Violet: If you get dragged there, find the healthy options. If I know I'm going to have fast food now, I hit the internet and look up what I WANT to eat...usually seeing 800cals or so turns me right off! Also, there are many fast food places that have a burger or a chicken sandwich that is not massive, and checks in around 350 calories. Not low, but not terrible, and it can be worked into a daily calorie count without too much horror.
HI EVERYONE, sorry I have been missing for two days! TOM sent me sliffling into a self pity corner for two days, but I did exercise and stick to plan, and something good did happen.
At least, I think it's good.
I lost my job (public school teacher) at the end of last year due to budget cuts and, well, frankly, because my boss and I did not see eye to eye. I won't go into it, but each of us thought the other was doing a pretty poor job.
I've spent the summer desperately searching for another job, but in this EXTREMELY insular community, if you piss off one principal, you're never going to get another job. Yes, it's illegal for them to blackball people, but it happens all the time. I got tons of interviews this summer, and not a single one panned out. I heard from a friend at school that the principal was saying bad things about me to any people who called her to inquire about me. Lovely. At the school board they recommended that I try to work in Georgia. Yep, I was told to "git outa town, we don't like yer kind here." (Larry, this is all part of the reason that I call my town H-E-doublehockeysticks).
Well, I went outside the public schools and found an amazing private school where they don't equate education with mind-numbing worksheets done in strict silence. They liked me, too, as well as my progressive ideas about the way children learn. They gave me a part time job. Now, I am very happy to be at that school--but I am the breadwinner in a two-person household while my boyfriend finishes law school. So I still need a full-time second job to be able to pay our bills.
When suddenly, out of the blue, Florida State University School calls me and basically tells me to apply for a job posting. "We have your resume here and we'd like you to apply for this job if you're available."
Wow. I've never been TOLD to apply for a job before. And a day and a half later they've scheduled an interview. It's Wednesday.
I'm torn. FSUS is an amazing charter school. But it's still part of the public school grind, and I'd spend as much time testing my students as teaching them. I'll have a workload that spills over into every weekend (last year I had about five hours off a week--on Sunday. Mon-Sat I worked from 7am-10pm). I'll have to teach the utterly crappy curriculum that the politicians have decided on, and to top it off I'll have to teach fourth graders how to write badly so they can pass a stupid test with mechanically-styled essays. These are all things that make me green to think of participating in again. Plus I'll have to tell the really wonderful private school that I'll be ditching the contract I already signed with them.
On the other hand...if I get the FSU job...full time work. Pay that can keep my little family such as it is afloat for another year. And the student body is supposedly well-behaved and smart.
*sigh*
It was this antsy-worry-ness that caused me to hide from the boards the past two days. I was craving sugar SO BADLY as I often do during times of indecision, insecurity, and stress. I drank a protien shake and ate more bread than I should have. Still stayed under calories, though!
I guess I'm kinda where you were the other day,
Alaskan. About to transition into a job--tom hounding me--the frustration with my scale that has not settled in what is now close to six weeks.
Must not eat sugar! Must not eat sugar!!!!
(I did sneak into my kitchen yesterday and ate two spoonfuls of pure crystallized honey. Me and Pooh, we're junkies.)
Of course DH is always hot and I make him crazy with the blankets and being cold. 
Ive lost 3 pounds in 5 days!! Everyone cross your fingers I can make it through my first weekend. I dont want to cheat and with hubs home I tend to eat horrible!! 
