Today;
Breakfast: nothing cept coffee and creamer (2)0
Snack: 2.5 South Beach diet bars (7)
Lunch: Salad with chicken (3)
12 points so far and a splitting headache.
We had our first spanish lessons today with a SAHM. It was great! I learned all sorts of things to say to the kids. Like Let's go, it's time for a snack, it's time for a nap, etc...
walk in door... engulf food -YIKES- I hate coming home hungry.
Noodles that I prepared for the kids (6), meat (2), trisquits (1), oatbran cereal with blueberries to stave off eating more noodles (3), and a skinny cow (2), guess I'll just skip dinner now.
I've had nothing but my skim milk latte today! I've got to get myself some food soon!
I took Lily to school, went to Curves and worked out, went to two separate stores to get gift cards for Lily's teacher and teacher's aide, went shopping for some clothes that actually fit (size EIGHT!!! Can you believe it?!?!), and now it's noon and I'm finally home. Phew!
Now to do laundry and ironing before I have to pick Lily back up from school.
Morrigan - I can't wait to hear about your in-law epiphany!
Hi Lake! Welcome!! (If you've been here before, I must have missed you, so I apologize if my welcome is late.)
You seem to be doing really well! Can you tell me about that Bolthouse smoothie? Is that something you buy in a store, make yourself, or is it a restaurant?
Tomorrow is Weigh In !!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know why I'm excited, but perhaps it's my hopeful nature that I'll hit my 10# mark. I do my weight loss in mini-goals, first it was to be 2(zero) something, and then to hit the 10#, which mind you, was only about a lb more than the first goal...haha. My next goal is 199, and I told myself I'd treat me to some Victoria Secret underwear! I went to the mall yesterday, and they had them on sale...so of course I had to buy some, but they are put aside until I reach my goal. I'd LOVE to be there by the 4th of July, but its taken me about 9 weeks to lose this 10, so I'm not hopeful on that. I was thinking of switching to core for a week, to see if I could shed some lbs. faster...anyone on that? Wish me luck tomorrow!!!
My day of food:
B: yogurt 1pt
S: cheese stick 2pts
L: subway sub and baked chips 10.5
D: salad w/chicken, bacon and bbq sauce as dressing 7pts
over 100 ozs water, 3 veggies, 2 milks, no oil yet.....there's still time
Good luck tomorrow, AJsmommy! Tomorrow is my weigh-in, too. Can't say I'm as excited as you are. I'm hoping that I have at least lost a pound.
Speaking of weigh-ins, My husband weighed himself this morning and he's down two pounds this week! I don't know how he does it. He hasn't worked out and this past week he's eaten about six taco's from Taco Bell (in one sitting), burgers at the party this past weekend, pizza at work, etc. It's so NOT FAIR!!! How come men lose it quicker?
History: DH and I started dating fall semester freshman year of college, 1988. I stopped dating other guys by about Christmas. We decided to get married, 4/1/89. We got engaged summer 92 and married in 93.
An infamous MIL moment last fall '06. In the middle of a crying fit, tells Scot, "You never even told us you were dating her." Obviously she has not gotten over the marriage. (We celebrate 13 years this summer.)
MIL: June Cleaver wanna be with serious issues involving self esteem and gin-tonics. Very proper. Did not expect chubby, outspokane, DIL with a penchant for saying whatever is on her mind.
Motis operendi: Constant stream of criticism under her breath in pretentions tones of someone from a higher class who is shocked that anyone would behave in such a manner. Sweet sounding questions with hidden agendas.
The dinner plates have not been warmed?
The baby just nursed less than an hour ago?
You are reading the kids a second story? it is so late.
Are you buttering the entire peice of bread?
Are you serving dessert while ___ is still eating?
They might seem innocent, but they all end with a rise in tone indicating a question and dissaproval. And there are too many examples to list. They come out with almost every breath. Basically I have never been good enough for their boy.
As for me. I have taken different tactics to deal with it.
For awhile, I told them every bad thing that DH ever did. I think I was trying to convince them he wasn't perfect. I think I just came off sounding mean.
For some visits I would just run off to errands are hide in the basement while they were here.
More recently I simply ignored whatever she was saying, like she wasn't in the room and only stuck to small talk like sewing.
I am an extremely happy, outgoing person from a loud family that deals with things by talking that excalates to yelling depending on the situation. DH's family NEVER discusses anything personal. Only ailments, politics, and those EVIL multinational corporations that are ruining the world. In the past when I have tried to express anything like an opinion, MIL starts bawling, says I don't make her welcome, and threatens to never come back.
She has guilt trip worked out to a science with her children. And since she almost always ends up crying everyone tries to be really, really nice and give her whatever she wants.
I never cry in public (well except during sappy movies), and end up fuming all day and then crying in DH's arm at the end of each visit, because his mom has been on me all week for every little thing (yes, including my weight) until I am about to go insane. I can't fight back ever, because she bawls and makes a scene. And it is so not worth it to go there.
...just a little more history to go...
So our last visit, in a monumental breakdown to beat all former breakdowns, MIL and FIL told us that they didn't feel welcome in our house and were not coming back. I suggested a family meeting (like my family used to have) where we laid everthing out on the table. I went through a litany of every little critisism she had ever said to me. They went through their list. They didn't like how we were living our life. They thought we went too many places and did too many things. This was not good for our kids. They thought my family was too involved in our lives and that we shouldn't allow my family to spend so much time with our kids. Alot of it was about kids, but then FIL got really upset (which I have never seen happen). He basically said that he doesn't like me, never has liked me, thought that I had ruined Scot's life, I was not a nice person (as evidenced by making my MIL feel so bad) , blah, blah, blah, blah....
and finally to the epiphany
My in-laws have never and will never like me. I stole their son. I have spent all these years stressing because I wanted their approval. I wanted them to love me like my parents love my husband. Well - it is never going to happen, no matter how clean my house is, how well my table is set, how nicely behaved my children are or anything else that I do.
And so, now, for the first time in 18 years.. nothing they did during their visit made me upset. The only difference was my attitude. MIL still fussed about all the same things. It just stopped bothering me anymore because there is absolutely nothing I can do about it.
OH - and as an end note on the weight thing. My MIL who usually spends hours advising me on this exercise or that diet while she is here, said absolutely nothing about the fact that I have lost 35 lbs. And I can tell you - I have lost enough for people to notice.
Morrigan, thank you for sharing that with me. Geesh - families sure can be difficult, can't they? I absolutely know how you feel. Like you, I've just grown to accept that my MIL is the way she is and nothing I can do will change it. My SILs (married to my husband's brothers) are worse, because they say/do everything behind your back. At least MIL says it to my face. I won't even begin to mention my husband's ex and mother of his 1st child.
Tomorrow is weigh-in! Aunt Flo decided to stick around a little long this visit, so I don't know what that will do to my results.
Did good today. 17pts and I'm honestly not hungry.
Well....the news at WI was not what I expected. I was up 1/2 lb. I was in tears, feeling very discouraged as I know I worked the program this week. I talked to the leader, and she gave me some good advice on reading your weight loss, etc. I'm over it, won't dwell on a bad WI but look forward to an awesome one next week. I did realize, on my way home, that I am due for TOM the end of the week...perhaps that has something to do with it.
*sigh*
Just gets frustrating sometimes.
AJmommy - I alway maintain, barely lose, or gain 1-2 lbs the week before TOM. Then the week after I lose big. check out my numbers with the week before TOm highlighted
217.4, 211.4, 210.0, 209.2, LOST .8
206.0, 204.8, 202.6, 202.8, GAINED .2
198.0, 196.2, 194.4, 194.8, GAINED .4
192.4, 189.4, 191.4,188.4, LOST OK - I was really happy
185.8, 185.4, 183.4, 182.2, 183.6 GAINED 1.4
Snowgal - WAY TO GO! It always feels good to hit a new number range.
Food today:
oatmeal with blueberries (3), latte (2), bread (1)
chicken (4)
salad with dressing (2) and cheese (2)
Back from the field trip! Phew! That was a looooong walk. No need to go to Curves today.
So far today I've had:
Pria bar - 2pts
homemade ham sandwich - 3pts
cherries - 1pt
1 pc raisin bread - 1pt
That leaves me with 13 points that I intend to use on pizza tonight. I don't care if I go over a little. I'm celebrating my loss!! 6 lbs left to lose and I'm at my goal weight! (Not my personal goal weight, but the one they set for me at WW.)
I left off yesterday with 15 points and BD dinner to go.
I had 3 glasses of wine (6), chicken (5), ice cream (2), strawberries (1)
for 29 points
and then cereal (3) and wheat thins (2) when I got home for 34 points
Kindergarten "moving up" ceremony was today. I'm surprised at how emotional I feel! I didn't cry though.....so far.
Today I've had:
Cream of Wheat - 2pts
Cocoa Via bar (yummy) - 2pts
Salad w/ dressing - 1pt
Banana - 2pts
Also worked out at Curves.
We are going out to Applebee's for dinner tonight to celebrate Lily's Kindergarten Graduation. I told her she can have any dessert that she wants! Hey, you only graduate Kindergarten once, right!?
