around and around

I’m having a bit of an emotional day today. It’s a swarm of worry, love, fear, panic, and guilt.  Let me just say that it’s been difficult not to hit the bucket of ice cream in the back of my freezer.  I’m feeling kind of overwhelmed, actually.

I broke out of the 220s today but I can’t even bring myself to be happy about that.

A family member is in induced labor as we speak and her progress is mirroring that of mine with my son, that is to say, it isn’t going so well. I keep repeating to myself over and over again that every labor is different but I’m finding it hard to suppress everything I felt that day and the months following. I’m drumming my fingers and biting my lip and just waiting for any new piece of news. I’m bracing myself. I wish I could turn down my empathy but I just can’t.

I’m sure the fact that I’m pmsing accounts for at least 30% of the way I’m feeling today.

I’m completely stiff and sore from cleaning my house yesterday. I can’t believe how out of shape I actually am.

All I want to do today is to hold my breath and pray.

When DH gets home we are going to go pick out french doors for our patio. hopefully that will help distract me a little bit.

ETA: Mom and baby are doing great. Glad to hear it. My heart feels much lighter.

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