Kel I'm not going to say a single word about Optifast
What I want to challenge you with is this: when you think about December 2008, where do you see yourself? I know it's tempting to grab for something that seems to be a 'quick fix', but it's even more tempting to me to be able to eat yummy food, learn a little about myself every day, tweak things - rather than have to make massive changes - and watch the changes in both my mind and my body.
Don't get mad at yourself for putting on a bit of weight! It's Christmas - it's all OK.
I broke my resistance band the other day. Serves me right - I hadn't used it for quite a few months, and when I pulled it out I could tell that the rubber was starting to perish in a couple of places. But I went ahead and used it - and of course it snapped while I was at full stretch with the bloody thing
Anyway, I bought myself another one - and it's a harder grade. I've done a couple of workouts with it, and I have really, really sore triceps and shoulders. I'm worried that I'm going to end up with heaps of loose skin when I lose more weight - especially flabby arms, so I'm trying to exercise and tone as much as I can.
I have designed a 45-minute workout that I do every second day. And I'm aiming for 10,000 steps a day with my pedometer, so hopefully I can continue with my momentum.
Over the next 12 months I will be happy if I manage to drop 10kg. I know that won't get me to my eventual goal, but what it will do is teach me more new things about my adopted healthy lifestyle, and give me more insight into the reasons I gained weight in the first place.
It will be an interesting revelation to see how my body shapes itself too. Up until now I have felt like a bit of an amorphous blob, but now I'm beginning to see what is beneath the layers… and it's flabbier and less well proportioned than I had imagined it would be.
Listen to me - you'd think I was creating a sculpture
In the next year I am hoping to complete my virtual walking trip to Broome. It's 2237km from Perth, and I have walked 34km of that in the last week or so. To me the significance of setting myself such a big goal is so that I can keep my head right about the size of the task ahead. Yes, there's a long way to go, and yes it will take a long time to get there – but that is a perfect parallel with weight loss for me.
It doesn't work if you rush it. Or if you fail to plan. Or if you're too stubborn to prepare. Or if you take your eye off the destination for too long.
I cannot believe that I am so close to being in the 70's. It does my head in to think about it, and sometimes it makes me feel sad. Not sad to be in the 70's - but sad that I let myself get so big.
And then I have moments (especially prone to this when I have PMT) where I want to throw a complete tantrum because I've lost 23kg and am STILL bloody obese! Ah well!!!
Anyway - that's as far as I've got with planning my goals for next year.
I did try - and I tried hard - to set a goal of letting myself love someone. But just the thought made me laugh so loud I startled the cats. Still - maybe with this new part of the journey I may discover some courage
Unlikely!

Ani