Lets see... I'm debating going to the gym today; I haven't taken a rest day in a while and I KNOW I should, but it's hard to make myself. I got some immunizations yesterday (Flu shot and anthrax booster shot) and my arms are SO SORE today. The flu shot isn't bad, but that anthrax booster is a killer. I don't usually have a problem with shots but it's so bad today I can't hardly lift my arm. Maybe a good incentive to rest? Maybe a ‘light’ workout? Gaaa! I hate not being able to just rest like a normal human being.
Things have felt so beyond my control lately, and it’s been hard for me because I’m a bit of a control freak. My home life, not having my husband around, my weight, my injured foot, work crap (am I deploying? Am I not? Separating…), getting set up for school this fall… too much stuff! Anyway, last night I went through ALL of my personal paperwork, magazines, photos, books and scrapbooking materials and organized all of it. I got a new file folder to put all my documents in and magazine holders to hold the ones I wanted to keep, and much more. It took a couple of hours but I felt really accomplished afterward. It was nice to have something to get control of.
Work is sort of jerking me around about whether or not I’m going overseas. They said no, but they are now saying that I will still go after I heal from my foot surgery, (even though I haven’t a clue when that will be or how long the recovery is) so I may end up being gone 6-8 weeks, longer, or not at all. It would be nice to have an idea! Sheesh! I’m so tired of this kind of crap. Sometimes I feel like I’m going to miss it, and sometimes (like right now) I can’t hardly wait to get out!
Speaking of work stuff; I did my annual PT test yesterday, and since I'm not able to do the run component the other three parts (abdominal circumference, pushups and sit-ups) are averaged together. I maxed out those parts so I got a full 100 points on my test. Pretty nice! haha
I also FINALLY weighed in today, and I was really nervous about it. I know that the number is just a number but it can be such a powerful little number.The last time I weighed was 5 October, and I was at 118.4 pounds (which is a few pounds above my 'happy range'). Since then my hubby was in town and I ate like crap for 3 days, I did the RFL for a bit, then I ate like crap again last weekend... plus a handful of 'average' days. I really had no idea what to expect.
When I did my PT test yesterday they weighed me and it said 123.3 lbs. Granted, I had a few light articles of clothing on, I had eaten breakfast, and I hadn't had a BM. From that number I was trying to estimate how much I would weigh under normal circumstances (first thing in the morning, naked, before food or water, etc.) and so I was prepared to see 120 on the scale this morning.
Higher than that would have really sucked, so anything lower would have been a bit nicer, though I wasn't going to hope for a miracle!
Anyway, I was 117.8 pounds today. Ideally I'd be between 114-116, but I do feel like I have added a bit of muscle along with my fatness since I've been lifting heavily and consistently even during periods of overeating.
So... here's my dilemna; it's the Saturday prior to Halloween and I really want to go out and drink, be a fat kid, and take a much-needed rest day today. The fact that I'm only a couple of pounds above my happy weight right now isn't exactly discouraging me from doing it, since it's easy to say "well, I can still lose 3 or so pounds fairly easily over the next 2 weeks"...
Turbo – A bit of cake and some salty chicken isn’t too bad lady! Besides, you got out and had a nice run, so I’m sure it didn’t hurt you at all. Becareful with that foot too! Having to take it easy isn’t fun (I definitely know that part of it right now) but you don’t want to do any long term damage to it if you can avoid it!
Your kitty is adorable! I miss my big guy so much sometimes.
Your pizza rolls remind me of a recipe I found for some fried eggplant rollitini. If I had more patience (and someone aside from myself to cook for) I might actually try them!
Bayzee – Oh, I’m so sorry about the sinus infection! That had to have been miserable, so I hope you’re feeling better now. I actually did the two-day RFL type protocol the last two days, and I think it worked really well for me. It was a good little boost to my weekly deficit (I think anyway) but it wasn’t long enough for me to feel deprived, sluggish, tired, or get any kind of keto/low carb headaches. I’m definitely doing it again this week!
Krampus – Still feeling like a Zombie? You had a hard week… you had better be blowing off some steam and relaxing this weekend! J
Mottainai – I’ve been keeping an eye on all your posts… keep it up lady! I too seem to have an easier time on the weekends, since I have a lot that I can do to keep busy and distracted. I usually plan out my big treat days, but lately I’ve had more than I want to and that is what has been leading to those guilty feelings. Prior to that, I actually didn’t feel that way at all, and it was a nice relaxing boost for my mind and body to have a day of eating whatever I felt like. I’ve just wanted more of it lately and it’s been conflicting with my goals.
I assume you made it through Friday okay and got a whole week binge-free?! I sure hope you did! What plans do you have for the weekend?
Chickie – How much of a hottie are you?! Your poor husband has to put up with a gorgeous buxom blonde… I wonder how he does it. J Seriously, I’m loving the ‘do… super cute. It sounds like a busy weekend for you. I’m sure you’ll have a good time, even if it is raining and crappy. I’m south of you and we’re getting crap weather too, but it’s not expected to be like the storm you guys are going to get up there in VA. Have a drink or two and loosen up before the run… haha.
Leila - Yes, that's exactly what that little 'game' is! It's letting the universe be responsible for my bad dietary choices rather than just making a choice and being okay with it. If there is some sort of 'sign' I must be meant to eat whatever I want for the day! haha
I too feel like 'why do I keep doing this to myself' so you totally aren't alone there. I'm sure that some of that will come off right away, so try not to stress it so much. I know, I know... easier said than done right? Here I just wrote 89 million paragraphs about my few pound gain over my 'happy range' and how that makes me feel/act/etc. LOL God I'm such a hypocrite sometimes! hahaha
Anyway, I'm glad you had a good trip and are back again!
Sorry if I missed anyone! I’m going to get off my butt and figure out if I’m going to the gym or not. A ‘light workout’ might be in the cards for me today. I’m worried if I don’t do anything I’ll go to the other extreme and just eat my face away today…

We ran/walked the 10K in 1:10. It was pretty bad. Our 14K was 1:28 earlier this year. But I squeaked by just under a 12-minute mile, despite walking A TON.




I hope to get a picture from my sister to share with you all. I'm also tempted to have my own halloween party next weekend so I can wear it again.