I’m lurking right now. I’m in the midst of yet another struggle to stay on-plan and find some much needed motivation. I’m tired. That’s all I can say….I’m just tired of the struggle and the dieting. Someone on one of the threads was talking about not believing they could lose the weight. I have to admit….I don’t know that I truly believe I can do this. I’ve been faking it, but that’s not working very well right now.
The new puppy, Beau, if fitting in around here nicely. He slept through the night and hasn’t have any “accidents” so far today. I think he’s gonna be a big boy. I’m hoping the vet can give me a clue at his visit tomorrow. So far, my other two dogs aren’t all that impressed with the big oaf. Hunny, my 6 year old chihuahua has already let him know that she is now “top dog” around this joint. Her son, Max (my dear Cody was his daddy) is scared of him. All the big guy wants to do is play with Max, but he’s not having any of that! Thank goodness that Hubby and I are on vacation this week. I had forgotten how much work is involved with potty training.
I love Trader Joes and Whole Foods! Hubby and I just got back a little while ago and I can say that the 2 hour round trip was well worth the drive. I came home with fresh ground cashew butter, greek yogurt, agave nectar, two different kinds of hot whole grain cereals, whole wheat pizza dough, farmer’s cheese, Ezekiel cinnamon raison bread…etc, etc, etc. Oh my goodness, I was in heaven. I just wish I could afford to buy the meats at Whole Foods, but my budget just won’t allow that. But, I did get some great items and Hubby found many of the ingredients for some of the Southbeach recipes that he’s been wanting to try. Looks like we’ll be heading over to the stores about once a month. Oh my goodness, after having a “taste” of these stores, how do I shop in the regular grocery stores again? Too bad my budget demands it.
Looks like walking with Hubby is one of my tickets to weightloss. Although we haven’t been walking since Thursday, I managed to have a 3.2 pound loss for today’s weigh-in. :D
This weekend was a tough one. My Cody, my oldest fur-baby, passed away on Friday. He had been sick with heart disease for a little over a year and his arthritis was getting worse. The poor guy could hardly get around anymore and was totally deaf and going blind. I’m not really sure he even still recognized us. I miss him…..especially, the Cody that I knew and loved for years. I managed not to eat for comfort this weekend. I kinda amazed myself, but I knew that I had a loss on the scales and I really wanted to maintain the loss for my official weigh-in today. So, despite the grief and this horrible cold I’m fighting, I stayed on-plan.
Today, Hubby and I went to the pound and adopted a puppy. I know that most people wouldn’t understand. They would think that I’m trying to replace my Cody. That’s not the case at all. It actually helps me with the grieving process to have another little one to love and take care of. Hubby has always wanted a bigger dog (we have a Chihuahua and one of her’s and Cody’s sons.) So, we adopted a part lab mutt. He’s really quite pretty……all black with some white on one paw and his chest. His name is Beau and he’s four months old.
Hubby and I are on vacation today and the girls are on Spring break. We’re not doing anything special….just relaxing. We do plan on making it to the Trader Joe’s and Whole Foods. We’ve never been and I’ve always wanted to head over. I’m planning on quitting my use of Splenda and using some agave nectar. I’m hoping we can head over tomorrow or the next day or so. And, I plan on doing some spring cleaning. The closets are getting full already and the garage is embarassing.
Wow….I sure was chatty today! I hope everyone has a great on-plan day tomorrow.
As of today, I’m three days on-plan. Hubby and I have been walking together each day. I really think we are keeping each other motivated….which is a very awesome thing! I’m trying to make the month of April be a month of change in how I treat myself and my body. No more playing around with getting the weight off and getting healthy!
I’m battling some kind of sinus thing…may be allergies, may be a cold. I can’t ever tell. I picked up a Neti pot on Tuesday, but it doesn’t seem to be doing much for me. My ears are plugged and I woke up with a horrible sinus headache this morning. Tonight, I’ll try taking Benadryl before I go to bed and hope that tomorrow morning is a better start for my workday.
Hi folks. Sorry I’ve been MIA. I went off-plan and had a difficult time getting myself going down the right road again. *sigh* So, when does this get easier? I’m back on-plan now and working on a loss for Monday’s weigh-in. I’m hopeful.
I’ll be back sometime this weekend to share more. Hope everyone enjoys their weekend and stays on-plan.
Made it through another on-plan day. No exercise yet. I’m feeling very exhausted…mentally and physically. I recognize the symptoms well. I have a major case of sugar withdrawal! I’m hoping to start feeling a bit better tomorrow, however, it’s normally 3-4 days before that spark and pep comes back into my body.
Spent some time reading the maintainer’s thread today. What an inspiring bunch of “losers!” I really want to join their ranks. I must remember to drop in there for a bit of reading when I’m feeling the pull to allow an off-plan meal, day, weekend, etc. and I need a boost to my mojo.
Received an e-mail from the Georgia Ovarian Cancer Organization. They are looking for volunteers to speak at meetings, conventions, etc. The e-mail said they will provide the training. I’m very interested and will have to do some praying and thinking about it. I enjoy speaking in front of people, but I’m not sure that I’m a very inspirational or motivational speaker. The e-mail also brought news of a walk scheduled six months from now. The walk is to raise awareness and funds for research. I’m excited about joining the walk, too. Not sure how much money I can raise as I’m also trying to raise money for the Relay for Life walk in May, but I’m going to try. Every little bit will help.
I’ve been MIA, lost, crazy,confused etc,etc,etc. The old unaccountable off-plan ‘me’ who doesn’t care anymore tried to come back and take over my body. It was a tough battle and the new ‘me’ almost lost, but I’m back on-plan and fighting the fight again. Honestly, this is the only time I’ve ever felt myself in serious danger of totally quitting this lifestyle change. I allowed myself to get caught up in the negative thinking and concentrating on how difficult this is and what I’m giving up. Basically, I had a big ole pity party for myself and decided to rebel. I’m not sure who I thought I was proving a point to?
I forgot about what I’ve gained so far and what I still have to gain from staying on-plan…being healthy, feeling better, more confidence, etc etc etc. It is extremely difficult to get back on-plan today, but I’m finally at the point where I’m thinking again about the alternative and it isn’t very appealing at all. I’m not 100% sure why I allowed myself to go so far away, but I can’t afford to wait until I get it all figured out. That could take years! So, I’m picking myself up yet again and I’m going in the right direction today.
Today was my weigh-in day. I only gained 1.2 pounds. I was expecting a lot more and was expecting to be back in the 230’s. I’m worked very hard to get out of the 230’s, so I’m feeling very optimistic today. I have an enjoyable day of sugar detox ahead of me. Breakfast, lunch and snacks are planned. Hubby has agreed to get back on-plan with me, so dinner will be on-plan, too.
Okay.. a better title might be ‘intermittent slow jogger,’ but I did it! I just completed day 1 of week 1 of the extended C25K program. A whole hour of 30 second runs followed by 4 1/2 minute walks. I feel awesome! Yeah, I’m sweaty and very very exhausted, but so very very proud of myself!
My youngest DD woke me at 5:00 this morning…bad dream. I had trouble falling back to sleep as my brain decided that it was time to do some deep thinking! The main thing on my mind was the struggle I’ve been having lately with staying on-plan. Last week, I was struggling to get my project completed by Friday and I found myself constantly going into the kitchen and looking through the cabinets and the refrigerator…and sometimes grabbing something to eat when I wasn’t hungry and it wasn’t meal or snack time. Then, I crashed and burned over the weekend and went on a binge. Yesterday was another off-plan day. During my early morning think session, I realized that I’ve allowed myself to forget the main reasons why I’m doing this. Yes, I want to look better…who wouldn’t? But, I also want to be a healthy active person for the remainder of my life. No more sitting on the sidelines and allowing my weight to hold me back. I don’t want to let life pass me by. I want to travel, to enjoy life, to be independent for as long as possible. I want to be like my Dad! I had lost my focus, but, for the first time in a while, I’m feeling 100% optimistic and determined to get this weight off, to develop a daily exercise habit and to eat the foods that benefit my body the most! Today, I’m having one of my 1200 calorie days and will do 60 minutes of walk/run on the treadmill. I’ve found my mojo! :carrot:
Today is my official weekly weigh-in day and I’ve gained 1.4 pounds. I’m so glad the weekend is over. It was not a great on-plan weekend for me and I’m ready to get my head back into my plan. I’m not 100% sure of what exactly happened. I don’t think it was one thing in particular. I think I just allowed a series of stressful days build up my frustration and anxiety until I exploded and turned to my familiar remedy…food. But, my mantra is “Quitting is not an option anymore” so I’m still here and trying to get this weight off and learn new ways of coping with the stresses of life.
Last night, I managed to remember to put on the crock pot for my steelcut oatmeal. So, I’m starting the day off on the right foot with my healthy breakfast. I also realize that I must make exercising a priority despite my heavy workload. I must make myself a priority again. I’ve decided that I’ll only work occasional overtime from now on. My health is too important and my family needs me, too.