dragonfly, silverfire, onagain, opheliaphonenix, sassyangies lets do this. Next thread is on its way. Everyone is doing so good. Keep your focus and believe it will be and it will be. Don't get distracted by negative thoughts, situations, emotions. Don't read into anything too much. Take this all one day at a time. Relax, breathe and be calm. We can all do this together one second, one minute, one day at a time.

I have found reading some of peoples negativity on this board has been stressing me out. I feel like I am taking on their burdons as I have felt them or thought them all at one time or another. One thing I see a lot of is how much people actually dislike themselves. I don't dislike myself. I actually really like me. I don't say mean things to myself or about myself and infact I hardly ever really think of myself as fat or in any negative light. It has kind of always been that way. Its when I let other people's thoughts or ideas about who I am or who I should be or what I should look like that I get really down on myself.

So today my challenge to all my girls trying to get to the next level. Be conscience of your thoughts and how you are processing other peoples thoughts about you. Be aware of what you are hearing, what you are reading and mostly what your conscience mind is feeding you. If any of those things have a negative connotation you need to walk way from it. Block it out and replace it with a thought or feeling of something good. I know I have said this before and believe it with my whole heart... our conscience thoughts of "I can't do this, Its to hard, I will never been thin enough, I am not used to working out and its not for me" can be our biggest cheerleader (the saboteur)... but remember this also includes processing thoughts or ideas that are not in line with what we want from others. Its so easy to fall prey to the negative - unfortunately most of us are prone to walk down that path and get down about it... make it a decision today to recognize those negatives and replace them with something like I AM on track today; I AM healthy; I AM doing this for me; I AM a fighter or I AM able to do this. Cognitive thinking...:)

Sept - That post is just what I needed today!!

Sept.. we can do this!! Thank you for your post I love it. I wish I had you in my state. I'm glad to have someone like you that's so inspiring. I have had some negative emotions, but I'm ready to get this thing going again..

Great job Phoenix!! You are almost outta here!! Your doing great.

Silverfire.. yay great job!! You guys are all doing wonderful.. I've cheated and been over there chatting allready. I thought it would help me get over my hump.. so please don't judge me.. (hehe)

I'm back down to 279 and I'm hoping it sticks. I am going to stick with this and not lose focus!! I want to stay in the 270's and not ever see the 280s again..

273 this morning, which was my goal today. I thought I'd be lower since I saw lower numbers in the middle of the week, but I've eaten out for the last three days. So I'm happy to be 273, and I expect to see it drop once I get back to my normal routine of eating at home.

Everybody is doing such a great job! We can do this!!

:doh::doh::doh:sassyangies... make no mistake I have negative thoughts or feelings all of the time. Our brains are naturally programed to take focus on those thoughts or feelings, however I am making dedicated effort, each time they rear their ugly little heads, to put them in perspective and at bay. Just trying to be aware at all times. It can be harder than you can imagine, but I want it to be the norm as opposed to the other - retraining my mindset so to speak. Don't you notice that you do better when you have positive things in sight? in check? in your control? I do... everyone has their days when they want to give up I have had several thousands in my dieting lifetime. Its our choice to forge ahead or throw in the towel. I want to be surrounded by people who chose to move forward! Come with me. I said 269 by monday morning. I woke up today at 271.4 (up from 270.7 yesterday) and my first thought was WTF, but then I pulled it back in and said "Joy the scale keeps you accountable. You chose to weigh everyday" so I said today I can do better (even though yesterday I was pretty damn good) and then tomorrow you will be at 269 as you said you would. Thats what keeps me going. One little pound at a time, one day at a time, one thought process at a time :)

Was hoping to see 283 today since yesterday was 284.0 but I weighed in at 285! Damn!!! Drinking TONS of water today and hopefully something will happen in the next few days!

Well took a nap with the baby and weighed myself after it just to see and I was 284.6 that's a little better...

erinmarie312. Good ole sleep :).. Where you having dreams of running? Sometimes I dream of running away from someone and low and behold I wake up and find I have lost weight. I wonder if my legs are restless while I am sleeping.....

Did you want to go for the 260's together since we are about the same weight?

I have not gotten an email that told me this thread updated! BOO!

Other than that, I got some horrible news the other day that kept me in emotional eating pretty much all weekend. And I def don't need any help eating like crap on the weekends!

But today H2B and I walked (hiked?) up and down Stone Mountain. Holy freaking crap. If the scale isn't nice to me tomorrow for weigh in, I will throw it out!

Ophelia, congrats! Can't wait to see you in the next thread.
Sept, sounds really good!
OnAgain, getting SO close. Everyone is doing so great!
SilverFire, cruisin' for a bruisin'! Nice job!

This morning was supposed to be the start of daily weigh ins for the first to lose 20 lb competition at work. I was pretty excited as I was fairly certain I had hit the 20 lb mark this morning. Came into work and they forgot to bring in the scale!! I am going to be SO upset if I don't win because we didn't get to weigh in this morning! It will be just my luck that tomorrow will be a water weight day and I will have gained 3 lbs! Everyone cross your fingers for me that it doesn't go down like that :D I just spent a whole bunch of money on gear for the gym, I could really really use the prize of 125 bucks!!!

Sounds good to me! Fricking woke up this morning to the scale saying 287! Wtf?! I was about to hit 283??? Ugh, why do women's bodies have to be so weird!? I had a migraine yesterday so left work early and went straight to bed. I'm not going to give up though. Hopefully I will see a drop in the next few weeks. Thought the first 20 pounds were going to be a breeze to lose...

Erinmarie I am sorry about those sneaking lbs (of water!) that have come to visit. They should leave soon I am sure. At least you know its only that :)
I hope you feel better.... I have had Migrains and know what they do, tho I just get the prisms in my eyes and not the intense pain.. But Light sensitivity is hard to deal with when you have to stare at a computer. I hope that it has eased up.

Lets do this together! Yes indeed. Maybe by the end of May (or sooner) we can be in the next group down. :) Take care!

278 this morning. I am thinking that my muscles are trying to recoup after the strenuous workout yesterday and that I may come down as they heal.

This marks me falling out of the morbidly obese BMI. Falling out... Who am I kidding, I fought like ****!!!