Yep, I’m officially 42 years old this afternoon at 3pm.
42 years on this earth and 22 spent as an independent adult.
Ok, well maybe not an adult. 
I might be getting a house and should know within the next two weeks.
Exciting times?
I’ll believe it when I see it.
Once a skeptical bitch - always a skeptical bitch!
Today is like any other day but of course
one can’t help but to wonder
what’s
next
Ugh.
So this morning I was watching a blurb on the news show about liposuction. I watched with much interest and the MD said, ‘Well our patients are basically at 30 BMI’. I rushed to the computer to find out what my BMI is right now.
33.4!
So then I wondered - what would ‘normal weight’ be for me. So I plugged in number after number and UGH it’s 52 pounds from now! I weigh 201 and I’m 5′5 - so that’s quite a bit of weight.
Argh.
So to go from OBESE to Overweight is about 180 pounds.
That’s 20 pounds down from now.
Good Grief.
So needless to say, I was in a fantasy world while watching the liposuction segment because in order to even THINK about it - I’ve got to lose 20 pounds.
And if I’m down 20 pounds - won’t that make it easier to lose even more?
Then, what would be the use of the expensive procedure?
So we’re back to square one. There’s no magic to it - back breaking work.
Shucks
Guess I’ll count up how many calories I ate for breakfast.
Time to get back on the wagon again.
Yep, it’s going on right in my backyard.
Literally.
It happens every year and causes all kinds of commotion on my street. Apparently all the golf gods are here and it’s quite the scene. Funny seein it on TV and recognizing the overcast that is Lake Merced today
Well it’s been a wild week.
I finally got the OK to take the Licensed Clinical Social Worker exam - so it’s time to study. I cracked open a book last night and promptly began downloading music to my I-Phone.
Yep.
All ready to study alright.
So it’s 1:21pm and I still haven’t started but I must say I’ve downloaded quite a bit of music to my I-Phone.
I got a house and lost a house all in the same week - now that was a bit of a bummer because I was *this* close to homeownership.
Ah well.
You win some, invariably when it comes to Me - you lose +some.
Still smiling though.
After all, I am trying to train myself to love everything I have and NOT yearn for things that I don’t.
Now you can try that on for size, cuz it ain’t easy honey.
Now the eating. Well, what’s there to say about the eating that hasn’t been said a zillion times. I must say that I’ve not been brutal with myself lately. Now I may have finally become worn out from beating myself out - could this be possible after 32 years?
A weird phenomenon.
Indeed.
But I can say that I’ve added another 2 plants to my growing plant family. It makes me pretty doggone happy to see these guys, groom these guys, water these guys and stare at these guys.
It’s been a quiet weekend and goodness knows I love that!
The books are still open beside me and I know that I’ll look at em.
It’s a start right?
I’ve been listening to jazz all weekend and that’s been lovely. Swilling black honey tea from my thermos and doing the occasional pile of dishes.
I’ve got to say that as I look out my window to the smattering of golfers on the hill enveloped by grey and cold - I’m pretty content in my hovel. My ass firmly glued to my sofa, tea in hand, plants all around, Miles blowing in the background - all warm and cozy.
No I will absolutely NOT take a nap.
I swear!
Congratulations! How awesome that the President of the United States is bestowed with this amazing honor.
Wow.
