HOW did it get to be THAT time of the month again? The end, that is, with its attendant overflow work. This month the usual coincides with the peakish financial reporting period, so I've got both going on simultaneously Doing well, though. I'm going for a gentle little run in a few minutes. Tai chi tonight. One of the masters is visiting class for a couple of weeks. He's an amazing person, so much life in his eyes, so direct you get a burst of energy just looking into them. He makes us work very hard, but we also learn a lot. Focusing on getting in the nine fruits/veggies, getting exercise, and so on. Noticed that I was picking at food a bit yesterday when I wasn't actually hungry Better nip THAT in the bud.
I was thinking about how uncomfortable DH's staff party was for me, how I felt. I think it was not so much resentful of the slender women, but more -- not good enough, not acceptable. That's an awful way to feel. I don't want to ever have that feeling again.
Working on feeling OK, and just getting on with life instead of fretting over this stupid weight.
Ok, well, that was not exactly flying. Must go now, though! Let's make this a great day. Love to all!
Isn't it a shame how little we think of ourselves?? And wouldnt it be a shock if we realized how many others in the room were just as uncomfortable as we are ??
Let me just readjust your wings for you-- You just got a little tangled up but otherwise-- You are Beautiful!!
I wish I could convince myself of that too when I am in a stressful situation.
You brighten my life as does everyone here--
There's still room here in Anagram's group hug, let me squeeze just a little bit tighter.
I think I'm having a little bit of a mid-life crisis, having finished menopause and now being ... uh ... mature But -- life is too short to waste it by getting obsessed over how we look!
Wood Nymph, I remember the picture you once posted of yourself on 3FC and remember thinking what an extraordinary personage you seemed and what a beautiful and queenlike presence you carried with you.
I'd venture to say that the super slenders at the party were perhaps a tad envious of thy persona and likely those were the vibes floating about the room that made thee uncomfortable.
I'm glad thou be not going to fret about weight, for that maketh a spell that strengthens its hold upon thee.
It will departheth when it be ready ... or not at all ... thy wood nymphness will not be affected.
"The revolution will not be televised!" ~ Somebody?
Now I can say 'day after tomorrow I'm leaving!' - get outta the way folks, lady on a mission comin' through!
Just saw the funniest thing... I looked up into our "back yard" (the front 2 acres that are fenced) and saw one of my mom's horses looking at me. She has her complete fly mask on today and looks a bit like an equine Batman! The complete fly masks have little spikes where the horses ears go and cover their faces down to their noses. Ooooh, that was funny!
Cerise, Cheesecake Factory?!?!? That's it, you need to move.... There's something to be said for living in the boonies where there are NO food places within a 20 minute drive.
Kaylets, nope, Pop's beagle isn't medicated. They said if he was seizing more than once a year they could treat it, but since it's so rare that it happens they couldn't justify medicating him all year. Thankfully his are mild too and he seems to recover quickly. Poor pup though - he had his last seizure about a month ago, then 2 weeks later was bit by a sidewinder (AZ rattlesnake). He's fine, but must be one tough beagle!
Arabella, yes this month did go fast didn't it? Here's to making your EOM nasties go away real fast.... There, are they gone??
I agree with Kaylets regarding how you felt at the party. It is awful that we feel that way about ourselves, that we've bought in to the "you're not 'perfect' therefore you're a lesser person" idea. It's sad. Let's say we stop all that right now! Arabella, you're a beautiful person. Kaylets, you too! Amarantha, Cerise, Jenn, Bo-Beena, Dollar, Wildfire, Zadie, Anagram, Frogger, WSW.... EVERYONE!!! We're all beautiful and perfect in our own way.
Q o' the day ~
Do I prefer the company of men or women? That's a tough one because it's not so much the gender that's important as much as it's the person themselves. I have a couple male friends I can talk to like they're a "girlfriend" and some female friends that are very, well, guy-like...
Hey ladies!
Tuesday is over on with hump day tomorrow! Again an ok day at work coming to a close, again i`m sitting with sweats on drinking coffee. Last night while talking to my mother the Alkins diet came into the topic, and believe it or not I am very interested on going on it. I was wondering if any of you have experienced any success on the diet, and how does it work. I am not sure If I can rate it as a totally healthy way to loose pounds, and eating so much protein doesn`t sound much fun either. But give me your two cents.
Pumpkin seed you are doing wicked! 3.8lbs thats great keep it up. When you live in Newfoundland Canada, you can wear sweats in July haha.
Cerise cheesecake is the devil, mom had a baked chocolate one last night...yum...I couldn`t touch it though..
Arabella- hold your head up doll, one day you`ll let go of your insurcities, and be the slender woman or at least be happy with yourself!
Kaylets and anagram good job and good luck ladies.
I never thought I'd say this, but I want to get to work...
Hey, Gorgeous Goons,
Aaah, cheescake's not gonna hurt me, but this NIBBLING at home will! NIBBLING, NIBBLING, NIBBLING!!! I've signed up with a bunch of hiring agencies, so I sit at home reading Barbara Kingsolver novels (wonderful) and making frequent trips to the kitchen! I need to get a job to break up this leisurely, sweaty, neverending MEAL that my last few days have become.
Tomorrow I'll be productive.
I saved my brother's you-know-what last night. I called to ask him what was happening for Elisabeth's (his wife, my SIL) birthday on Wednesday, and he was like, "Oh, crap!" Boy, was he ever grateful that his sister caught him at forgetting instead of his wife. On her birthday! Heh, heh.
GOD, it's hot here! We've tried marching up and down these hills in the heat and we nearly died. Now we follow the routines of people in southern Spain, or so I see from the movies. Siesta time.
Well, I'll be more interesting as soon as we find jobs and get club memberships at the local Gold's Gym. Do you guys know, are they hard sellers like the vultures at 24-Hour Fitness? If so, I'm just gonna sign up at the local Y. Anyway, I don't have a scale at home or anything, so as soon as the gym membership is under way I'll be armed with progress reports.
For now I'm trying to eat slowly and deliberately (today was an abberation, right?) and the hills are definitely getting easier to navigate!
Jenn-I've modified the low carb diet. Actually did Atkins and could not stick to it. (TOOO restrictive for my taste) For the past 2 weeks I have cut out all snack foods, breads, cereals, pasta, crackers and sugar. The only veggie I have cut out is corn. Cut back on my diet coke consumption and as of today I have lost 7 lbs. It was rough the first week, but I've been surfing low carb recipe sites and have gotten good reciepes to help me out. I've also eaten out for dinner this entire week (moved to a new home and can't seem to find anything!!) For dinner out I've eaten hot wings (the ones with no breading), salads, BBQ beef ribs, and taco salad from taco bell (minus the beans and shell). PM me if you want to talk
Well, still digging out from the mounds of boxes which obviously aren't going anywhere until my inlaws move their stuff out.
Very tired from the move and the new commute. Need a nap!! LOL
Just read a great post. It's called " We won't lose weight until...." and I wanted to share.
The last sentence really hit home to me.
"I personally came to realize that I had been trying to lose weight for all the WRONG reasons. Once I realized that I needed to lose weight so that I could be assured that I'd live a long and healthy life and that I needed to do it for ME and not for anyone else, everything became much clearer for me!
I won't say that the past 8 months have been "fun" but they've sure been rewarding to ME. It hasn't mattered whether anyone else noticed the loss or whether I looked better (although I do I think)...what mattered most was when I saw my doctor back in May and everything was DOWN -- weight, cholesterol, BP. The only thing UP was me and the way I felt!
Do whatever it takes to get your mindset right -- counselors are trained to help with things like this and the most important thing that learned with counseling was that I mattered. Yes, I did counseling after my divorce...not for my weight, but for the depression that I felt and the way I felt about myself. I came to realize that people are powerless -- their only power is my reaction to their actions.
Cindy"
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Enormous "stress starter" at work was fired yesterday. A case of a real shame as its all due to drinking if you want my humble opinion. Anyone who can work fulltime, go out every night but for college class night and still maintain an A average in pre law is obviously very bright and capable. Why was she fired?? Tardiness and absenteeism. After 6.5 yrs, many, many warnings and 2nd chances. As I said, very bright. But the drinking was really skewing her view of life-- she thought the absenteeism issue was a " vendetta", questions about her projects were "stalking". A great person to see at a party but not so great to work with. Frankly, I am relieved but do hope this will be the "bottom" for her.
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Which brings me to the thought of the day:
'Snap out of it...'
--from Moonstruck.
Question of the day :
"What was your 'bottom' regarding gaining weight?
What made you decide-- time to turn things around?"
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Take care all!
Have a Wonderful "Wonderful Me Wednesday"!!
Yikes! I've missed so many posts--how'd that happen?
Arabella, I too remember your photo from your 'Babette' days and thought you were beautiful. Very "french"-looking, know what I mean?
I'm betting that we all have felt how you did at the party. Never mind how I look, I'm still floored when I find out someone really like me! Kinda sad....why don't we realize our own worth?
Kaylets, from your ? a couple of days ago--I prefer the company of women, as long as they're not prim ladies----I'd rather it be someone I don't have to censor myself with, 'cause it can get pretty earthy if you catch my drift!
Today's question: wow, where to start....I had so many truly heartbreaking moments. Never being able to find clothes that fit, wearing the 'uniform' of leggings and big tops, seeing photos of myself with that miserable 'please don't take my pic" look, the time I went out on a friend's boat and was clothed head to toe because I couldn't bear wearing a bathing suit. I could go on and on.
I remember what really did it for me is having the thought that if I didn't really sincerely try to drop some weight, I'd never know what life could be like. Let's see if working out really does give me more energy and stamina, drop a couple of dress sizes, see what that feels like. And I made a plan that I'd stick with it for 3 months and if I didn't see a dramatic difference, them I'd resign myself to being over weight.
The first month I actually gained 6 pounds [?! ?!], but I was committed to trying out this exercise/ healthy diet thing and when I saw the changes in my body and energy level I was hooked and I've never looked back!
Fly by postie as need to get ready for gym. I do think this will be my last round of personal training days. I have two more and am frankly getting tired of having to pretend to be up for it when I'm clearly not. Think it'd be easier just to drag in and do my own thing!
Cerise, I know about that waiting for work nibbling. :sigh: You could learn to tat (shuttle)! You can't shuttle tat and nibble. It doesn't work!!
Re QODs: Re company of men vs. women, it depends on the activity planned!
Re: The turning point in deciding to lose weight ... I known I've posted this before, but there were really two. The first was when I moved here from the midwest and saw my shadow for the first time in 30 years (because the sun is much closer to the earth here and thus brighter, more intense and shines all the time except during the monsoon)! The second was when my brother died at a relatively young age and I decided I would stay alive and get healthy for both of us!
Kaylets: Your coworker being fired must be kind of stressful for you even though a relief. It's just hard to see people in pain even though it's nice not to have to deal with the stress causers, but she'll likely be fine, though it might be too much to expect this is the "bottom" that will turn her life around. My experience has been that most people will just justify these things and eventually find another job. Survival mechanism. As far as drinking goes, this'll likely make it worse. As far as absenteeism, that usually is just a habit dependent on the tolerance of the employer, so if they let her get away with it for a long period of time, they share some of the blame, IMNHO!!!
Wood Nymph! I agree that you looked quite "French" in your pic! Tres jolie! (I think that means "very beautiful?" if not, forgive me for whatever it said, my French is rather bad!)
It is vacation eve! I've started packing and Bo-Beena and I have been making our plans! Tomorrow 'round 11am I'm headin' for California!!!!
Yesterday it got up to 103 - I have this urge to move to Alaska.... Yesterday no exercise, I pretty much just melted into my chair and watched Robin Williams on Broadway. Laughing is exercise right??
Cerise, I hear our heat's supposed to let up tomorrow - hang in there! Good sisterly job on saving your brother's keester! Your SIL would thank you if she knew, I'm sure!
Frogger, isn't it the pits after you move and can't find anything? I think I ate take out for a week or so after I moved too... Get some rest then find those pots n' pans!
Kaylets, you're right, that last sentence is a clincher isn't it? My mom had a signature on her email for a long time that said something like "life is 10% about what happens to you and 90% of how you react to it".
Feeling both sorry and happy about your co-worker. I agree with Amarantha though, this is more than likely not going to be her "bottom". I think most people come to their lowest points all on their own, not from something someone else did to them. They change when they want to, not when they think they have to - almost a universal truth with addiction isn't it? Hopefully this does open her eyes though.
Amarantha, oui! Your french in this case was tres correct!
Q o' the day ~
My bottom point was a number of things:
wheezing when I lay down, not being able to even paint my toenails without having to hold my breath, weighing more than my sturdy 6'1 stepfather, my dad's diabetes, mom's cancer, hating how puffy my face looked from the side, my borderline high blood pressure, and mostly, wondering what my life was going to be like in 10 or 15 years if I kept overfeeding my body the way I had been - wondering when the heart attack was going to happen...
This weekend away will be a test - my first since my recent mondo-weight loss success. Not that we usually sit and eat junk at Bo-Beena's, nooooo, but just that I'm away from home, away from my structure and eating with other people is always more difficult than when you're only having to worry about yourself. We have a menu started so there's no surprises, or getting too hungry (a big problem for both me n' Bo) and we'll do some grocery shopping when I get there. We'll see... but I feel good about it! I'm very, very ok with a small gain or maintenance next Monday though! Can't loose *all* the way 'till goal now can I?? What will I have learned from THAT?
Have fun Punkin! How nice to be spending time with BoBeena!
Can't wait to hear what you two decide to do while together!
Empress- Looks like you are absolutely right- Ex-coworker is calling sympathetic ears to " set the story straight".
Very sad to also know she's mixing Busbar (sp?)
w/ liquor every day is frightening. Especially since she explained at length how red wine isnt a good mix, but white is, etc etc.
Anyway-- I am on my way --
Wildfire- glad to see you come by!
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Thought of the day :
"It is by falling down we learn to stand."
Bob Perks
Question of the day :
"What do you think happened to the straw in strawberries ?"
---Kaylets
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(I'm not really a French chick, I just play one on a forum ) But I will take that as a compliment, bien sur! I feel much better now. I feel about 10 pounds slimmer than I did at that party. Part of the problem was ... clothes! I got some jeans at a thrift shop that are really too big. Ok immediately after they're washed, but then within an hour or so just WAY too baggy. Usually they make me feel skinnier because they're so loose, but I guess I felt like I was in a muumuu (how the heck do you spell that, anyway?) when so many were in sundresses or shorts and slinky little tops. Ah well, I'll get 'em next time!
I've got clothes that are slightly too tight, clothes that are too loose. Also have birthday $ from MIL that is going to get me some that FIT
Coping well with End-O-Month this time. I have only a reasonable amount of work to finish today along with a conference call summary that will take four or so hours. Very doable No binges, and I should be able to get in at least a run, if not some yoga and a run this morning. And tai chi tonight.
Punkin & Bo Beena -- have a blast! (As if there were any chance you wouldn't!)
I'd love to respond to all you best and brightest of women, but I spent to much time talking about ... me! Hope to catch up with you tomorrow! A bientot!
Flying by...
Doing well, though. I'm going for a gentle little run in a few minutes. Tai chi tonight. One of the masters is visiting class for a couple of weeks. He's an amazing person, so much life in his eyes, so direct you get a burst of energy just looking into them. He makes us work very hard, but we also learn a lot. Focusing on getting in the nine fruits/veggies, getting exercise, and so on. Noticed that I was picking at food a bit yesterday when I wasn't actually hungry 
Better nip THAT in the bud.
But -- life is too short to waste it by getting obsessed over how we look! 
The complete fly masks have little spikes where the horses ears go and cover their faces down to their noses. Ooooh, that was funny! 
There's something to be said for living in the boonies where there are NO food places within a 20 minute drive. 
There, are they gone?? 
on with hump day tomorrow! Again an ok day at work coming to a close, again i`m sitting with sweats on drinking coffee. Last night while talking to my mother the Alkins diet came into the topic, and believe it or not I am very interested on going on it. I was wondering if any of you have experienced any success on the diet, and how does it work. I am not sure If I can rate it as a totally healthy way to loose pounds, and eating so much protein doesn`t sound much fun either. But give me your two cents.
NIBBLING, NIBBLING, NIBBLING!!! I've signed up with a bunch of hiring agencies, so I sit at home reading Barbara Kingsolver novels (wonderful) and making frequent trips to the kitchen! I need to get a job to break up this leisurely, sweaty, neverending MEAL that my last few days have become.
Wonderful Me Wednesday!
?!], but I was committed to trying out this exercise/ healthy diet thing and when I saw the changes in my body and energy level I was hooked and I've never looked back!
I've started packing and Bo-Beena and I have been making our plans! Tomorrow 'round 11am I'm headin' for California!!!! 
Yesterday no exercise, I pretty much just melted into my chair and watched Robin Williams on Broadway. 
