Where did the time go?

I haven’t visited 3fc in over a year. Almost 1.5 years.

I checked all my blogroll, 2 people left out of so many friends I used to know.

What’s happened with me? So much, but basically I now have a son, and he’s the light of my life. At 9 months old, he amazes me every single day. I love him so much and so does my husband. He’s a great father and I love to see the two of them interact.

Which leads me to why I’m here, I worked so hard to get pregnant, and after years of trying with PCOS, and finally losing a bunch of weight. I FINALLY got pregnant. And had my baby, and ballooned all the way to 230 lbs. Then I went back to 212 after DS was born, but now I’m back into the 220s. I pigged out too much after DS was born (and I got the hang of being a momma on maternity leave).

So now I struggle again with over-eating (but food tastes SO GOOD), and also with breastfeeing. Pumping to be exact. DS was never able to latch, even when we had his tongue tie cut, so I always just pumped. Anytime I try to diet the milk supply would plummet. But now, 9 months postpartum, the supply is continuing to dwindle. Probably partly because I HATE pumping now. But I want DS to get the benefits, I probably am getting like 10 oz of milk/day, but that’s fine with me, I’m going through my stash in the freezer and giving DS the older milk while I replenish with new. But I’ve just faced the facts that as much as I want to give DS the best, I need to get back in charge of my life and diet and exercise. It’s hard being a mom, working a full time job, and being a wife. I do my best but I’ve got to do better with taking care of me.

And so here it goes, hi everybody, my name is Bee, and I’m here to get down to my original goal of 135 lbs. Today I’m 228, my current goal? Get into the two-teens.

How will I do it? Add more veggies to my diet, take out carbs, stop over-eating at night, and somewhere in there find time to do some exercise, mostly walking, as I’m so overweight right now my feet hurt! :(

DH also wants another child, there is no way I’m getting pregnant at this weight, it’ll be even harder for me this time around!

If you are out there, hi.

Weekend yay!

So yesterday was very good- carbs were at LESS than 20% (yay). I didn’t work out but seriously I was all over the mall for three hours then went grocery shopping at two stores, and so on. Then I cleaned the house (a good scrubbing), I definitely burned a lot of calories yesterday! And by the time around 8:30 pm after everything was done I was pooped.

Yesterday I made this for dinner:

I bought these spinach/crab/cheese stuffed salmon filets and fried them up with a tiny bit of olive oil. Then I just made my quick cucumber/tomato/onion salad with sumac and lemon. I had of seconds of the salad ;) Soooo good :)

This morning I got up and put together a package for a phone I’m selling on ebay (my hubby’s old phone). Then I’m off to have some breakfast, go bike riding, come home, shower and go with my sister to see “It’s Complicated” and then probably have some lunch. It’s going to be a sister outing :) I love these times with my baby sister. Yesterday she asked if we could have a party for her graduation. I told her sure whatever she wanted. And she’s so silly lol- she wants a party at home with a pinata! lol. So it’s probably going to be something like this:

She loves princess stuff (still) so I think she’ll get a kick out of it. There is a pinata store nearby who sells ones just like these- and then we’ll fill it with Mexican candy, probably do catering with a small company like El Pollo Loco or somewhere where I can have some control with my diet :)

I’m off to make some breakfast than go bike riding :) Have a great weekend everyone!

Happy New Year!

Morning everyone! How was your NY? Hubby and I stayed up, watched Dexter, got dinner out (yes I stayed as low carb as possible :p) and then went to bed just after midnight :)

Today I’m off to buy a suit, run errands, clean the house, do laundry, the list goes on and on!

Still south beaching it THOUGH I am still craving some darn chex cereal for breakfast! lol.

I’m going to be making my own blog outside of 3fc this weekend- and will be updating a lot more often this way :)

Here’s today’s breakfast:

I literally have ZERO veggies in the house so I’ve got to get some so I can have a LARGE salad with protein for lunch :) I wanted to make an omelette but oh well :) The eggs were YUMMY anyways :D

Update:
I’m back from the store. I got a suit with some nice new shoes for $115. I also bought a new carry on case that was on clearance for $60. The suit is great- fits perfectly- the top is a black blazer, then I’ve just got a white button up shirt underneath and black pants with some new shoes. I actually got the shirt for $6! They were having crazy sales today- if I were thinner I’d have gone nuts- but I didn’t want to buy a lot of large clothes that I may not need.

We went to a little restaurant called “Corner Bakery” which is like Panera, but not as good IMO. I got this salad:

I gave the roll to my sister though cuz I didn’t want it couldn’t have it… Though it looked great and made that perfect bread “crunch” sound when she tore into it *sigh*

Today was interesting. I was talking to my sister and she actually suggested gastric bypass! I was really shocked. I was like um, no, I don’t want to have surgery. I can do this on my own. To which she replied “I know you can.” I don’t think she meant it in any way- I think she was trying to be helpful, but it still hurt a bit just the same. I know my sister- she definitely wasn’t saying it in THAT way.

I still have to clean house and go grocery shopping, but I’m taking a break now- we were at the mall THREE HOURS cuz we also bought other stuff we needed (cleaning supplies, shampoo, etc).

I’ll be back later to update with my dinner :)

Keep on keeping on :)

So yesterday was pretty good- carbs were higher than yesterday (40%) but they were all good carbs, like whole grain bread (1 slice), a bit of leftover brown rice (1 cup), and so on. I just wanted to use the stuff up rather than toss it out (I hate waste). Still haven’t weighed in… I took the challenge at 3fc to weigh in on Friday and update my ticker *yikes* hope I don’t cry when I step on that scale! lol.

And man- yesterday was a tough day to resist temptation- I was CRAVING fresh spring rolls with peanut sauce SOOOO bad- but I was like nope Bee- you CANNOT HAVE THAT. Dinner yesterday was cordon bleu’s (finally lol) that were surprisingly only 11 grams of carbs, then a buttload of iceberg lettuce and balsamic dressing (soo good). Oh I did also have some grilled beans, which added to my carb count- but I only had half a cup, and the rest was put away, hubby had corn and beans with his Cordon Bleu (I know a FUNNY combo but hey when your man “helps” cook you let him!).

I crocheted a LOT last night (felt good I needed to relax) and just watched Dexter with hubby- man that show is great! If you haven’t seen it- it’s about a blood stain pattern forensic scientist who is a serial killer and kills the bad guys who get away and avoid justice. I love it! It’s a showtime series- but the first three seasons are already out on DVD (another reason I LOVE Netflix).

He’s kind of cute isn’t he? ;)

Okay anyways- I’m so happy we have another three day weekend. From all the events the past week I’m EXHAUSTED. Yesterday literally got home, did a 20 minute workout (just a jog on the treadmill), made dinner, ate it, then watched TV and crocheted till 9:30 pm, then went to bed! The worst part is that I could not sleep all night UG. I woke up and tossed and turned the WHOLE time *sigh* I thought working out would help but nope- seemed to keep me up- but I probably just need to continue the workouts to get back into the routine…

Today I have two hard boiled eggs for breakfast, lunch is an open faced Tuna sandwich with mustard, and a spinach salad with balsamic dressing. :) Not much is planned for after work. I’m just going to go home and relax with hubby- make some dinner (not sure what at this point), work out, and watch TV and then just relax.

So since today is the 31st- I’m going to say that THIS YEAR will be the last time my New Year’s Resolution will be to LOSE WEIGHT. I will be at goal darnit. No more darn excuses- no more falling off the bandwagon, etc. I’m turning 27 on January 15th and I don’t want to be fat when I turn 28!

With that resolution I’m going to have specifics, cuz saying “I’m going to lose weight”… yeah… not exactly well though out IMO. So my goals are:
1- eat 20-40% carbs a day (recommend for women with PCOS for weightloss), and the carbs will come from GOOD carbs.
2- workout as often as possible
3- get back to the bike riding on weekends (we’ve missed it)
4- Continue to try not to snack at night
5- work on toning while losing cuz I feel like my arms are HUGE lately :(

That’s it- have a good New Year’s everyone! Good luck with your resolutions!

Thank you

Thank you all for your prayers- my FIL is doing very well. Honestly the nurses, the physical therapist, and the doctor were shocked- they said his recovery was miraculous. By the end of the night he was wanting out of there lol. When we first got to him he was a bit incoherent- was asking random questions (multiple times) and we’d answer everything like what he said wasn’t odd at all. He definitely looked weak but that’s normal. I warned hubby he may not like what he saw but by the end of the day the improvement was so dramatic. You know someone is going to be alright when they want a cheeseburger and a beer for dinner! He was moved from the ICU last night and they told him (though I think the nurses said this to make him happy) that he might be able to leave as soon as Thursday if he kept on this path. We are going today after work to see him.

Eating was CRAP yesterday- I did my best though. Breakfast was an egg and ham and cheese sandwhich with coffee- lunch was a large chicken salad from Rubios- and dinner was broccoli cheddar soup with turkey. I did my best but yeah who knows how much sodium I consumed. But today will be better. When we got home last night from the hospital basically I ate dinner then conked out. I slept 10 hours straight- but I needed it- hospitals are EXHAUSTING IMO.

Breakfast today is a whole wheat bagel with two laughing cow wedges. Snack is a babybel cheese round. Lunch (cuz I didn’t even get to go shopping I was so busy) is a salad minus dressing and two drumsticks from El Pollo Loco, and I’m not sure what dinner is but I remember I have some pre-made cordon bleu’s sitting in the freezer- that with probably some spinach as a side will be dinner. I doubt I’ll have time for exercise today but I will 100% try to get in a half hour on the treadmill. It just depends how long we’ll be at the hospital.

Thanks again everyone- I swear yesterday I was like SERIOUSLY my life is just one drama after another! What’s next? *knocks on wood*

208

Yeah weighed in today- a pleasant surprise that the scale said 208. But no surprise since I’ve been too nervous/busy to eat! Today is a half day at work- but really I have nothing pressing to do- I’m leaving at 11 am to go to the bank and get some stuff taken care of for my mother :) (shocker). Remember the cookies I took home? I’m proud to say I have only eaten TWO of them- but they were the two that were my FAVORITES so I couldn’t help it lol. One was this tiny cheesecake bites but seriously they are the size of a dollar coin- and then the other is like a chocolate biscotti- I reserved it for my dessert last night :)

Hubby and I spent a nice evening together- we definitely needed it! I apologized to him for being so out of it the past week or so- he said he totally understood and knew that I was doing my best to get this new job (which is true). It’s more than a job- it’s a career- it’s my dream- I’ve always wanted to be a scientist AND a lawyer- and going into forensics as a criminalist is the best of both worlds for me. I get to work in a lab, I get to help solve crimes, and I get to testify in court as an expert witness- I mean HOW FREAKING COOL IS THAT!? So all those years of of college getting a bachelor’s and master’s in science paid off! (THOUGH I’m still paying off my school debts and according to my schedule will be done in NINE more years *cry*). I promised hubby the next few days I’d stay away from the books and make the days about me, him, and the rest of the family. :)

Just wanted to wish you all a happy holiday- take care, be safe, and don’t go crazy with all that yummy food coming you way! ;)

Gulp

Goodness sorry I’m blogging so late! I’m just so busy lately it’s hard to get on at the moment- specially since we have a short week and tomorrow is only a half day also!

Some good news is I have another exam I’m going to- I passed the first now I’ll be heading to the second exam! I’ve got to fly up again (yay) but this time I’m going to spend the night and my oral exam is at 8 am on January 6th. So this trip will probably cost $400 instead of the $300 I paid last time (for the hotel and more meals). I hope I do well (I’ve got a lot of studying to do from now till then) so I get an interview- from what I understand only the TOP TEN applicants (possibly top 20) will get an interview. As of now I assume it’s going to be me and about 50 people who will be taking this oral exam. I’ve got to do better than about 80% of the people who go then! I’m nervous as heck- and honestly lately that’s made me not hungry- isn’t that funny? Before I’d be eating and eating and eating- today I could barely swallow my medication and food is the LAST thing on my mind. I guess that shows how far I’ve come cuz I’m not turning to food for comfort right now (yay). I am VERY nervous about this test- I won’t lie! :(

Last night got home, found out about the exam, and then booked my flight, made dinner- ate a HUGE taco salad (omg so good), lettuce, tomato, onion, I crumpled up one shell for some crunch, also put in very lean ground beef (93% lean) with taco seasoning on it. Added a sprinkle of cheese, some avocado, a squirt of sour cream, and tons of salsa instead of any dressing. It was so good! Then literally it happened- food coma- I was so tired! I decided to take a shower and literally was in bed before 8 pm! Was asleep by 9 and when I woke up at 5:30 this morning I was totally refreshed! Funny thing was I was so out of it yesterday that I thought it was Wednesday already! When my hubby was talking to me I was nodding off and then before I showered I had him put the trash cans out with me- this morning when I realized TODAY is Wednesday I was like “why didn’t you tell me it was Tuesday? We put the trash cans out early!” He replied he thought I knew something he didn’t lol. Silly hubby :p

Not much else to say for today. I’ve got to finish my last scarf (yay) and then wrap the last presents before Christmas (the scarves I’ve completed). Today I’m making an easy dinner (whole grain spaghetti with ragu and salad on the side). I also plan on spending some time with hubby and the fids- poor Broccoli was crying this morning when I had her so I felt terrible- I’ve been neglecting the fids and hubby with all the stuff I have going on- totally not fair to them :(

Have a good holiday everyone! I’m off to catch up with you all! This will probably be my last blog for the rest of the week.

Cookie Party!

Eh- uh- yay? Seriously I didn’t want to participate in this party- but I was suckered into it IMO. Not only by my coworkers but by my husband (aw babe please make the cookies I want some). The girls bugged and bugged and so I ended up making mint chocolate chip cookies (5 dozen). Took me a few hours last night- I had a hard time finding mint extract and mint chocolate chips. I found the mint extract (3 stores later) but never found the mint chocolate chips so I bought two packages of Andes Mints and crushed them up and added them to the dough I made. I also made a dozen hard boiled eggs for the party since we are supposed to bring some breakfast item also (seriously they don’t ask for much do they?). Funny thing is my sister said the same thing I was thinking “you are bringing HOW MANY cookies home?” The plan is to bring them home and then on Christmas day send them straight over to my husband’s aunt’s house lol! I don’t want them at ALL! Hubby better get his fill from now till then :p

I didn’t realize my camera was dead but I found this picture online- close to what they look like:

Yesterday after I didn’t get home till like 6:30 and was baking and so on till 9 I barely found time to eat so I ate in between batches and then showered and went to bed- I was just too dead to workout. And don’t worry I only ate one bite of one cookie- I was saturated with mint smell I didn’t even want to TRY them lol. But I did- and they are good- so that’s good :) Can you believe it though according to my recipe ONE cookie is 110 calories! *GASP* Yeah gonna stay away from the cookies today! I’m going to eat my hard boiled eggs and take the cookies home- we are supposed to taste them to judge- but hey you can only ask so much of me! :p

Another busy day today (not at home thank goodness). Maintenance on 8 machines, make up some safety solutions for our burn kits (we never use these but it’s fine to have them on hand), and put away some orders, and so on :) When I get home I’m making Tacos for dinner (begged by my sister) but I’ll make a large taco salad for myself to go with my portion instead of using taco shells :)

Have a good day everyone!

I am back!

Woo hoo! I’m back- the test went very well! So even though total with all the little extras when I got there (food and gas) I spent about $300- but hopefully it pays off. Now I have to wait and see- I’m crossing my fingers :D

All my christmas shopping is done- everything is wrapped except for one present! I’ve got two more scarves to make and one I will have finished tonight :D

Saturday I did nothing- I was so drained- I got home the night before at like 9:30 pm and went straight to bed. I woke up at 9 am! Then I just kind of puttered around all day. I did like two errands and got my new cell phone:

It is pretty freaking sweet! Cost a pretty penny but With the rebate and money my mom’s giving me for Christmas I should only be paying like $100 out of pocket :) Hubby is getting one too- yay for him- he’s been using it almost as much as me lol- he’s in LOVE with my phone but then again he’s a gadget man so I’m not surprised.

Sunday was definitely better- got up, got off my butt, cleaned the house top to bottom (let me tell you it looked like a hurricane went through it), went grocery shopping, cooked some stuff, spent time with my brother, and more! I watched the original french version of “The Birdcage” and I liked it- it was definitely funny and I saw a lot of where the actors got their inspiration for the characters- specially Nathan Lane’s character. It’s in French so it was subtitled- and the movie is from 1978- but I definitely enoyed it :) It’s called “La Cage Aux Folles.”

I think that’s the great thing about netflix- you can find pretty much any movie with them :)

Work has been very busy for me lately- learning a lot more new stuff and progressing- I don’t know how my time will go with this blog. Specially if I get the position. Really the reason I have so much time to blog is cuz being an assistant there isn’t much for me to do- but if I become an analyst that’ll change and I’ll have to re-evaluate. Either I will start blogging at night or I may stop- but that definitely does not mean my journey has ended! I still have a ways to go AND refuse to quit till I’m there! I’m going to be 27 on January 15th- I want to be 28 and thin- I want this year to be the LAST year I say that my new years resolution is to lose weight!

Anyways- I’m off to catch up with you guys, get back to work, and then I’m fully back on the workout train! Eating wasn’t terrible- but at the same time it wasn’t the best in terms of carbs. Woke up today at 208.5 so I’m going to say I’m pretty decent at maintaining at least. I’m still 3 lbs over what I was before thanksgiving- but that’s okay- it could have been worse right?

Have a good day everyone!

Checking in

Sorry I haven’t really been around- I’ve been SO busy with work- training at work to learn more things and then studying at night for my test on Friday- and also running around trying to get things done for Christmas! This is how I’m feeling lately:

Haven’t worked out- food is okay- not terrible but not the best carbwise- maintaining from 209-210 so I’m okay with that. After the hectic holidays and my test are over I should be able to refocus again. :D

Since I’ve been gone let me tell you about my week: I had the flu starting Thursday- I had to take off from work I was so sick! I spent the weekend taking care of things I’d neglected for two days and then did groceries and laundry. And then yesterday my car broke down at 6 am! It just died on me- which I was totally caught off guard since my car is a 2007 Corolla… Luckily I have Triple A so the tow truck guy took it right over to the dealer and then we took hubby’s car to work instead (I got there TWO HOURS LATE). I do have the extended warranty on my car (smart me) and turns out the ECU (computer) of the car malfunctioned. I was totally covered- not even by the extended warranty but the regular warranty apparently. So I got my car back yesterday evening :D All washed too haha- that’s the great thing about the dealer- they wash your car everytime you take it there :D

Today is a potluck for my section at work- and we are doing a white elephant- no real gifts allowed- you have to bring something random from home. I brought a fondant smoother:

And deviled eggs:

Totally forgot to wrap my present so at like 5:50 am I frantically wrapped my present lol. Looks terrible BUT I don’t care- I did it like that on purpose- yeah that’s my story I’m sticking to it!

Anyways- I got to go- got some DNA to extract and quant then from there I have to send out some kits, speak with a representative from RAININ and then get ready for the party! I hope everyone is having a good holiday so far! I promise I’ll be back on the blog bandwagon next week!

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