well the first is non food or weight related. I had two speeches/presentations today. The first was my oral exam in spanish, I was very nervous about it. But when it was over, my teacher flat out said that it was wonderful, I did everything right and she was giving me an A.
The next one I had was for my final project in my marketing class, it was with my group and we had to do a 10-15 minute presentation. My part went well, I wasn't nervous, I didn't mumble or get all red, and I said everything I planned on saying. When my group was done the teacher said she had no questions to ask because we answered them all. We were the only group she said that to
Oh and for my actual fitness related thing, I was feeling really exhausted this evenning but I decided I needed to stick with it so I got up, put my exercise clothes on and did my third day of 30ds. Wee!
A positive thing about me today: so, today was one of my best friends' birthday. As a gift, her mom sent her tons of boxes of really fancy chocolates--turtles, truffles, chocolate-covered peanuts (ack!!!), you name it! Being the great friend that she is, she decided to bring a few of the boxes to rehearsal tonight (she's in my a cappella group - the one I mentioned yesterday - too!) and share with everyone in the group. Even though I have been a perfect angel all this week, for some reason I thought "Hey, it's her birthday, it's a special occasion!" and I decided to have a turtle... And a few chocolate-covered peanuts (peanuty + chocolatey = MY WEAKNESS! How many times do I have to say this?!!)... Probably a few more than I should have. I kind of regretted it afterwards, but I did something very important. After rehearsal, my friend wanted to go out and celebrate and get more desserty things and junk, and for a second I was tempted to think, Well, this day is already ruined because of the chocolate I ate, so I might as well just REALLY ruin it! and just go along with it and eat a bunch of junk. But instead I thought Okay, I shouldn't have had all that chocolate, but the day is not "ruined." Everything else I ate today was sensible, and a little chocolate won't ruin my WL--but a huge restaurant dinner, a piece of cake, a brownie, and/or a milkshake, etc WILL. I'm really proud that I was able to stop myself from thinking that I "might as well" eat tons of junk since I'd already slipped up... Instead, for dinner I had a salad/mixture of tons fresh veggies, and some grapes! Satisfying AND totally nutritious, and who knows, maybe that chocolate didn't even do any damage! I guess I'll find out on Friday... But I'm feeling really proud right now.
One good thing about me today is that I had the confidence/presence of mind to do a reality check about my eating habits (my weight has been stuck at 168 for a couple weeks) and to realize that I need to adjust them if I want to continue making progress. I didn't get upset or angry with myself, I simply have new resolve to stick to my exercise plan and kick butt by modifying a few of the calories I am intaking.
PS: I still have the tingling feeling from when you're doing well and therefore, going to lose a lot of weight
I feel strong! I did a double workout today to make up for lost time. And I got through it! I ran a mile and a half on the treadmill (took me a little under 20 minutes) and then did the shred. I am strong. I am invincible. I am leading the pink team to certain victory
I got up and ran today. After debating with myself through two snooze periods because I *really* wanted to sleep in. It took until getting through my run, stretching, and breakfast was eaten to feel awake and good, but now I am SO glad I ran.
Some days, you can take a day off and it's good for you. Some days, it's not!
A good thing about me (last night but im counting it for today) is that I was working out and looking in the mirror and noticed progress from when I started this journey.
K, a few positive things happened to me at my a cappella concert yesterday! First of all, I happened to see a girl who I hadn't seen in a really long time (she's friends with one of my close friends who came to my concert), and the first thing she said was "You look sooo good!" Haha, no matter how much I get compliments, I still appreciate every single one SO much. That's one thing I could never get sick of--being told that I look good. Next, during the concert, I did really well on my solo and I just felt really hot while I was performing, which is a huge plus! LOL it just felt great! Finally, I went out to dinner with my family after the concert, and I actually ordered a SALAD. I've never really loved salad, and I swear I have never ordered just a salad as my meal ever before in my LIFE, haha. But it was good! I was tempted to order something less healthy (cuz we were celebrating!) but I just thought, No, you can go to this restaurant and order junk any time you want... It's not going to disappear if you "miss out" on ONE unhealthy meal!
I have two positive things for TODAY, as well! The first (and most important) is that I had my Friday weigh-in and I was 191.0 lbs, which means that I have finally reached 70 lbs lost! I was wavering around the 69-lb mark for a reeeally long time, haha. I feel SO great! And the other thing is that my family took me out for breakfast this morning (yeah, they like to go all out when they come visit me, hehe) at the Original Pancake House... And amidst all of the amazing-looking pancakes, waffles, omelettes, crepes, etc, I actually managed to order a small bowl of Special K and fresh fruit salad instead! I think my weigh-in had a lot to do with it, hehe. I don't want to go back up! But MAN, that was hard. I wanted some chocolate chip pancakes sooo bad! Haha. But I just kept thinking about the fact that most of those dishes have like 800 calories in them, and I was like "Nah, I don't think I want to start my day that way!" My family was pretty amazed, and it almost didn't even bother me when my mother (infamous for her nastiness about my WL) gave me a hard time about not indulging!
Hey ladies! Just because *I'm* slacking on this thread doesn't mean that you all get to! What happened to all of your positive things? I'd better be hearing some seriously uplifting remarks PRONTO, or someone's going to get a whoopin'! LOL!
I owe two positive things, so I'll get us started:
My positive thing for yesterday is really something that happened on Friday night, going all the way through 6 AM on Saturday morning! LOL. Basically, I had a bit of drunken debauchery on Friday night--okay, a LOT of drunken debauchery on Friday night!! I've pretty much been avoiding alcohol like the plague this quarter, cuz of all the empty calories, and I've been really proud of myself because god knows I looove partying, heh (and so do all my friends!). But this was only the third time I've had even a drop of booze in the past 2.5 months, and it was my last weekend at school before I go home for 3 weeks for Winter break, so I felt like letting loose just a little. Anyways, it was basically just a really crazy and fun night, and I thought it was so funny how it compared to a typical experience I might have had before I started my WL. First of all, it used to take me like 3-4 drinks before I would feel anything, plus more to keep it going, but on Friday I only had a total of 3 drinks (+ the odd sip of someone else's beer) over the course of 6-7 hours or so, but it's safe to say that I had a very healthy buzz the whole time, heh. How cool is that, that I could actually be becoming a "lightweight"? LOL. Also, I just felt like my confidence levels were soaring! It was kind of weird circumstances - a friend from home was visiting both me and a couple of our mutual friends who go to semi-nearby schools (we're all in the Chicago area, heh), and we ended up going to a couple parties at our mutual friends' schools, i.e. parties that were thrown by people I didn't know, and were attended exclusively by people that I didn't know! Normally/in the past, I probably would have felt incredibly awkward in that kind of situation--I'm not shy or anything, but it's intimidating when you don't know anyone, y'know? Especially since it seemed like all of the people at these parties were cool and attractive (unlike at my school, where everyone is really nerdy, myself included hehe!). But instead I was totally fine! I almost had this feeling like... Hey... I'm almost like *one of them*! I felt cute, and I just had lots of fun socializing without feeling like anyone was thinking "Ew, why is that fat girl here?" I'm slooowly starting to shift into feeling like a "normal" person. I know I still have quite a while to go before I'll be one of the beautiful people, LOL, but it's amazing to me that I could ever feel like just a normal person. And I swear that feeling wasn't just the coconut rum messing with my mind!
My positive thing for today isn't really related to WL, but it's still really important and positive and amazing. Long story short, I have absolutely amazing friends who truly care about me, and I am so touched. Last night I was getting off a bus when I slipped on the steps and hardcore slammed my back on the edge of one of the steps... Ouchie... So now I'm in a lot of pain, and I'm planning to go our student care center tomorrow (it's closed on Sundays, of course, grrr), so I think I'll be okay. It really sucks for WL, though, because working out is not even a possibility--I can barely make it up/down stairs, and even just walking kind of stings. But anyways, I still went out with two of best friends last night after this happened, because I didn't think it would be so bad, though it got worse as the night went on... But they both showed so much compassion for me, and just generally have made it clear how much they care about me/want to help me in any way possible, and I am SO TOUCHED. Like today, I was pretty much sleeping/popping painkillers all day, and I was really out of it, to the point where I wasn't even answering my calls (sooo dumb of me, but I was kind of delirious), but my two friends actually bought me dinner to-go from our dining hall and brought it to my dorm (which is like 6 blocks away from our main campus). They were both so worried about me, and my one friend even offered to drive me to the ER! I can't even describe the feeling of knowing that there are people who really truly care about me that much... I feel so warm and fuzzy... Even though I'm still in a lot of pain and whatnot, I feel like it gives me strength to know how much they care. <3
I kind of regretted it afterwards, but I did something very important. After rehearsal, my friend wanted to go out and celebrate and get more desserty things and junk, and for a second I was tempted to think, Well, this day is already ruined because of the chocolate I ate, so I might as well just REALLY ruin it! and just go along with it and eat a bunch of junk. But instead I thought Okay, I shouldn't have had all that chocolate, but the day is not "ruined." Everything else I ate today was sensible, and a little chocolate won't ruin my WL--but a huge restaurant dinner, a piece of cake, a brownie, and/or a milkshake, etc WILL. I'm really proud that I was able to stop myself from thinking that I "might as well" eat tons of junk since I'd already slipped up... Instead, for dinner I had a salad/mixture of tons fresh veggies, and some grapes! Satisfying AND totally nutritious, and who knows, maybe that chocolate didn't even do any damage! I guess I'll find out on Friday... But I'm feeling really proud right now. 
LOL!
(unlike at my school, where everyone is really nerdy, myself included hehe!). But instead I was totally fine! I almost had this feeling like... Hey... I'm almost like *one of them*! I felt cute, and I just had lots of fun socializing without feeling like anyone was thinking "Ew, why is that fat girl here?" I'm slooowly starting to shift into feeling like a "normal" person. I know I still have quite a while to go before I'll be one of the beautiful people, LOL, but it's amazing to me that I could ever feel like just a normal person. And I swear that feeling wasn't just the coconut rum messing with my mind! 
