(at least that’s what I tell myself…)

Summer is over and I made no progress on those last 35 pounds. In July I gained almost 10 pounds while on a week long vacation on the Outter Banks. ‘Round about mid-September we had a cold snap and I switched from my lose summer shorts back to jeans…

OMG! They were tight! Not unwearable tight but not comfy like my shorts and like I think my jeans were last Spring. So, what did I do? Of course I went on an eating spree. All kinds of junk food and huge portions and pretty much anything I could stuff in my mouth. So then my jeans were really tight. Brilliant!

But now I’m back to daily weighing and eating sensibly and getting my life back in order.

October 8th, 2011 at 4:54 pm | Comments & Trackbacks (0) | Permalink

The last couple months have just been crazy hectic and it finally got to the point where I was starting to be really stressed about finding the time to track my food and weight. So I took a break. I’ve still been (mostly) making healthy choices but I wasn’t tracking anything. During my 6 or so weeks off I got less vigilent about taking my vitamins, getting enough sleep, and eating my veggies. I didn’t gain weight but I also didn’t feel as good. But some of that may just have been because my life was just crazy busy.

Life is still busy but as of today I’m back to tracking. And getting out for longer walks with the dogs. And taking my vitamins. I’m not sure how I’m going to manage the “getting enough sleep” part but I guess I’ll work on that too.


June 22nd, 2011 at 3:30 am | Comments & Trackbacks (0) | Permalink

sourdough english muffins - so easy and sooooo yummy

For reasons known only to the jerks of the world I’ve been getting dozens of spam comments to this blog.  So I went back through every entry and made them closed to comments. From now on, only 3FC registered users will be able to comment here.  It’s not like I write my infrequent posts for anyone other than me anyway.  Still, it seems kinda anti-social to lock folks out and I apologise to any real people out there who wanted to comment.

Meanwhile, before I was attacked by spam I was meaning to get around to writing an entry.

Pictured above are some english muffins I’m making. Turns out english muffins are really easy to make and so good fresh off the griddle. I’ve been going all out making food with sourdough and whole wheat sprouted flour. I don’t eat a lot of non-veggie or fruit carbs but through my whole weight loss I’ve always allowed myself the equivalent of a sandwich’s worth of bread – it might be pasta or a whole wheat english muffin but most days I had some healthy whole grain wheat based product. The beginning of the year I started baking with sourdough because I love sourdough bread but can’t find locally made whole wheat sourdough. I’m using a whole wheat starter and splurged for spouted flour because everything I’ve read makes me believe  the spouting process really does make the wheat more nutritionally accessible. I’ve made some nice bread, plus crackers, cookies, muffins, and pancakes (the kids I work with are loving this new phase of my exploration of healthy eating!) but my favorite so far has been my english muffins. Calorie-wise,  they are about the same as a Thomas’ whole wheat english muffin but the only ingredients are sourdough (water and flour), flour, baking soda, salt, maple syrup, and sometimes some ground flax seed. Plus I’ve been tossing in a quarter cup of freshly grated parmesian cheese and some black pepper at the very end since I mostly eat these as a sandwich bread.   I allow myself two when I first make them because they are amazingly yummy right out of the pan. I am still losing weight!

My recipe is here:  http://gnowfglins.com/2010/03/31/guest-post-sourdough-english-muffins/

April 16th, 2011 at 8:42 am | Comments & Trackbacks (1) | Permalink

I never thought I’d be so excited to be overweight but, yes, yes I am! I’m overweight! I’ve lost 100 pounds and I’m overweight!

35 pounds to go to be “healthy”….

March 14th, 2011 at 6:07 pm | Comments & Trackbacks (0) | Permalink

I’ve been at this a year now. When I started i wasn’t even sure I was starting. I thought I was but all i knew for sure was I was giving up junk food for Lent. From there I progressed to counting calories then to trying to limit the number of calories I’d have to count per day. Over the year I’ve gradually moved to healthier foods and to working on my whole approach to food.

Back in January I wrote about committing even more to whole foods this year during Lent but since then I’ve thought a lot about it. I decided I could embrace whole foods without the extra push I get from Lent and that I needed God’s help for other stuff more.  So, I’m giving up being a smart ass for Lent this year. Giving up sweet and salty stuff was easy by comparison…

Meanwhile, I have launched myself even more toward whole foods. I am now making my own yogurt at home and making my own sourdough breads. This took a little effort to fit these activities in to an already busy schedule but I’m doing okay with that.  On the other hand, homemade whole milk yogurt is not a traditional “diet” food. And while I’m 100% certain that my home made sprouted whole wheat sourdough english muffins are not only tastier but also far healthier than the store bought ones (and amazingly easy to make!) I am also eating more bread now than I was. I used to usually have one slice of bread a day, now I have an english muffin a day, plus one or two the day I make them (because they are o nom nom nom fresh off the griddle!). I’m still keeping within my calories but I’m getting more fats and more carbs than before – and my weight loss has stalled. On the other hand, on a 3 month graph my current bouncing around the high 180’s isn’t any different than how things have been going since i started menopause, so perhaps the carbs and fats aren’t messing with things. The extra dairy (i think that was it) seemed to slow down or block up some essential bodily functions for a bit,  but I seem to have adjusted and things are moving smoothly again.

So, that’s where I am right now – still a pound or so away form 100 pounds down but feeling good about the foods I am eating and how I am treating my body. I really want to pass that 100 pounds milestone and move in to being just “overweight” but I know I’ll get there. Probably this month, too.

March 6th, 2011 at 5:37 pm | Comments Off on one year in… | Permalink

This week marks the 1 year anniversary from my start on this journey to healthy eating. I’m now in the 180’s and only a few pounds away from being “overweight”.

I weigh less than I have in the past two decades.

I am really looking forward to this “new” decade!

February 15th, 2011 at 5:06 pm | Comments Off on A Whole New Decade! | Permalink

I had carbonara tonight for dinner. My carbonara is a huge pile of veggies (mostly broccoli) with a little whole wheat pasta (and an egg, parmesan, and 2 slices of bacon). It’s an easy, yummy, healthy, and highly satisfying meal for 400 calories. I ate around 5:30 and I won’t be hungry till after church tomorrow. It really sticks with me.

Last week I made a stir fry for dinner.  It was mostly a huge pile of veggies (mostly broccoli) with about 4 ounces of raw turkey breast. It’s also about 400 calories and is about the same size meal. And yet I’m always hungry a few hours after I eat.

The carbonara is about twice the fat (13 v. 7) and about half the protein (26 v. 60). Fiber’s about the same. Carbs are 50 for the carbonana and 35 for the stir fry. The stir fry is twice the sodium too, because of the tamari.

So is it the fat that makes it stick with me? The bit of extra carbs? Whatever it is, I wish I understood it better.

January 29th, 2011 at 8:20 pm | Comments Off on two meals… | Permalink

First, the disclaimer: I don’t believe in horoscopes. That is, I don’t believe the stars predict if it’s a good time for a risky financial deal or that there’s a tall dark stranger in your near future. But I still enjoy the realastrology (http://freewillastrology.sparkns.com/) column in the local free weekly paper. It’s always semi-philosophical and funny.

Now, the horoscope:


In the early 20th century, many women at the beach covered most of their bodies with swimsuits made of wool. If they went in the water, they’d emerge 20 pounds heavier. Swimming was a challenge.  Your current psychic state has resemblances to what you’d feel like if you were wearing drenched woolen underwear and a drenched woolen clown suit and a drenched woolen robe.  My advice? Take it off; take it all off. The astrological omens are clear: Whatever your reasons were for being in this getup in the first place are no longer valid.

Well, I have been wearing a lot of wool… but that’s because we’re halfway through what has so far been an exceptionally cold and grey winter. It wouldn’t take a rocket scientist (or an astrologer) to guess my psyche sort of feels weighed down. I am having no problem being on plan, that part is good. Which is really excellent and I’m not complaining about that at all. At all.  And I’m not depressed, which all things considering is pretty amazing. But I just feel off, all off.

January 21st, 2011 at 9:31 pm | Comments Off on Take it off. Take it all off. | Permalink

I’ve been thinking ahead to Lent. And to maintenance. I know this is sort of “long range” planning, especially the maintenance part, but look at it this way: it took me nearly 2 years of thinking about healthy eating before I started for Lent last year. I sure hope it doesn’t take me 2 years to start maintaining my weight-loss so maybe I need to start thinking about it now. And since Lent was my springboard last year…

I was thinking about giving up sweet stuff again this year, after all, it sure did me a world of good last year. But to me, giving up things at Lent is not just about the challenge of giving something up, it’s about growth as well and I think I’ve learned what there is for me to learn from last year’s challenge. (Giving up swearing, like I did one year, is probably a challenge I could learn something new from every year but I think that would be a topic for a different blog…)

The thing about Lent, at least for me, is I find the strength to do things I can’t seem to manage the rest of the year. Of course, being a Christian, I believe this strength comes from God but perhaps it is the power of tradition or the finite timeline (March 9 to April 23 this year) or it’s just me messin’ with my own head. But I can do things during Lent I’m not really sure I can do.

So, this year for Lent I’m thinking of really committing to whole foods.  I’ve given up most highly processed foods and I try to make healthy choices, but there are always compromises.  Like Stonyfield Farm is pretty good yogurt but why does it have pectin in it? Homemade yogurt doesn’t have pectin. I have a similar caveat about the locally made bread I buy. And why, when I’m surrounded by excellent dairy farms, am I buying pasteurized milk? My compromises make my life easier but I think I can learn by pushing the boundaries out a bit. Lent takes things that are difficult and makes them doable. And then perhaps they will stay doable for  maintenance for the rest of my life.

I’m not sure how to make my occasional meals out with friends fit in to this plan though – giving up chocolate or sugar or swearing are all much easier in that regard.

Lent doesn’t start for about six weeks yet, so I have time to think and pray on it.

January 19th, 2011 at 7:01 am | Comments & Trackbacks (2) | Permalink

copyright Columbia Pictures How does one learn to eat just one, to not go back for seconds, thirds, and sixth of some things?

I’m not talking when you are legitimately hungry and took too small a portion the first time. I’m talking primarily about treats – when you portion out three cookies or a small serving of chips knowing that is a reasonable and not totally unhealthy amount. But then you go back for more…

I know the easiest way is to just not buy these treats. This is the approach I tend to take.  And even when treats are available elsewhere I am pretty good at just not taking one – because I know if I have one I’ll want more and, so far, I don’t have much willpower about the more part.

I can say “no” to cheap mass produced junk treats but some things just taste like more.

I can accept that my homemade chocolate chip cookies with all their buttery and sugary goodness are always going to taste like more. I can’t even write about them without wanting them and wanting lots of them. And no amount of practice or daily exposure will ever reduce their power. Being full, eating them very slowly or mindfully – all useless. That way lies madness.

But I think moderation can be learned for other foods. I know if I haven’t had a piece of Klinger’s parmesian black pepper bread for a while the first time I have it I want more right away. I can use mindfulness and willpower to defeat that urge and by the next day the bread is just as good but the novelty has worn off. The first fresh strawberries of the season are the same way.

As I slowly move closer to maintenance I hope to start to learn more about moderation and what makes food taste like more to me.

January 14th, 2011 at 1:10 pm | Comments Off on tastes like more…. | Permalink