All I've had this morning is a few sips of my skim milk latte. Aunt Flo was kind enough to stop by this morning. GRRRRR! I'm in for another busy day of end of school stuff - Field day today - and never-ending errands.
I have been a bad, bad girl. I need to bust out a paper journal again. As summer vacation approaches I have been spending less and less time working (on the computer) and it seems like, if I don't write it down, the points don't count. Or maybe I wish that.
I also have an impending MIL visit that I have been furiously cleaning house for. I am really not looking forward to it. She always goes into some kind of crying thing when she visits. It is always very emotional. She constantly criticizes how we are raising the kids. We take them to many places all the time, we don't get them to bed early enough, we give them too many choices, my relatives stop by too much, they spend too much time with my family, the list goes on and on. And for the most part she is right about all of the above, except that we are choosing to do so on purpose. In her last big thing of crying at the second to last visit my DH stood up to her (applause, applause) and told her that I was a wonderful mother and he stood by me in all my choices. I know that had to be really hard on him since she controls her family by guilt trips and crying, and that just made her cry more and threaten to leave because we didn't value her opinion and she felt helpless over how we were raising (ruining) our children. Yep, my life.
At least they only come once or twice a year. And we have only visited them 3 times in 12 years. I always try to think of it from that perspective. I stole her firstborn, moved him out of state and he isn't ever coming back. And he is a great guy, just his parents drive him nuts. I don't feel too sorry when I think of all the time his parents tried to force him to break up with me in college and of the hysterics she went into when we got engaged. Water under the bridge, right?
So -- maybe all this eating is just due to the psychological pressure of the immanent in-law visitation.
Breakfast: oat bran cereal (3)
Snack: 2 skinny cows (4)
Lunch: shouldn't have had a taco from a taco stand (7), but at least I didn't order the oversized burrito like I used to preWW
Lunch: tofu stir fry (4)
Snack: Wheat thins (4)
Candy: YUM (2)
Oh, and I got the number of a stay at home mom (6 kids from 5-18 and one more on the way) from the guy at the taco stand. She is going to tutor my kids and I in spanish twice a month. I am so excited! I can't wait to start next week. My spanish is really lacking. I figured if I get the kids started now and keep at it for the next 10 years until they are old enough to take it in public school <I always get angry at the stupidity of the American education system on starting foriegn languages until HS> I may actually be able to speak it a little better. Now I just have to see if my mom want to take lessons with me and help pay. Maybe we could afford once a week instead of twice a month.
24 points and not yet to dinner. But the house is clean
Oh Morrigan, I'm so sorry you have to deal with a difficult (that was a nice way to put it, right?) MIL. I can SO identify with you! And yes, it's no wonder you're engaging in a little stress eating at the moment. When my MIL comes to visit I do the same thing. In fact, I think you've made some pretty good choices, all things considered.
And you can look on the bright side - all of that cleaning must have given you some activity points to balance out your day!
I still keep a paper journal and write down every single bite of food I take. It's the only way for me to be fully accountable to myself. I used to feel ridiculous doing it, but now it's just second nature.
Let's see. I left off at 24 points. Had a few bites of Wil's hamburger (1), a few of Wil's FF (1), 1/2 of his pop (2), got home and had a bowl of cereal (4) and that was it.
32 point day.
And for today.
kashi with milk (3)
wheat thins (4)
Tofu stir fry with veggies and feta and cottage cheese (8)
15 points so far today
cheese (2)
pasta (2)
cheese (3)
chicken (5)
bread (2)
wine (2)
skinny cow (2)
Today I've done well.
B: 1 cup cheerios with 1/2 c. skim milk 3pts
L: salad w/chicken, cheese, bbq sauce 8pts
grapes and strawberries 2pts
D: chicken, potato, corn, pickles 7pts
We're heading out to the movies and I popped my own popcorn to smuggle in, 4pts and brought some tootsie pops...1pt each.
That's 16.5 points so far. A lot of little snacking, but not much for real meals until dinner. 4 fruits/veg, 1 milk, 7 water, no oil. Maybe I'll take a salmon tablet for one point so I can get at least one good oil in.
Honestly, I have been logging what I have been eating, but not watching what I have been eating. I was going to "start over" on Monday, since I am already many, many points over my extra points for the week. But then I decided, "Why not just start over today." So I am. And it feels good to say so.
Good for you Morrigan... I think we all tend to put it off until Monday / after the holidays / till the new year! And that's what gets us all in trouble. RIGHT NOW is a perfect time to get back on track! Yay!
Today:
Breakfast: creamer (2) - I have been drinking ALOT of coffee this morning, watermelon (1), oatbran cereal (3)
Snack: South Beach Diet Bar - I usually try to stay away, but Safeway has them on sale for $2.50 a box. (3)
Lunch: Salad (0), with chicken (5) and dressing (1)
Snack: Skinny Cow Ice Cream (2)
17 points so far
Did really well at dinner: salad (0), dressing (1), chicken (3) for a 21 point day.
Then went a bit nuts eating leftovers as I cleaned up dinner: pasta (5), bread (1)
for a 27 point day -- thus concluding my second highest point week on WW at a whopping 237 points for the week (probably more than that actually). 34 points beyond my 35 extra points for the week.
I can totally relate Morrigan. I have already eaten all my extra pts, had them all gone by Friday night and weigh in was only Wed. I had a couple off days and just jumped back on the wagon yesterday. Too many times I've done the ol'..."I'll start Monday"...or "After that party", etc. Thats what gets us from 150 to 200+. When life hands you lemons, make lemonade...not a lemon cream pie to eat all by yourself! Just gotta do what we know we should do, and things will happen.
I sort of freaked out when I saw I was up 3 lbs on my home scale - and then ate breakfast, which I don't usually do on weigh in days. Plus my super light pants were dirty and at my mom's house, so I am weighing in regular khaki's that probably will add a lb as well.
of course, not eating like a maniac for 2 weeks would probably help as well
Breakfast: oatbran cereal with blueberries (3), creamer (2), strawberries (1)
Lunch: Salad with chicken (3), sheep feta (1), and pesto grilled zuccini (1)
Snack: SBD Bar (3)
14 points so far and I am having a big taco salad at DD's 2nd birthday party tonight. I made a pinata that is adorable and we are having about 20 people over to my parents house for the party.
Gained today, but then I should have expected it having two record high point weeks in a row.
Yesterday was such a crappy day! We had to drive out to another city (1-1/2 hours each way) for my niece's birthday party. I really don't like being around my husband's family. They are the kind of people who you KNOW are smiling to your face and talking bad about you the minute your back is turned. I haven't seen any of them since a month before I started WW. I've lost 23.2 pounds since then! Do you think any of them acknowledged my weight loss or anything? Heck no! I knew they wouldn't, but I guess I still held out some hope. They didn't seem to have a problem making snarky remarks when I was heavier.
I couldn't eat anything at the party besides carrots, but that's okay really. I had gotten myself into panic attack mode before we even left to go out there. I've been dealing with these people for 10 years - you'd think it would get easier. I was nauseas and shaking and couldn't have eaten anything anyway. I wish I didn't do things like that to myself.
Then when we got home, my husband and I got in a fight about dinner because he wanted me to eat something I couldn't calculate the points on. I refused and he was really pissy, so I gave up and went to bed. I'm sure the heat and the day with the in-laws didn't make my mood the best, either. He left the house about a half hour later, after he ate. I'm assuming he went to the office. I really don't know.
Anyway, with all that, I didn't eat much (only 13pts) and definitely didn't have a good amount of fruits/veggies/water.
Hopefully I will do better today. It's the last week of school and we have field trips and recitals and presentations - so much going on! I will check in when I can.
Snowgal: I have had a complete epiphany on the whole inlaws thing, which I will share with you as soon as I can. I am surruptitiously typing while they are upstairs with DH and the kids, and don't have enough time right now. Please excuse the spelling - I like big words, but don't actually have any idea how to spell them. HANG IN THERE!
