This time it’s for real

Yesterday hubby took me out for pho and I ate my fill and it was good. Then when I got home last night decided it’s time to just go back on phase 1 again, the loss has stalled so I’ve obviously added too many carbs back. So TODAY- yes Saturday I’m going back to phase 1. Breakfast will be most likely two hard boiled eggs, some I can’t believe it’s not butter, and bacon or something. Lunch will be a large salad with grilled meat, and dinner wil be something similar.

Here’s my pho from last night- sorry about the bad quality- I took it from my camera phone.

You can see I totally load it with veggies I hadn’t added sriracha yet- normally my broth is red lol.

What time did I go to bed last night? 8:30! But I don’t need that medication OH NO- going to bed at 8:30 pm and waking up at 8:30 am is TOTALLY normal… RIGHT…

Lots to do this weekend, mostly cleaning and getting the house back into shape for my mom’s return, I am sure I won’t be blogging as much but my blogs will be longer when I am around- I’ll definitely include pictures!!

Have a good day everyone!

Breakfast: 3 hard boiled eggs with 1 tablespoon ICBINB Light and dash of pepper (2 grams carbs)

Lunch:
2 cups romaine lettuce, half a tomato, an ounce of cheese and about 4 tablespoons cilantro cesar. (9 grams carbs)

Oh man I am SOOO glad today is friday- I think I woke up with a huge grin on my face lol.

Hubby told me I’m not allowed to cook dinner tonight he’s taking me out- I’m like sure why not- as long as it’s not burgers and fries!

Last night I made pasta with brussels sprouts for dinner- it was good. I was so hungry I forgot to take a picture- sorry

Basically I boiled the brussels sprouts till they were warmed up all the way- then cut them in half and put them in a skilled with a tiny layer of EVOO. Then cooked them till the bottom’s were browned and tossed them a bit to get some sides browned. After that I added it to the multigrain pasta with some alfredo sauce. My sister enjoyed it- I thought it was pretty good- and my husband? Here’s his dinner:

Yes that’s right- spaghettio’s. I was like really dude? REALLY?! Whatever lol- my husband, the perpetual kid at heart- I wonder what he’s going to be like when the two of us are in our 60s and 70s? I should get his neurologist to scare him into eating veggies :p

Oh and yesterday was the pre-inspection- which went over very well. I was only asked to do 2 things, and one was just get rid of some chemical’s that I somehow missed when I had gone through and inventoried our chemical supply (just 2) and then to put in our chemical record log some animal serum that we had purchased. Though I reminded the lead that she told me not to put this in- and she was like really? Do you remember why? I was like no I can’t remember but you did- and she was like “oh yeah I’m sure you are right but let’s just put it in now.” Which is totally cool with me- I really like our technical lead- she’s really smart and nice and a good teacher also

Oh and so yesterday we got an email at work saying Knotts Berry Farm is having their annual Fire and Police Personnel Promotion. Anyone who works in law enforcement gets free admission to Knotts from November 26 to December 20! AND I also get to bring one guest for free. AND AND AND anyone else with me- up to 6 more people- get in for $15 a PERSON!

This is really good considering tickets are usually like $45 a person! I think they are having a November special right now where regular tickets are $30- but still- that’s still good! I want to go when my mom gets back on the weekend after Thanksgiving so that’s me, husband, mom, bro, sis, and sis’s bf. 6 people total and that would cost us $60 for tickets when normally it’d be at least $180! They also give 10% discounts for AAA members inside the park at the stores- woo!

I forgot my pill this morning- so far I feel okay but I hope that it doesn’t affect me too bad- I just worry I’ll feel hungry when in actuality I’ll be feeling tired- I think that was a big part of my problem before- but one day shouldn’t be too bad. I brought my lunch but the leftover dinner from last night just doesn’t seem appealing… I’ll probably go to El Pollo Loco for lunch.

Oh and before I forget has anyone ever used those microwave egg cookers? I’m thinking of bringing eggs to work and trying out one of these things- but I’m afraid the egg will be rubbery and gross so I don’t want to waste my money. Let me know if you have used it and if you liked it or not

Have a good weekend everyone!

Update- yeah not having my pill today is definitely a very BAD thing- I’m totally exhausted and have already almost fallen asleep at my desk two times… I’ve eaten two pieces of chocolate hoping it would help- it does temporarily then I crash again *sigh* I’m angry with myself for eating candy but I don’t know what else to do at this moment… I’m praying hubby calls me to go home soon. I’m calling my doctor’s office for an update to see if the approval was given or not. I hope it is cuz really I can’t keep living like this- I was reading about people whose sleep apnea is so bad they can’t even work! How sad is that?

GAH I called the doctor’s office they haven’t done ANYTHING- they were like oh we have to do pre-authorization? I was pretty mad and was like YES- I called the girl last monday- and I came IN last monday was told it was going to be done- why hasn’t it been done? I’m sitting here exhausted waiting for my medication WTF… The girl apologized and said she’s going to do it right now… PFT WE’LL see I’m calling on Monday morning at 8 am- I’m so pissed off I want to scream and cry and give up.

Before I went to bed last night- well not RIGHT before but like around 8 pm (I went to bed at 9:30) I was having an overwhelming craving for pickles- I pulled out the snackums jar and ate 9 mini pickles! 3 oz worth… Oh man so good but dangerous lol. Last night all my dreams where almost scary- I think it’s a culmination of my fears lately. I won’t go into details but let’s just say they involved dead people asking for help and me losing weight but hating my body and also not getting a position as a criminalist Geez pickle you sure you got everything?!

I’m laying off the pickles! Killed my sodium for the day anyways - I had 2100 and then shot up to almost 3000 mg, but I’ll do better today.

I’m done with the antibiotics HALLELUJAH! So TODAY’s breakfast is a perfect 10 western healthy grain bagel (looks good with only 10 grams net carbs) and then a packet of french onion laughing cow AND a piece of babybel cheese- YES I AM CHEESING IT UP lol. :p

Oh man yesterday I made a yummy stir fry- I found from green giant this teriyaki vegetables pack, then I bought 12 ounces of cut up sirloin for stir fry. I made the components seperate. After my sister took her share I added half the steak (6 oz’s) to the veggies and then I had some leftover brown rice that my sister and I also ate. Hubby took the leftoever 6 oz of steak (God forbid he eat a vegetable) and made two wraps with his (I guess at least he had some fiber cuz he used the La Tortilla wraps), so meat, cheese, sour cream, and thousand island… Oh yeah that’s healthy… *rolls eyes*

I took a picture of my food but darnit forgot to upload it online… I’ll probably add it later tonight. But my portion was so big that I only ate about half of it and have packed the rest away for lunch today- yum I will be honest and say while the flavoring of the veggies were good- the veggies weren’t that great- I felt it was mostly broccoli and next time I’ll just buy the sauce and then add my own veggies.

Tonight I am making brussel sprouts for dinner (yum) I haven’t made them in a while and I’m not even sure what I am going to do- but brussel sprouts are going to be the main focus tonight! Hubby’s like “I don’t like brussel sprouts” and I said “starve then…” Seriously I am getting so grumpy about his lack of trying new things- he says he’s eaten them before and doesn’t like him- I said in the ten years I’ve known you I have NEVER seen you eat one… He probably ate them as a KID or something- I swear I don’t know what I’m going to do with that man… I’ve told him a million times before what am I going to do when we have kids?! And he’s like “I’ll eat them then” I said you better or I’ll divorce you and you’ll never see your child again…” Yeah I know empty threat :p The real plan is to make fun of daddy for not eating his veggies lol.

Oh and got a note from my insurance saying hubby’s medication is not approved since it’s not FDA approved for people with MS. But the neurologist called me and said that he is trying to get it approved still and sent some research articles showing studies of people who have taken provigil who have MS and how it helped them. Still no news for me- but we’ll see what happens- the doctor said he’s pretty sure I’ll be approved because I have sleep apnea… Hubby says he will just deal with it… So frustrating but what can I do?

Oh and today I’m calling the nutritionist- I did better yesterday on carbs- but I can still improve.

Anyways- another slammed day at work- we have an audit next week and I’m gonna check out blogs while I eat my breakfast

Have a great day everyone!

NUTRIENTS:
Calories: 1,489
Fat: 60
Carbohydrates: 145
Protein: 97
Fiber, total dietary: 22
Sodium, Na: 2966

Carbs 38%

So yesterday get home- things are good- feeling good- start making dinner- yada yada. Hubby says “oh there is a letter from our insurance…” I get it and inside is a referral to a nutritionist FROM MY DOCTOR! BOO.

I was like hey uh she didn’t even TALK to me about it- she just referred me? I mean at least talk to me about it… Don’t just send it out… I would have listened… Probably still wouldn’t have gone- but I would have listened :p

The problem isn’t not knowing what to eat- it’s just doing it. I know last weekend I ate like crap- I was sick and for meals no one was like “hey let me make something” they’d just go pick up food… Sure I could have probably cooked for myself- but I didn’t. I know this weekend won’t be the same because I’m not sick and I will cook like I have been doing everyday SINCE then.

Here’s last night’s dinner:

Brown and red rice (not the instant stuff- this stuff took 45 minutes to cook!), a green bean mix, chicken, and a TINY bit of mashed potato (my weakness but that’s all I had). I had seconds of the green beans (yummy they are SOO good) as well. Later on I had a blackberry yogurt (yum) for a snack at like 7:30. My breakfast that day was a large apple with peanut butter and one whole wheat fig bar, then lunch was grilled veggies with chicken and I went next door to the Thai place and got some fresh spring rolls (the ones that are not fried).

They are soo yummy

I also had a snack of 1 oz of cheese after lunch (around 2:30).

I thought overall a healthy day.

Today I am having a fig bar and some whole wheat pretzels (forgot my apple darn), then lunch is leftover chicken, brown rice, and green beans. I also brought a pomegranate/cherry yogurt for lunch in case I was still hungry. Dinner is home made stir fry with brown rice again. I got a stir fry mix and I believe I have some sort of Teryaki sauce around- if not I think I have most of the ingrediants to make up a sauce.

Oh and dude so I get up this morning and weigh in- yay 207. Then all of a sudden I have a you know what urge- I go then weigh myself again (hey I KNOW you guys have done this at one point or another) and I’ve gained half a pound- darn it lol

I’m going with the 207 and hoping to see 205 on Monday

Have a great day everyone!

Oh and in case you were wondering YES I am thinking about going to the nutritionist. I am going to start logging what I eat again then try to get an appointment next week so I can bring my stuff and see what she suggests. But if she patronizes me in ANY way I’m walking out.

Felt good today- woke up and I was actually AWAKE- not the zombie I normally am.

Let me tell you about how my days used to be: I used to wake up with hubby in the morning at 5:30 am and then get ready and when we’d leave at 6 am I’d basically fall asleep in the car while hubby drove then wake up at work, then be tired most of the day and move around at the pace of a slug- around lunchtime I’d be okay but after lunch again I’d be down. Then on the way home the same thing- hubby would pick me up and I’d be falling asleep on the way home. I’d get home- put my stuff down then hit the couch and LIE THERE for half an hour. After half an hour I’d get up and make dinner, eat dinner, and then lie around, watch TV and spend time with my bird till around 9 pm and then go to bed around 10. Then the cycle would start over.

Now I get up and I’m up! I get dressed, I’m wide awake- I talk with hubby on the way up, then get my work done, no more coma’s after lunch, and then am wide awake on the way home also. I now take care of things when I get home like errands or some cleaning or a load of laundry- it’s great!

Yesterday after work went to pick up the prescription from my doctor- she had me sitting there for half an hour waiting! I was getting very angry but I refused to say a word cuz I felt she was doing it on purpose. Only when I said to her receptionist “oh would it be better if I came by tomorrow?” did she finally give it to me… BUT of course like a good doctor she said “oh I haven’t done the pre-authorization so it’ll probably take a week for you to get it…” I just looked at her and was like that’s fine- just call me when I can send in the prescription… LITTLE does she know my husband’s neurologist gave my husband two weeks worth of the one’s I take because he didn’t want my husband to run out in the meantime. My husband’s neurologist filled out the request last week so my husband will most likely get his before I get mine. SO HA! TAKE THAT! I WIN!

Anyways- last night I had a ton of errands to run so we didn’t eat dinner til after 6- Lana and Ardy and Chad all wanted Spaghetti so that worked for me! Made more whole grain pasta with Ragu- then I also browned some meat cuz I didn’t have meat balls- but I honestly prefer crumbled brown meat on my spaghetti than big old meat balls. It was very yummy

Oh and I just found out that I have next Wednesday day off, but I also took off Friday- so I’m like well maybe I should take of Thursday also and just have a long weekend? I’ll ask my boss if that’s cool- I’m sure he won’t mind. I can use those days to get things in order before my mom gets back and also to get an oil change for my car, get my eyebrows done on Thursday and a haircut also.

I still haven’t booked the hotel- I told hubby that as nice as it is that they want to do something the next day we just don’t have time- so we’ll be staying at a cheaper hotel (saving at least $30) and not be joining them for brunch the next morning. We’ll get up and the hotel I found charges $10 to include breakfast the next morning so we’ll eat there then go home.

Today after work I have to go to the bank and the pharmacy to get my prescription, then I’m going to figure out what to make for dinner and get some other chores done before Biggest Loser comes on.

Anyways- I have a lot to take care of today- so I’ll say goodbye for now- have a great day everyone!

Good morning everyone- hope your weekend was better than mine. I spent all weekend with the flu and got NOTHING done So next weekend I have 9 million things to take care of *sigh*

Anyways- if you haven’t read my insurance made a mistake and Nuvigil IS covered- but my doctor has to say I do need it- so I will call her this morning to get that taken care of. *fun fun fun*

Weighed in at 208 this morning- not bad considering eating was crap this weekend as well. Yesterday dinner was those pizzas you warm up in the oven- They were $4 a pizza so that was a cheap dinner for the family yesterday.

Today have a lot of work to do. Besides the fact that open enrollment starts today- I have to make 30 rape kits and finish them by tomorrow then I have to get ready for my portion of the lab audit which takes place next week.

Anyone here love fig bars? I DO but I rarely get them because they aren’t the best for you cuz of the dough part. WELL yesterday I found whole wheat fig bars from Henry’s! WOO! I bought them and just had two pieces for breakfast this morning OMG GOOD!

If you like fig bars definitely check them out! Henry’s is like Whole Foods or Trader Joes so they may carry them also- the ones I have are obviously made by the store- not packaged stuff from a factory.

Anyways- got to take my pill and get to work! I’ll check blogs on my break Have a good day everyone!

OH btw if you are going to see “This Is It” it’s VERY good- I loved it- it showed MJ’s creative side, how kind he was, how dedicated he was to making it the best show ever for his fans, and so on. I was choking up a few times because I was so sad that I would never see him in concert again. If you have attended concerts or have an imagination (unlike my husband) you could see exactly how amazing the concert was going to be- we barely got the TIP of the iceberg IMO. To see MJ, so real, so raw, well it was breathtaking. At one point they did a whole dance for a song and at the end you saw his face light up with happiness at knowing it was perfectly executed- I can’t get that image out of my mind- it was awesome. Go see it- it’s two hours long but it went so fast that I barely noticed.

*sigh*

Yesterday despite all that made a yummy dinner… I made whole grain pasta with alfredo sauce and parmesan chicken (didn’t have tomato sauce). It came out really well and I ate this WHOLE PLATE:

Felt a little stuffed but during the day literally all I had was an apple with some pb and 4 oz leftover porkchop with like 2 bites salad. So I was famished by the time dinner came around.

Things were fine- was doing my crochet, feeling alright… then everyone said they wanted ice cream- I said I was good and told them go get it without me cuz I wasn’t feeling up to it. I had a headache. Well while they left all of a sudden I had a terrible urge to YACK. So I did- probably lost about half what I ate Then when I got home my sister had brought me my favorite- the coffee lovers in the smallest size. I thanked her and put it in the freezer (scared I was gonna yack again). I figured last night- oh maybe I just ate way too much? Nope- woke up this morning with a runny nose and sneezing and so on. Took nyquil and slept till 9:30.

Got up feeling crappy- took my temperature, 97.4? Eh maybe my thermometer is broken?

Didn’t feel like making breakfast so hubby went to mcdonald’s. I got pancakes and coffee and no I don’t care :p I woke up this morning at 206… Not surprised after all the snot that I have been letting go of.

Anyways- gonna take my nyquil then go back to bed. Gonna see the Michael Jackson movie tomorrow NO MATTER what so I need some rest- not bike riding either boo.

So I talk to my husband’s neurologist and the receptionist and they are like that doesn’t make sense you SHOULD be covered- so they call and come to find out we ARE covered- whoever I talked to made a HUGE mistake and looked at the wrong stuff apparently. *sigh* All that headache for NOTHING AT LEAST my husband’s neurologist cares enough to check!

All that has to happen is my husband’s neurologist has to fill out a form saying why I need it and it’ll essentially be approved. I have to do the same with my doctor OH GREAT. I did try calling but no answer so I will call Monday morning and tell her that I didn’t fill the prescription because I’d rather stay with Nuvigil vs the other medication. I hope she doesn’t give me all sorts of grief over it. I’ll also tell her I’ll bring the prescription back after work so she can have the paper and see I’m not doing anything shady.

I have such a headache today…. Stupid insurance- how can someone make that mistake?! I mean who knows how many other people this girl messed up on!?

WELL spoke to my insurance and OF COURSE this isn’t covered- JUST great. There is a generic that IS covered at $10 a month BUT my doctor doesn’t want to give me more than 3 months worth because it can be addicting. I get that- but I’m not using this for leisure- I mean it’s MADE for people with sleep apnea and narcolepsy. That’s like telling a cancer patient- well I’ll give you treatment but only 3 months… After that you are on your own. It’s like WHAT?!

I’m hoping as the weight keeps coming down the sleep apnea will lessen or go away. I didn’t have sleep apnea till I hit over 190 lbs, so I’m hoping to get re-evaluated at 180 lbs to see if I still need a CPAP. Hopefully the answer is no.

My coworker says just don’t take it anymore and I’m like you don’t understand- I am DEAD most days- exhausted- falling asleep by 9 on Fridays, waking up at 9 the next morning. Then throughout the day STILL tired- that’s NOT normal and for the first time in almost 5 years I feel normal- I don’t want to lose this feeling and since I can’t afford $350 a month then I’ll have to go elsewhere.

I’m really disgusted that I pay like $450 a month for insurance and not to mention my copays and so on and yet I can’t get what I need and then when insurance APPROVES a generic my doctor says she doesn’t want to give it to me- wtf is that? I plan on switching doctors and before I make a permanent switch ask them how they feel about the generic- if one says they have no issue continuing to prescribe it to me then I’ll go to them. I’m going to try that route first FOR SURE before considering an online pharmacy.

*sigh* sorry I had to rant cuz I’m that mad… grrr…

Yup woke up this morning to 208 so the downward trend continues. I am proud of me- proud to say I did a BRISK WALK on the treadmill for 30 minutes- My right calf was acting up- Almost fell like a charlie horse trying to come but it didn’t. I didn’t do weights- but I will encorporate them in today This weekend will consist of a LOT of lifting as it is since we plan on cleaning out our laundry room and storage and the gym. Since my mom is coming home in three weekends I’d like to start now rather than doing everything at once a few days before. Those three areas once they are clean are fine for quite some time- SOOO we are going to tackle them first.

Dinner was yummy as usual- I made my pork chops and some au gratin potatoes (which I had to have some I couldn’t resist), I actually sauteed the zucchini with butter cuz I wanted my sister to get some FAT in her freaking diet, then I made my salad and put avocado in it for the same reason… I know my sister is 20- but she’s still my baby :p Here’s my plate:

Normally I can finish this plate- but I didn’t last night! All day yesterday I barely felt hungry AT ALL. I had my apple for breakfast and I even used less pb (probably 1 tbsp instead of 2), then for lunch I made a shrimp salad with lettuce and tomato and onion with ranch, and had my homemade broccoli cheddar soup. I barely had a few bites of my salad and some soup and I was done. I couldn’t eat anymore- I didn’t want anymore. I was surprised and first took one more spoonful of soup and realized I was trying to force myself to finish and I was like WHY am I doing this? I’m not hungry. I then dumped everything out into the trash clean and cleaned my tupperware. And then yesterday evening with dinner, I ate my salad, the zucchini, about 1/3 of the meat, and half the potatoes. I packed the rest of the salad (I made a large one) and the pork away for lunch today

I thought about it that evening- about why I was barely eating and I thought maybe because I feel more energetic I’m not turning to food as much? I DEFINITELY am staying on this pill! Even if it’s a $50/month copay! Today I call the insurance and find out- wish me luck!

Sadly my husband seems to not be doing as well on the pill and is not sure he wants the prescription- I told him I think he SHOULD continue on it because he seems better than the previous weeks- the day he skipped it to see what would happen he got home and took a nap for TWO hours!! Definitely IMO the pill is doing something!

Anyways- that’s all for today folks- have a great weekend!