Anxiety For Nothing

I’ve been a walking freak show lately. Since I came out of ketosis for my surgery I’ve had a hell of a time getting back into the swing of things. As the days progressed I started feeling like I was this huge, blubbering mess and that I must have gained 10,000 pounds (yes, unreasonable but [...]

Shape Shifting and My Closet of Hope

Some days this lifestyle change is the easiest thing I’ve ever done. Other days I can’t think of anything more challenging. It’s been 3 months and I’m down nearly 70lbs. That’s a lot of weight… in not a lot of time. As you know I don’t weigh myself at home (if you didn’t know that [...]

What 40 Pounds Lost Means

Seriously, until you’ve had to get on the floor, suck in your gut, and get blisters on your fingers zipping up your jeans you’ll never know the joy of taking them fresh out of the dryer, putting them on, zipping them up and moving on with your life. THAT is what 40lbs lost means to [...]

Surviving Thanksgiving

I’ve been stressing Thanksgiving since October 11th. That was day I walked into Ideal Protein. Of all the days that were to come Thanksgiving gave me the most anxiety. I wrote in my food journal on November 1st to say to myself every day: It’s just another day, not a license to eat.
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Hurricanes, Dragon Slaying, and Meltdowns

I’m from a the smallest state in the nation. Just over a million people call Rhode Island their home but many more visit here and summer here because we truly are The Ocean State. Our coastlines have wooed Hollywood Stars, hosted royalty, and keep millions of people returning annually.¬†Growing up here you see the beauty [...]

It’s The Little Things

It’s been two weeks and I’m pleased to say that with my Week Two 5lb loss I’m down 15lbs!! That’s more than enough to be pleased with but since I have a history of pinning a lot of happiness (or anxiety) to those numbers I’m going to point out the little things that have made [...]

Victory in Cotton

Today is Day 5 of Ideal Protein. I haven’t weighed myself and I have no plans to until my scheduled weigh ins at the facility. I have no idea how much weight I’ve lost and since I can become a bit crazy obsessive extremely interested with daily weigh ins I’ve decided to get weighed there [...]

Traditions and Excuses

Immediately following our wedding we took our beautiful cake top and placed it in a box and I wrote in Sharpie DO NOT OPEN UNTIL 10/15/12. After I wrote it and looked at the box I remember feeling like that was forever away. A year seemed like an eternity.
Here we are a year later and [...]