It’s been about a month since I’ve blogged and it’s not that I really don’t have anything to say, it’s a mix of nothing major to report and life’s being super busy.
April 1 has come and gone for the family challenge and no one won. I didn’t lose any weight but I also didn’t gain any weight either, so that is a plus for me. It seems like no one is as committed to this challenge as me, I know my brother and his girlfriend have a side bet going to help motivate themselves for the wedding. My aunt never emails her weight in and it feels like my mom isn’t even trying and my mom’s boyfriend loses and then again. It’s really hard for me to find this motivating when I feel like I’m the only one trying.
I guess I can say I fell off the wagon during March and April, I wasn’t making it to the gym as often as I wanted to, the weather hadn’t been helping and I’ve been throwing myself a self-pity party. I can’t blame anyone because it’s all me. I’m the one who is making the choice to go home and not go to the gym. It’s me who is picking up the bad stuff instead of the healthy stuff. I’ll pull dinner out the morning of but then change my mind. I guess I’m just getting bored and I need to work on better food options, I’ve just never been into cooking and I even hate doing the food prep on the weekends for my lunches. The only reason I stick to it is that it helps save money.
April 5 was the Harry Spring Run Off, it was super super cold that day, I thought it might hold me back as it was so hard to jog in the cold but I’m super proud of myself. I did it and I shaved 4 minutes off my best time, which was from three years ago. This year I did the run in 1:15, last year was 1:22, the year before (2012) was 1:26 and 2011 was 1:19, which was the first year I ever ran it and I barely trained for it.
I need to re-evaluate my goals, I still have the Mud Hero in August and as long as I keep up with my run training, that will help with my cardio and endurance. I do have the wedding in October, and that is motivation as I want to look good in front of everyone. There is also a family vacation after the wedding, so I do want to look good in the swimsuit, so I need to work on that to.
Now that the weather has finally started to get better, I can resume jogging outside. It was the best for me, it helped clear my head. As I said earlier, I had been throwing myself a self-pity party, been feeling very lonely and feel like I’m stuck as everyone around me as been moving forward and I’m not. I hope with the training sessions again, it will help clear my head and get myself back into the proper head space.