lindor - you are amazing and awesome for the jump and you are amazing and strong with your dog and you rock for the weight loss and commitment hang in there - what is your dog's name?
everyone else i had so much to say but jemima has just spilt coke on the desk so i have to go fix it
Oh Lindor, I'm so sorry to hear about your poor poochy
Congrats Kel on your loss, that's awesome
I think I've found a solution to my problem but it involves breaking lots of rules. My boss has okayed this but if the people in the auditing department find out they could well scupper the whole thing. If that happens, client will be FURIOUS!! I'm trying to fix the problem without having to let the client know that I've given him wrong information. Unfortunately the problem affects 3 different dates and I will have to amend each mistake on the day. So many things could go wrong!
Thank goodness I'm booked in for a massage tonight, I'm going to need it!
You can do it Julia!!! Says she who works for a law firm that frowns on backdating anything
And congrats on the loss Kel!! All that working out is paying off!
So . . . I am putting this down to TOM on the way (so am also not weighing cos I dont need to lose my mind right now). I just feel crappy. I feel that "I am not losing weight" tape stuck in my head again. I have lost over 6kg since the end of June. THAT IS GREAT!!! I know some of it was just bloat, but stilllllll down is down!!! And yet my head seems to be stuck on "yes but you still have so far to go".
I am hoping that a trot on the treadmill tonight will silence the noise.
I also downloaded some Jillian Michaels pod cast thinggos and am listening to those on the way to and from work on the train. I just feel like that "click", that "here we go the weight is coming off" thing hasnt gone off in my head. Although perhaps this is the whole point? I do not want to be on a diet ever again. And usually that "click" signals that I am in "losing" mode. I guess I am so used to the get it off quick!!!!!!!!!!!! Hurry!! Restrict calories and never get off the diet til you are skinnnnnyyyyyyy!!!!! approach that this new "change small things and take small steps and take breaks every now and then" approach is making me kinda sorta uncomfortable. hmmm. But I worry if I speed it up that I will be here in a year fat again and trying to lose the same blasted weight.
Sorry gals, these thoughts are better out than in sometimes . . .
i'm doing this eating food thing and exercise thing
and it seems to be working
i eat now when i am hungry but dont find myself hungry between meals coz i have more meals
but just smaller ones....
Oh Lindor, I'm sorry. It's heartbreaking, I know. It sounds like you already know what to do though - if you're keeping the dog around for you and not for him, it may be time. What did the vet think?
Sometimes I think it's nicer for both of you to choose the time to let him go - you won't have to wake up one day to a horrible surprise, and dog won't have to suffer. Dying of heart failure is not a pleasant way to go - and the medications don't help much.
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Thankyou Gen.
The last two visits to the vet I go in fully expecting them to say he needs to be put down, but instead they give me 'options'. And I always opt for a little more time with him - last time was four months ago.
The vet today seems hopeful although not entirely confident that treatment will help for a while. I stupidly - perhaps selfishly - took her glimmer of hope.
Kel, his name is Mista.
He has been a part of my life for nearly half my life! He is my most trusted and loyal friend. At 16yrs old I have known for a while that his time was nearing an end. I thought I was ready...
I lost Mistas mother to heart failure also, she was 13yrs old, and you're right Gen, it's not pretty...it nearly killed me!
The vet was surprised this morning that I was not aware that Mista had CCF. No vet has ever mentioned it yet, knowing his mothers history, I always asked when they listen to his heart. Their answer was always 'his heart is behaving consistantly for a dog of his age'.
Why I opted for treatment for him this morning I don't know. It's not fair on him, and I hate myself for making that decision. Yet, I still can't bring myself to let him go
Its hard to say goodbye to someone . . . a pet that you love I'm sorry that you and Mista are going through this. Poor little puppy. How is he doing tonight?
Danni it sounds to me like you already know the answers. You're doing the right thing and are heading in the right direction, just keep on keeping on mate.
I had a blissful 1 hour full body massage last night and it only cost me $45! I wish they had specials like that more often.
Tonight I will go to the gym and will do weights and some cardio.
Awww lindor im sorry about mista. but i woiuld have done the same as you a little glimour from the vet would have been enough for me too .. poor baby . 16 is really old for a dog you must have taken really good care of him .
Julia $45 is so cheap!!! Massages are great . . . *thinks longingly of being covered in oil*
And thanks for the vote of confidence I think I need to stop worrying about being too regimented etc . . . just bcos that works for other people (and has for me in the past) its not the way for me at the moment.
Today I am feeling much better in the ole noggin' - I really think that working out is my therapy.
I have dental work to get done at 4pm today so I will be having a late lunch. After the last lot I was not able to eat very well that night so am thinking that I will be skipping dinner tonight and hitting the sack once the needle wears off.
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Mista still plods on. Actually, he is a little more himself today.
I hessitantly went to work this morning...had a chat with a colleague, got all teary, but realised I only went to work in hope that if I can get things back to normal everything would be alright again. See I never went to work yesterday because of Mista. And I had the weekend (a three day weekend at that!) to be with him...and watch him deteriorate. There has been a lot of tears over the last few days!
But at about 12.30pm this horrible feeling swept over me! You know the feeling you get when you realise two hours later that you think you left the iron on at home? This feeling I got was like that 100 fold! I was so sure Mista had slipped away at that point. I just got up, told the office I had a horrible feeling, and walked out. By the time I got home I was dry retching with fear.
But there laying quietly on his bed was Mista. I put my hand in front of his nose (he's blind and deaf...he works solely on smell) and his little tail just wagged! Seems like forever since I've seen that!
Look...thankyou all for your well wishes. I do appreciate it.
I can't help but wonder if keeping him here is causing just as much suffering for me? I know if I put him down I will feel a great sense of relief...I'll miss him terribly...but I know I'll feel relieved. And part of me (and there are a lot of parts of me in this dilema) wonders if the reason I can't put him down is because I'd feel like I was doing it for me? I don't know if that made any sense at all, but I am feeling very selfish either way I go.
At the moment, he has his head up, his misty blue eyes (cataract blue) are wide and alert, and he seems very comfortable. He ate well this morning too...something he hasn't done the last couple of days.
Lindor big hugs for you and Mista. I have a 14yr old doggy and I've looked at over the past few days and gotten all sad thinking it will prob be soon. she's partially blind but her hearing is great. rotten little bugga can hear a chip packet sneaking open a mile away. they become so much a part of your life. lately shes just been laying around but still jumps up when u say her name (even whisper it) and runs around after the kids in the yard. cant take her for walks though she starts wheezing.
Kel wow u rock sista. 800gm.
We have a 12 week fitness challenge starting here but it is so expensive and time consuming. u like have to go 5 times a week plus extras.
gotta go.. matt just rocked up and will spew seeing me on here again haha post soon
Lindor is so terrilbe loosing a good friend, whether its people or animal. If it was me I think I'd give it a couple more days and see how things progress. Honestly having the choice is hard but if it was a people friend and you knew you could end their suffering would you do it for them? I think I would. Still a very hard decision to be made. My heart goes out to you. XX
I had a job interview last week and it went really well. Got a call back today asking if I would like to come in for a couple of hours to see if I would like the job! Sounds promising. Fingers crossed!
That's great news Barb, sounds really promising! Best of luck with it
I've applied for a second job and they're having an open recruitment evening next Monday so I'll be going to that. The stink thing with having 2 jobs though is that the secondary tax rate is so high that it really is a killer.
Lindor I'm glad to hear that Mista is a bit better today. Whatever you decide to do, I'm sure you'll do the right thing for both of you. It's not fair for him to suffer and it's equally unfair for you to have to watch him suffer
I had a good session at the gym tonight, did a spin class followed by weights. Weighed in and am down 300g which to be honest, I'm a bit disappointed with. Trying not to be though ... after all, it's 300g in the right direction and as we all know, slow and steady wins the race!
just got back from the pool ... there was a great motivater there in a group of tall hot guys that kept standing up one end.. lol there was all girls in my lane and we were all drooling and giggling ... we would all get up the pool fast so we could turn back and see some more ....great workout ... and boy did i leave the pool smiling.. after my hour of laps
barb well done on the job.. whats will you be doing?
hang in there - what is your dog's name?
All that working out is paying off!
