i hear rounds of applause....i hear rounds of applause...i hear...
Hello, everyone! I'm sitting at home here now with an hour to go before I hit the floor again...meaning go to bed...I have tons of work to do but just want to chill tonight.
After my 7K in an hour run (it doesn't sound like much when curly says she does 6 miles (10K) in 90 mins, but it was for me!) I felt kind of drained all day. We were so busy too. I was good on food all day, then came home and had a lot more than I've been having, but I am not going to see it as a slide into oblivion! It's just a day and it was a heck of one really. And I'm really, really thinking about how easily I start to pooh-pooh my accomplishments.
I mean, I liked the way my body is starting to change and I liked the way my face looks thinner....so why, do I not feel great? Lack of support? Lack of encouragement? When I read the posts here and see all your wonderful comments, ...JCT, tia ...I certainly can't say that, can I? I am thinking it is the perfectionist streak, the never feeling good enough, and perhaps it's also just the sad fact that I am in an environment where people just don't care.
I know I say it over and over but I find it so hard to believe. It's like, nothing! I never, ever hear a nice word from my coworkers, not unless they're drunk. Yet, I say nice things often. I don't know. It sucks. And I admit I am throwing a small tantrum right now.... Do I need applause? Do I need medals, awards? I don't know. Maybe I do....then again, I think not, I think I just want a little recognition, expressed recognition. No, maybe I just want acknowledgement that I exist. I feel like going away for a long time just so somebody acts like they noticed I was gone. I am even tempted to throw myself at the mercy of the horse-trainers and their eagle eyes. They will be sure to comment on my present weight, for better or worse!
Oh, ****, I just am stuck with clueless guys! What a pain. Carla, you are totally right, there is no thought passing between their ears.... sigh. You know, instead, I think I'm going to start writing down the compliments I DO get, on work or riding or whatever, on my ability to speak English!, to see if it's not perhaps me poo-pooing things. And, as for the weight loss, I guess I can't expect to have comments when I hide under billowing sweatshirts and long shirts....oh well. The unveiling will have to wait though....for another good 5 kgs (about 12 lbs). Until then, I ain't showing nuthin'. Heck, maybe they already think I'm thin under all my clothes....you reckon?....nah!
Ah, heck, I don't feel so hot. I'm going to go to bed after doing my journal and catch up with you all in the morn. Hope I'll see some more posts.....My challenges, btw, are cool for today.
Sleep, healing sleep....the wind is banging the door and there is a cold front moving in from China..ugh...just when we had some warm days....oh well, carry on....one day at a time.... Take care, all your beautiful women!
RED: doesnt matter what anyone elses distance or time is.... if you are pushing yourself thats all that matters!! even if u only add 10 more feet ... Back in March of last year I couldnt even walk a half mile... but each time i added a few more feet and made myself go just a bit faster.. You got out there and did it!! That is all that matters!!!
We all just have to think of the lil engine that could!! lol
Ya know a lot of times Red people at work will take advantage or its because they become accustomed to us always being there... One thing i have found is that u just have to "shut it off .. when u leave work" DONT LET THEM LIVE IN YOUR HEAD RENT FREE An attorney at my office told me that one time.. lol im not real sure what means other than .. dont let them get to ya.. they aint worth it!
CARLA: when u are sitting down in the evening .. make sure u point your toes out in front of u... takes the tension off that muscle , and really helps with the plantar facitis pain...
To All challengers... have a great day!!! keep up the great work!
Curly, I just had to pop in real quick and tell you I LOVED that quote. "Don't let 'em live in your head rent free." I do that all the time. I am sitting here stressing about a work situation and a home/dog situation, both of which may never happen. But yet I stew about it. And of course, stewing and stressing leads to . . .. food porn.
I have to remember that. I may even put it on my screen saver. What a great sentiment.
Day 9 Walk Away the Pounds Complete.
How is everyone doing? Am I the only person who is going low carb? I need some suggestion for my kids. Oh did I tell you all I continued doing my induction offline. Sunday is my last day, I decided to only do the two weeks induction. Redballoon, I haven't been able to catch up with you how are you/ I hope everyone is having agreat day. If not, figure out what's wrong and change how you feel about it so you can have a great day. Love you guys. Ciao! (Redballon is culturing me per yahoo messenger, LOL)
Red,
girls are right don't let it get to you. Russians for example think that compliments are overrated...as well as smiles. That's why normally their facial expressions are mean and scary looking. If you smile all the time like most american Russian might think you are a mental case...Of course once they move to US they understand how much civilized it is to keep a slightly happy face expression, that helps everyone's mood. Especially men they normally I not as sensitive, and it perhaps hard for them to realize how much effort it takes. But all of us here know exactly how hard it is to get up and mentally prep ourselves that's it is another day, when instead of warm blanket, funny show, with some food port we can sit on the couch and enjoy ourselves. Instead we will have to eat a light breakfast, skip the white flower stuff at lunch, and run from work to the gym. Only to come back shower and deal with a bunch of other errands, staying away from temptations... And this day in and day out...
Don't hang your shoes... just skip over their unsaid words. And if their recognition is what you crave, wait when the results are very obvious and perhaps even they cannot miss it.
Today is Friday my official weigh in day.
I like doing it that way..keeps me in check not to lose the so-hard-to-achieve results over the weekend.
Yesterday was not a so good day for me, but it all worked out in the end.
A: Food (3-1) -Day 17 (Feb. 2) Done. two slices of cheese that's all I had for dinner last night.
B: H2O (3-1) - Day 17 (Feb. 2) PAUSE day.
C: Gym (3-3) - Day 15 (Feb. 2) Pause day.
Around 3:15pm yesterday we lost power at the office, and 45 minutes once my laptop died, I went home. I was so tired so I headed for the couch and slept till almost 8pm. Then got up watched a movie, just laying in bed. I knew I was too tired to go workout, and would be to weak to do it, so I knew I needed the pause. Fall back asleep around midnight, and slept till morning. When I weighed in I was...(the drums please) 251 pounds...
OK, Day 12 for exercise. I'm thinking if I'm trying to do the pound a week deal, an hour of exercise a day may be nesseccary. Unless I keep cals low, which I can't seem to do everyday. That would be a walk AND an exercise video. Well, time to see how determined I really am.
Today is another warm day and I am shuddering at the though of short-sleeves and short pants. Scary.
Friday weigh in put me at 157. Ticker moving time!!!
Here is a problem I have about noticing weight loss. Or in this case, no weight loss at all. More than once someone has said "have you lost weight?" and the answer is always "NO". So then I start to think that people I am aquainted with have an image of me as fatter than I actually am. In other words, the pecieve me as fat and when they see the real thing they think, oh, she's not quite as fat as I remember. Does that make sense? A reflection of my terrible self-image, I know...
Well, I hope everyone has a great week-end! Go Steelers!
Apple, you might be losing inches and not weight. It makes a big difference with the exercise. You may not drop weight but you get smaller anyway. Do the clothes fit better or maybe you are wearing a smaller size. Frustrating not losing but it happens. This I know only too well.
Red, sounds like you are doing well my friend. 7 KPH is good stuff. Last year I was doing 7K in 50 mins so you are on the way. Little sprints to get the time down buddy. You are getting there.
Sounds like everyone is on the right track and getting on with it. Wish I was, nothing happening here STILL. I would love to know how the Sunday the cat gets to rest all day and not gain any weight.
CBETA -- So, tell me, how much weight did you lose since last weigh-in! Whatever the number! That is GREAT!! Awesome work and you so deserve to see the scale reflect it!
CBETA -- So, tell me, how much weight did you lose since last weigh-in! Whatever the number! That is GREAT!! Awesome work and you so deserve to see the scale reflect it!
I think last one was last friday, when the weight was jumping between 255 and 254. This would make it 3-4 pounds...Marking 20 since Dec. 1
WOW!! Way to go! CBETA!! And, I was just reading over your posts about my problem here and yes, once again, your clear thinking shines through. I have to decide on a strategy...it's either "skip over their unsaid words" or really get results and then see their reaction....I have a strange feeling that if I do the latter, I'm not going to care a diddly about their reaction! I will feel good though and I'll be able to take those results elsewhere, where maybe the entire package (me!) will be better received....out of the manure heap into the winner's circle!
So, just figured out what day I was on and all and it's like this:
Day 15 on the caffeine challenge with no pause days left
Day 16 on the crunch challenge with 1 pause left
Day 7 on the journaling challenge with no pause days allowed
Out the door now. Did not do crunches yet, so will have to do them when I get home tonight (Saturday night).
i hear rounds of applause....i hear rounds of applause...i hear...
It's just a day and it was a heck of one really. And I'm really, really thinking about how easily I start to pooh-pooh my accomplishments.
...I certainly can't say that, can I? I am thinking it is the perfectionist streak, the never feeling good enough, and perhaps it's also just the sad fact that I am in an environment where people just don't care. 
I feel like going away for a long time just so somebody acts like they noticed I was gone. I am even tempted to throw myself at the mercy of the horse-trainers and their eagle eyes. They will be sure to comment on my present weight, for better or worse! 
Take care, all your beautiful women! 
Well, time to see how determined I really am.
for the record....
