Hmmm… gym bunnies and muscle definition! I'd love to have well defined arms and shoulders, but at this point in time I will settle for losing some weight.

Had a much better day yesterday and met all my goals. Realised yesterday morning that it is TOM for me - so that might account for some of my weight gain. But no matter what it was, it gave me the incentive to stop being slack.

Gen I think a drop of 1.1kg is wonderful. You go girl!!!

Alright, I seriously slept in this morning, and I need to get moving. It's really cold here this morning and I'm practically sitting on top of the heater to try and get warm.


Ani

heheh i crack me up...
Gen 1.1kg is amazing

Ani - i was just thinking that maybe you should just have one extra goal each week then when you stick to it for a week reintroduce another one??
start with the water, that is the one that i reckon makes the most difference?? but then i was just thinking that if you try to do all of those things in your goal and only fail at one then you have done so much..... so damn confusing....


Vonni - is ebony ok?

i've stuck to the calories so far this week and am sick to death of going to the toilet with the amount of water i've drunk... especially as jemima doesnt get why i need to put her down!!

we bought a jogger pram out of the weekend shopper -bargain$20! and we have actually JOGGED!! my 3 dogs love it and jemima does too.... onlyprob is when/if neighbour gets butt into gear and wants to come too she doesnt walk fast enough and i dont want to be rude.... what do i do?? (i have already thought of having to take two walks, one with her and one without but that sucks!)

Smylie, I am pleased for you that you are at the stage of being able to jog. If your neighbour isn't upto that stage perhaps you might be able to simply walk with her once or twice a week and then do your jogging the other days. I know that that may seem a waste of two days but if the neighbour is a friend then she would understand that and also it will keep your friendship with her.

My neighbour used to walk with me every weekday morning but then would jog on the weekends and sometimes at night during the week. Being big and not physically able to jog I REALLY appreciated her doing this with me it helped keep me motivated. This only stopped when I ended up having emergency surgery and had about 2 years of ups and downs and we just haven't got back into doing it again.

It will be your decision but as you said the neighbour hasn't got her butt into gear yet so perhaps if you don't mention it she may never get around to it.

Jennylee

Yes smylie, the weeks I've lost the most, was when I split my exercise morning/evening - maybe you can jog one alone, walk the other with your neighbour, and just shorten both? Reckon it works for me to rev up my metabolism twice a day rather than once.

My agency called me at 0900 with an afternoon shift, so instead of rolling over and going back to sleep, I got up and went for a 12km bike ride, so I'm very impressed with myself haha. Entering it all into www.cyclesmart.net and watching the graphs, and how much CO2 emissions and money you save by riding, it's cool.

Tomorrow have PT, so no need for bike ride. Another arvo shift, so I'll have to PT, then go back to bed for a nanna nap before work .. heh, I'm so old.

I am finding I'm a little more tired and blah since I've cut the cipramil in half. Added SAMe too, so hopefully that kicks in soon. I'd love to be off the happy tabs, but if I start going downhill I'll have to get back on em - not going to lose my motivation now!

I was going to go to the gym this morning but couldn't manage to drag myself out of bed early enough so I'll have to go after work.

Yesterday I bought a dehumidifier and it's amazing! This morning the bucket was full of water and there was no condensation on my windows and all my washing was dry.

Nothing exciting to report today. Keep on keeping on guys.

Bad Kiwi! I had like 2 hrs sleep - I really shouldn't work late shift til 11pm the night before training. I then lay there thinking "go to sleep" - and don't! I got up and was SO tempted to go back to bed, but I went to training, and now I'm going back for nanna nap before work this arvo!

JennyLee that is an awesome idea, i think i will put that too her and the lazy her will jump for that idea as she fakes headaches not to come for walk half the days anyway so having a get out would be good OR she will see it as a challenge to 'show me' that she can walk faster hehehehe, it is awful to prefer to walk alone than with her so we will see if that works..... i also hate coordinating a time to go for the walk and not just walk out the door but that is life when we both have babies...
I am looking at my tickers and wondering which one will get to the end first....

I really feel for you girls on medication, as if you need another thing to think about in this already full on world..... I cant imagine what it would be like to want to stop taking them but then 'worry' what you will be like without them.... especially since everyone is doing so well motivation wise at the moment....

Hey everyone.
Kel in answer to your questin Eb is ok. Well, sort of. Poor little mite is slanty eyed and her Daddy isn't. lol. Her top eylids are so swollen. She seems happy enough though. Dr gave us antibiotic eye drops but I think they made her eyes more swollen. Reduced the muck yes, but....... The stuff just over counter from chemist seemed to be working better. It's been 2 and a half days since we started drops and we should have been seeing some improvement by now.

We are not getting much sleep. Well, I'M not getting much sleep. Her daddy hears her, feels me get up and promptly starts snoring again. I end up asking him to get a bottle or put dummy in mouth out of sheer exhaustion. It's been a rough coupole of nights, and now I fear she will get in a habit of waking more frequently than she already does.

I keep threatening to take myself off to the motel down the road for a night just so I can have one uninterrupted nights sleep. - It will be the first in over 15 months.

George is being a royal prat this week. Here one minute and gone the next. Wish he'd make up his mind whether he is coming or going. So I know where I am going with my weight. I've wanted to eat nothing but crap lately.

I am thinking of going back on my duramine until I stop the garbage. But it is quite expensive though and with my texbooks and study fees.....

Anyhow. Must go. Oh and HI JENNYLEE long time no see.

Von

Von, totally up to you, and maybe it doesn't have the same effect on you, but duromine made me a psycho raving ***** - if you're already stressed out, it may make it worse! Can you discuss with your hubby taking it in turns to get up to the bub? One night you wear ear plugs!!??? I'm not kidding! With study, baby, family etc, I just don't know how you do it all. I have enough trouble getting my one single arse out of bed!

I'm having mental issues - I feel like such a fat blob since realising I gained on holidays - TOTALLY mental, because I was the same weight, but when I thought I'd lost, I felt fine, now I feel just fat and blah. I even lost 1.1 this week, and still feel like an enormous whale. Can't wait to get back under 90kg... but why is my self esteem so tied up with my damn weight? God, if only I could answer that. I really think I need to get some more counselling to get on top of the negative thoughts, but it's 6 months since I went, so I'm embarrassed to go back to her. Then again, the thought of starting the whole bloody process with someone new in melbourne is exhausting!

Gen - sounds like you are doing awesome without the counsellor, surely knowing you want to get on top of the negative thoughts is half the battle, and knowing that you have tied your selfesteem in with your weight is a big step in right direction....... rather than focusing on the numbers why dont you focus on the goals you achieve to keep the numbers moving down?? Focus on going on a walk everyday and really doing it for yourself and giving yourself a proper pat on the back for that and dont worry if the scales move or not... it kinda works for me when i want to crawl up in a ball and not see anyone because none of my clothes fit and i am sure everyone is looking at the spare tyre that comes out when i breast feed.... dont know how jemima feels about me slowly loosing her pillow, i use that roll of fat alot when i hold her....

now i think about it i was really negative about myself when i was focusing on how fat i was NOT how i was working towards loosing it... focusing on succeeding to lose weight is helping me, that is why i have such big carrot dude parties i need to celebrate my success i need to keep thinking positive, staying the same is very depressing BUT now i have made it very successful, and a loss is great and a big loss is amazing.....
when i was on optifast 1kg was expected.... now dieting PROPERLY 1kg is amazing so Gen 1.1kg is incredible anything over 1kg is awesome...


vonni - if ebony is bottlefed then there is NO reason why her daddy cant do your wake up on friday and saturday night, have you asked him to? if you give him choice between giving you a PROPER night off and you feeling heaps better OR you getting worse and needing more than just ONE night off perhaps he will help?

not such a big carrot dude party this week but still a little party I weighed in 89kg! yippee that little bit further away from the evil 90kg, that was a 500gram loss i am going to soon though start to stress that too much walking/crosstraining/jogging is going to build muscle and then the numbers on the scales wont move.... but i will enjoy my 500gram loss this week and worry about that when i need to... (i just did 30mins on the cross trainer - jemima fast asleep!!)

hope noone finds my 500grams....

Congrats on your loss it's so much more encouraging when the scales come to the party.

Well, I did it again yesterday ... managed another 20 minute run followed by 20 minutes walking and then a session of weights.

Today I'm taking half a day off work so that I can leave at lunchtime and go to the gym before heading home to relax for the afternoon. I've got a pumpkin sitting in the cupboard too so I think I'll cook up a batch of soup.

I've been thinking about upping my weights programme from twice a week to 4 times a week as the more muscle you have the more fat you burn so I'm going to try that starting this week and see how I go.

vonni - what is wrong with ebony's eyes? what is it and what caused it??? do the docs know?? jemima has a cold at the moment it is really bothering her she screamed a lot yesterday but was still ok inbetween screams.... did the baby panadol thing last night - that stuff incredible so am drugging her up again today to keep the headache away

Hi Gen. No I am ok on duramine. The first 3 days I am grinding my teeth and can't sit still, but after that the effects die down and it does only what it is supposed to.... control my hunger. Oh and another benifit.... I drink water. Lots of it, cause yes they do make you thirsty. I'm one of the lucky ones I guess. I have heard so much about people having bad side effects. One being a 'lunatic'. I have to be careful coming OFF them, as that is when I get moody and agro. But the Dr and I in the past have controlled it together. I start by only using alternate days, and then changing the strength then go off completely. I've done it twice before. The first time I lost 24kilos wuite quickly (3mths). But as I had not educated myself about food or the impact of emotional eating, I put it all back on again. This time I have armed myself with food knowledge and will use that as my major weapon against this blubber.

Kel the new pic of Jemima looks so cute. She certainly is a pretty baby. Be careful with pandol. It can cause diarrhoea if used to much. Been there done that. It is ok in short term though.

gotta run, I've been sewing this morning and houseworking. STILL trying to organise house before I go on campus next week but the fairies won't come to cull the dust bunnys that seem to be running mad through my house.

Von xxx

I've had a big bust-up with a friend.. and clever me is sitting here eating black cherry cheesecake to deal with it. Helpful, no? Heh.

Oh but How does it taste?

heehee





Sry Gen. Thats my tired humour coming to the forefront.
Really, are you ok?

Vonni