Re-investing in my life

I was so tired after my shopping mission on Sunday that I didn’t get a chance to update.

I feel I did great this weekend.  Sunday morning I went out and picked up groceries at 8am.  I made the decision to go to the store that involved walking to, gotta find your exercise where you can.  I picked up a few new things to try this week as snacks, looking to put some various new options into the diet.  During the day I was out with my sister-in-law, we had a bunch of things we wanted to get.  I happen to mention to her about my goal of breaking habits this weekend, she was super proud and decide to help me with support.  We went to Walmart, Ikea and Target.  The only food we picked up was at Ikea, yes we did go with hot dogs, we wanted something quick and easy.  Totally not the best choice but I knew going there that it fit within my calories for the day.  We joked that we wanted their ice cream too but decided to wait until after we completed our shopping.  We did everything and walked out feeling proud that we didn’t get the ice cream.

While at Walmart I picked up a new belt.  This was significant for me.  Right now I wear a men’s belt, I can’t find a women’s belt that fits.  I’m a size 48 belt for men.  For the last few months I’ve been on the last belt loop, and I have a few pairs of pants the the belt is too big for and I need another loop.  So I decided to get a new belt while at Walmart.  Now I’m in a 46 belt and this is great for me. My sister-in-law was super supportive, she knows how much I hate having to use a men’s belt.  She was with me the first time I had to get a men’s belt, I almost broke down in tears in the store, but she was with me and helped me make that horrible decision to get the men’s belt so it’s extra special to have it with me buying a smaller size.

When I got home, I relaxed a little and decided to go for a walk.  I’ve realized that each day I need to do something, just something small but at least something, I find it easier to do something each day and I don’t feel lazy the following day.

Today, Monday, was a bit of a lazy day, I woke up with a bit of a headache and it was really warm day outside, so going outside wasn’t a good idea.  I didn’t really do much, I did end up at my mom’s for dinner.  Now I know I went over my calories today, we had a bigger dinner than planned but I made sure I didn’t have dessert and I ate within my limited.  I had what was on my plate first and then waited to see if I was still hungry.  I didn’t end up going back for seconds, so that is a battle won for me.

I feel great, I feel tinnier, my mom even said she sees a big difference in me.  I’m ready to move forward.

My goal for the weekend was to stay on track and to break some of the habits that I fall into every weekend. I’m doing well for Saturday.

I got up a little too early but had breakfast. I had planned ahead to make sure I had hard boiled eggs in my fridge ready to go.  I went to the hair dressers and on my way home I pick up a muffin but I knew picking up that muffin meant no other treats while I was out. Whenever I’m running errands in Bloor West, I’ll grab something from McDonald’s or the Hot Oven, just depending on what time of day it is. There have been days that when I am running errands all over the place,  I would pick up something at each stop, not really paying attention. Today, I stuck to my guns, no stops besides that one muffin. I made sure to be conscious of my actions and decisions.

I had an afternoon visit with my best friend, she just had a baby (just to say, she looks amazing for having a baby two weeks ago), and I knew that during the visit that we would have some treats at her house. Knowing this, this was something that was on my mind while running my errands.  I did have three treats at her house but that’s all I limited myself to.

Overall for the day I did okay.  I did take the easy route for dinner, I didn’t feel like having fish and decided to just have a peanut butter sandwich, which may not have been the best option but it was within my calorie count and I still ended up with calories to use so that’s a plus for me.

Onto to Sunday now.

The need to break one bad habit becomes easier.

I’ve had the same habits forever, I have success, I stumble, I swear I won’t do it again then repeat.  So what is different this time, is it because I have more people committed to me, I don’t know.  My boot camp trainer made me an awesome deal, I was going to have to stop going, I couldn’t afford it anymore.  He wants to see me succeed, so he has told me to keep coming and we’ll figure out the finances later.  That is a huge offer, so I know I need to make him proud, I can’t just piss away this offer.

This morning I jumped on the scale (as I previously mentioned) and I’m right on track.  My boot camp trainer weighed me in during class and he was pleased too.  This is where I made the change.  Usually on Friday nights I come home, grab something from the store (pop or something quick to eat) and do laundry (I live in a building and it’s easier to do laundry on week night).  The simple task of stopping at the store is what derailed me so many times before.  It’s like all the hard word I do over the week just comes to a stop on Friday and it becomes a free card.  Well no more.

This Friday, I came home from Boot Camp and went straight home.  I started my laundry but was cooking dinner in between the loads. I’ve also started to think out snacks that I could make ready now for the weekend so I could just grab them.  It’s on evenings like this that I’m go go go, I start cleaning things, and preparing things.  The only difference this time, no crap was brought into my house.

This is me committed to keep this goal for the weekend.  I’ll let you know how it goes.

I jumped on the scale this morning, I really wanted to see what my weight was going into the long weekend and low and behold, it was 248.2.  I’m finally into the 240s and not just 0.2 into the 240s, a full 1.8 into the 240s.  Yippie.  It doesn’t seem like a lot but this is huge for me. 

Happy Long Weekend Everyone!!! Hold strong this weekend!!

As I previously mentioned, I had stumbled this week but I’m back on track.  I took a long walk on Tuesday, went to Boot Camp on Wednesday and I have plans for another walk tonight.  I have plans in motion for the weekend so I won’t stumble again.

I jumped on the scale this morning, I was back down to my lowest weight again.  Big smile on my face.  I’ve said it before, I always get on the scale once, and then again, if the number is the same the first and second time, that it’s my weight.  If they are different, I get on a third time, usually the second and third time are the same.  This morning, I got on and I was 249.8, I jumped for joy, I was out of the 250s, I got on a second time and it was 250.  I tried a third time and I was 250 again.  I know it’s only 0.2 of a difference but it was so big, it’s 0.2 from being out of the 250s.  I know I’ll be out of the 250s soon.

I had such a great week last week, I hit my mark and felt great.

Then on Friday I had the day off and I stumbled a little and I continued to stumble throughout the weekend.  Monday I felt like crap and I knew it was because I stumbled over the weekend and I didn’t stick to my guns. On Tuesday I made sure I went for a lengthy walk for two reasons, one to remind myself why I was doing this and second, I knew a walk will help me get back on track.  So I was out for over an hour and half, but I needed it.

Even though it’s not really an update, I wanted to make sure I blogged once a week, it helps keep me accountable.  I did make myself get onto the scale to see what damage was done, I’m only up a few pounds, I need to make myself understand that this is a life style change, yes I’ll have a bad day here and there but it’s up to me, and only me to turn myself around after those bad days and correct myself.

Here’s to getting back onto the groove.

I jumped on the scale this morning thinking it was going to be up since I didn’t behave well over the weekend, I did a half-ass workout on Monday and I didn’t even get in a workout on Tuesday.  I was very surprised to see I was down, in fact hitting my first 10lbs since January. 

I’m weird about when I get on the scale, I never take the first weight.  I usually weigh myself a second time to see if the number stayed the same.  If the number is the same as the first time, I mark it.  If it’s not, I weigh myself a third time (this is all done within minutes of each other and no I don’t go to the bathroom in hopes to lower the number even more).  Usually the second and third number match each other and that is the weight I mark for the day.

I’m officially down 10.6 from January 1.  This is huge for me.  If I had only starting trying early, I would be much further in my journey but at least I’m finding my way now.  Time to work on the next 10lbs.  (Well 9.4, I’m already 0.6 on my way).

I’ve been really good for the last two weeks, I’m just not to good during the weekends, and I paid the ultimate price for it this past Sunday. I went into the weekend with all intentions of being good and sticking to my diet.  I did have an extra snack here and an extra snack there and then did the same thing again on Sunday.  While I was sitting at my mom’s Sunday night for a birthday dinner my stomach started to really hurt.  It hurt so bad that I had to take a Gravol to help settle it.  My brother ended up driving me home and I went to bed at 9pm.  

I’m human, which means that I’ll likely make the same mistake more then once, hence overindulging, feeling crappy, and then doing it again.  But I was so pissed at myself, I did this, I made myself sick, no one else but me is to blame for this.  This is a routine that I’ve repeated numerous times and I now it’s time I have to stop. I have to stop snacking big time on the weekend, I need to make sure I stick to my time and use my time wisely.

I did weigh myself this morning and luckily that wasn’t up.  Back to the basics today.

For those who have been following, my family has a bet going on right now.  May 1 was the check in, 3 of us were down, 1 was up, 2 were the same, and 1 person didn’t check-in (we think she was up but doesn’t want to say anything). 

Today I weighed myself, now I usually don’t weigh myself every few days, but I’ve been really pushing myself to get to the first 6lbs since I was so close on May 1.  I’m happy to report, I have done it.  I’ve lost my first 6lbs, in fact, I’ve lost 6.4, so I’m in the lead with this challenge.  The new weight loss also makes me 0.6lbs away from my first 10lbs lost from January.

So on April 1, everyone in my family committed to a $5 challenge, and we all agreed to commit for three months.  So on April 1, everyone weighed themselves and exchanged their weights and photos of themselves standing on the scale. 

Now I won’t share everyone’s numbers but I will share mine.  On April 1 I weighed 257.8.  The first goal was to lose 6lb to qualify to win the money at the end.  Unfortunately I didn’t lost the first 6lb yet, but I’m on my way.  Today, May 1, I am 252.6, so I’m down 5.2lb.  A little more and I’ll be done the first 6lbs and I’ll be in the running to win.

To also put these numbers in perspective for me, on January 1 I weighed 260.8, so I’m officially down 8.2lb for the year.  That is a small number for four months but it’s coming down and that is all that matters to me.  I had a slow start to the year but things are looking good from here on out. 

I don’t have everyone’s numbers just yet for family, my sister lost 5lb, my brother lost 3lb, my sister-in-law gained .5lb and my mom stayed the same.   I’m hoping everyone has success this month.