Let me introduce myself. I'm "Mistee". I just joined recently, and thought it would keep me accountable.
I am an avid exerciser, and very healthy eater...until midnight. I throw all common-sense out of the window and eat all kinds of protein bars, icecream sandwiches, crackers with peanut butter, icecream and anything else that sounds good.
Why do I do this when I know it is keeping me at 157 pounds, and I want to be 135? My stomach is sticking straight out like I'm pregnant, and I'm getting a double-chin. I don't even look like I work out! I'm so frustrated.
What can I possibly do to quit this cycle? Is this technically an eating-disorder?
AAAAAGGGGHHHHHH!
Mistee
This pretty much sounds like what i do too. I KILL myself at the gym working out and I eat good all day and then at night when everyone goes to bed I eat and eat and eat. I have no control whatsoever and my stomach will stick out so much i look pregnant. I would get so irritated waiting to be alone to eat and wish everyone would go to bed and then I would eat whatever dinner was cold right out of the fridge, 2 or 3 bowls of cereal, 4 or 5 Fiber One Bars, Ice Cream, Entire boxes of ritz crackers with PB and Jelly, coolwhip, etc. I would always have to alternate between a sweet then salty food, then have real food, then a junk food, then something soft (i.e sandwich) then something crunchy (Pringles). And I would think omg I spent 2 hrs working out and now have blown it. It is so hard.
The good news is I have been binge free for 4 days now and the only thing that is working for me is I literally have to shut down the computer, brush my teeth, and go to bed, but I do lay there and dream about food and envision it in my mind, I think it is a disorder I have too.
All I can say is I know how you feel. It is so hard to fight that urge but I am just trying to take it one day at a time.
So I got down to the 120's... some ladies at work were saying I looked too thin (which I now see as probably jealously, because I was well within my BMI. I'm not even big-boned.) and so that got me paranoid... Then I started going back to my old ways of eating whatever I feel like, whenever. The worst is at night. I tried getting all junk out of the house, but I have gone and looked up recipes with known ingredients that I have on hand for like cookies and cakes and baked like a whole batch and eaten the WHOLE thing in one sitting!!! I'm talking at least 3000 calories!! I get a stomache-ache from **** and feel like crap the next day. I know I overly obscess about food and really this binge thing is my secret...... but I feel like after all this weight loss that I'm going to gain it all back if I continue! But I can't stop!! I'm going to make myself now because it's life or death! So I'm starting right now, this instant... vowing to never binge again (yeah right) so you guys can hold me accountable now that it's out in the open
I have managed to not majorly binge for 2 weeks, though I have had a 'mini binge' and plenty of unhealthy and too-much food choices lately.
It's so hard for me to get back on track! I swear, I am so all-or-nothing. It works like, "Oh well, I ate a whole box of jelly bellies, may as well just give up and get McDonald's for dinner, and heck yes, super size! And oh, they have cookies, might as well." Ugh.
I have tried to publicly record everything I eat in a blog I know that no one will read. It's hard! I mean, even though I know no one is really reading it and even if it so, it'd be hard to associate with me, it's embarrassing to admit how horrible my diet is even to myself.
So. Kick in the butt for a new week at work. Soon I'm going to be business traveling more and I swear I'm going to have to make a battle plan or something this time. Thankfully, there are many more healthy choices around than there were just ten years ago when I was on the road. Sadly, there are still plenty of bad choices, too.
(By the way, here's a link to my blog, it's called 'What I Put in My Mouth. I admit, it amused me to make the title sound dirty. *cough*
BAD couple of days...I had been doing really well and everything just sort of snapped. I have eaten sooooo much bad food lately, way past when I was full and just feel really out of control. MIL has been watching the kids since I went back to work on wednesday and has made all sorts of unhealthy food and desserts trying to "be helpful" so I wouldn't have to make dinner and it has been anything but.
I am hoping that getting this off my chest will help get me out of this food funk.
Hello, fellow binger here. I'm doing much better than I used to (hello, entire sleeves of oreos). I went to Costco and walked right past the jumbo box of Luna bars. Can you imagine the damage I could have done? Today I had a Snickers bar but I am back on track. I pumped some milk so I am all set to go rollerblading tomorrow. I'll be keeping up with this thread for advice, too.
I'm joining this thread because I definitely have a food addiction/overeating problem! I need to be accountable somewhere where I won't be judged. Two nights ago I ate a large Symphony bar (the giant sheet of chocolate kind). I had the worst headache afterwards and I told my husband, I absolutely cannot do this anymore, it is making me ill. Don't give me anything else, don't bring anything else into the house. Next day we were at a party, big trigger for me, of course I overate. The next day my husband brought home some extra cupcakes from another party, I was so happy to eat them and inhaled two (would have eaten more if there were more). I've come to the conclusion that a "diet" will not help me conquer this problem. I need to focus less on following a particular diet program and more on conquering my binging. So, thus the reason that I am here. So accountability begin!
Ugh. Have to confess. I binged yesterday. Was looking at pictures of myself and thought I looked fat, said to myself no wonder i have no boyfriend and other self-loating thoughts to myself.
I had gone 14 good days in a row too and then yesterday at about 9:45 pm i ate the following:
windmill cookies dipped in coolwhip, peanut butter and jelly on ritz crackers, ice cream, peanut butter out of the jar, three pieces of italian bread with butter, 2 string cheeses, 2 smores granola bars, a bowl of cheerios, 2 fudgesicles, more cookies with coolwhip, 3 tootsie pops, 3 pieces of rolled up turkey, a bagel with ragu sauce
And i felt awful.
The sad thing is this wasn't even a "really bad" one for me, i have had much bigger binges in the past.
Trying to put it behind me though and make it through the next 17 days til i start school again.
I had a mini-binge this afternoon and ate a micro-lunch, a pizza pie and a small bag of white chocolate & yoghurt cashews. Too much for one sitting and I feel bloated... I never should go shopping hungry. The pizza pie alone would have been enough for lunch and the cashews were a big delicious mistake. Now I'm trying to get a grip and only have some fruit tonight. *puts a foot down*
Confession....this week has been crazy at work. I've managed to eat well but not get in as much exercise as I normally do. I've only done 3 workouts in the past 7 days. I met a girlfriend for drinks after work yesterday and had three big glasses of wine - we shared nachos. Came home and had a full dinner. This morning i feel like crap. I'm overcaffinated and bloated. BF and I are taking the dogs camping this weekend. I hope I can manage to eat healthy and stay away from the beer.
Hi, I'm new.
I've lost 20 lbs, and have 50 more to go to reach my goal.
My binges aren't big, but I'm definitely an overeater...as far back as I can remember, I've been an overeater.
This morning a colleague told me she was going to the State Fair for lunch, and offered to bring back food from the State Fair for me for lunch. I was daydreaming about corn dogs, gyros, and funnel cake all morning.
Finally, around noon, I passed. I told her, "You know, I'm trying so hard to lose weight, and I just can't take the extra calories." So I walked to the deli and bought hummus and pita bread for lunch instead.
I still haven't stopped dreaming of fair food, but I'm glad I was able to pass on it today....so far.
Noooooo...! I binged again tonight. I believe I would have been all right if hubby had been home. He's at a friend's though and I was left alone and got these naughty ideas. Booo me.
My turn to confess. I was binge free for 35 days. I went to visit my hubby's relatives because his grandma died and I lost control majorly. Suffice it to say that I was not at all starving myself before going, but came back four days later (yesterday) five lbs higher. I think I ate every single calorie. I ate so many cookies, candy bars, slices of pizza, peices of fried chicken, donuts, peices of chocolate cake, glasses of wine, beer... oh yeah, and potato salad. We ate out several times and I haven't been that drunk consecutively for days in a very long time.
I wasn't close to his grandma, but his extended family stresses me out because I end up in the middle. His mom loves me and he doesn't get along with her. And death stresses me out. It makes me think of losing my grandpa(who was more of a father) and I lose it. It was also a hella expensive trip (not the food, it was free because so many people were cooking for the family in order to help out. It was an endless top notch buffet).
The sad thing is I tried to be healthy. the first day I ate two awesome salads and tried so hard to muddle through the airport food situation (very hard to find a salad there). But the next day, whamo. I started stuffing...and stuffing and stuffing.
So I'm back. Feeling guilty, not wanting to raise my ticker to 158... and afraid to post! silly me. trix are for...rabbits? definitely not for me!
Hi all - I just read the last page of posts - why is it that we let our minds rule instead of our stomachs when it comes to food?!
ALL last week was one giant binge for me. Why? I don't know! I weighed in at WW on 8/23 and was down 2.2 lbs, which is great. Then, I dunno. I just fell apart and binged all week. I literally ate every snack in the house - I am normally okay w/ the 100 calorie packs and bags of pretzels...but I pigged out on them!
I guess the good news is that every snack in the house was eaten, LOL. So, I didn't go to WW this past Saturday to weigh in and I've had two days completely back on track.
I'm just perplexed at how all of us can have fantastic days/weeks/months -- lose weight -- feel great -- and then BAM! We just flip that binge switch.
I definitely give props to ALL of you and myself for continuing to work at it. I don't think the key is to "defeat" the binges (though I would like to!!!) - I really think it's just about not giving up.
Putting my confession down so I can be free. Breakfast was a three serving bag of pretzels. Not horrible. But dinner was was two bags of m&m''s. I am calling yesterday a break of my 14 day binge streak. Not the most food I have ever eaten, but skipping meals to eat junk is not the healthiest idea. So it is day one for me.
It's hard! I mean, even though I know no one is really reading it and even if it so, it'd be hard to associate with me, it's embarrassing to admit how horrible my diet is even to myself.
