beginnings

The title of this post is “Beginnings”.  Is it the most accurate title I could have picked for my weight loss journey blog?  Debatable, seeing as I’d consider my struggle with weight and maintaining a healthy lifestyle to have started roughly around the beginning of time or for at least for as long as I can remember.  I was a big baby, a chubby toddler, a pudgy middle schooler, a plump (but a little lighter!) high school kid who eventually blossomed into a sometimes slightly bigger, sometimes slightly smaller college student. 

My weight has gone down from 232 lbs. sophomore year of high school to a pretty solid 174 lbs, but currently I’m up to around 182.  While I can easily spout off hundreds of nutrition facts, count calories like nobody’s business, and know the importance of exercise, my biggest struggle in this battle has been being disciplined enough to stick to a healthy way of living.  I feel (and look) my best when I’m running and eating well, but, despite the all of the positive results, I usually go back to my normal habits, though they are never as bad as they had been at my highest weight. 

Given my constant ups and downs, I feel like this summer is the perfect time to recommit to living the healthy lifestyle I can.  This recommitment would include:

  1. Cooking and eating more of my meals–As a college student, especially on campus over the summer with no meal plan nor abundance of places to cook, the easiest way to feed myself is to either buy it out or heat some frozen “food” up in the microwave.  Incidentally, it’s also the easiest way to gain weight.  My goal for the summer is to eat out once a week and to buy lots and lots of fruits and veggies to fuel my body. 
  2. Controling the binging–Sometimes when I’m eating, my body goes into autopilot and before I know it, I’m reaching for anything edible within reaching distance.  Peanut butter.  Crackers.  Pudding.  Snack bars.  You name it, I’ve probably shoved it in my face. 
  3. EXERCISING!–This might be the goal that will either be the easier or the hardest for me.  It’s probably too soon to tell.  When I get on a running/gym streak, I love it and start to feel sad if I miss it.  However, after about missing 4 days in a row or so, i’m back off the gym high and it’s hard to jump back on the bandwagon.  I’m hoping this summer will be different though, because I have a goal that I’m working towards–I want to be able to run a 5k by the end of the summer with my dad.  Right now, (a very slow, haha) 3.25 miles is the most I’ve run, so I know I can do it!  I just want to concentrate on uping my milage (I’m hoping to get to 15 miles/week by the end of the summer, and be able to run 5 miles in one run) and then later I’ll add uping my speed (I’d like to get my mile close to 9:00)
  4. Becoming more disciplined and resilient–A lot of times I fee like I struggle with this journey because I think that I mess up once, I’ve ruined everything.  I want to change that and teach myself that it’s a marathon, not a sprint and that set backs happen.  I also want to learn to have the discipline to maintain these lifestyle changes.
  5. Write in the blog as much as possible!

These are my goals for the summer and the steps I know I have to take to get to where I want to be.  I’m excited to start this new “beginning” and hope that this will be the start of something wonderful!

Peace out,
Gracie

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