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So Yumna starts school today.  She only has to go for half an hour, and I have to go with her, but its the first day.  Then tomorrow she goes for two hours, and Friday for four hours.  Starting Monday she goes full days.

My SIL is with us too, she started school today too, and will be moving to her apartment on Tuesday.  My cousin moved here from San Fransisco last week. So many changes are going on in our lives right now.  We will have a little break and then Safiya will start daycare in October, and I will go to back to work a couple of days later.  It’s all so strange. Routines, schedules and lots of planning so everything goes right.

I’m planning to incorporate some exercise into the plans.  That has been happening kind of haphazardly and that approach is not working anymore. I want to be strong, and fit.  Not just skinny.  This is a new understanding of what I want for myself.  A lot of self awareness has happened in the last couple of weeks. I was really not expecting it to happen so fast, but that is one of the reasons I decided to go back to work.  I knew I was in a rut, and that I wanted to do more than just hang out at home all day, but the problem was that I didn’t know what exactly I wanted to do.  Now I have a better sense of what I need.

I want to start painting again.  I really need to use art as an outlet to express myself and get my heart out there.  I used to paint more regularly before, but ever since we moved to this house, well, it just hasn’t happened.  Now I have to make it happen.

Second is I want to start exercising more seriously again.  I want to have the kind of energy I had a few months ago.  I still do a lot more now than I used to, but I want more.  I’m very excited that I have that pumped up feeling again.. now I really just need to act on that impulse that is building up inside of me. I need to stop waiting for that right time, right moment to come along, where everything works.  That isn’t coming so I just need to get off my butt and do whatever it is I need and want to do.  Even if it means ruffling some feathers around here.

Maybe it’s that back to school energy that is in the air.  I love it!  Maybe because it is because of how excited I used to get every time around this year.  I always loved going back to school, loved it when I was a teacher too.  I remember the year after I taught how sad I was to be sitting in a quiet office by myself instead of in a room with a bunch of crazy kids!

I didn’t meet my September 8th goal of 169.9.  But I will get there, and soon!

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