A woman after my own heart! I used up my Neurofen plus after I had surgery a few months ago but we still have two packets of mersyndol. Seriously though, I can't wait to be able to buy neurofen plus again! Its genuis for my TOM. Whenever people visit is from overseas I make them bring me some, lol.

I'm sorry to hear all of you are having troubles at the moment! I hope everyone feels better!

As for me I spent the better time at work yesterday researching flights to Oz (they are crazy cheap right now!) and also jobs in Melbourne. I want to start over when we get there and on top of wanting to start a family both the hubby and I need to get our careers going! I have decided I want to help people, that is my main concern. I would love to work for a charity or non profit full time but I of course can not volunteer my time, I would need to get paid. If I can't find a career there, I think I may go back to school and get a certification in counseling. There are several abusive habits I experienced in my life and I want to be there, to share what I learned from it all, especially for young people that are suffering. If only I had had a mentor or someone to talk to, I could have saved myself so much pain!

What do all of you do for a living?? Do you love it?

Anyone know of anyone doing what I want to do?

harps do you have any other skills like adminstration or whateva as you could perhaps get a paying job at an organisation that helps young people that are suffering?

i am WONDERFUL
i have been feeling up and down not on my meds but the ups are so so awesome i feel like i am back
i didnt relalise how flat the meds made me and not only do they supress anxiety and depression they surpress SEX DRIVE
now i DONT remember reading that in the side effects booklet!
anyway i have been loving the randomness and "old" me so much and have been pretty proud at how i have been dealing with my frustrations that i went to the doc today (as i had to also take jemima who had 4 mega coughing fits today but she is FINE too) and he said that he would rather see me walk out with no meds - coz i said i ran out and decided i dont want them anymore - so i walked out with no meds for me or jemima
and a whole heap of motivation and confidence
exercise IS a natural remedy for depression and anxiety
my body is still freaking out a little but hopefully will settle down as i get more and more control back
my personal trainer is a little concerned that i may randomly and uncontrollably eat crap
and he has a GOOOOOOOD point
so must keep that in check

the day i posted and was sad and down in the dumps was such a stupid day
the fight i had with benji was so so so so stooooooopid
did i tell u what it was about??
HE DID A LOAD OF WASHING - for fuKKKKKKs sake i am a loser
i think i just wanted attention as the lack of sexdrive thing has taken its toll in the way that i dont think he thinks i am every horny anymore so i wanted attention wasnt getting it so i yelled and carried on about nothing
(ie i had ONE day off and the washing basket was full and so i am a failure and so he is a prI***K for doing a load of washing and then he was a Priaosfkjasl;fk for not reacting when i am yelling like a wierdo yowie at him and then
so the next morning as i had requested in my stupid rage he did NOT wake me when he left for work so then it was longer before we talked about the fact i was feeling like crap
i really enjoyed the brodies for lunch thogh
anyway when he got home
we had a good talk and we are extra good now
especially since we/i have realised how much more fun i can be without the meds which means i must go now as he has just gone to bed!!

vonni - my computer doesnt tell me when there are replies to this so i didnt get your kind offer to talk - so we MUST catch up soon - come to brissy and i'll take you to brodies

amy - OMIGOSH i totally know what you mean - SOME PEOPLE ARE CLUELESS AND HOW HARD IS IT

i now sell Mary Kay products and still Tupperware so let me know if you want a catalouge or whateva, benji just used the "satin hands" scrub and night cream so i am looking forward to that! (mechanic hands are so so rough in the winter time and he always feels terrible touching me or jemima)
and tupperware just brought out a heap of new colours and stuff on wednesday

i am going to a slumber party tomorrow night - we are going to kidnap the pizza delivery dude and make him serve us drinks wearing just his cap and maybe an apron

everyone have an awesome weekend

oh and i just realised i type like i talk so PLEASE if anyone is offended by my language on here sometimes PLEASE tell me and i will try and keep that in check as well

I do have TONS of experience in Admin/Clerical. I have been looking from that angle but haven't found anything yet. I am going to register with some temp agencies just for regular work in the mean time.

I used to be on daily meds for 2 years and decided after getting dumped by my boyfriend at the time to get off the meds and go on a diet. I lost the weight, though now its back, and have stayed off the daily meds for 7 years. (I still take xanax as needed) I was/am a mess, but I am better for it! The sex drive always seems to suffer when you have depression whether on meds or not! I am still trying to figure out how to get a healthy libido b/c compared to me, my husband is a nympho!

Exercise really is the best remedy!! Atleast it is for me! Its really good for people who suffer from anxiety/depression because the exercise expends all our extra adrenaline and it boosts our circulation which in turn makes our thyroids and and adrenal glands healthy as well as scores of other benefits (I've been reading all kinds of articles and journals about the subject) but its all pretty obvious. Exercise = healthy. It just took me 30years to give in to and just do it

oh and good plan with the pizza guy, wish I could do that with the young studs that deliver by me. My husband always laughs at me cause I comment how young and cute they are (I am a cougar at heart )

Have fun!

Yes Harps me too - whenever I go home to Aus, my friends in the US make me bring back nurofen plus/mersyndol. It is great for TTOM. If I still lived in Melbs I'd show you around but I'm living in Pittsburgh for work now!

I am heading to the airport in about 15 mins for my flight home - dreading the flight but can't wait to see my mum and nieces.

The flight really is dreadful!
Well, more like flights...
Well have a wonderful and safe trip home! (you've left already and won't see this anyway)

What the heck work brought you to Pitssburgh? I'm guessing you love it or wouldn't have done it in the first place

Hi Harps, Gen and I are nurses. Gen a fancy one lol. ( Gen). It is an awesome feeling when you can help people and most of those people appreciate it.

I am so OVER taking nurofen plus. that and prodeine forte and tramal SR. I was hoping antibiotics would have kicked in by now but the pain is as bad as ever. The nurofen was helping with the inflammation which eased the pain until the tramal kicked in but now even THAT isnt helping muc. And go figure but the pain killers side effects can be headache... why? and last night i copped a doozy not long after taking them. The codeine is starting to make me feel yukky to.

I got 3 call ins to work the past few days (aside from my roster) and i hated saying no. Have to work this morning though (roster) and hope to go i can manage. Already asked them though to give me a ward that will be a light load and not needing to much assistance with showers so i am not bending down so much.

Gen you prob home by now or close to it. Say hi to your mum from us and i hope you have an awesome time.

Gotta run or i will be late.

Love to all ya gals xoxox

Time for me to refocus im gonna restart.. no more i have lost xxx.... im trying to change my thinking to i need to loose xxx.. becuase the amount i have already lost is holding me back in my own head..


so im gonna focus on that 99 kilos for xmas more then the over all amount.. and with it getting ever closer im feeling more and more like a failure.. a whole month and im down 900 grams lol... pittiful. but at least it is down.. right. .. lindor you are right i am moving in thr right direction . thanks for the reminder.

Kel ... we are very much a like i think with the whole mood shifts.. I think being home with kids does that too ya.. and atm for me the biggest issues is of course Leah .. lol she starts school next term.. which means i'll be alone during the day 5 days a week .. and that is something i havent done for 9 years ... lol . So huge change for me and i worry about her starting school without being fully immunised... and the clinic hasn't got back to me yet.. so my head is all over the place.


oh and how did kidnapping the pizza guy turn out??? lol or did you get and ugly one and decide to just let him leave????? lol

anyway with the weather improving everyday.. i can walk them to school more often .. and maybe just keep walking after i have dropped them off ..


Vonni that must be a real bad toothache.. i really hope it settles down soon

welcome Harps..

i cant beleive the price of meds over there .... why cant you buy nuerofen?/codiene over there is there a problem with it?

i haven't gone back and read your posts, sorry. I'm down 300g this week, not much but at least its in the right direction.

I got sick of waiting to hear about the jub yesterday so I called her to see whats going on. she was sorry for not getting back to me and didn't have a n answer yet but did offer me a better position, assistant finance manager! Not even there yet and I'm getting promoted!!!

i know what you mean about the i have lost thing
i am trying to reshift focus too
as someone said "relosing weight" i am over losing then relosing the same 800grams
so i am totally trying to not care at all about what the scales say and care more about how my body is feeling and looking

gotta go take a photo of my power pole for danni now

oh but i was telling benji last night about the sexdrive suppressing meds and we were laughing coz if you are depressed surely the LAST thing you need is your sexdrive supressed any more!!



WOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOO BARB

heeheeheeeeeeeeee Kel!!

I agree that we need to shift our focus. All of us have lost and gained and lost and gained and on and on.

The thing is . . . we are all amazing women who are incredibly busy and the fact that we spend more time than not taking care of ourselves is huge! I am surprised we havent spent MORE time on the couch inhaling food to be honest.

So, lets shake off the past bcos all we have is now.

So, for today I am happy that I havent killed my boss for texting me at friggin' 8.30am and am happy that I did not go out and get a huge assed blueberry bagel from Gloria Jeans

Hi guys, first off - sorry for being away for a few weeks - life gets away from you sometimes. I'm still plugging away at the diet, doing ok, I guess. Hubby is off work for the next 2 weeks so we can spend some quality time together (if ya know what I mean ). 'Spose the only problem with that is that we might "treat ourselves" food wise. Ah well, as long as I'm sensible about it I probably won't do too much damage. We will just have to work it off! bwahaha.

Oh & BTW on my last blog post I posted progress pics - In the words of Magda Szubanski "look at me, I'm a fox!!"

Lila your blog doesnt work booooooo!

Oh this is Dan - I changed my username cos some peeps in my "real" life are snooping about. Buggers.

I would rather keep this part of my life private so I can be honest and upfront without feeling censored if that makes sense?

I had a huge sleep this afternoon - went into work for half a day and got really nauseous and left. But I will have to go in tmro. Too bad I dont actually get paid for weekends . . . ick.

Hope everyone is having a good weekend!

Kel I am going to find a pole pic for you tmro

Amy I think because codeine is used in the manufacture of illegal street drugs that it cant be bought OTC in the states. I also know that once upon a time you could buy codeine liquid here for a cvold but now they have a register. Dont even know if u CAN still get it at all.

Lila welcome back. we all have our lapses in visiting then pop back in again.

Right now i am sitting at the dining table having a midori and lemonade (my 1st ever) and its quite nice. not good for the hips i suppose b ut its helping dull the pain lol.

Oh my goodness I used to love a Midori! I remember some drink that had midori and pineapple juice in it. Yum.

Gen are you home safely yet?