Digging Deep

The Weekend Blowout

I failed miserably. I didn’t overdue it with the food, but I was sure to taste a little of everything. And I do mean everything. Yesterday was the same except I passed on the german chocolate cake as well as the yellow cake with chocolate icing. (Don’t ask).

Today was back to the plan of eating OP and a good hour workout at the gym. I did a machine and some sprints and finished out with leg work including squats, lunges, and calf exercises, lastly abs. For lunch I had a cobb salad w/o bacon. It wasn’t filling at all.

I’m in a size 16 pants today and they are literally falling off my ass. I need to invest in a belt or go ahead and see if I can fit a 14 now. I have no idea what the scale says because I am dreading it at this point. Yet and still I must be losing inches or something, cuz this is crazy. 

Anyways, I am feeling pretty good and don’t even have a guilt trip about eating tasty foods this weekend. I had pulled pork and a little potato salad anyway. No hotdogs or hamburgers though.  I had half a slice of homemade lemon cake and a diet Pepsi. Ok, 2 diet Pepsis overall. Earlier on Saturday (prior to arriving at the cookout) I ate a hoagie sandwich (turkey and swiss) from WaWa.

So, that was the weekend. I am cheating by giving myself more time to workout this week b4 weigh in. I plan to weigh in on Friday morning. Nice to hear from a few folks while I was away. Hope I didn’t let you all down too bad. Great job with staying focused on your goals!

With love,

Kiki

Preparing for the Weekend

I surprised myself by working out at 7am this morning. I only did half an hour, but within that time frame I did 10 minutes on the elliptical machine (burned 143 calories), lifted weights (arm pulls, leg lifts) and used 3 different ab machines. I think I burned a few calories off. Besides that, I usually do not work out on Fridays.

I call myself trying to prepare for this weekend. I had such a great week (even though I ate too much sushi yesterday) that I don’t want to f*kc up my results with bad eating. Tomorrow we’re going out of town to visit my in-laws and they are throwing a BBQ!

What I love at cookouts/BBQs:

Potato Salad / Hotdogs/ Cheeseburgers/ Fried Fish/ Cake/ baked beans/ BBQ Ribs - duh! / and lots of sweet stuff in my cup with some ice!

Now that I got that outta the way, what can I eat? I guess I can skip the bread and hotdogs and potato salad. I do want some pulled BBQ though and it tastes good on bread, but like I said b4 I think I can skip that.

Perhaps I am making this out to be harder than what it seems. Do you know what size jeans I have on today? A tight 14! No maternity jeans today - unlike last Friday! No size 18 pants! Yes these are a tight 14, but who doesn’t like snug jeans on their cute ass? LOL! Plus it’s motivation to keep going. Actually the jeans I’m wearing today aren’t that bad it’s really the “muffin top” that makes me sick. That’s why I refuse to wear tight shirts - I’m not ready for that yet!

At the end of the day, all we can do is try to make good choices, so that’s what I’m going to do this weekend. Try to be aware of what I’m eating and WHY I’m eating it. I definitely won’t overdo it. I’ve worked so hard, and I’m (obviously) dropping inches - no matter what that dumb ass scale reads.

Good Luck everybody, hang in there!!

 

Today I had Sushi

Sushi is one of my favorite foods to eat. I had exactly 18 pieces for lunch. This morning I worked out at 6:30am for one hour. It was nothing short of painful! I loved every minute of it though. For breakfast I ate an orange and a cup of grapes. I should have had way more water today but will keep chugging it down the rest of this afternoon and into the evening. My trick is not to consume anymore carbs for the rest of today.

What intense delicious but bad for your health foods did I NOT eat today:

Krispy Kreme donuts!

Fairytale Brownies!! (MY ABSOLUTE FAV. Brownies in the world!!!!

Like I said, take it one day at a time. You can bet your @ss I savored that sushi today, and none of it was deep fried!!!

2 Days Strong!

Yesterday I was not feeling good at all despite the intense workout at the gym. By the time I got home in the evening I was ready to order a pizza (my ultimate favorite food of all time). I had my mind set on getting one from Papa Johns. Not sure why since I usually do not order from there. I even created an account and picked out what I wanted. A cheese pizza with three free toppings. Sausage, pepperoni, and green bell peppers with extra tomato sauce. Yum. I got all the way to the part where it asks for your credit card information. Here is when I finally paused. Did I really want to kill my workout? I should say butcher my workout.

I called my husband and told him how I was feeling. I explained that something was bothering me but I wasn’t sure what. He said if I felt like the answer would be at the bottom of the pizza then go for it. If there was no answer there then don’t get it. He told me to go outside, or go write, or go help our son with his school project, or go eat an orange or an apple. A couple of minutes later after I got off of the phone with him and my son was done using the computer I told him to shut down. He said: “Close out everything, even the pizza?” Again I paused. And then I said, YES, go head and close it, I don’t need any pizza.

I TURNED DOWN MY FAVORITE FOOD. I didn’t eat much for dinner as it turns out and I did even eat a few chips and dip because I was in binge mode, but I stopped that. (And that was b4 I was going to order the pizza).

TODAY: I almost talked myself into not working out and I happened to be on this site that was showing celebrities at the beach and pool this summer. There was my motivation to go downstairs and get changed up. My workout today was intense and nothing short of amazing! How proud I am of myself. I am like on cloud 18!

All that is to say, count the small victories and take it one day at a time. There really is no way around it. The small victories count and they turn into HUGE successes! And guess what, I am not wearing maternity clothes today! I have on a size 14 pants! Not my favorite number in the world, but it’s certainly progress and it lets me know that inches are coming off of this fat frame of a body! The scale may take its time but the inches and how your clothes fit is what counts!

Hang in there!!! Most importantly, don’t quit, see it through!

- Kiki out.

Just Checking In

Wow it’s almost been a month since my last post. Well the good news is I am still working out consistently and the weight is still coming off to some degree. The bad news is I still cheat on my diet every single weekend. I am back down to 195…though I am starting to tire of that number. What can I do to get PAST it?

I never have been good at setting goals or seeing them through - although I have done so in the past. Remember when I got down to 160 pounds 2 years ago? So that leads me to believe that I can do this if I really try hard and stop giving myself all these excuses. Yes I know I had a baby a few months ago, but again it sounds like an excuse to me.

At this point I need to just make the decision to reach 190 pounds next week. How can I begin to hold myself accountable? I’m not sure. I’m going to sit and ponder this for awhile and check back in next Tuesday with my results. Wish me luck, I’m going to need it.

Current weight: 195

Goal Weight for 9/21: 190

Goal Weight for 12/31: 160

I Am Hurting… :-(

I did not meet the lousy two goals I posted last week. Amongst soda, I also had Sunny Delight and Milk to drink. I ate a host of bad foods over the weekend and enjoyed every friggin second of it. And now here we are on Monday, on that drive to work, large coffee cup in my hand (NO DONUT THIS TIME), and I’m reviewing why I am still wearing maternity jeans and I’m not pregnant. It’s humiliating. My daughter will be 6 months on the 23rd and I am going to finish up breast feeding at that time. She already likes formula and she’s starting to bite me a little too often with those gums of hers. Ouch.

Hopefully once I am done with feeding I can concentrate on having a more strict eating regimen. The workouts at the gym are going great. I’m still hanging in there 5-6 times a week. (On Saturdays is the Zumba class - I just haven’t been able to bring myself to go to that too often anymore.) I am just too fat, and hard on the eyes. I know, I’m probably being my own worst enemy here but I don’t care. Deep down inside I want change, but I don’t think I want it bad enough right now.

I will still hang in there and won’t quit though. I can’t quit. And you shouldn’t either.

Back 2 Basics

No one is perfect, no not one. As good as it feels to be out of the 200s you can easily creep right back there if not careful. This is what I have done. Instead of beating myself up about it - which believe you me, I have done for the past 2 weeks I figure I should be a little more proactive this week. No use in trying to get to 205 if you know what I’m saying.

So a few simple goals for this week:

  • Water all week - no other drinks - no exceptions to be made
  • 6 day workout this week. No exceptions to be made

That’s it. I’ll check back in on Monday to see if I met these two goals. Sometimes you have to fall off the wagon, dust yourself off, eat a couple of donuts, and then realize that this is not where you want to be. By now I could have been pushing 189 easy. But I messed that up. Stress, laziness, boredom…I don’t know. What I do know is I take full responsibility for my actions.

Weight loss seems to be an up and down adventurous roller coaster ride, but after awhile any sane person wants to get off the ride and just enjoy the rest of their life. Wouldn’t it be nice to obsess over something important like what color earrings to match your dress, or what height of heel to wear with your outfit? I think you get my point. 

ONE-DER-LAND!!!!

Well it took a good while, but I DID IT! I am finally OUT OF THE 200s!! I am just thrilled!!!! It took hard work, alot of stop and go, stop and go. Cookies and cakes, donuts, and oatmeal. Pizza, and ice cream. Oh my gosh, all this trying to eat better and then eating better and then sabatoging myself. Let’s not forget the workouts and yoga classes, and heavy sweatpants, and feeling self concious in the lady’s locker room. All of THAT, led to me finally getting out of those grusome twosome numbers!

Yesterday’s weigh in: 195

There is NO way I am ballooning up to 200. No freaking way. Despite my harsh food choices yesterday, this morning I still weighed in at 195. Yesterday I had eggs, and bacon. For a snack, yogurt. For lunch, a hot dog from 7-11 w/one packet of ketchup and mustard. For dinner I had 1 slice of cheese pizza and a half and a small salad. For late night dinner I actually ate a bacon cheddar burger from Applebees and had a slice of meat lover’s pizza from Pizza Hut. You see how easy it is to “get comfortable”.

Now on any regular day I would just keep this bad eating going but here it is Monday and I already had my cup of oatmeal, already have my meals for the day planned out, already have vowed to drink 8 glasses of water at least. Finally I am looking forward to losing four pounds by weigh in on Sunday, July 25th. Losing 4 pounds this week will put me at 191 this Sunday.

I know it’s just me here, talking to myself (obviously) but I don’t care. I am too excited to keep this information locked up inside. I am literally taking my life into my own hands and making the decision to transform my body without any diet pills, and starvation tactics. How proud am I right now that I don’t have a guilt trip about eating late last night, or that I made a bad food choice? So I made it, so what, now it’s time to move on and stick to a clean eating plan the rest of this week!

That’s the key - KEEP GOING. If you fall off the wagon, dust yourself off and get right back to it. I can’t stress how simple this is, yet we make it difficult for ourselves. No one said you had to completely give up the foods you love. I certainly don’t think I’ll ever be able to part with my pizza, but at the end of the day, I’m not going to sit there and eat the whole pizza. I have respect for my body now and what it can do for me. I am going to keep showing it how much I truly love and appreciate it. I hope if you are reading this, you will be inspired to do the same.

 

One Love,

Kiki

You Got This!

When all else fails take the time to sit back and believe in yourself. Don’t wait for words of encouragement from someone else. Start your own pep talk. Know you can achieve your goals one by one. A single step and one foot in front of the other is all it takes.

The decision is ours whether or not we want to progress or remain stuck in a rut. Do not let food control you or your thinking. You are stronger than that. You are worth so much more than that. Simply decide TO LOVE YOURSELF. No one can love you like you can. No one. Start making yourself a priority and stop giving yourself (your mind, body) all these excuses.

There are a ton of reasons about why you will start tomorrow, I’m simply asking you to start right now. In this present moment in time. Decide that you will make a better food choice the next time you are hungry today. Decide to get water instead of a Pepsi, Coke, Rootbeer, Dr. Pepper, Sprite, Sunkist. One good choice will lead to another. I know this! I’m speaking from experience.

It hurts so bad being overweight. It’s a physical and emotional battle going on in your head and in your body. Those voices (whoever they might be - they are most times –your own) want to keep you where you are. Those voices tell you that you can’t. They tell you, that what you’re doing is not working. They want you to be comfortable in your fat suit. Yet, you hate the sight of you in a mirror, yet you make love with the lights off. Yet, you don’t go out to social gatherings, yet you feel self conscious shopping for clothes. When you hear those voices, say: “Shut the f*ck up!” Even if you don’t curse, you have a right do so in this situation. And it feels good, and you feel stronger. You start to realize that YOU GOT THIS! Put an end to that negative thinking.

For some, the exercise is the hard part, for others the eating is the hard part and the exercise is the easy part. Well if you didn’t know by now, in order to be successful at weight loss, you must do both. You must eat better, and you must move. There’s no way around it. Just decide to do it. It can be done.

This morning as I was eating my oatmeal, an email went out (at work) saying “HAPPY FRIDAY -Krispy Kreme donuts in the kitchen!” My first reaction was a curse word. “shit!” I wondered would I leave my seat on the 2nd floor, go down to the 1st floor, get a donut and eat it, then come back up here and record that on my eating log for today. KNOWING that I’ve been doing so well, contemplating if it would really “hurt me” since I was going to work out this morning anyway. My second reaction was “Why do so many people link FOOD to happiness? So because it’s Friday, you’re happy and you can show your happiness by eating a fat greasy sweet donut? Full of sugar, full of ‘empty’ calories. Why even put it in your system? Because…you’re happy and it’s Friday…so what the hell? Give me a break man! You know what I did? I stayed up here at my desk, I deleted the email, I ate my oatmeal and I feel like a million bucks. I am better than the stupid @ss donut. End of story. I can’t put it any other way if I tried. The freaking donuts will always be there to reek havoc on my new lifestyle. F*ck the donuts.

You gotta have an ”I’m better than that attitude!” Again, YOU GOT THIS. Change starts with YOU! Believe in yourself and start off small. Even if you do fall into this food temptation, don’t fall in the trap of letting it snow ball into something that is out of control. You are bigger than food. (no pun intended). You are capable of exercising and losing the extra weight that you no longer want on your body.

YOU GOT THIS!

Back on Track

Well, here we are…good ol Monday. Back at work, where it’s much easier to eat better and drink lots of water. I just completed a great 50 minute cardio session. I focused on my lower body today and did a few ab movements and stretching.

I have a good feeling about this weight loss thing. I’m looking forward to juicing at some point this week. I think if we take things one day at a time and like someone once told me count the small goals as victories, pretty soon results will have no choice but to show up.

I hope everyone is doing well. Support is crucial but just as equally important is wanting this change BADLY. You almost have to crave it. I can honestly say at this point, I crave it. I want it, and I’m going to get it.

Take care,

Kiki

Happy Birthday! + Monthly Weigh In + 2010 Weight Loss Goals

Hello ladies, today is my 3oth birthday and I feel really good despite the crummy cloudy muggy rainy wet weather outside. I feel so good. I feel like I’ve learned so much in my 20s and I actually wrote a list yesterday that turned out to be 2 pages long.

So today I weighed in at: 201. I really thought I ballooned up to 215 since my eating has been way off, but I guess working out consistently really does pay off. Yes, I have maintained working out at least 5 times a week on average. The part that is still hard is my food choices. And yes, I still take my lunch to work every day since returning from maternity leave.

My daughter will be 5 months at the end of July and she is growing beautifully. I feel like now that I’m 30 I really need to take extra care of myself. I think I will start incorporating juicing in my life. I also have come to the sad conclusion that some stuff I just simply can no longer eat. The older you get, the harder it is for the weight to come off.

I still attend yoga class every Friday, but since I’m about to cut out all this sugar and simple carbs, I believe I will really start to see and feel the effects of my weight loss efforts.

So, I have a couple of weight loss goals to meet:

August 31st I want to weigh 180 pounds. (Of course this means that I have 20 pounds to lose in a few weeks, but losing 2 lbs a week is healthy and will put me at least close to 180 by the 31st.

October 31st - 160

December 31st - 150

There you have it ladies, those are my weight loss goals for the remainder of 2010. I hope you all are doing well. For now I’m going to enjoy the rest of my strawberry cupcakes and my birthday of course! After all, you only turn 30 once. Live your life to the fullest!

So Sick of the Bullsh*t

I have alot of things on my plate lately, and school is one of them. I’m debating if I should return in August, or wait awhile since I still have a newborn. Food seems to be the answer for everything.It’s so easy to order out and have 2 and 3 helpings of stuff. Will my love for pizza ever deteriorate? I can’t be 30 eating that shyt. It’s just not justifiable (if that’s a word). Too much grease and fat, and I’m not getting any younger. Plus it feels like I’m just wasting my time working out.

I had a great workout this morning at 11:30. Elliptical machine, bike machine, jogging, arm exercises and ab exercises. I feel good. What was for lunch? A half a turkey and Swiss on a 6 inch wheat roll with 1 teaspoon of mayo and mustard. I’m starving. I’m about to go eat a cup of watermelon. Why is it so difficult to eat the right way? I may start juicing for dinner.

Sabotaging your efforts is the stupidest thing you could do, yet I continue to do it. UGH. Very frustrating.

My First Time

So today was my first time doing yoga - with a group of people and for a long period of time. One hour and 20 minutes. (WHEW). It was tough man! But I also loved it and will be back for more!

Today is also the first time that I got to work out at the gym 5 times in a row..Monday - Friday!

I am really ready to eat clean this coming week. I don’t know what it was about the yoga but it was like I was getting in touch with my inner being or something. I felt as though I thought of my body as this temple and I shouldn’t be putting faulty things in it.

I will keep you all updated on this new found path to health. I’m hoping that I stay the course for the rest of my life.

Love you guys! Keep up the great work!

Weighing My Options

Ok, so right now I’m tusseling with the idea of skipping my workout or would it be so bad if I ate a half a pizza today. Hmmm. Technically I can work it off tomorrow. I’m joining a friend for an intense gym session which starts at 7:15. Kick boxing at 7:15-9am. Ab class from 9-9:30 and then weight training and aerobics from 9:30-10:30am. (Shuddering just thinking about it). But then again I feel pretty good about at least taking up that challenge.

You may be asking why am I weighing my options? Why not just skip the pizza and go change into my workout gear and go workout (before I leave work–remember I told you I joined the gym at work). That would be the smart thing to do. But have you ever felt FAT? I mean like really bloated and puffy? I feel like that today. I’m wearing a size 12 suit. (I swear its all in how the material of something is made because yesterday I was in a size 18 pants - though they were falling off my @ss, making me feel like a hobo.) But back to today, I feel fat, and I felt fat yesterday in the gym running and doing leg lifts.

How I wish I could snap my fingers and be a size 10. I swear on my life that I would never balloon up to 200 anything ever again. But we all know that finger snapping is not going to work. And we all know that we have to put in work or shut up and go home. Perhaps the motivation to work out will hit me before I leave at 4pm today deciding to rush home to my kids OR go ahead and spend an hour in the gym. What’s your take on it?

Watching the Numbers Go Down

I weighed in today and decided to do so once a month! Today’s weigh in is 200!!!! I am so excited because the next time I weigh in I will be 30! And my goal is to weigh in next month at 190. I think this is an acheiveable goal.

I am totally committed to not sabotaging myself and I don’t feel like I’m on a diet. I’m being really aware of what I am eating and I only eat now when I am hungry. I think I average 5 to 6 short meals a day. I have also cut out all juice, sodas, and sweets. No chips or fast food either.

Next week I plan to work on portion control.

I am really super excited about this LIFESTYLE CHANGE! I’m moreso happy because what an example I am setting for my daughter. I don’t want her growing up seeing me try every different diet because I can’t maintain my weight. That is just wrong. My son (8 yrs old) has already witnessed this enough and he is such a big encouragement to me.

Not only is getting healthy a priority for yourself, you also owe it to your loved ones who want to see you around for many years to come.

Keep up the great work everyone, we are well on our way!!!

Day 3 at the Gym…and a Word of Inspiration to U

Today I was able to do 11 movements at the gym including 5 minutes on the treadmill. It was invigorating and challenging working on my legs. I think that’s the body part I enjoy working out the most. My stomach hurts like hell from doing 3 different ab movements. My ab routine took 10 minutes.

Eating wise I am doing the best that I possibly can. I am still packing my lunch and staying away from sweets, fast food and juices/sodas. I expect to see some weight loss soon. The one pair of size 19 pants I have fall off of me and so I am never wearing those again. Today I have on a size 16 pair of Old Navy capris. I plan to band these from my closet soon, but I know it takes patience and consistency.

Did you hear what I said? I said it takes patience and consistency. So even if you’ve fell off and this is only day 9 in June, try again later today or tomorrow.

Do not keep putting off your workouts. Time is going to go by and all of us around you will be smaller this summer. Don’t be the one who is left out. Join us. Love yourself enough to keep going.

 

Yo-Yo Dieting…in the end it WILL cost you

Knowledge is power - Go ahead and Empower yourself. Read the article below!

All you have to do is wheel your grocery cart into a checkout line to see the cautionary tales screaming at you from the tabloids:

Kirstie Alley regained the 70-plus pounds she lost on Jenny Craig. Maureen “Marcia Brady” McCormick got even heavier after she was on Celebrity Fit Club. Oprah, well, we all know about her struggles. Janet Jackson, Kelly Clarkson… the list goes on and on.

It makes you wonder: If these rich, powerful women, with their personal trainers and private chefs, can’t win the weight war, what chance do I have?

It doesn’t help that the statistics are grim: By some estimates, more than 80 percent of people who have lost weight regain all of it, or more, after two years. Researchers at the University of California at Los Angeles analyzed 31 long-term diet studies and found that about two-thirds of dieters regained more weight within four or five years than they initially lost.

Women who want to lose weight know these painful numbers all too well. “I’ve been on a roller coaster for the past two years,” says Leigh Moyer, 31, of Philadelphia. In 2003, she lost 25 of her 155 pounds by diligently counting calories and logging daily sweat sessions at the gym. Four years later, busy with graduate school and her job at a software company, Leigh blew off her workouts and stopped monitoring her portions… and shot up to 175. “It was so sad, so frustrating,” she says. “I let myself down.”

Along with the emotional toll is a physical one: Not only is the extra weight a health risk, but recent studies have linked the gain-lose-gain cycle to such potentially life-threatening conditions as high blood pressure, high cholesterol, diabetes, depression, heart disease, and cancer.

Understanding metabolic math
While small fluctuations on the scale are normal, the unhealthy behavior that experts refer to as “weight cycling” is not. Cycling is defined as a significant increase or decrease of body weight (generally 10 pounds or more) that occurs multiple times.

Experts believe a yo-yo pattern is often the result of a diet that’s too restrictive, and a study reported in the journal Obesity backs that up: It found that people who followed a very low-calorie diet regained significantly more weight than those on a more forgiving plan. Desperate for quick results in a culture of instant gratification, “women try to lose weight on diets with too few calories,” says Judith Beck, Ph.D., director of the Beck Institute of Cognitive Therapy and author of “The Beck Diet Solution.” “If you lose weight on 1,200 calories a day, the minute you go up to 1,300 is the minute you start gaining weight.”

 

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It happened to Tracy Srail. The 24-year-old from Atlanta has watched the scale bounce between 130 and 160 pounds for the past four years. “At one point, I was eating only one or two meals a day and chugging Rockstar energy drinks because I heard that caffeine increases your metabolism. I lost 15 pounds, but it didn’t stick,” she says. “I weigh about 155 now.”

Even on a sensible diet, your body sheds pounds reluctantly. “One reason it’s difficult to keep weight off is because there is a metabolic overcompensation for weight loss,” says Gary Foster, Ph.D., director of the Center of Obesity Research and Education at Temple University in Philadelphia. “If you decrease your body mass by 10 percent, you would expect your metabolic rate to decrease by 10 percent, but it actually slows down more than that, by about 11 to 15 percent.”

Why does your own metabolism thwart you? Simple, says Kelly Brownell, M.D., director of the Rudd Center for Food Policy and Obesity at Yale University: “The body may perceive dieting as a threat to its survival. It might not know the difference between Atkins and famine.”

What’s more, says Brownell, who coined the term “yo-yo dieting” in the 1980s, weight cycling can actually change your physiology. So the more diets you’ve been on, the harder it becomes to lose the weight. A hunger hormone called ghrelin increases, and a fullness hormone called leptin decreases, so you feel hungrier and less satiated.

Born to rebound?
It’s bad enough that your body fights you when you try to lose weight. Now there’s compelling research to show that some people may be hardwired to yo-yo.

David Kessler, M.D., former U.S. Food and Drug Administration commissioner and author of “The End of Overeating,” and his team of researchers at the University of California at San Francisco and Yale University, looked into the biology of weight cycling. They found that the reward circuits in the brains of people Kessler calls “conditioned hypereaters” were excessively activated simply by the smell of food and stayed that way until those people finished eating whatever was on the plate in front of them.

In other words, when you have overactive neural circuitry, resisting temptation is not a question of willpower alone. “This is a biological cause of conditioned hypereating. It’s the first time we can say ‘It’s not your fault,’ ” Kessler says. He estimates that 50 percent of obese people and 30 percent of overweight people are conditioned hypereaters.

Evidence shows, however, that this reaction is partially learned, and that through conditioning, you can rewire your brain. After all, the yen to yo-yo is not just physical; emotional triggers play a huge role too. A study at Brown University found that dieters who ate in response to emotions such as stress or loneliness — as opposed to external events, like overdoing it at happy hour — were more likely to regain weight.

When Darcie Schmidt of Sioux Falls, South Dakota, was in her late twenties, she lost 75 pounds and then regained 120 over two years, largely because of emotional eating, she says. In her early thirties, she stuck to a strict diet-and-exercise regimen and shed 132 pounds. “I did not eat a single chip for 18 months,” she says. But the stress of a divorce, a move, and a return to school knocked her off track, and she traded her three-mile, five-day-a-week runs for bags of those verboten chips — and regained 40 pounds.

Beck sees women like Schmidt all the time, who do well for a while, only to fall off the wagon. The problem, she believes, is that they never learned the skills needed for long-term behavior change. “They haven’t been taught how to motivate themselves every day,” Beck says, “or how to respond to negative thoughts and recognize a mistake as a one-time thing.”

A study of 200 overweight and obese people, published in the Journal of Psychosomatic Research, supports the importance of a behavior-change approach. Along with other weight-loss techniques, one group received an additional hour of therapy, in which they learned to change their behavior; the other group did an extra hour of low-intensity exercise. After a year, those in the therapy group had maintained their weight loss, while the other group’s members hadn’t.

Risky bigness
While watching the numbers on the scale fluctuate wildly is a blues inducer and clothes-budget buster, there are far more compelling reasons to hold steady. For one, your metabolism might be affected — and not in the way you probably hoped.

“If you go on a very strict diet and gain the weight back quickly, you might lose a lot of muscle and regain a lot of fat,” says Keith Ayoob, M.D., R.D., an associate professor at the Albert Einstein College of Medicine. “Then your metabolism operates on a slower idle, which means it’s going to be harder to lose weight as time goes on.”

The more times you yo-yo, the theory goes, the more fat your body gains in each rebound. Because muscle burns 10 times more calories than fat does, your metabolism eventually will slow to a crawl.

“Losing and gaining regularly takes a huge toll on your body,” Ayoob says. Beyond aesthetics, such as a loss of skin elasticity, regaining weight burdens your arteries and skeletal system, and may stress the liver, which can become covered in fat.

Yo-yoing also does a number on your ticker: A study in Clinical Cardiology found that women who weight cycle five times or more during their lifetimes may be damaging their hearts in the process.

But perhaps most startling is the dangerous and lasting effect weight cycling has on the immune system. According to the first study of the long-term impacts of yo-yo dieting, women who repeatedly lost and gained weight had lower immune function, particularly lower counts of natural killer cells. “These cells are important for fending off infections and are also vital in fighting the early stages of cancer,” says Cornelia Ulrich, M.D., of the Fred Hutchinson Cancer Research Center in Seattle. Low killer-cell activity is associated with higher rates of cancer. In her study of more than a hundred overweight but otherwise healthy women, those who had yo-yoed most frequently — five times or more — decreased their natural killer-cell activity by a third.

With so many drawbacks, you might wonder if you’d be better off just accepting your belly rolls. But the perils of being overweight still outweigh the risks of yo-yoing. So how do you quit the cycle for good? Despite what you read in the tabloids, it is possible.

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Feeling Fan-F-ING-tastic!

Ok, I know it’s early, but still. I FEEL GREAT!!! I just completed my first work out in the gym and it was tough. You feel a sense of intimidation seeing all those buff guys and gals in there walking up to machines and putting in work! My workout was a little rough around the edges because I forgot how to use alot of them, but I think for my first day I felt my way around pretty good. I also did the eleptical machine (is that how you spell that?) MAN, I forgot how tough it is!

My breakfast was blueberries and Activia “cereal” yogurt. For lunch, peanut butter and jelly on wheat and strawberries. Well, here’s to me. Once again back on the wagon and feeling great! I FEEL SO GOOD!

Great News!!

I joined the gym at work today!!! It’s expensive as hell but I figured I’m paying for convenience, and now I know for sure I can get at least 5 workouts in per week. I feel challenged and energized!! I also took a brisk walk (a little jogging in between) on my lunch break. AND I ate great all day. I need a better water intake though.

Yes, things are looking up for me!

Other great news……………………..I didn’t wanna, but I did it. I GOT ON THE SCALE LAST NIGHT.

I now weigh……….206. Not as bad as I thought.

I will keep you all updated with my progress. My firt work out at the gym is Monday. It kills me how they try to add all this stuff on your damn bill. “Personal Trainer” - I don’t think so pal.

Rent the Runway

When on the course for losing weight you need to find points of interest and motivation to keep going along the way. A little black dress never hurt anyone. Watching the news one day I discovered a website that lets you RENT dresses from the runway! Famous designers like BCBG, and Nicole Miller. And not just rent them for a crazy price. I’m talking $25 bucks to rent a dress that would run you $350 and up!

Go to: www.renttherunway.com

Next, shop and then they send you TWO dresses (just to make sure you are able to fit it!) This is for a special occasion, like a wedding, or a girl’s night out, etc.

The only problem is, these dresses are not available in a size 18. HA HA! You had to know I was going somewhere with this. Not that they are discriminating against big women, (at least I don’t believe they are). But a size that big is just not normal. SIDE NOTE–When you look at healthy older folks who are in their 80s and 90s - NONE OF THEM ARE EVER OVERWEIGHT. Trust me when I say we were not meant to be so damn big. I don’t care who you are and whose genes you carry.

So what sizes does “Rent the Runway” go up to? 0-12. I was actually impressed to see a size 12 for something off a runway. But most average women are curvy. They even say that the national average of the women in USA is a 14. I don’t know about you, but I hate a size 14. I’ll take it for awhile but the end goal is a 10.

No matter what your current size is - always shoot for your end goal. We were put on earth to help others and also to enjoy the life we were given. I have never met one happy fat person - EVER. No one likes carrying around extra weight I don’t care how they try to hide it. When they are alone they sit like the rest of us and wonder how/if/when/what’s it gonna take to get those extra pounds off.

Rent the runway will be a treat to myself. I plan to rent one of those smoking hot dresses for New Years Eve!