So far behind! Just wanted to say hi and check in!
Starting the New Rules of Lifting for Women program tonight. I've also decided to follow their calorie guidelines for fat loss which is just a 300 calorie deficit, and I think I may try and avoid the scale as well. From what I've read on the NROLFW forum, it's typical to not lose any weight at all the first 6 weeks of the program, even on a deficit, due to muscle gain and water retention. I have actually been avoiding lifting for about 2 weeks because I don't want to see the scale go up, which is just completely ludicrous.
I'm in a weird place right now and I think I need to focus on taking care of myself and not so much on the scale (earth shattering revelation right!? captain obvious over here). I've kind of gone to a bad place and I need to get out of it.
Hey guys! I wanted to do personals but I really don't have the time and I've gotta go away for a few days tomorrow. Hopefully I'll have a chance at some point then. Sorry.
I controlled the wine beast yesterday and didn't eat everything but today I had a bit too much apple crumble and ice cream. Pretty soon after eating it I noticed I was getting a lump under my skin on my cheek.. I wonder if I'm allergic to something as this has happened before. (care to google that for me, ChickieChicks?) It was shop bought crumble and ice cream.. HMM.
Also I got my eyebrows waxed for the first time ever and she freaked me out telling me not to touch the area or wash my face.. wtf
Just a quick check in... busy day today! (I'll have lots of time for personals tomorrow).
Today I got hit by the binge bug HARD, and in order to combat it I had to take my mind off of it and do something else... so I shopped. A lot. I came home with a whole bunch of new candles and soaps from Bath and Body works, some new tanks, pants and hoodies from Victorias Secret (and of course a bit of lingerie and fragrance!), some costume accessories for both my Halloween costume AND my photo shoot coming up, tons of magazines and two new books!
THEN I went and spent $450 on more botox! LOL wow... It would have been better and a whole lot cheaper just to binge. My word.
I just got news that my husband will have to deploy to a very dangerous area right before I separate and move to colorado, so it's looking like I'll have to make this move on my own. The part that really sucks is that I HATE his crappy old house he's renting so we were going to find a new place before I moved. Now I'm not only going to have to move into that place ALONE, but then when he gets home I'm going to have to move again. BLAH!
Anyway, that was my day in a nutshell. I'll catch up with everyone tomorrow!
I rounded out my day well. We got to have a Mottainai-approved dinner tonight, meaning lean protein and vegetables, yessir, and that doesn't happen so often! And tomorrow we're having shrimp, so that's twice in a row. I know there's nothing wrong with higher fat or carb-y dinners, especially since I eat clean the rest of the day, but it's still nice to have full days once in a while too. Tomorrow is (was!) my favorite binge day, but I'm so still ready to stay on track and leave all my binge money at home and hit the gym again!
Joss- Great job battling the binge urges! You gotta do what you gotta do. I don't know much about botox, so this might be a really stupid question, but where are you getting it done? I'm so sorry to here about your husband!! I can't imagine how hard it is for you to be away from him, especially while he might be in a dangerous area, AND have to deal with all the moving stuff on top of that. ): My husband and I were long-distance the entire year+ we were dating and engaged, and it was so tough.
Leila- I remember the first time I got my eyebrows waxed. I always had HUGE thick eyebrows, and the lady that waxed them overdid it rather a bit, but it still was like a revelation for me, I felt so much prettier afterwards, lol. Sounds like you're doing well!
Lockitup- Never heard of NROLFW, but it sounds interesting, so I'm gonna check it out. I really hear how you're struggling, but it sounds like you've got your head around it and are moving in the right direction! Best of luck to you.
Krampus- Much congratulations on the low Monday weigh-in. That's super! Hope you finished out your day well also!
Definitely looking like it's been busy for most of us! Went overboard at lunch, but intentionally since I ate at like 2:30 and hubs is working tonight. Ended up being an OK deal since I got caught up in Halloween shopping and debating random strangers on Twitter about politics and couldn't pull myself away long enough to eat. So I'm actually sitting just barely over 1200 calories and am going to grab myself a SMALL snack before I get to bed so I don't wake up starving.
We don't need to get into yesterday LOL... we went to howl-o-scream at Busch Gardens and I justified eating almost 2200 calories by the fact that I spend 3 hours walking briskly around a park that is like ALL hills. Trust that you don't want to be out of shape if you want to get from point A to point B in this park efficiently. I also had done an ab workout before we went. IDK my app had me at alike 50 calorie deficit yesterday so at least I broke even.
Spotting, so hoping that means TOM will ACTUALLY show up this time??? IDK though since I spotted a few weeks ago and nothing then. I'd be more worried about it but my body is known for being irregular, unpredictable, skipping sometimes 2 months in a row (and NOT from a calorie deficit, just for funsies apparently), having pre-period symptoms without a period, and all that. So we will see.
Bayzee - I really don't think that you're doing all that much damage with the wine, considering that you are counting the calories from it into your totals. (Just to clarify, you meant that you count that in, right?) Maybe just start trying to either cut out one "pour" each night, or take a little extra walk to offset the calories?
Mom23Kids1 - That sounds like a good plan. If nothing else, you can always adjust your goal; I'm sure the majority of us have done that multiple times by now!
masterptr - Not every day can be the best workout you've ever had, but even your 'crawling' 10.5 MILES puts like 99.9% of the world to shame! Way to go!
Turbo - I LOOOOVE to bake, especially this time of year, and not eating what I make is so hard! I guess in that way it's almost fortunate that I don't have my hubby here to cook for (I've been known to make massive and extremely elaborate cheesecakes for him... and myself) and that I don't want to be down in my kitchen more than I have to with so many bodies in my house!
I'm sure you'll feel normal again in no time, you just might need a little sugar detox.
LockItUp - I just saw your other post in the Weight Loss Support section regarding your non-weighing pledge. Good for you! You know I support whatever choices you make, and it sounds like this is a good one for you. I too had to take a bit of a break from the scale, but now I think that time is over. I have tried several methods and through that trial and error I think that the once-a-week approach really does work for me best.
How did the first workout go last night?
Krampus - I hope things slowed down enough for you to get some more food in ya yesterday! Congrats on the Monday weigh-in... It's always nice to have things look better than you expected. I'm preparing for a hard hit on Saturday when I resume my weekly WI. I haven't done it since 5 October and I've had some BAAAAAD days in the meantime!
Leila - How was the eyebrow waxing? I tweeze mine... my skin is so sensitive that the ONE time I had them waxed I literally had huge pink marks on my brows for DAYS! It was so embarassing and tender!
Where are you off to the next couple of days? Anywhere fun?
Mottainai - My husband and I have been long distance since June of 2011 when he moved to Colorado. He and I were dating at the time, so we have actually gotten married since being apart (July 2012). It's been rough, and by the time I get out there it will be 2 years apart (and he won't even be there!) but between deployments we see each other every 5-6 weeks for a few days. It's certainly not ideal, but it's not as hard as one might imagine. We NEVER argue, trust eachother implicitly, and stay in contact just enough to miss eachother and not to get sick of chatting/texting/talking. We make it work. It's funny to think that we've never lived together, and by the time we do we will have been dating/married for over 3 years!
I know Tuesday's are tough for you... sending you my support!
Kakers - Thats the good thing about tracking... even though you feel like you ate a lot you can see that with all that activity it actually balanced out! Good luck with TOM... that can be frustrating for sure.
I posted a couple of new blog entries... gotta be better about doing that! One is just a copy of my long diatribe from the other day about my living situation, but I added a recipe as well. I'm going to make more of an effort to keep it updated!
Just wanted to say sorry for not posting most of this month - I hate to be a fair weather feather but I think I am! It's crunch time and I have so much work to do with full-time school but 3 jobs! I haven't even been thinking about my diet.
Mottaini : Oh god, poor coffee pot!! Luckily it is still working!! I do get you, I feel always super cool with myself when I managed to had THREE healthy and not carb loaded meal during a day!
krampus : Still busy from your conference, as I can see How everything is rolling for you!
lockitup : Good luck for the lifting thing! You might not see big results on the scale for a while, if you look once in a while, but you should definitely feel a difference in you clothing though.
LeilaJey : like you said, wtf about not washing your face after waxing? weird. Maybe she was trying to say something like don't use some harsh face product on it.. weird! Hope you're having a nice time away!!
Joss : SHOPPING!! what a NICE way to control a binge Sorry to hear about your moving situation though I share your love of baking! As my boyfriend can eat much more without gaining weight, I usually feed him the good stuff while I have tiny little parts At least the chocolat cookies are all gone now!
katy : great for the calories deficit!! Hope TOM will show up for you! was your cycle always that irregular? or is it a new thing?
Lisa : Hey girl! Full time job and THREE job? You're my hero! Don't forget to take care of yourself
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Hiiii! Still at 136.8 today, which I'm okay with, my food intake was all over the place for the last days, so if I'm maintaining, I'm fine with this.
We had tomato and feta quesedillas with homemade guacamole for our meatless monday meal last night and the boyfriend did not complain. I guess he really came around for the meatless thing once a week, which is nice that I don,t have to fight with that every monday. I also ran 27 minutes last night. Yay!
The guy should not complain. We are not fighting right now, but we are slowly getting some issues over here. I know I'm not working right now and that I can do a lot of things in the house, but I wasn't planning of doing.. everything. It's been more than 3 weeks since he washed some dishes by his own lead. Plus he's complaining how poor he is right now, while HE still have a paycheck coming in while I don't. It's getting a bit hard, doing all the home stuff (which I'm not really happy about it, it's getting really boring staying at home doing nothing all day).. BLEH.
Hey Joss
hello Everyone!!!
it is great Tuesday and I feel really good today.
ended up doing 17.5 miles today
I am so happy today.
gotta shower now and maybe take a nap before housekeepers show up.
gotta get out of the house before they arrive...
maybe I'll do some clothing shopping today!!!
Joss...Since I know it's not a realistic goal to give up wine, I am going to cut back on out "pours"! I do count it into my calories. I'll let you know how it goes. BTW...I'm trying to to figure out how to do the RFL for 2 days. Do I still need to take the vitamins/fish oil? Are you going to do a refeed or cheat meal after the 2 days?
I love to shop..and I often shop when I'm avoiding being at home. I'm a shoe and boot shopper!
Mottaniai...I love coffee too! I love our Cuisinart coffee machine. A good investment if you are looking for a replacement.
Leila...I know how hard it is to control the wine beast...still can't do it!
Did not have a good low carb eating day..went to a conference and they only served pizza. Had 2 slices and 2 cookies. I don't really eat sweets, so I just think I was bored! DH made tacos for dinner..so had one flour tortilla. This is my worse eating day in 2 weeks...but it's done and I need to move on.
Bayzee – I’m like that with cookies. If they are around I eat them, I don’t even consider if I want them or not sometimes. Did you decide to give the RFL a try?
Masterptr – How long does 17.5 miles take? That’s crazy long!
Turbomammoth – You’re right, and I decided I’m just not going to worry about the scale! I have more of a size I’d like to be, so really what the scale says doesn’t mean a thing. Your meatless Monday meal sounded delish! I hope you and your BF can talk about the issues you are having. Sometimes that stuff, though small, can escalate into a rather large issue; well, in my experience anyway, might be a different story for other people.
LisaTcan – You sound like one busy woman!!! Take care of yourself!
Joss – Your living situation does sound very stressful! I lived with my mother & father & brother in law for a while years ago and it was just awful. They are wonderful people but that many adults living together is a recipe for disaster. I also cannot imagine living with someone else’s child. I LOVE my own children (of course) but I am NOT a fan of other people’s children. I’m not a kid person, my own being the exception. And I’m very sorry to hear about your hubby going to be deployed somewhere dangerous and all of the crap that is coming along with that!!! Even though your not a hugger I’m sending you hugs anyway!
The first workout went VERY well. It’s Wednesday now and I’m supposed to get my 2nd workout in today, but my lord I’m so sore! I think I’ll do it anyway, but yikes. I went and got some light cardio in yesterday, so I’m doing great so far this week. The nutrition is going well too. And not weighing has been such a huge relief. I may try and put off weighing until the 31st when I would be doing my measurements for the month anyway.
Kakers – Howl-o-scream. . . sounds fun! Is it a haunted house type thing? I’m too chicken to go to those! Hope TOM will show for you, have your periods always been like that since you were young?
Mottainai – I do think I’m moving in the right direction. I actually feel in a TOTALLY different head space today than I did just a few days ago! Were you able to avoid your binge day? Also the pic of the coffee pot cracked me up, that is SO something I would do. I don’t know how many things I’ve melted on the stove. I keep a fire extinguisher near by!
Leilajay – WOW wonder why your waxer was scaring your about that. I’ve never had one tell me cautionary advice. I love me some wine too! I will always drink a whole bottle, so I try and not have it too often! I’m quite the wine-o! Love those pics too BTW!
Krampus – Seems like you are doing GREAT! How is work!?
Mom23kids1 – Those online calculators definitely are all over the place! I’m sure it’s somewhere in the middle. Plus it’s kind of trial and error. P.S. I love that so many Feathers are 5’6”!
Chickie – LOL your post about your hubby’s little actions driving you nuts are so relatable! Sometimes I feel like the world’s biggest B because just the smallest little things make me want to kill my husband! And yes my kids drive me bat$h!it crazy constantly as well. They are so little too, I know it will only get worse, ahhhh something to look forward to! I keep planning to try the Tuesday yoga class at my gym but I’m too chicken. I’m so inflexible (physically and mentally lol), but a friend of mine posted a pic on FB that said “Saying you are too inflexible for yoga is like saying you’re too dirty for a bath”, HA!
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WHEW! Wow I was very behind. I didn't go super far back but I think I've kind of caught up! Today is a slow day at work because the "kids" (17-20 year olds) have standardized testing today so I'm just sitting here.
I'm doing really well so far this week. I'm feeling WAY better than I was several days ago. It has felt great to get back to the gym, and it has felt great to actually eat a fairly substantial amount of calories. I'm hitting the assigned macros, and I can't tell you how much better I feel physically and mentally! Hope you are are doing well too!
Kakers - I've always wanted to go to Busch Gardens! I'm a huge roller coaster fan. It's true, those amusement parks are such good exercise, lol.
Jossfit - That's awesome that you are your husband are making the long distance thing work. I'll be interested to hear how you guys adapt to living together full-time once that happens! I actually miss some aspects of the LDR sometimes, myself. We've been living together since we married 10 months now, but that's still not as long as the time period we were in separate countries, now that I think about it! OH, and I read your blog. (:
Lisa - I'm new here, nice to meet you! Fellow Canadian here, though on the west coast. Can't believe you're keeping up with three jobs! Best of luck to you.
Turbo - Great job for maintaining. Your meatless Monday sounds yummy. I have to admit, I'm a home-maker type by nature and love staying at home doing the house chores, lol, so weird, right? But unfortunately for me our situations are reversed, and I'm at school full-time while DH is at home job searching..but at least he's doing a good job with the housework things. Wish I could switch with you, though!
Masterptr - 17.5 miles, what the heck, that's incredible! How do you ever manage that?
Bayzee - Always glad to meet a fellow coffee lover. Are you trying to do the low carb thing? You're absolutely spot on to just keep on going forward and not stress over one bad day! (:
Lockitup - I'm very glad to hear you're doing so well! I'm also doing great with the new mindset. It's pretty neat, actually.
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Having another good day so far, myself. Actually, I'm feeling quite great even, much more fit and strong, enjoying workouts, and loving not binging. Not weighing or body checking is also actually enjoyable, lol. It feels a little like I'm closing my eyes and running for it: it's fun seeing how long I can make it before I open them and exciting to hope I'll see great progress when I do. PLEASE don't y'all let me get complacent though!! I've got to just keep going here.
Only thing is, my appetite is kind of shot! I actually woke up hungry in the middle of the night last night, couldn't sleep until after I got up and shoved some turkey in my mouth. It's like, while I was binge eating every other day, I had to make the rest of my calories as high-quality as possible and I felt like I couldn't really waste any on indulgences. Now that I know that I'm eating at a deficit and totally CAN indulge a bit, I find I really really don't want to. My willpower is also at a recharged all-time high, now that it's not being sapped by trying to resist the binges. But hey, not that I'm really complaining about it! (;
LockItUp and mottainai,
it took about 4.5 hours
I was walking.....
can not run for a while.
not working these days. thinking about getting into a different business.
so, losing weight is my work these days.
morning walk 9.5 miles
after morning 5.5 miles
total 15 miles today
but eating more calories with PMS
still doing alright.
TurboMammoth and LockItUp Yes, this kind of irregularity has happened since I was old enough to have a period, freshman year in college it was pretty continually like this with the random spotting and cramping without an actual period. I was on the pill for somewhere around 4 years, which is the only time it was regular, and since then this is much less common (though skipping periods altogether is normal.)
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So, TOM has arrived finally! My weight is holding steady though which is frustrating me. I had a great day Monday calorie wise, Tuesday was still a deficit even though not as good as Monday. And now today so far so good and it's gymnastics day so I can go over my usual just a little bit. I've also been drinking water tons more than usual. I actually wonder if it's water weight from drinking more water and less caffeine because unless I'm drinking soda I don't actually go to the bathroom more often when I drink more water. We'll see if the scale budges in the next few days. I could really use it or else I'll just be so tempted to give up! I'm not hoping for much but would be happy getting below 155 again! Just a half pound would thrill me.
Bayzee : As you said, what is done is done. You can always focus on the remaining of the week and rock it!
Lockitup : How is the lifting going so far? Did you finally lift today? I'm always so impressed about the lifters, I wouldn't bare being sore for days after lifting.. I don't like hurting LOL
mottaini : I would so switch places with you! I'm really just cooking, cooking, and cooking. I planned cleaning up all the appartment but ... I just really enjoy cooking LOL It is great and inspiring reading about your regain willpower though Enjoy your steak!
masterptr : great amount of miles!
kakers : Weight holding steady is maybe not what you are waiting for, but at least it's not going up! I still hope the scales moves a bit!
Krampus & Joss : Hope you're doing okay, girls!
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135.6 this morning, yay! My tummy is getting flatter... feeling way better with myself right now.
I went for a 30' run, straight today, no stop! I managed to do 4.7 km in this amount of time. I was so happy to stop in the end. I'll want to die on Sunday at the 10k race
The cooking&baking party today included some healthy zucchinis&dark chocolat chips muffins (froze half of them for the future) and a pull appart cinnamon bread. This thing is GOOD god, I ate a bit of it.. so hard to get away I made myself some killing red kidney beans vege burger tonight on a WW english muffin and a light salad. I have big things planned for tomorrow that I want to test... Oh, how my life is exciting :P
) It was shop bought crumble and ice cream.. HMM.
I share your love of baking! As my boyfriend can eat much more without gaining weight, I usually feed him the good stuff while I have tiny little parts 
