is out for a little while. I kept getting that nagging feeling in the back of my mind that I needed to. I’m OCD about it, plus, I like to post to keep me centered and accountable.

We’ve had alot of deadlines at work with a pending courtcase so alot of BS with that. Then handling 2 upper admininistrative offices (an attorney and a VP) is keeping me hopping. I don’t know when the lady that I’m covering for will be back. She went to visit her family several states away because her dad is getting a pacemaker, so who knows. She may not even be back next week. Its all good. I’m thankful to be employed.

What is with these girls around campus (and every where) wearing Uggs with shorts and mini skirts?!?!?!? This is not a good look. Its one of my pet peeves - the same as dragging your feet with those boots on or those ugly frumpy clogs. OMG! On an episode of What Not to Wear one day Clinton was saying how those ugly clogs look like baked potatoes! LMAO! He is right!

My daughter headed to Ocean City this morning with her BF for a long weekend. I’ll probably weigh 90 pounds by the time she gets back from worrying. Not that she’ll get into trouble - worring about 5 hours on the road and weirdos all around. I have to let her go some time. I just pray about it.

Last weekend I saw my estranged husbands parents at a fall festival. My MIL told me that I looked slim and that she could really tell that I was losing weight. Good. Let her report back to my ex. I looked cute too. LOL. You never know who you’re going to run into, right? Next Friday I go to the attorney to see about finally getting divorced. I can’t freakin’ wait!

I feel my motivation slowing going away again. DAMN IT! I think I’m getting bored. I need to invent some sort of challenge for myself. Maybe that will help. I sure as hell hope so. Why do I keep losing motivation? Why am I so good for a few days and then go off for a few days? Why do I keep bouncing back and forth between the same few pounds? I HATE THIS! I wish I had the willpower or whatever it is that I need to keep going day after day. I need advice, ladies!

Hope you’re having a wonderful day!

Filed under: Uncategorized on October 22nd, 2009 | 5 Comments »

Absolutely slammed at work with deadlines and covering 2 offices. I read a few blogs this afternoon. Tomorrow I will post.

I don’t like getting off track with the blogging. I feel lost.

Filed under: Uncategorized on October 21st, 2009 | 4 Comments »