OK here it goes!
 

Alright everyone ! Here it goes! I have spoken to my doctor and confessed everything ( through tears, of course) . So now is my time to confess to you. I have been diagnosed as a bulemic. I have known this for awhile. Which is a start that I can admit it! I also understand why I do it and when I do it most often. Though I do not purge, I have binged to the point that I have gotten sick. I am starting on a new antidepressent and I am suppose to start counseling. I have to see how many visits I can afford with the co-payments. Not sure what my co-payments are going to be. My husband is freaked out, he wants to fix it and he can't. So he feels guilty, thinking he caused some of it and because he cannot fix it. This is going to be a long uphill battle! But I have told all of you and I have gotten it out! Thank you for listening! Talk to all of you later! Catherine

Jamamom - that must have been really hard to confess and I congratulate you for seeking help. I will keep you in my prayers and pray that you and your husband will find the strength you need to get through this time. Just remember, skinny doesn't bring happiness. I'm overweight but extremely happy so that is why it is hard for me to sometimes stick with a plan - just take it day by day - each day is a new one with new beginnings - don't look at the past. Being healthy is what counts. Alot of skinny people are unhappy and unhealthy. Hang in there - you CAN do it! I pray that happiness and healthiness are around the corner for you.

Forget to tell Mo hello! Hope your day is going well. My boss brought in deer meat sticks which I seem to have already consumed 2 of. Ugh! At least, they are protein instead of carbs, right? I drank 24 oz. of water so far so need to pick that up so will get it all in for the day. Going miniature golfing with my son and 2 of his friends with our church group tonight. They want to go out to eat before hand. Arby's would be cheap but I don't think it would be a good "food" choice place for me. I might grab subway before hand. Have a good day.

Hi Mo, Cheeky, and Catherine!

Catherine - I'm so glad you confessed to your doctor and you're on the path to wellness. Please keep us posted! How are things with your FIL?

Mo-your boss is organized? LOL Let me know what that's like!

Cheeky - it's so hard to pick healthy and cheap fast food! It amazes me how the prices keep going up. At the McDonald's here, most value meals are right around $5. I remember when they were all $2.99!!!! LOL-however, I kinda wish they were $20 so I'd never stop and get one! LOL

thought more about it
 

Wel, now that I have thought more about it. I have indeed purged, just not recently. I always figured I had to stick my finger down my throat to consider it purging. Well, I have stood over the toilet and willed myself to vomit including forcing myself to hewve to get everything going. I am guessing a lot of new revelations are going to come out through this. The good part is I know I need the help and I actually understand why I do it at times. Well, except for all of my friends here at 3FC I have only told my husband and two other friends. I am going to keep it like that for awhile. the FIL is another whole story in itself, too much to get into right now. Thank you all for your support and prayers. I am trying to keep my favorite Bible verse in my mind which is Proverbs 3:5-6. I even bought a journel with it written on it to start this recovery journey.

Hope everyone else is well. I am guessing they are, they are too busy or just a little bit bad. I am going to go for too busy.

LOL, Catherine

I meant heave not hewve! lol

eggs
 

cheeky chick: My father has had regular breakfast everyday that consists of 2 eggs, 2 sausage 3 toasts and occasionally bowl of grits. His collesteral was up so the doctor told him to cut back. So he started eating 2 medium eggs instead of large. Plus he threw in a bowl of oatmeal instead of grits. When he went back to the doctor and his collesteral was down the doctor asked what he had been doing and he told him he was eating 2 medium instead of large and the doctor said, "I meant cut back on the consumption of eggs all together but if that works I guess go ahead with it. So I would say if your not use to eating eggs on a regular basis and you start eating them everyday your cholesteral would probably go up. But cholesteral is not only food consumption but also genetic background.

Hey everyone: I've been MIA for awhile now. Not really doing much for my weight. As a matter of fact I've backtracked drastically. I"ve been eating what ever I want, when ever I want it. My husband and I went out to celebrate our 9th anniversary last week. Unfortunately it felt more like 2 friends going out rather than a date. We had fun it just didnt' feel like it should have.

I hope everyone else is doing well.

Friday
 

Hi ladies:

Catherine, wow it must have been very stressful for you to keep that knowledge of bulemia inside of you. I hope now that you've admitted it to yourself and others you will find the help you need. That's probably one of the biggest hurdles.

I have been bad eating still. DH keeps asking if I've gone off the diet and I say no but then I make sure I eat before he gets home so he doesn't see me cheating so much :o Sometimes I tend to eat way too much so that I don't eat later when more people are around. It's like a safety net I guess?

DD has just about mastered riding her new bike and I've gone for a ride with her the last two nights but just a mile or so because I don't think she's ready to go on the main road. I really want to ride further and my legs are up to it but my *** hurts so bad I have to stop. I even had a gel seat on the bike, maybe I need one of those fat lady seats!

I bought all kinds of fruit last night and then ate crap today :?: I really need to get back in the swing of dieting.

This weekend is a soccer tournament so I'll be at the field for about 5-6 hours Saturday & Sunday!! I really wanted to see the DaVinci Code this weekend too.

Well I'm off to go pay for my latest bargains: two wing chairs I found at a used furniture store for my mom. It's to pay her for babysitting and her Mother's Day gift. I showed her a photo and she liked them I just hope she likes them as much in person. I also found a beautiful loveseat for $50 and a wrought iron patio set (couch, two chairs, end table, coffee table w/ all the cushions) for only $50! I'm going to give him a deposit on them till I can pick them all up. I know I should have patio or deck first but I can't pass up a bargain!!! I'm a shopaholic!

Have a great weekend, I hope Nori is having fun at her sisters and Sarah is having fun setting up the new house! Cheeky, I hope you had fun at mini golf, I haven't played in almost a year. I love playing because I can beat my husband at it :D

Mo

Hi Serena:

I most have been still writing my short novel when you posted. I hope you are well, we've missed you. How are the boys, did you have any luck finding one of those trailer thingies for pulling the boys?

Don't be a stranger, we're here for each other during good times and bad!

Mo

Tuesday
 

Well ladies, I know Nori is away but where is everyone else? It's been four days since I posted and still no one is here :?:

I thought I'd be good for lunch and got a salad only to follow it up with a big Kit Kat :( I did play frisbee with the kids last night and will maybe go for another bike ride with the kids tonight. I got a bad sunburn on my face only on Saturday. The soccer tournament was 9 hours long!!! It was overcast most of the day but it cleared up and my face is starting to peel. It's this Irish skin :o

I'll check in tomorrow. Missing all of you :hug:

I'm back! We had a lovely time. The weather was gorgeous and since my sister has a pool there was lots of water time! Just doing the whole catch up thing here at home now with laundry, bills and the regular!

So, after the past few weeks of not being serious - I'm up .5 pound as of this morning. I'm ok with that. Even though I haven't been focused, it's not like I've been eating with abandon - which is what I normally do on vacation!

Catherine - kudos to you for admitting it and getting help. There's a good section here for eating disorders. I'm not saying to not post here too, though! I'm very interesting to hear how you are doing. Anyways, I visited that section here briefly after my last binge on those darn Preacher's cookies.

While I've never been "diagnosed" with an eating disorder, I know I do not have a healthy relationship yet with food. And while I don't binge as often as I used, they are still followed by a period of time where I deprive myself of food and/or fun and exercise for silly amounts of time - I've read that that technically is considered a "purge". It is a burden and I do long to be free from the power of food.

Mo - did you go see DaVinci Code? I want to. I LOVED the book!

Hi everyone! Hopefully we'll get going again here. I know summer is a busy time, but I know I need the encouragement and motivation I get here. We can do this! We all know how, it's just a matter of deciding to do it everyday!! And following though.

Hi everyone! Here's wishing everyone a great holiday weekend! Let's take the weekend to re-group and then on Tuesday, after the Holiday, let's all get back to our posting!

Let's get back to being serious about our journey to healthier selves. I know I slacked off, and here in the desert it's HOT, and I want to wear shorts without wondering why my knees look so freaky???? lol

See everyone on Tuesday!!!!!!!!!

Sarah - I'm not brave enough to do shorts this summer! The last time I was semi-comfortable in shorts was when I was round 200. And super tan! Maybe, just maybe, I can be there at the end of summer?

LOL-I'm sooooo not comfortable to be in shorts, either. I'm hovering at 195, and my knees look like some weird gelatin concoction!!! However, this desert is so hot, I give in and put the shorts on on the weekends. LOL

Nori - you will totally be there at the end of summer!

We're so going to be better from now on. No more excuses on my end!!!

I understand! We went to Hawaii a couple years ago and I was around 235 and I wore a bathing suit and even went snorkling. I won't let my body stand in the way of all my fun. But it is hard to just let go. In Hawaii it is nice because you can wear your sarong everywhere.

Okay everyone, it's Tuesday!!! The first day of our next leg of the journey! How is everyone?

Roll call! Check in!!!!

I am ready - I have picked out a video to do tonight when the kids go to bed. The kids and I have to eat dinner out because we're going out of town to my son's ENT dr, so we're going to Applebee's where I know there'll be healthy options!

Tuesday
 

Well I'm glad to see I'm not the only one still here!

Wow, today was a real wake up call. All this talk about wearing shorts :yikes: I wear them but avoid passing a mirror if at all possible. I just realized it's only about 9 weeks until my vacation. Last time I went to Ireland I was in the 170's (after losing 30+ lbs). Everyone was saying how good I looked and if I don't lose some weight I'll be paranoid that they're all whispering (boy, she put it all back on didn't she!). :o :o I'm saying this of course after I just ate two bags of cookies of the vending machine at work.

9 weeks X 2 lbs per week is 18 pounds which could put me into the low 180's, probably not enough to get into my 14's from the last trip but I sure as **** would feel a lot better about myself and this trip. I haven't even booked our flights yet, hoping I'd be able to back out probably :?:

Sarah, I'll try to get an exercise tape out too tonight if it's not too hot out. I went out for a smoke before and it was so hot and humid. I'm hoping for a thunderstorm to cool things off before I leave work.

Nori: I'm glad you had a nice time. The pool sounds nice. We're putting up an above ground one this year for the kids and maybe I'll get my butt into it for a little exercise.

Take care and everyone please keep reminding me to drink water. I should make little reminder signs and post them around.

Check in again tomorrow. Mo

I think you can lose 2 pounds a week until you go, Mo. Easily...especially since you've just been maintaining recently. After I maintain for awhile I seem to lose quickly for a few weeks until things even out again.

I was down another pound this morning to 223.5. Exciting to see the scale dropping again. I'm still not actually counting calories. Just watching portion sizes and exercing every day. If this doesn't seem to work as well for me I'll go back to counting calories like I was before.

bathing suit
 

The only time I"ve worn a bathing suit in the last 6 years is when I was pregnant because I knew most people wouldn't look at me and say look out fat, they would say, wow look how pregnant. I remember my husband telling me one time when we went to Charleston that if we went to the beach, if I put on a bathing suit he wasn't going. Doesn't really make for a great relationship. Of course when we actually did go. He ended up buying him a brand new bathing suit and went swimming while I sat in the hotel with the boys. He wonders why I have a hard time liking him anymore. That is actually why I would prefer a vacation to the mountains rather than the beach.

Hi ladies, I checked in late and have to leave soon. Nori: I'll drink a glass when I get home, thanks!!! Maybe I'll go grocery shopping and start dieting tomorrow???? I do have some lean cuisines in the freezer and some fruit at home. I really need some motivation. :^:

Serena: Men can be so selfish at times, try not to let DH stop you from having some fun too. I don't worry too much about bathing suits on vacation because I figure they'll never see me again! My sisters are all over weight too so it makes it a little easier on our family vacation. It's DH's family that I worry about. They're very conscience of their bodies and in my opinion they over dress...just to go out for a few drinks at a local pub, you'd think they were in Dynasty or Sex in the City with their fashions, I dress casual and comfortable and they look at that as sloppy. DH used to try to get me to dress like them, I'd try to dress a little fancier but I would never give in totally, it just wasn't me.

I'll check back tomorrow and hopefully will be an official "dieter"!

Hi everyone..my name is Kim and I would love to join the group.. I have 80 to lose.... and probably more once I get there.. hehe I restarted ww at home but not losing like I would like to so relooking at my eating plan and thinking about ways to tweak it and may adopt the "superfoods" I have read about.. will keep u posted.. I do the WATP( walk away the pounds) 2 mile video 5x a week and bike ride in evenings 1-2 x wk feeling more energetic as each day goes by.. i have to go eat I am really famished.. nice to "meet " all of you..Kim

:welcome2: Kim! Nice to "meet" you and hear about your plans! It's always a challenge to find something that works for us. Good luck!

I sort of share the bathing suit on vacation sentiment that Mo has. These people will never see my cellulite again. So I'll have fun. It's my friends & family that I'm soo embarrased to swim in front of. Plus I have 5 younger sisters who have great bodies.:devil: I eventually get over it when it's just too damn hot!

Hi Serena! Haven't seen you here in awhile. No comment on the DH comment.:o I've been meaning to ask if your boys are sleeping any better these days? I'm still up a lot (3 times) with my 1 year old, but my 2.5 year old sleeps through the night 99% of the time.

Sounds like a good plan to go shopping, Mo! It really is easier when you have lots of good choices around you! I know how it is though - I need to feel that "click" in order to get my butt in gear and go forward. :dust:

Hi everyone else! Hope you are all doing good.

I wanted to mention that I'm finding such good recipes on allrecipes.com Good, good food ideas. The Lime Chicken Soft Tacos are to die for and some other things too! We're havign those tonight though so they are on my mind!:dizzy:

Mo - you'll look lovely when you go to Ireland!!! And I bet in the 180s you can totally get in your 14s again. I'm hovering in the 190s, and I'm back into 1/2 of my 14s. Although, I really think clothing manufacturers should be forced to STANDARDIZE their sizes. Would make online shopping SOOO much easier!!! LOL

Nori - I think portion control and exercising work. That's what I've been doing, because I truly got out of the habit of counting my points. :)

Serena - that was so mean of your husband! Men must not realize how hurtful they can be! Good for you for looking for an alternative - like going to the mountains instead. However, after your 3FC journey reaches a certain point, I know you'll feel like a hot momma in a swimsuit again!

Kim - I'm the biggest fan of the Superfoods Rx book!!! It's amazing. What a great way to look at food as what we can do FOR our bodies!! And by the way, Welcome!!!

Nori - those recipes sound great! I'll have to try that site. I've only ever looked on recipezaar!!!!!!

Everyone have a great day. It may be a few days before I check in, because my littlest is having the tubes put in his ears tomorrow. But here's wishing everyone a great weekend filled with great choices!!!!!

Serena - if I remember corrently, you're not even "that big" by my standards!

I need to take a look at the Superfoods RX book. What other books have you been reading, Sarah? I hope your little guy's surgery goes smoothly tomorrow.

Sarah: Best of luck with the surgery, give the little one a hug from all of us :hug: I'll keep my fingers crossed on the size 14 shorts, I bought an 18 last night at wal-mart but haven't tried them on yet. Unfortunately, I'm sure they'll fit fine!

Welcome Kim, what is Superfoods RX?? Sounds interesting. I need to start counting points again. It seems when I stopped counting, I just went off the diet altogether.

Nori, thanks for the Willpower Dust! Unfortunately I had already eaten a danish for breakfast :o :o I don't know why I can't seem to get motivated. I'm really disgusted with myself.

Check in tomorrow. Mo

Mo- so what's a Danish? 300-400 calories for breakfast? That's NOT a wasted day. Maybe not on plan, but you can still eat a good amount of good food today and feel great about yourself! BTW - When I worked I hated it when people would bring in pastries in the morning. It's so hard to resist with a cup of coffee. I often wouldn't eat my "good food" until I got to work, just in case I had to adjust!

not that big
 

I'm about 190 so I guess I don't have as far to go as some but my stomach is the biggest part of me and I have to wear 18 and 20s just to make it fit around my waste. Plus after haven my lower abdomen cut open 4 times: once for a myomectomy and 3 times for c-sections my lower abdomen is really really really saggy. Even if I do lose all this weight I'm still gonna have that saggy pouch on my lower abdomen. Anyway, I hope everyone else is doing great. I have to admit I haven't done anything to help with my weight loss. I guess I got tired of answering to the husband about what I ate during the day While he sits on the couch and eats a box of cheez its. Anyway, I'll try to post more often and I've been trying to convince myself to get back in the routine.

hi again.. hope everyone is op for the day!! well a little about me...

I am a stay at home mom, 43, mother of six, just 4 younger ones at home.. i weigh 234 as of wed.. so scale is moving down not that fast and i shouln't weigh in between during the week because it jumps up 2 lbs one day..grrrr.. but by the next week it is down 1 lb... I am truelly committed to losing all my weight this time.... it probably will tak a year to get majority off.. as I want to get to 150.. but I am exercising 30 min 5-6 x wk/ and being more active with my kids in the yard.. and our pool is opening ina week so I will swim too.. I get frustrated knowing how much i should eat.. but will try to figure that out too.. well see all of you later..Kim

Thanks for the info, Kim! I'm the oldest of 7 kids, so I know what your household is like! BUSY!! Anyways, I weigh every day also. I have huge flucuations during the week, so I always consider the lowest weight my true weight - that is as long as I know I'm doing what I need to be doing! Like today I weighed 225.5 - up 2 pounds from tuesday. It water. I'm being good! Who cares if it takes us a year. What's a year?

Friday
 

Hi ladies:

Nori: thanks for the inspiration. I ate bad yesterday. Today I made (some) smarter choices. English muffin, lean cuisine, granola bar, yogurt. If I can just keep it going. I'm uncomfortable in my 18's today which might spur me on to get back on track. I held up my 14's shorts today to my body and there's no way in **** I'd get them past my thighs. Depressing but hopefully incentive. I feel like I know you too, maybe it's because we both come from large families?

Kim, welcome (if I didn't already say that). Wow, 6 kids, God Bless you! We can do this together, I'm doing (or was) WW too let's share some recipes. I might try the key lime pie tonight, the recipe is on this site, it was SF lime jello, 3 WW lime yogurts, 1 FF coolwhip, and a Keebler reduced fat graham cracker crust. I just need to stop and get the yogurt. I'd love to get down to 150, such a magic #!! Exercise is not my strong point, it's right up there with going to the gyno or the dentist. I'm thinking about buying a hybrid bicycle something more comfortable than the one I have. DH says I just like buying new things and if I wanted to ride, I'd use the one I have. I just can't admit that he's right!

Serena: are any of the boys going to school next year? I forgot their ages. Did you have any luck finding the rickshaw thing? I've seen trailers but they only old two.

Sarah: I hope your little one is doing fine with the tubes. Check in when you can. I hope the house is coming along too.

I've got 7 weeks till Lake George, I just this minute am making a goal of 15 lbs by then. I was 198.8 on the scale today...just imagine if I had stayed on WW since Easter and continued to exercise...I probably could have been in the shorts :mad: No sense in looking back though is there.

Can you all give me an idea of what foods you make on a regular basis. This might help me when I go to the grocery store. Snacking is my big problem. DH keeps coming home with boxes of Milk Duds (my favorite) which I of course have been eating.

I can't wait to get out of these clothes today, I'm so uncomfortable. Well, I have a lot of work to do before I leave today. I'll try to check in over the weekend for some support. Wish me luck! Best of luck to all of you too.

Mo

Hey, Mo, is DH still dieting? WTH is he bringing home candy all the time for? That would be so hard for me too.

We eat a ton of chicken. Some beef. LOTS of Mexican. Minus the chips! Lots of salad and fresh fruit. If you want recipes here are a few of my new favorites from Allrecipes.com. You can modify most of them to make them low fat and scale down the recipe up or down to how many servings you need to make. I have made modifications to some of them and you can read that in my reviews - I'm MomTo2SweetPeas there too.

Lime Chicken Soft Tacos

Absolutely Ultimate Marinade

Cherry Chicken Lettuce Wraps

Chili Verde

Grilled Asian Chicken

Taqueria Style Tacos - Carne Asada - these are OUT OF CONTROL GOOD!! Takes a little time, but everything is perfect!

Try going to allrecipes.com to get some new ideas.

For snacks I try to balanced protein and carbs and fat. Otherwise I'm hungry in like 15 minutes! A little cottage cheese, some grapes and a couple almonds...or a cheese stick and a few crackers...

Monday
 

Hello ladies:

Nori: thanks for the recipes, I'll have to look for the chili pods in my local store and I've never heard of that cojita cheese, can I substitute something else? I love the allrecipes website, it's one of my favorites. I also saw one a few weeks ago that isn't as user friendly to use and doesn't have the great rating system but the recipes I tried was very good...I forgot what it was now! Anyway the site is called razzledazzlerecipes (now many low fat recipes but again you can modify)

This weekend went 50/50. I didn't pig out as usual but I did eat some milk duds again and Sunday I ate a danish for breakfast. Could have been much worse I guess. It rained most of the weekend so I cleaned out two closets and now have 5 more bags of clothes to donate. Last month I had 7! I tend to never throw anything out so I'm making progress. This weeks goal is to clean out under my bed, organize shoes and start doing pilates (now that all the clothes have been removed from my machine) :D

I'm keeping my eye out for a used hybrid bicycle. I am also going to start going tanning this week. I remember a friend of mine always said that a tan takes off 10 lbs! ;) My nieces birthday party is tonight, I'll try to eat small portions. Hope everyone has a great week and some of our "old" friends pop in to say hello.

Mo

Tan fat look so much better than white fat! Congrats on a 50/50 weekend. I didnt' do so hot myself yeaterday. Not out of control, but I ate too much ice cream. Hopefully none of you can get Tillamook brand ice cream . If so, stay far, far, far, far away from Tillamook Mudslide flavor. Down 1 pound this week. I think I'm going to start counting calories again. That worked for me real well.

Anyways, cojita is basically the mexican version of feta - it's a firm, salty cheese that you crumble up. You can use any cheese you like. Is it hard to find Mexican foods there? Maybe? It's all over here. So yummy!!!!

Tuesday
 

Hello ladies:

It looks like rain here most of the week. The boss will be away quite a lot so I'm trying to do some meal planning. I might make a big batch of sauce and meatballs so I have something the kids.

I'll check in later....boy it's quiet around here!

Mo

Nori - I love Superfoods Rx! Now I'm reading Dr. Pratt's second book. :) Do you want to know about other novels I'm reading, or just if I've read any other health-related books lately?

Thanks for the well wishes, my son's surgery went great! :)

Mo - thanks for the well wishes for Will!

He's doing so much better - his balance is even better! He's also trying out new words. :)

Happy Wednesday! Where is everyone?

Okay gals, are you visiting another site or message board? Is there somewhere else we should all meet?