I am really glad to hear your at a shelter. You are the master of your destiny and decisions you don't need anyone to tell you whether the decision your making is good for you or not. ONLY you know whats best for you. Listen to your instincts please, don't go back to him.
Remember that you left for a reason. Going back to him will make matters worst.
I *left* my husband twice before I actually left for good. Each time I fell for the promises, tears, threat of him hurting himself. All of those tactics are ploys to keep you from leaving and being under his thumb. My ex even pretended that he drank a bottle full of pills to see what my reaction would be and it was later did I find the pills hidden under the bed!
Fact of the matter is, he is broken, not you. Every dart that comes out of his mouth is really venom that he wants to inflict on himself but its easier for him to spit it at you. He is emotionally crippled and does not know how to deal with his emotions and lashes out at you instead. You do not deserve nor belong in an environment like that. I have been in your shoes, trust a stranger, have faith in yourself and seek comfort from your friends and family. Not the memory of what you think he is/was. All of that is a mirage. He needs professional help, if he doesn't choose to seek that's his problem to bear. Go see a therapist and don't be embarrased to talk about this at length.
I'm at the women's shelter. I'll be able to talk to a counselor soon. I'm going to tell her to kick my *** if I start thinking about going back. I just wanted a neutral but understanding person to tell me to my face that I'm doing the right thing. Then I'll be homeward bound to beautiful Wyo by this evening.
Thank goodness! I, like many other people here, have been waiting to see a post from you this morning that you were ok.
I am so glad that you are getting safely away from this situation and from your abuser. I know you cherish your cats so much ~ are you able to take them with you on your journey home?
Please stop posting your location and plans on this site. Please remove the mentions of where you are going, and if you've quoted her, please erase it.
Be safe!! No one on this site needs to know where you are going or where you are. This is a public site that is accessible by your husband if he so much as googles your name.
So, so glad to hear from you today! Like many others, I have been watching this thread and checking for updates as often as possible.
Just remember that you are doing the right thing. Allow yourself to be numb for awhile. Let your family and friends handle some of the decisions, like how to get your stuff back to you. You need to heal and process all of the emotions overwhelming you right now.
You are in my thoughts...
