4 months! April 18, 2010
I cant believe It’s been four months since I’ve blogged on here! time flies. I see a lot of new blogs, and a few old ones that look familiar. anyway, I guess I will update you all on my situation. since I last blogged, the stress in my life seems to remain. My husband is doing better. he has been clean for a few months now. we got him some help and he started back to cullinary school. I have been trying to deal with the confusion I feel towards him, but I am still confused. I love him and dont think I could leave him, but I am also still angry at him for the things he has put me through. I wont forget it any time soon. its been a hell of a year.
weight wise, I am up about 18 lbs since my lowest. my lowest was in october at about 176. I saw 172 once, but only for a second. I now weigh 194.6 as of today. not quite what I was hoping for at this juncture in my life, but hey, it could be worse. I have not cheated in a little over a week. so, we shall see how it goes. I want to be back close to 176 by june. I still go to the gym four to five times a week. the problem is….. the past 4-5 months or so, I will be on track and work out for about a week and then de- rail myself for a few days. so, this is how my weight krept up like it did. I need to stay on track in order to lose! that is the plan. (as always) LOL.
B- grilled ckn wrap
L- coffee, big salad with sunflower seeds and caesar vinigarette dressing
S- wheat thins
D- healthy choice turkey marsala meal
S- small orange, apple… more coffee ( i am at work)
S- total cereal before I go home