OK, well I had a rude wakeup call today. Take back your praise for my holiday loss - I think my mum's scales are just screwed! I weighed in today 3.5kg heavier than mum's scales, so I've gained 2.5 kg during my 3 weeks off training and on holidays!!!!!!!! Eeeeeeeeeeeeekkk!!
So - today the trainer took our weight, body fat, and measurements and will redo in one month, which is when I move to Melbourne. I want to lose at least 3kg in the next 4 weeks to put me back where I was.
So annoying - that's a good wasted 6 or 7 weeks to gain and then get back to where I started... doh! It's totally my own fault - dropped a lot of my exercise on holidays, and let too many of the "just one won't hurt" slide by...
Back on track for the second half of the year!! I totally have to get my arse in gear to make my goal weight by new year's eve.
Gen - I was so hoping that wouldnt happen to you! I was a bit scared for you using someone else's scales... I NEVER do for that one reason, I know if it is less I'll feel good for a while but then be crushed when I get home!
I forgot it was end of financial year etc that may be enough to properly remotivate me.... at the moment I am using silly things to willpower myself forward... awful silly things like trying to lose weight faster than girl accross the road who cant breastfeed anymore and has started the Tony Ferguson diet but totally half heartedly, never sticks to it... so if I stick to the calories properly (I now realise making 1kg of m&ms fit in is cheating and isnt going to really work) I CAN lose weight and I will and I will be able to go shopping in every shop and leave her looking after the prams! (ps i bought a top from supre yesterday, it may have been XL and it may be just a teeny bit snug for now BUT I can see it wont be long and i can wear it in public and in my mind i was never going to buy anything from supre again as I have not a 12 year old body!)
vonni - i cant believe i want another baby, the sooking didnt stop all weekend constant nah nah nah nah nah i know jemima is a little sick but HONESTLY she was very lucky hubby home to talk to her! she is calling me right now - ho hum i am still VERY VERY lucky as she sleeps so good, went tobed about 7ish last night woke at 6ish for a feed then slept with me til i got up to post this and is now 9.23 wanting to play.... i can deal with that
Lucky you she's sleeping through Kel. My little Ebony-Grace is 15 months old tomorrow and she STILL won't sleep through. Wakes up about 1.30am and wants a bottle. I tried not giving in, but anything for some sleep. She is only a light sleeper and we live near a railway line with crossroads so at 3am the trains come racing through blasting their horns. We also have a lot of dogs that bark close by. Evrytime a noise happens she is awake, lucky though I give her a dummy (my only child that has ever had one) and she dozes back off.
I weighed in today.
I forgot to tell you all I bought some digital scales FINALLY a little over a week ago. I hopped on them and weighed myself (eyes bulged out) and then swore at them. I hopped on again today and I have dropped 1.2kg from the first weigh with them. So I'm happy and even though I have still eaten crap its not as MUCH crap. I don't expect such a drop again soon but at least I am back on the wagon.
Aw Gen, I felt really disappointed for you when I just read your post. I wish I had something wise to say - but I don't. I have a sense of how you feel though - all through April and May I felt like I had wasted precious time, and had ripped myself off.
And then I calmed down and realised that this is a long marathon, not a sprint… and I learned a lot about myself through that time. You'll reach those goals - you're strong and determined, and I have faith that you'll get there.
For me I dropped 0.6kg this week. And I did that without a lot of exercise, so I'm happy about that.
Kel - you'll get there too. I think the first six months of a weight loss journey is all about re-educating ourselves about food, and about our relationship with it.
Anyway, we have a severe weather warning in progress this morning, and there's a thunderstorm coming, so I must get off the computer.
Thanks everyone, not to worry, I'll be fine after I have one week's loss and feel better!
Congrats on your losses everyone! I'm impressed Kel, Supre tops are not very big haha!
Vonni, 800 calories is not enough for the day, I hope you're going to have something else tonight?
Training was so hard this morning, one of the girls told the trainer she hasn't got the results she'd like, so he absolutely caned us and I'd been away for three weeks, so I was nearly dead. My heart rate was up around 190 a lot of the hour, and I felt like vomiting constantly hehe. Ah well, burned 576 cals for the hour, so it did the trick! My treadmill hire ends Wednesday, which scares me as it's so cold and I am worried I won't get off my arse to walk/ride. Oh well, I'll have to force myself!
Vonni at this very moment Mother Nature is putting on a spectacular show. It isn't quite sunset, but it has been pretty dark here for several hours. The trees in my front yard are almost bent in half, the rain is horizontal - and is bucketing down. Aside from the noise of the wind, we now have some amazing thunderclaps – and it's hailing.
I've got candles out and ready (in case of a blackout), and I've also filled my thermos with boiling water… just in case!
A roof came off a building up the road, and according to the radio the worst winds are coming in tonight . And I just heard that the wind is blowing waves (from the Swan River) over the freeway.
It's pretty awesome! I love wild weather, but the cats aren't terribly impressed by it.
And I agree with Gen. You need to have a minimum of 1200 calories - no matter what all the calorie counters and gizmos might tell you. Fish and chips INDEED!
Right - way overdue to turn this computer off before it gets blown up!
Just to prove she has a sense of humour, Mother Nature has decided to give us clear blue skies and winter sun today.
I ate too much yesterday - don't even know why. But I'm back on track today, and determined to try and lose a little weight again this week.
As you know I set my goals just 5kg at a time, and I'm getting very close to reaching my FOURTH goal. When I set out to lose weight I was never confident that I could get this far - never! And it's a strange feeling to know that I have made it as far as I have. Nobody is more surprised than me that I've stuck to it this long.
One year ago I was starting to wear Size 22 clothes, and feeling really embarrassed and ashamed about that. This week I bought (and fit into) a pair of Size 16 jeans. Yes they are stretch jeans, and yes they are a *snug fit*, but I don't care. I don't remember the last time I was able to fit into anything that is Size 16.
My next goal will be to get from 84.9 - 80kg. That seems to be the most important part of the journey for me so far. The most important thing it means is that I will be on the edge of no longer being 'obese', and moving into the category of "only" being overweight.
I'm not under any illusions. I know it will be a tough 5kg to lose. As much as anything it will reveal how much I've learned about changing the way I eat, and changing the way I lead my life (ie how active I have become compared to when my weight was heading in the opposite direction).
I know that one of the things that has been invaluable to me is the support of everyone in here. I feel like I need to be accountable, and it's great to share this journey with people who know what I'm going through.
I wish people like Lindor were around. I also wish leeny, Britt, Kathy, Barb - and all the other women who come and go, would pop in from time to time and let us know how they're going.
Anyway, must stop rambling and get on with things. I hope everyone is on track and having a great week.
Ani, I know, 82kg will be "overweight" instead of "obese" for me, and now it seems so far away, although I was feeling close to 85, bugger it.
I got off my arse today even though I was mostly crippled by my poor quads - still suffering from skiing, then the trainer killed them yesterday with squats, sprints, lunges and stepups!! Oh, so sore. Couldn't face the treadmill, even though it gets picked up tomorrow (snifff) - so I went for a leisurely bike ride to Castlecrag and back. My chain fell off (first bike incident!) when I jammed the gears going down a huge hill, and I just flung the bike upside down and put the chain back on - I felt like such a mechanic/outdoorsy person hahaa!!!
So now to keep up the good eating tonight. Did lots of cleaning and vacuuming yesterday (getting ready to move and selling my worldy goods), so that would have helped too!
Well I had a wake up call today too. I went to buy new jeans, and it seems I am a size 18. Now, after reading Ani's post, I feel a bit silly, seeing as 18 is an improvement for some of you, but it still sucks for me. I didn't realise that my thighs were letting me down so much.
You know when skinny skinny girls look in the mirror and they see a fat person? Well I think I've been doing a little of the reverse. I kept telling myself that I wasn't really -that- bad, I was just a little curvy. Nope.
I don't feel really upset about it, just a bit red in the face.
Anyway, the good news is I went on a spending spree today (not a normal occurance at all!). I bought a pretty pretty dress for the Opening Night of the conference I'm off to, and pretty pretty pretty shoes to match. I've never gone all girly over shoes, but these are soooo pretty! I will show a pic after the big night.
Yes, so I'm off to Melbourne from tomorrow until the 14th. I will try to be good, but the food will be cooked for us, and there is a really strong drinking culture...it is a Uni thing after all!
Ani I can NOT imagine sunset in winter being at 7.30pm. Gosh. It's dark here by 5.30 at the latest. And light at 5.30ish now. Summer time it's getting light around 4.30am and dark around 7.30.
Kylie don't be disheartened. My tummy is my major problem area, and to get anything to fit me around the middle is too big in the *** and way to long in the crutch and legs. I am also short, even a size 8 (when I was young) has to be taken up. So u can imagine my despair when i go clothes shopping. I hate it hate it hate it. But love getting pretty tops. lol.
Gen I looked into hire of an elliptical trainer and it was way to expensive round here. Wish I could but..... I hope you can manage walking and the willpower to barge ahead without yr treadmill.
I ended up having a cuppa and a macadamia biscuit y/day, haven't added the calories yet. Got called into work today.
Speaking of work, I was offered an extra permanent shift today as supervisor relief. I half accepted on the condition that I could get Eb into care on that day, I was not signing a contract and I want to stay permanent/casual. I also let them know that I would be unavailable 5 times every 6 months, and that my studies and family came first. If it interferred with any of that I would pull out. Believe it or not they accepted my conditions and gave me a few days to organise stuff.
We go off to city for Ebonys EEG tomorrow. That will be an event. Getting my little hypogerm to sit still for an hour. Man she CAN'T sit still for 2 minutes. And we are taking the 6 kids to city (ouch). BF parents are going to look after for the others for the hour of EEG. Then do their own thing in the big smoke.
Gotta go. It's late and we have over an hours drive in the morn.
Sounds like we're all doing pretty good. I can hardly believe I get to say this but ...
In the last 2 weeks, I've lost 3kg!!!
Even with this awful cold I've got, I managed a 40 minute walk on Monday and a 45 minute walk yesterday. Can't fit anything in today as I've got a function on after work but will be back into it tomorrow.
Vonni, you'll be surprised how long kids can sit still for other people haha... esp EEGs, they get cool stuff stuck in their head, they are usually fascinated by it!
That just reminded me of someone I looked after the other evening who had to have an EEG - she was in her 20s, admitted with "seizures" but they were the most bizarre-looking seizures ever, with her flinging herself around the bed. Funnily enough, when we said "giving you some medication for that fit now" and gave her a few mls of pure saline, she "stopped fitting" and became sleepy. Very strange girl!!!!
. And I just heard that the wind is blowing waves (from the Swan River) over the freeway.
