dilynnlew and kat way to go! i am happy for you guys. you'll see that dip soon!
indiblue glad you got that PW. nothing worse than that uncomfortable feeling. and nice when it takes a little poundage with it.
I have IBS and have to watch dairy so I drink Citrucel every day and it really helps. I resisted doing it for a long time because I tend to be forgetful with things like that but my doctor really insisted and I am glad he did. I avoid a lot of that discomfort and bloating and general icky feeling. I also saw on Dr. Oz (it was on in the background while I was working) that drinking a fiber supplement a half hour before dinner helps with the sensation of being full. People say the same things as drinking a glass of water or eating an apple before a meal but for what it's worth, I followed his advice and drink it before dinner.
I woke up feeling lighter today and really there is no reason why I should. No big workout, no cheat meal, nothing out of the ordinary. My carbs were very low, under 65 grams, because I snacked on almonds and edamame and dinner was 6 ounces lean hamburger and a cup of broccoli. Anyway, I saw 117.5 on the scale and had a real hard time believing it. I saw a bunch of people yesterday at the basketball tournament and I know this sounds vain, but, no one said anything about the weight loss. These are women who notice every single thing - clothes, hair, make up, etc. They are nosy and some are just plain mean. But they notice things like that. They comment if I look tired, if I look sick, everything. I started out at 126.5 and at 4'11" it should be noticeable by now. I had on a black terrycloth Juicy sweatsuit with a blank tank under it. I certainly don't see it but I think I have body dysmorphia or something because even when I was 100 pounds I wasn't super happy or anything. Yes, my clothes fit better but not crazy better. Does anyone know what I mean or do I sound like a whiney ingrate? Thank you for letting me write all this...I try not to talk about all this at home in front of my daughter for obvious reasons.
Lisa, I'm sure it is noticeable by now. You're tiny so a nearly ten pound loss has to show a difference. The only thing I can think is jealousy...some women don't like when others are successful in things like that. I've never particularly understood that, because I typically feel happy for people when they lose weight and feel better about themselves (I say typically because when someone is unhealthy and losing weight, it's more worrisome). You don't sound like you're whining. You're working hard and you want a little recognition, nothing wrong with that!
I didn't work out yesterday, which is abnormal for me, but I finished this gigantic paper and afterwards it was late and I didn't want to go out. I kept my calories under control and didn't go crazy, and I woke up having that light feeling. I'm still not going to weigh myself because I want to eat well for at least a week before I do that. I think that even despite my long workouts the past few weeks that the candy benders have really messed with my body. On the plus side, I think that my stomach is getting smaller (internally) because I am starting to feel full after less food. It may just be psychological though.
Lisa! I am so sorry you're feeling this way. I have a hinting sensation that these women definitely notice but are obviously jealous. I hate when some people say things like, "Well you look tired today!" and think it's okay to say because it's just..a sort of observation. It is basically a grown-up version of making fun of someone to feel better about yourself. Ugh. I hate when people are that rude.
Perhaps you can look at or start doing some before and after shots so you yourself can see the change. It is hard to deny a picture. I know looking in the mirror everyday doesn't help you see the change though.
Anyway, I am officially standing around 125. tomorrow i am fasting, going to have a super intense workout tuesday morning, and then pigging out on crap in celebration of Mardi Gras with my boyfriend . then on wednesday, another fast probably and obviously from there I will be giving up said crap for Lent. even though I am not at all religious I like the excuse to take on a challenge of some sort.
Lisa, they're either definitely noticing and just aren't saying anything or maybe these are the type of people who only notice negative things and focus on them. You're doing something positive, so it doesn't make them feel better about themselves when someone else loses weight and gets healthy. Hang in there!
Buffet was a bust, probably ate 4000 calories Saturday. I was all excited about being back on plan yesterday but after I posted in the March Chat thread about curbing my calories, I totally binged on nuts and bananas (who binges on bananas, seriously) and went to bed feeling like failure. Woke up and was 129.9, still 1 kg down from Sunday morning, but ugh.
Binge was definitely tied to emotions. I've taken myself off of birth control (Tri-Sprintec, generic Ortho-Tricyclen) and I am filled with hope that it will magically fix my terrible mood swings and recent depression. I have heard so many horror stories about women's personalities changing for the worse on Tri-Sprintec. I suppose all I can do is hope...and spend this week making smart choices.
Thank you for the support everyone! I really hadn't looked at it as though it were their problem, not mine. I know the weight loss is real because about a year ago, I bought size 3/4 skinny jeans at aeropostale by accident. So, for s**ts and giggles I tried them on today and they fit. I would have worn them but they were flared on the bottom and looked strange on my short frame. Was I drinking when I bought these? Krampus I hope coming off the birth control works for you. It sucks to feel depressed and out of whack all the time. Don't even stress about the buffet. Your health, physical and mental is more important than the extra calories in the long run. And the binge on bananas - I can completely relate. If I were hungry enough I could probably binge on milk bones so bananas and nuts seem like a decent choice to me.
Thanks Lisa. Funnily enough I didn't and still don't feel the least bit bad about the buffet because it was a controlled situation. So I don't sound all piss and vinegar, I squeezed myself into Zara size EUR 36/US 4 jeggings on Saturday. They were a biiiiit tight but I know Zara sizes run small aka not vanity sized so I can definitely look forward to buying new bottoms in America with little numbers on them, even if they're vanity sized little numbers.
As for the body dysmorphia concerns, I can completely relate. How I see myself feels like it has nothing to do with my actual weight and everything to do with some alignment of stars in a distant galaxy in another universe. I'm so happy to hear about your jeans victory - 3/4 is incredible and I can only dream of fitting into such a size!
Krampus, yesss for coming off BC! it may also eventually help you lose weight since estrogen and progesterone or whatever other crazy female hormones they got in there promote fat storage. and like you said, it'll ease moods and thus decrease emoeating. After my three months of Depo-Provera is done, i am either getting an IUD or getting that super low hormone pill, something like lo-esterin. BTW I do not recommend anyone getting the Depe-Provera shot because it causes rapid bone loss, crazy moods swings, sometimes weight gain (I didn't) and sometimes infertility. of course i didn't look into it until after i got the shot :X
Good topic on BC. I'm on Yasmin, which has worked fine for me, but I think it would do me a world of good for me to switch to a lower dose pill. Did you guys see a weight loss after switching off of high estrogen BC?
Krampus, good for you for feeling okay about your buffet. I made a controlled choice last night to indulge in a chocolate dessert at a bakery last night with my BF. Have been super on plan and weight has been coming off steadily so it made sense to me to get a treat. I did and woke up this morning at the same weight, 128.8. I like the happy medium of being both in control but not anal at the same time.
Oh joy...I woke up to a new friend...a cold sore on my upper lip. Really???? It's bad enough counting carbs and calories and measuring and weighing and what is my reward? A cold sore. I have Abreva and a prescription for it so hopefully, I can keep it from blowing up and taking over my whole face.
My husband insisted on getting me frozen yogurt last night (it has the active cultures so with the IBS I can still eat it). Even though I tracked it and it fit into the calories I still felt guilty, esp cause I had him put a few fruity pebbles on top.
Of course, I stepped on the scale and I really shouldn't have because I am getting obsessive about it. However, it said 117. I think it must have been my TOM last week and I am seeing a bit of a whoosh and I will probably go up a bit, as that seems to be my pattern.
Indiblue Good for you! It's good to give yourself a treat once in a while and feel good about it. I am going to get myself some dark chocolate so I can have a piece occasionally. Inteventionn, pinkrunner, and kat thanks again! I think you are right about the women...many of them seem miserable even though most are pretty well to do. My daughter will be going to a new school next year so I am looking forward to meeting new people.
I am readjusting the goal to 110. As I seem to be inching closer to the previous "goal" I realize I am not happy yet with the way I look and the way the clothes fit. It will also offer a buffer so I know when I hit 115 it's time to check myself. At 4'11" I should be 100 to 105 but I know that is just going to be way to hard to maintain. But at least I am on track for the April 14th goal of 115!
I have to put my input on the BC thing. Okay, for the longest while I was on Ortho Tri-Cyclin low. Then I moved and my new Dr. put me on the regular, I don't remember why. I can tell you that in the two months I put up with the regular, I was super moody, sensitive, grumpy, pretty much all the crap you can think of. This is from someone who has the emotions of a man most times; I have absolutely no physical or emotional differences during TOM, no one can ever tell when I'm on it, I don't get cramps, headaches, mood swings, or anything. I went back to the low, and I can tell you it makes a world of difference. I only tell you all of this because the regular dose made me a different person, and the low brought me back to normal. I know this is just one person's case, but if the regular is making you nuts, trying the low can make a world of difference.
Sorry, I know that was long, but if my experience can help anyone else it would be great!
I've been eating well for 5 days, I think my weigh-day is going to be Wednesday. I have no idea what number I'm going to see, because I haven't weighed myself in ages.
Four days off the BC and I am already missing the light periods and clear complexion I had when I was on it. I started bleeding after two days and it's just disgusting, I forgot what it's like to have to use "super" tampons (sorry TMI). Also I swear the skin on my forehead is curdling and turning blotchy.
I do feel less hungry and less moody, but it's all probably still Placebo effect.
Lisa BOO for the cold sore! Did you get some relief? FroYo and fruity pebbles sound incredible, mmmmm. Good luck with the goal readjustment. It's so hard- the shorter we are the smaller the window we have for appropriate goal weight. I actually have no idea if that is scientifically correct but that's what it feels like at least.
krampus andpinkrunner thanks for keeping us updated on the great BC experiment and your own experiences. I should drop to low dosage and see what happens.
pinkrunner how'd the weigh-in go?
So I went to the doctor's and was reminded that I am very officially 5'2 1/2, not 5'3. I knew this in the back of my head, but I do need to readjust my stats. All about accountability right?
Lastly, weighed in at 128.4 today. Here's hoping for 127 by the weekend...
I'm really frustrated with no loss at all. I've been sick for the last few days and Tom came to visit at the same time (still getting over both), but I figured with feeling so down and out and eating little (no less than 1200 cals though) but clean, that I'd at least drop an ounce. Nope. Not me. I'm stuck at 124.6!!! Not fair that when I gained those couple of pounds back, they seem to have stuck now for weeks. Ugh. Go away!! And take TOM and this damn cold with you! There, mini vent over, I feel a bit better now
