Losin it in Paradise

6 days and counting

Well I am getting a little nervous as I have less than a week left.  I only have 3 shifts of work left and I am done.  Friday is my last night.  Then Saturday DH is taking me out for seafood supper and then Sunday and Monday are bowel prep days and then TUESDAY is cut day.

I keep telling myself that anything is going to be better than how I have been feeling the past couple months.  That I need to get rid of this constant pain and feeling of malaise.  That I want to be able to do the things I love to do like hiking and bike riding again without feeling like I am dying.

I am 2 pounds from my 20 pound goal I had set for my surgery day, so will have that gone by Tuesday.  I will have no solid foods for approx 2 to 3 weeks following my surgery so that sucks.  I will be bloated and swollen from surgery and all the fluids that they will pump into me to keep me hydrated.  It is normal saline so the salt will balloon me like a water balloon.  It will not be a pretty picture.

I am a hard IV stick, so have to go in 2 hours before surgery and they are going to put a central line in then they will not have to worry about IV sticks and lines going bad and having to try to restart them.  Not looking forward to that at all.

 I am still not doing my food diary and find that I am really missing it.  Almost like my reward for being good is taken away.  I may start my diary again even thou I am doing well food wise without it.  I just miss the gratification of seeing that I did indeed keep below or at my points.   I will make up my mind after my surgery when I can start eating again.

I just hope I don’t come back eating like a starved crazy woman and eat anything I can get my hands on.  I hope that I use common sense and take it wisely and easy.  I guess I am going to have to with a part of my stomach gone right?  Even if it is a micro mini part.

My hubby is taking my out for crab legs, my favorite, on Saturday.  He wants me to have a good meal before I have to “starve”  🙂    

 hope he isn’t thinking last meal……..

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