Just a quick check-in for me. I went so crazy on Friday, binged again... lesson learned, don't try to think I can get away with binging a little bit! I'm really working on revamping my strategy here, doing a lot of reflection and such. Will report back on it all later. Going to spend the weekend just hanging out with my husband!

Wishing everyone else a good weekend! and see y'all on Monday.

Mottainai - Ugh, big hugs to you girl... I know how that goes! I also way overdid it yesterday and ended up binging on sweets after dinner. Today was rough but eye-opening (as you'll see below) but I hope it was better for you! Enjoy your time with your husband... lord knows I would love to be able to see my hubby right now.

Masterptr - I dont feel too awful today, but I was hating life last night! You did 15 miles today?! Holy crap you make me feel so lazy! I hope you enjoy the rest of your weekend... you deserve some relaxation.

Turbo - No, we didn't coordinate it but it sure seems like we do a lot of things in synch lately! Sorry your run didn't go as well as you would have liked, but you got out and did it. My workout today (and yesterday too) were just shameful, but sometimes just showing up is better than nothing.

Krampus - I'm going to be a petty b*tch and admit that I'm officically jealous that you are losing weight. I'm happy for you for sure, but I'm in such a nasty place right now that I've got a huge green eyed monster on my shoulder. Send me some of your good vibes!

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Feathers, I have had a breakthrough. This might be a bit long, so please bear with me (and if you don’t feel like reading it all I don’t blame you!)
All of you regulars who know me have seen that I’ve been having a lot of issues with overeating and even binge eating since the beginning of September. It frustrates me to no end that I was doing so well for so long; eating like a champ, hitting my workouts hard, and doing all of that consistently. I was doing well balancing social events and dieting, and my body looked the best it ever had.

Fast forward to now, and I feel like a failure. I’m gaining weight, I’m injured, and I feel like a fraud every time someone asks me a question or talks to me about diet or fitness. In the last week I have had no less than THREE organizations contact me regarding featuring me as a success story for their companies/websites/products – that should make me feel proudbut all I can really think is “well they should see me now… I’m hardly a stand-out like I was”.
I was really hoping the Rapid Fat Loss program would help me (and I honestly think it would have if I had stuck with it, but I didn’t want to experience what LockItUp went through with her near-fainting incident) but even that was only a band-aid on a wound I couldn’t quite diagnose. I knew what I was doing and why I have been gaining fat, but not why I was doing it. Sure, it’snot unheard of for me to go out and indulge myself on occasion (and I really think it’s healthy to do so!) but I have been doing it so often, and to a gross excess.

I have been wracking my brain and beating myself up over it so much. WHY can’t I seem to get my sh*t together?! What is WRONG with me?! I’m such a fat disgusting mess and I’m going to gain back all of my weight I lost. How can I be a fitness professional if I’m not fit? I got rid of all my fat clothes and now everything is getting tight… what do I wear?! Thank God it’s getting colder outside so I can wear bigger clothes and more layers…” It goes on and on that way.
Today, as I mentioned, I had a revelation. Before I get to exactly what that was please stay with me as I give you a bit more back story;

I have been living with a girlfriend of mine, *Jen (*names changed) since July of 2010. She is a warm, caring, amazing woman and I’m lucky to be able to call her a friend. She has a 7 year old daughter, *Cindy, who lives with us (she is a single mom). Jen works with me and as such she also has to go overseas somewhat often. Over the last year she has been gone a lot and as such I had up until recently really only seen her on MAYBE 10 days at most between our various trips. Her daughter was sent out to stay with her grandmother for the last year so I had not seen her at all since June of 2011. As you can imagine, as much as I missed my friend it was a fairly nice set up; huge house all to myself while only paying the bills for half of it and someone there to look after the place when I wasn’t home. Perfect!
Well, early this year Jen went and got herself a boyfriend and they fell for each other pretty quickly. At the end of May he moved into the house just as Jen and I were both returning home from overseas trips. Jen only got to be home for a couple of weeks before she had to leave again, and during that time she was out visiting her daughter along with her boyfriend. After that, she left again and I was suddenly living with a man I didn’t know in this house. Don’t get me wrong, he’s a nice guy and I am in no way uncomfortable with him, but it was a bit awkward getting to know eachother initially without Jen here. A few weeks ago, Jen finally came home and then also went and picked up her daughter from the grandmother’s house. If you’re still following me; there are now four of us in the house PLUS the boyfriend’s huge dog, and that’s where it gets a bit icky.

It’s a large house (3 bedroom, 2.5 bath, 2 family rooms, large front and back yards) but I still feel crammed in here now. I am a grown woman and I need to be able to set up my own home. I’m very organized and super clean, and I absolutely cannot STAND clutter. I’m very set in my ways, like my space and my routine, and honestly I’m not the best at sharing! Haha
The state of the house is a constant irritant to me;

· The dog slobbers water all over the kitchen floor and leaves dog hair everywhere

· The boyfriend always uses the ½ bathroom downstairs and never cleans it

· He leaves his bottles that he spits his chew into on the coffee tables downstairs

· The garage is piled with mounds of stuff so I can’t find anything I need or get to my treadmill if I want to use it (and if I could I wouldn’t want to because the environment is so cluttered and stressful).

· Not only is the house messy but they are all so loud!

· The kid annoys the crap out of me – she’s loud and irritating and asks me a billion questions and CRIES and whines (sorry, Idon’t do kids well either)

· They yell back and forth and laugh all night (I go to bed early and have resorted to sleeping with earplugs to help the noise)

· They’ll start laundry at 9 pm – the machines are right outside my bedroom door

· The pantry is now FULL of junk food

· There is so much stuff jammed in the fridge it makes it hard to find things

· The boyfriend has some weird aversion to dishwashers so he leaves dishes piled up by the sink until he washes them, and when he does he leaves puddles of water all over the counters and floors.

· Whenever the boyfriend makes food he leaves chunks of food on the counters, the handle of the fridge, the stovetop, the backsplash, the walls… everywhere!

I could go on for days about the noise, messes, etc. but you get the point. I am lucky in that I havea separate living room, bedroom and bathroom so the only common areas I have to share with them are the kitchen, garage and laundry machines. Am I being nitpicky? Absolutely, but that’s the reality of it. Are they horrid roommates? Not at all! They just live a slightly different lifestyle than me, but really they try to be courteous, the bills are all paid on time, and they take care of the house. They just aren’t OCD clean like I am. J It’s my own issue and I definitely realize that. It does not change how I feel in this house thought.
I am so looking forward to the day (soon!) that I can move in with my husband in Colorado and we can set up our home together.


How does this all come together? Okay, I’m getting to that …

STRESS!
I have realized that I am terribly unhappy in this house! It was a simple thing today that made me start to think about it, but then it all made sense. I was trying to do laundry and couldn’t because there were clothes sitting in the machines (and still are… and nobody is home to take them out so my wet clothes are sitting in the washer waiting on the dryer… yay… but I digress.)

Last night I invited my roommate out to “get out of the house” for dinner, and it ended up being me, her and her boyfriend, the kid and another friend of ours. Hardly a relaxing time out away from those stressors. I drank a bit too much, ate WAY too much, and didn’t even end up having a good time.

I’ve realized that I really have been using food to deal with stress at home. It sounds so cliché,but it’s true. I don’t have a lot of ways to relieve stress; I workout but I can only do so much of that. I only see my husband every 6 weeks or so, so cuddling/sex/physical intimacy of any kind is out. My cat WAS a good cuddle companion but I had to send him to live with my husband while I was traveling and (as you remember) he was killed in September. Work provides me with enough stress as it is between day to day stuff, upcoming deployments, separating next summer, etc. Let’s not also forget that I now have to have surgery on my foot soon. Home should be my oasis, but it's no longer that place for me.

Food has become my stress reliever and predicably, my biggest source of stress as well.

Somehow making this connection makes me feel a bit better. I don’t know yet what I plan to do with that information, but I don’t feel quite so much like I’m going crazy! I have been killing myself trying to figure out WHY I can’t get myself together, and then killing myself trying to undo the damage and chastising myself and telling myself “STOP IT YOU WEAKLAME-@SS! You’re better than that!”
Maybe just that little bit of information is enough. Maybe that will be enough to make me realize that it’s not always just me… there is some outside influence.


Whew… okay. I think that about covers it.

I think you need to separate yourself from any of the above people and dog(s).
I live in 6100 sq. ft. house - just me and my husband.
BECAUSE, I like you have to have things my way and I can not deal with noise coming from other people, things. I even have to get out of the house (shopping) while the Housekeepers are here.
People like us are not designed to live with kids or other people.
When relatives come in from out of town, I book a hotel room for them.

You will not find the peace while this is going on...

I am so sorry you are in this. But I'm sure you'll find a way to re-organize yourself and perhaps find another roommate who is ALONE.
Good Luck Joss!
and if you stress out, try to eat a little but spread out on a regular daily basis so you don't think about special need to have a special day to Eat.
so sorry....

I really wish that I could, but it's not practical. I am saving money right now because I am separating from the Air Force next summer and moving across the country to live with my husband. I'm also going to be deployed for about 3 months, so I really only have 5 months actually in this house -- spending all that money to move, change my address, etc. isn't practical for that short of a time period.

If this were a more long-term situation I would absolutely agree with you and move out. I don't even need to have a roommate but financially it has been really nice pocketing so much extra money each month. It has allowed me to build up quite a little nest egg!


It sounds like you know exactly where I'm coming from so that makes me feel a bit better. I am just very exacting with certain things and my home is one of them!

Joss Hmm, lots to ponder from your post..
Did your friend ask if it was ok with you if her boyfriend moved in? The whole dynamic has changed - now it's her, her boyfriend and her kid so it's like a typical family situation. It sounds like they've just completely taken over the house to be honest. (although I get that you have your own living room etc)

Can you talk to your friend about how you're feeling?

I totally understand the stress of living with other people who are messy. I cannot relax when there's clutter around, it sucks and my boyfriend's pretty messy. I spend quite a lot of time cleaning up/tidying in general. He's getting better about it all now but I swear his stuff just explodes everywhere and he doesn't notice.

Clearly this is affecting you in a big way, I know you said it's not practical to move out but is there any way to make this work? It sucks to feel like that in your own home so I just hope you can find a solution to this. Would it be possible to even rent a little apartment just for sleeping/washing clothes? I know that probably sounds crazy but if you can afford something small maybe you can still keep on your other place and not worry about changing your address. I'm not sure how practical anything like that is either.

Lots of virtual hugs anyway

mottainai Sorry to hear about the binge weekends are difficult and starting to over eat is a slippery slope. Do you know what sets off your binges? Are you feeling deprived with your diet or is it more of an emotional thing? Have a nice weekend with your husband!

masterptr So many miles! Way to go lady.. enjoy the brunch, you've earned it!

Turbo One more last one.. just one more! I know that all too well. That's like my bag of chips routine. With my mouth and hands completely full and stuffing yet another handful in there.. just one more, I need to keep my hands full.. agghhhh. Welcome to the buttery slide

Hmm not sure what my goal weight is really.. I have 135 for now but I know I'm going to be in the 120s before I'm happy unfortunately. I'm very wobbly and definitely still have a lot of fat on me so I'm probably smaller framed than I thought. I'm trying not to get too hung up on the numbers though, they make me go crazy!

Have a great weekend eating, pooping, hiking (hope it doesn't rain, it's dry here for a change.. maybe our weather swapped?) and alien killing!

krampus 122.4 is AWESOME! Delighted for you. What show are you seeing and where's pixellate these days? Have a great weekend!

chickie Haha, yeah I'm done with the butter slide. How about the um.. banana slide? Sounds fun and delicious.
Well maintaining for a year is amazing, and extra awesome considering everything you've been through this year. I've heard a few people say that maintenance can get boring and you miss the numbers going down. Staying the same doesn't have the same thrill.
I'm not sure I knew anything about PCOS until I joined here, I thought I had it but I'm probably a raging hypochondriac whose internet access should get shut down when I start googling symptoms of any description. I had a lot of weird health problems over the years, some of them very serious and yet I've never had a diagnoses so sometimes I play the Dr. Google game. I haven't won yet
When did you find out you had PCOS if you don't mind me asking?

kakers TOM really can wreak havoc with everything in the belly region.. hope you're feeling better now and your headaches are gone.

LockItUp I'm really glad you're feeling better now! That's pretty scary and I'm also glad that you stopped the diet. Take care of yourself!

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Taking it pretty easy this weekend, planning on having a nice dinner with wine tomorrow with my boyfriend and we're going to go for a walk in the forest. Looking forward to that.

It's actually been a strange week and I found out yesterday while I was in a shop that somebody I know died.. He was in his early thirties and obese. Not sure what happened exactly but it's just sad. I know his mother really well and she's had a lot of health problems herself for the past few months. Nobody should have to bury their child

Finding out by overhearing people talking about it was horrible and I had to ask to be sure that's who they were talking about so I just left the shop in a daze and drove home. Blah.

Back to 136.6 this morning. My lowest ever was 136.2 so I'm hoping to push past that and break my habit of low WI > over eating. Hopefully the wine won't lead me astray..

Have a nice weekend everyone!

I have three kids and yep, kids are whiny, cry all the time, and their annoying I love my kids, but I don't really like other people's kids Hopefully you'll be able to come up with ways to make your situation less stressful-it sounds pretty crazy! At least you have an end in sight so just keep focusing on that and soon you'll be out of there!

krampus Oh I ATE at hibachi, it was the only time I ate all day.

Turbo yeah normally I don't spring for the filet mignon but since we were both on meds for headaches neither of us got an alcoholic beverage, so I could justify spending the extra on some good meat!

Joss That does sound like a very stressful living situation! Also, you are NOT being nitpicky at all. People just have different levels of cleanliness and order they need to feel comfortable in their home, and yours isn't where theirs is. Maybe you could try calmly just telling your friend and her boyfriend a couple of things you would appreciate them changing. Pick the ones that you think would effect you the most (maybe quieting down after you have gone to bed, because being well rested makes it easier to deal with everything else)

Leila Unfortunately TOM hasn't even made an appearance yet. I'm starting to really hate my body lately :/ That walk in the forest sounds nice!

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Seriously getting frustrated. And my husband isn't helping, I could really do without him right now he messes my groove as bad as that sounds :/ He just has NO CONCEPT of my life, he's too busy being lazy and exhausted from work. He KNOWS I am trying to loose weight yet insists on going out for fast food after I have ALREADY told him I ate too much for lunch. Then on the way home has the nerve to ask what he can do to help. SERIOUSLY??? Pay more attention to what is going on with me and show some respect to the fact that I feel like CRAP in my body and stop thinking I'm exaggerating when I say none of my clothing fits anymore. I HATE getting up every day having to get up and stuff myself into pants that are a size too small and we don't have the money for me to buy a whole new wardrobe, so I don't have much choice. He just has no clue. And when he spends all of his time at home sitting on his lazy BUTT it doesn't help me feel motivated.

UGH... can we tell I'm having a bad day? I definitely went WAY over calories today, and my husband was up earlier than I expected so I didn't even get a workout in. He just doesn't get it. Blah.

~Katy

Hello ~~~ LeilaJey
kakers, so sorry about your situation with Hubby
try being Lovely but very Firm with Husband about food eating subject.
I did that with mine and now, I don't go into Kitchen while he is eating dinner if it is not my eating time.
I make up by either before or after sitting down with him on the couch talking about the day, holding hands, let him no how happy I am for the fact he is home early (other nights he goes Mountain Biking after work), neighborhood dogs, friends.....
Mine doesn't eat fast food at all .. still I won't be near him if it is not eating time.
Good Luck Honey!!!

Joss : I TOTALLY understands your point. In fact, I was chatting with some old roomate from college I used to live with that now live in Montreal a few weeks ago, and she was offering to share he appartment for a while if I find a job in Montreal. In the end, I had to admit that I just don't think it would work anymore.

Living with your friend and just adjusting to the habits of one person was probably just fine... but 3? A boyfriend you barely know? And a kid? (I really don't know how you can do with the kid. I'd go nuts.) Maybe your friend just don't realize how the situation is incomfortable to you, because like you said, you have your own bathroom and stuff. She surely doesn't mean any bad, they probably just don't realize how loud they are.

I think it was Kakers idea to pick the most important think that would help you decrease your stress level and mention them to her (during a calm and relax conversation.. when the boyfriend and the kid did not drag along...!) You're still gonna live a few months there, you have to be happy and relax when you are at home.

Bringing the ''you're freaking dog leaves fur everywhere'' or ''can you tell your kid to be less annoying, k? thanx bye'' aren't probably the topic to aim for though LOL. One thing that popped out to me was the garage, when you said you couldn't reach the threadmill. Maybe you could, all together, just put a bit of order in the garage? And where the stress is getting a bit overwhelming, an escape to the threadmill coudld help? (if you can threadmill at all, of course. How is your foot, btw?)

Are you sharing food? There's not much you can do for the closet full of junkfood, but if you could put your stuff in a different closet, so you don,t have to open the one full of junk everytime, it could definetely help. Again, for the fridge, maybe splitting the shelves? So theirs could be chaos and **** while you could finally find your stuff on yours? And asking for the laundry to be started before 9PM shouldn't be a a big deal for them

Hope you can find a easy way into this. Good luck *hugs*

Kakers : I would just show him how nothing fits anymore. Maybe that's the reality checks he needs? Let him eat go out and stay at home.. he'll probably quickly come around realizing it isn't as much fun eating out alone than with someone. But I get you, this is hard situation

LeilaJey : Were you able to take your walk in the forest? We finally did not went hiking, the weather forecast was screaming for rain. It ended up being the most beautiful day in a long time, no rain. I hate weather forecast LOL

mottaini : Huhhhhhhg. Sorry to ear about the binge You're not alone in this though.. yesterady was a HUHHHHG day for me too.

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heyyyy. yesterday started so well with my run and doing a small muscles routine. Oh god.

We ended up going shopping for a baby shower gift and at the Toys Store, I WANTED M&Ms so badly while waiting to pay. Seriously, as a parent, I'd complain that they put candies just beside the cash stuff. If IIII can't resist, how child are expected to? Anyway, I gave in a got myself a small package of M&Ms.

At the grocery, there was a sale of goodies for a random cause. I had a piece of brownies with icing. But it was for a good cause, right?

And for dinner, I had the biggest burrito int the world (homemade, though). I was SO FULL, but it did not stop me from eating a couple of table spoon of dark chocolat chip for dessert. Happily, I had a tea after that and that stopped a bit of the hunger.

Up to 137.6 this morning. I hope to poop at some time today. I feel I'm always going back and forth.

I'm off to cook HEALTHY STUFF. Have a great sunday, Feathers!

Hi there...New to the forum and I'm really enjoying this thread. It's nice to know that I'm not the only struggling to get back to my goal weight and maintaning it. I only need to loose the last 10..AGAIN! LOL! I did very well at maintaining 114 for almost a year, but I overindulged all summer and through all my hard work out the window. My goal is to get back to 111 and sit comfortablly back between 111-114.

I also work so hard all week, only to let go on the weekends. So I'm not really losing. I'm 5'3 and I weighed 121 on Monday..118 on Friday...now 121 today! Nice When the weekend comes..I have no will power..not as much for food, but for my red wine, but we do end up eating out on either Friday or Sat.

I basically follow a similar version of the 17 day diet..Everyday I eat 2 low carb fruits (mostly berries), one 6 oz serving of nf probiotic greek, high protein yogurt, lean protein (at least 100g a day), low carb veggies and the occasional low/non fat cheese. This works well for me during the week..and I honestly don't feel hungry. I never eat past 6 p.m. Nothing..even after a workout. This could be an issue for my weight loss.

I just changed my workout to include a ketlebell class..so I do do bootcamp, circuit training and 2 power pilates class (so 4 days a week). And I walk the other days..just a 30 minute power walk. But when the weekend comes...

JossFit & Lockitup...I really enjoyed your posts on the RWL plan. Someone on the forum recommended it to me to shed those last 10 lbs. I actually would like to decrease my body fat, which I would say is 21% right now.
I would like to try it, but worry too about the dizziness/headaches.

Morning, all~
Thanks to everyone for the hugs and encouragement! Means a lot.

Joss- WOW that sounds like a seriously challenging situation. I've had roommate issues before, and it nearly drove me crazy (one time, one of my roomies kept turning the heater, which was situated RIGHT by my door, way way up, every time I'd turn it down. I ended up sleeping in my car several nights it was so hot!). But mine was nothing like yours. I'd agree with the suggestion to try talking with them, negotiate just one thing at least? Regardless, hang in there girl!! We're all behind you. It's great that you realized *all that stress so you can hopefully cope better.*

Leila- sorry to hear that your acquaintance (friend?) died. ): But that's awesome you're so close to your lowest!! Don't be like me and give in now!

Kakers- Ugh, I hear you on the unsupportive husband thing! I love mine to death but he seems to have no concept about he way I'm trying to lose weight sometimes. :/ That's just a tough situation. Can't live with 'em, can't live without 'em! Lol. Best of luck to you, hope your weekend turns better!

Turbo- Sorry to hear you had a little bigger day than you'd like. Hope your weekend is great!

Bayzee- Welcome!! Hope your efforts go well. I'll look forward to hearing about your progress! (:

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I'm not feeling too super this morning. TOM plus overeating (we had huge steaks!! Yum) and zero exercise yesterday, and weight's back up to like 122. :/ I'm also kinda stressing over an exam I have this week. It's for an online course, and I'm like the least motivated student ever, so naturally I haven't kept up quite as much as I should've. Note to self: never take online class again! I basically never study outside of class, only learn during the lectures, so if there's no lecture, I'm doomed, lol.

Anyway, I'm changing my goals and strategy from here on. After lots of soul-searching and self-reflection, I realized that my binge eating is very heavily connect to my, like, feelings about my weight.

Don't want to make this too long, but basically, for some screwy reason, the time I'm most accepting and positive about my weight is when I binge. It's like I automatically have to start thinking beforehand that I'm already thin enough that I can afford to binge, and then afterward I'm like marvelling at how I can eat SO MUCH CRAP and still at least be not super heavy. A lot of the rest of the time, I'm kinda mean to myself for still feeling too fat, but when I binge, it's like this switch gets flipped and I have to be more positive, I guess because binging is totally associated with the time I started doing it, which was a time a few years back when I actually was unhealthily thin after an illness....

Sooo my plan is to stop focusing on the weight/size so much and instead make my goals around doing healthy habits NOW. Not just waiting around to be happy until I'm "thin enough" but instead praising myself for doing well just as I am! I'm going to stop creating accommodations for myself to binge, and instead allow myself to feel good about myself ASIDE from binging. I'm going to not weigh myself, both to take the focus off weight so much (weigh-ins can either make me feel good if low or bad if high,and both of those create binge urges!) and prevent me from getting upset over late dinners or limiting my fluids. And I'm going to aim for hitting the gym every weekday for just a bit, drink more water, and eat healthfully as I can without being restrictive much, just not snacking after dinner. Just by doing that, I expect I'll lose weight, since I more or less maintain doing so while binge eating regularly, so just replacing binges with regular meals should create a deficit.

Sorry that got so long, y'all!! I just wanted to write it out for accountability. My ultimate goal is to try to do this for 7 weeks (since my half birthday is December 12th and it seems like a good goal day, lol), but I'll concentrate on just trying it out one week at a time....see how it goes!

Off to continue my weekend of leisure! We're going to the harbor to get fish today, I think!

Question for you all-how did you decide what your goal weight is? Is there a calculator somewhere that we can figure out what a healthy weight is for our age/height? I chose my goal because it's around what I weighed, before gaining, but I still was wearing a tight size 10 pant (I'm pear shaped). Now a part of me is thinking-hmm, size 8 sounds really nice lol. But, I don't want to lose too much weight and become unhealthy kwim? I'm wondering how low I can go and still be in a healthy range. Btw-I just turned 34 last month and I am 5ft, 6in.

mom23kids1 - My goal weight is simply the weight I maintained at for many years healthily and happily, putting in little to no effort to stay at that weight other than just normal being in shape exercise and mostly healthy eating (before I picked up my terrible binge-eating habit). Didn't use a calculator or anything. I'm just going by what I feel like is my personal "happy weight," lol, you know?

Personally I've had the same goal weight since I was in high school... though back then I was UNDER that weight. I chose a weight that I feel I look good at and allows me to have the muscle I need to pick up gymnastics skills I want to learn. Mine is somewhere in the lower half to middle of what most charts say is a healthy weight for my height.

There are so many different charts that have different weight ranges it's hard to take any one too seriously. I personally feel that picking a weight were you feel good about your body is the way to go, though it's sometimes too easy to go overboard. You have to pick a weight that allows you to strike a balance in how much you weigh vs how much you enjoy life. Because lets face it unless you naturally enjoy lots of super healthy low calories foods and love to exercise, it can be quite the sacrifice to drop a few extra pounds. It may be by trial an error for some people to find out that balance that keeps both their body and their mind happy.

~Katy

Turbo hahah! Goodies for a good cause.. that's the best way.
I also hate the weather forecast, they're a joke over here! It's always 'sunny spells, showers, wind, temperatures between 8-15'..it's frustrating. Today was beautiful and sunny all day and it actually hasn't rained in a while.. success!
I love burritos. It's hard to have a small one.

kakers Hmm, it's hard to approach the situation with your husband but I get it. Can you sit down with him and seriously talk about it? Sometimes I cook large amounts of food and freeze some portions, would that be possible for you? It would mean that you always have a back up even if he wants to go for fast food.

mottainai Thanks! I'm trying not to but it's hard.. I've already had a big dinner and all I can think about is ice cream cake for some reason because I'm like 7 years old.. yay.

It sounds like you have really figured it out for yourself and you have a great attitude to it. Taking a break from the scale and focusing on healthy habits is the best thing you can do IMO. Hope you had a nice weekend!

mom23kids hey! I'm also pear shaped and we're the same height! I originally chose 140 as my goal weight as I knew it was possible to get there but I also knew that wasn't where I was going to be happy. Right now I'm going for 130 but depending on your frame size we could look drastically different at the same weight.

The Weight Watchers website says 124-155 is healthy range for 5'6 but different people could be higher or lower, these are just rough guides. Try bmi-calculator.net

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Cannelloni and wine was delicious.. I'm a genius I swear. I only had one glass as I could feel the wine binge eating monster approaching. I feel a lot better now but I'm still having some cravings. I might just have a banana and some porridge later and hope that does it.

Forest was lovely. I mentioned I was pear shaped, didn't I? I'm wearing old clothes and boots so not the most flattering but I haven't posted pics in here before. So hi there!