The Girl Who Ate Angie

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Chocolate lovers December 30, 2008

Filed under: DAILY — angiemo3 @ 11:07 pm

Two words…..TOOTSIE ROLL!!!! 12 of the small ones are 1pt or 6 of the next size up are 1pt.  If you have a love of chocolate and have not found something to help you through your cravings, that is what I recommend.  I buy a big bag of them and put them in the cookie jar.  I do not over eat them because they are out of site and not laying around.  When I want something sweet I pull out 1pt worth and that is all I eat that way.

Now that I have got that out of the way, I will ramble on about other stuff.  First I did pretty good today with my points.  I am within them for probably the first day.  I am working on my water now, so I will be up peeing all night.  I had a migraine all day today and I still can’t get rid of it.  I hope it will be better by the weekend.

I was thinking about my exercise goals and I need to make a firm daily plan.  It is easy not to start if you do not have structure.  I wrote a list of goals for 2009 in GOALS IN PROGRESS for anyone who is interested.  However they are not specific on exercise so I need to make a new page to keep track of what I am going to do.  Walking is my thing and I would love to be able to jog but I can not find a good sports bra for my big knockers.  I swear they feel like they are about to flap off as I run.  I did not go the other day but I will go in the morning.  I used to not want to walk without a buddy, but I found a lot of peace in walking alone.  It is very therapeutic and gives me time to work through my finances and plans for the day in my head.

The new season of Biggest Loser will be coming on January 6th.  This last time I was still interested in it but I feel like the show is not realistic, so to me I watch it as a competition like American Idle or something.  It does not really inspire me though because the only way I could ever lose weight that fast is if I was on the show.  I think a lot of people who watch it set unrealistic goals because of it.  They focus on good eating habits and hard work, but because they show is based on who loses the fastest, they do not portray a reasonable TIME line.  Then when people see that 2 pounds a week they get discouraged.  I don’t know what put me off on this, but I think this time around I felt like that was great for them BUT I realized that it was going to take me a lot longer to lose the weight.  I mean some of them lose what I want to lose (110) in 12 weeks or something.  That is crazy to me.

This has been a long rambling blog like promised, so I will leave with a thank you.  A lot of people have started to read my blog and leave comments for me.  I want to tell you all thank you for that.  I have had several people tell me that I was brave and they were inspired by me.  I want you all to know that it is YOU who have inspired me to do this.  If I did not read your blogs, I would not have ever started my own.  The things I write about are a way to organize and clear my head of all my insecurities.  I can not say I would still be faithful to this if people were not encouraging me. Thank you all, and advise, comments and your stories are always welcome.


New years and stuff December 28, 2008

Filed under: DAILY — angiemo3 @ 1:36 am

I made all these goals and stuff for the challenge but I find it somewhat hard to grasp.  I think I need to see a plan for the year in writing and mark things off as I accomplish them.  I think marking them off after 2 weeks of sticking to them is a safe amount of time on habits I am trying to kick.  I will add a page under GOALS IN PROGRESS and mark them off.  I also need a daily schedule to go by or I drift off path.  I am not good left to my own devices with no plan.

I am finding that I do well in the morning and then just eat what ever the hell crosses my plate the rest of the day.  I am not putting all my points down because I am kind of aimlessly eating and have no idea what or how much.  It is always like a bite here and there and it adds up, I know that but I do it anyway.  Another thing is that I am finding myself not wanting to cook, we have eaten out more this month that the last 5 months I bet.  It is hard to come home from work at 4 after cooking dinner already for my boss and then spend an hour cooking for us, while the kids are screaming and wanting my attention.  I was meant to be a stay at home mom.  When God gave me triplets I am sure he intended for me to stay at home.

The plan begins……First I have to plan my meals in advance.  I need a chart to pool my dinners for 1 week at a time.  Second it would be nice if I could make it in advance for nights I do not feel like cooking.  Third I need to stick to it, and go to the grocery regular…..that is why I eat out so much.  Fourth, find a way to make it NOT even an option to eat out.  I am going to work on this stuff first.  I should find some good receipts, what is better than a receipt for a plan?

I want to join a gym but there are none close and convenient to me.  This is a pain in the butt and really when do I have time to go to a gym?  I thought videos, but I have known for 2 days that I get free access to workout videos with my on demand…..not done it yet.  Okay, if it rains tomorrow, I WILL DO JILLIAN’S 30 DAY SHED in the morning.

It is interesting to me and frustrating also that I have the power to change my life.  I am unhappy with my body.  I am disappointed in myself for being a bad example for my children, but I still am too LAZY to take hold of myself and make the changes.  Why is it that people hate who they are but they are too afraid to be who they want to be?

New Years plans are set and my sister in-law is coming over with her husband.  I think that we might drink, but I know I shouldn’t.  I have to start back to school in 2 weeks and I hope I will have time to blog.  This is actually good for me because I feel like I am at least accountable for how little I do to work towards my goals.


I made it!!!!!!!!!! December 27, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — angiemo3 @ 12:21 am

I actually made it through the holidays without gaining anything.  I only lossed .2 but I did NOT gain so that is great.  I ate out, I ate sweets, I drank Cokes… was shameful.  I weighed in today and I was -.2 so I was releved.  I saw something on the boards that made my day.  I was tiring to find a really good workout video and I found out that my on demand from Comcast has an exercise channel and it has Jillian’s video and many more for free.  This is great because I can try it out before I buy one.  I think I need to do something at home, because it is easier to commit to than outdoor exercises.  Between the rain and the cold I am known for bailing out on it.

I joined two new challenges and I am going to work on them. One is the #5 challenge.  This is great for me because I will get a pat on the back from everyone for losing what seems to be a insignificant amount usually.  I think it will really motivate me to set mini goals.  The other one is the 2009 New years goals challenge.  I set some goals and I am going to post them here and mark them off as I hit them.  I did a new before pic for this challenge and it will give me something to focus on.

I hate pictures of me.

Anyway my goals are pretty big but manageable if I just make myself be faithful.

WEIGHT (SW)240….GOAL 150…..#90 LOSS
SIZE 22……..GOAL 10


Food December 23, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — angiemo3 @ 1:56 am

Well it was 15 degrees this morning, I got up and made me a bowl of cereal.  As I sat in the dark wondering what the hell I had been thinking when I, number one decided to walk in 15 degrees and number two…..It wasn’t even daylight yet.  So being the genius I am, walking around a secluded track in the dark, while freezing to death all of a sudden did not seem like a good idea.  Well that is what my mother pointed out to me at 6:45 this morning when she called to ask me if I was sure I had really thought the idea through completely….lol.  I have to say that I did not put up a very hard fight.

I went back to work today after a week vacation and I was glad to see her. I missed her and we picked at each other all day.  She is like a grandmother to me but a feisty one.  I stayed within my points but I wanted to eat more. Food is my friend, my comfort, my cure for boredom, and my enemy.  If you think about all the people you see on these sites…..and out of those think of all the ones who have 100+ to lose like me.  Food really can destroy a persons life.  Even when I am not dieting, I am thinking about how fat I am, how it would be great if it was as simple as cutting it off with a knife.  Food tastes great to me, I only eat the things I like and there are a lot of things I do not like, yet I am still fat. Then there are people who never have to worry about a fat gram, a calorie, a WW point, and are rail thin.  Is there really a big difference in them and us?  Advertisers should not be allowed to push  900 calorie hamburgers on food junkies just like drug dealers shouldn’t push crack on a drug addict.  900 calories is in a double whopper from Burger King and the average woman is expected to eat between 1200 and 1500 calories a day  that is outrageous.

The thing is, I know the rules.  I know I should drink a lot of water for faster digestion.  Eat whole grains to feel full longer.  Have fruits and veggies around for snacks.  Stop eating when I am satisfied and NOT when I am FULL.  But I literally can here me saying to myself, oh well who cares if I am fat.  I care damn it.  Of course I only care when it is not something that I haven’t had in a while that is really good.  I have a passion to do better but not the determination to do so.  When you have 110 pounds to lose it is easy to feel like it is not possible and there for I tend to give up before I fail.

Tomorrow I am having a sugar test to see if I am diabetic.  I hope not because I do not need another problem to add to the trouble I already have taking care of myself.

Food is evil …….I have had no coke today…….and I did not walk. Tomorrow brings a new day and a new chance at redemption.


Willpower December 22, 2008

Filed under: DAILY — angiemo3 @ 2:04 am

Willpower is the ability to exert one’s will over one’s actions.

Willpower manifests as inner firmness, decisiveness, determination, resolution and persistence.

Self Control, the ability of a person to exert his/her will over the inhibitions of their body or self.

These are two characteristics that I do NOT seem to have this weekend.  I mean really I have not gone over my points today but for heaven sakes……..STOP EATING OUT…..errrr.  Tonight I had Eggplant Parmesan, yummm, it was sooo good and so worth the points but man I should be eating baked chicken or something at home.

Anyway I plan to do better the rest of the week, even through Christmas.  The weekends are always hard on me because I have errands and house work, and projects to do while still tyring to squeeze in time for the kids to do something fun.  We all had a stomach bug last weekend and they still are not 100% yet.  That put me behind on everything and now I have to go back to work tomorrow.

I am going walking in the morning before work and if I do not freeze to death it will be amazing.  It is going to be between 13 and 17 degrees here tomorrow.  It will be hard to chicken out since I already told my mother to be here 30 min earlier to sit with the kids.  She won’t find it funny at all to drag herself up here and I decide not to go.  I think I might be able to jog some if I have the WILLPOWER to make myself do at least 2 miles.  I’ll have to look at it like “the faster I get around the track, the faster I will be done” NOT ” oh well I can make it up tomorrow, it is too cold to walk this morning”.  Sad but true…..I have to prepare myself for the excuses the night before because I know they are coming.

I have been reading some really great blogs and forums from 3FC’s members and it has really helped motivate me to blog on a regular basis.  It helps me not forget why I want to do this, and in a lot of cases helps me see how possible my goals really are.

To me at this moment the word WILLPOWER means that I WILL emPOWER myself to change my life.


Encouraged December 21, 2008

Filed under: DAILY — angiemo3 @ 1:18 am

I made it through today…..sort of.  I went over my WW pionts and dipped into my weekly points, but I tracked the points and that is half the battle.  I have been on 3fc reading posts and then blogs.  I came to the conclusion that there are some really good writers out there and I might need to work on my blogging skills.  This is my first attempt at a blog and I think it is right up my alley, but I want it to be interesting and useful to other people as well as myself.  Anyway……I found the idea of this is giving me great encouragement to keep going.

Jason and I kind of have a challange going but I don’t think he takes it real serious.  In my house we are up by 7am and we stay up late.  With four small children it is a luxury to be able to sleep late around here, so I thought we would compete for the only day possible to sleep to 9 or 10.  I got him to agree that who ever lost the highest percent of weight each week would get the day.  He reluctantly agreed and the old way of alternating bit the dust.  The weekend after Christmas is the first weekend and it will be based on our Friday morning weigh in’s. We also set major rewards for our weight loss goals. Once we reach 100 pounds lost we will be allowed one reward that is expensive.  He of course being a man, wants to buy a Dodge Ram….lol if they are still making them by then.  I want a tummy tuck and breast lift…lol not much of a reward concidering the pain.  But I figure I have been fat my whole life and at my highest I was 280 and carry most of my weigt in my stomach.  It will be worth it after all the weight is off to really be able to feel good about my body and how I look.

Speaking of Christmas it is fast aproaching and I am not ready. I have done no wraping, no fudge making, no cleaning, and I am having about 10 people Christmas Eve.  I did get the rest of my new floor layed in the bedroom today though so that is something.  The tree has been up for one full day and not one child has climbed it or pulled it down on them yet.  There are always at least small things you can be thankful for I guess.

I supose I will end buy saying if you look hard enough there is encouragement in every day, you just have to look for it.


Inspiration December 20, 2008

Filed under: DAILY — angiemo3 @ 4:28 am

Do you ever have one of those moments that you see others doing so well and you just know you can do it this time. I have those moments all the time, the problem is they are just moments.  I renewed my WW account tonight and I am going to commit myself to blog at least 3 days a week.  I think it would be very theraputic me and helpful to keep me on track.  Today I weigh 240 and I feel like crap about myself.  My goal weight is 130 but I am going to aim for a safer goal of 10% first.  We will say by my birthday Feb 10 that I will make that goal. Surely a little over 7 weeks is not impossible for 24 pounds.

By my Birthday I want to

  • Stop drinking coke……not even coke zero…..WATER WATER WATER…
  • Stay on points plan…..35pts /35 weekly bonus pts

My most recent pic