I just dont wanna be chafey this year! Ok, ok, ohhhhhhhh kay. There is still time left to get off some flab. I think I have been dilly dallying for too long.
I am entering the hardcore zone.
Will report on results.
Slow and steady does not win the race for me - it just messes with my head and makes me feel like an even bigger failure.
Just like doing a specific "diet" plan like WW or Jenny doesnt work for everyone, the easy does it approach just does not work for me. I have through easy does it lead myself into being fat yet again. I dont understand moderation when I am at this point. I need to rip the bandaid off and be hardcore. I know I can do moderation when I am more in control as I have done it before.
So gotsta do what works for me. We ALL have to work off our strengths and what works for us.
I feel relieved and that is a good sign that I am moving in the right direction
I also have done some thinking with work and I am over the love/hate thing. I keep expecting people to take an interest and care about being there but they dont. So I will have to baby them and tell them what to do every day. I am not going to keep picking up the slack for . . . well, slackers! I would rather tell them to piss off and take on their work and their pay packet than have them taking the piss.
And no more super late nights. I am too old for this sh.it. I cant physically do it anymore. It makes me snappy, snippy, tired, then I get sick physically then I get mentally distressed and no amount of money is worth this.
So no more of that.
I am my priority now. There is no one else to take care of me if I dont. And I cant be there anyone if I am a mess.
So, I have a goal of where I want to be by Christmas - its not a weight goal - I want to be back in these khaki pants that I wore 2 years ago (last year they were too big this year well lets not discuss that). I will still be fuller figured but I will be much leaner than now.
So thats the plan.
booooooo! 
