Hi, I’m Shiv.
I want to share my experiences of losing 100lbs through Intuitive Eating. I started at 212lbs on 10th December 2012. I will be 112lbs… whenever I’m ready.
I will add photos when I’m not posting from my phone
Some less-than-vital statistics: I’m 31. I am starting the Open University in October 2013, studying Computer Science. Right now I think I want to design game engines for a living. This, as with my many ambitions, is subject to change I love chaos theory. I’m quite a Nine Inch Nails fan. I love video games, particularly Final Fantasy. I want to do cosplay when I’m smaller. I’m a textbook introvert, I think “too” much, I’m “too” sensitive, and my posts are “too” long. I will spill the contents of my mind and my fridge unashamedly, but I keep my private life private. I like drawing, but I’m not good at it yet. I want to develop my skills to complement the programming I’ll be studying at uni, in case I really DO try to make it in the games industry. I feel like being fat is holding me back. I’ve been depressed on and off, moderately to severely, since I was 8 years old or thereabouts. It’s made my attempts to have a life… challenging. But interesting. I have days I honestly believe I can take on the world and win. A 2 steps forward, 1 step back kind of person. I don’t want a normal life. I’ve tried to be normal for a few years and it brought me nothing but trouble. I’m afraid losing weight will bring me more trouble. I want to be a F1 driver when I grow up (did I say 31? I meant 13). I believe growing up and following the script is overrated. Once I’m at goal I want a tattoo of a Phoenix inside my right wrist, and an ouroborous inside my left wrist. I like a bit of mythology. I speak in metaphors. The principle that out of creation comes destruction, and out of destruction comes creation is a major guiding principle in my life. I’m not religious, I’m agnostic. I am partial to eastern philosophy as a way to make sense of the universe. I’ve done half a physics degree and half a law degree, and I give up far too easy. I love Japan. I want to travel there, but not when I’m a) broke, or b) fat. I have lucid dreams. I’ve been training myself to have them for nearly a year. They are absolutely amazing. I was thin in my most recent one, and I still remember the feeling. I was also shooting mercenaries in the head with a sniper, but that’s a separate issue.
So, now you know everything about me but my personality. If I have one I will try to share it with the lovely people I meet along my journey who are following their own paths to being healthier and happier. I hope we can learn from, and support each other.