I woke up this morning to a note on my apartment door from my landlord..."Monday morning City Inspection will be checking the building and may need to get into apartments." It's Saturday....he couldn't give me extra warning? My apartment looks like a tornado zipped through it, and that's not counting my bedroom or my spare room, which have things everywhere (my spare room right now looks like it belongs on an episode of Hoarders, no lie). I have a dinner with his dad tonight, and I'm staying over at my parents until probably late tomorrow evening.
Looks like I will be madhouse cleaning before dinner today, and relying on my fiance to clean the rest tomorrow. Knowing that, I will probably be pulling an all-nighter cleaning Sunday night because I doubt my fiance will do more than shuffle things around to give the appearance of clean (and it won't even really appear clean except to him).
My weight is up at the moment (nearly all water weight, I'm sure, but still) and I KNOW it's because nearly every day for the past week or two I've been eating too much or too little. I can't exercise much until my stupid foot heals, and it's thrown me off completely. I just want my routine back: eating a reasonable number of calories every day, being fairly active, and losing at a fairly steady pace.
And although it's a bit unreasonable, I'm kind of mad at myself for not losing any weight the past 2 weeks (possibly even gaining a tiny bit, I can't really know for certain). I logically know it won't hurt my long-term chances at successful weight loss/maintenance, but I feel like I wasted time when I could have pretty easily lost more weight.
Also, I have very few clothes in my closet that aren't huge on me right now (NSV, of course, but also rather annoying), and I'm probably going to need a whole new wardrobe before I go off to college in two weeks. 1) I still don't have the mental stamina for more than an hour or two clothes shopping, but my mom wants to spend the whole day shopping; 2) my u.s. size 12 pants are quite loose on me but I have a few more pounds until size 10, so I don't want to buy several pairs of new pants that won't fit in another few weeks; 3) I feel really bloated and ick right now and doubt clothes shopping will make me feel better
Last edited by Chronostasis; 08-03-2013 at 07:19 PM.
Or the repeated pic of you over and over with your latest love!
Seriously! Clean you bathroom! Or get a phone that has the capability to switch the camera so we don't have to see you dirty toilet, and overflowing trash can and dirty undies or overflowing litterbox in the background!
On the latest love issue! Ok, you're 53, yes you are cute, and skinny, but really, you've posted the same pic with the new BFFF or whatever it is now, like 20 times since Thursday. I'm over it. I think you're re-posting it because he's so dang ugly, he makes you look even better!
You work in a farm supply store, in the middle of NO WHERE Wyoming. 2 husbands down, the ugly guy is probably victim number 3!
I hate that sometimes food feels like a fight. I wish I could naturally eat normally. But I still have moments when I overeat unnecessarily. I'm tired of fighting the same fight after all these years.
I want to believe I can do this. I want to believe I can lose weight and attain the body I've wanted for YEARS. But why does a part of me feel like I won't??
Why is a part of me telling me that I won't reach my goal?? I don't want to believe that part. I hope it isn't right..
I only lost 1.2kgs in the past 4-6 weeks. I was doing so well until my assignments got out of control and I suddenly felt I was wasting my time dieting. However, I'm glad that I'm getting back into it with my running and, since yesterday, my calorie counting. My calorie counting could be more accurate, though!
My inlaws are mostly great people. But the family crap lately is, well to put it bluntly a bunch of crap.
Great Gramma, and her Dh, how helped all 4 of their kids end up with a farm. Raw hide!
Then my inlaws, buy a retirement place where they can fish and just hang out. Great! Love it.
In the meantime the great Grandma passes, a few weeks ago. Now we have inlaws having a farm sale and in the middle of settling a huge estate and everyone things everyone else is screwing everyone else!
For my part, I have stayed out of it, but my poor DH, and his parents. Woof! His parents had their auction today, went well, but the rest is still a *****ing, sniping nightmare!
People! It's just stuff, and property, when you are dead, it won't matter anymore. Do the really important things, enjoy your family, that's what really matters.
100 years from now, no one is going to care who got what, or who got more or less on a monetary basis. What the family remembers is the time spent being a family!
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I am having trouble following a schedule now that I am done with my internship. Before I would wake up at the same time, eat breakfast every day, and have a set exercise schedule. Now, none of that! I have gone from eating under the recommended calories on My Fitness Pal to struggling to not go over (and often failing at that). I wanted to be more fit when I go back to school this fall, but now I'm losing steam.
Work rant. I work for a small business run by a husband/wife couple, and while the pay is good and hours are good, I get really frustrated because one or both of them is ALWAYS gone. Basically, I run their business most of the time. Mrs. Boss told me earlier this week that because I covered for her for a month when she went on vacation that I could take a couple hours off early this week and I picked Friday (today) because I'm going camping. And like usual, yesterday it became all about her and she started saying "Are you leaving early tomorrow, because I want to go to the chiropractor" and this is so typical so I said no, she could go to her chiropractor. And so even though all my friends are starting this camping trip at noon, it'll probably be 7pm before I can get there. Any time off I want to take is a major inconvenience for my employer, but they can leave me for a month and that's just fine. And yeah, I get that them's the perks of owning your own business and I'm just a lowly employee but frankly it's getting old. The last vacation I had was a week in December and it took me 3 months to fix all the screwups from when I was gone and I just resent that this company is so small that it's a freaking disaster for them if I take time off.
Sigh, this was a long day. I put up with some medical worker's rudeness and gave her a tongue lashing, she didn't listen and was so ignorant!! I also thought that she was belittling and patronizing, wow I was really mad!
I am exhausted from moving and I want to go see my family on Labor Day Weekend but I don't know that I will go because I am so tired. I also feel frustrated that I need ankle surgery and I am worried about the upcoming months.
It is also very frustrating with my therapist, she has called out a lot. I am looking for a new therapist but I want to be careful to not switch around from person to person.
I have this customer that is the world's biggest a-hole. I've been working with this guy in various capacities for 20 years and he's been the same as long as I've known him. He handles everything with a 20 lb sledgehammer and an acid tongue. Today he called me up to yell at me about the fact that a manufacturer of a product we sell to him won't assign a special part number to a product they buy. Well, I've asked before and they said no. I told him I'd ask again, and that I understood his reasoning on why he wanted it. But his approach was to yell at me and tell me if I don't get him a special part number that he will stop buying the product. So I call my rep at the manuafacturer, and find out that this guy has emailed my rep demanding a new distributor to work with. Are you f'ing serious? I was polite, I was empathetic, and I told him I'd do my best to take care of it- and I have the proverbial knife sticking out of my back. And this guy has been like this for 20 years. At my last job he torpedoed a million dollar deal I was working on because he had a personal friend he wanted to have the deal instead, so he told a bunch of lies about my company.
Anyway, I went to my boss today and jokingly said, "If I tell (so and so) to f*** off, will you fire me?" And he looked at me and said, "I'd give you a raise." My boss has had to deal with this guy before too. He knows I won't do it, but made a point to tell me I had discretion to handle the situation however I see fit, including telling this guy to find another company to buy from if that's what I want.
coworkers who ship all the discipline issues to ME instead of dealing with it directly themselves even though I have 492 other things going on at the same time....for example on the work walkie-talkies "I'm sending M inside from the playground to you because he threw a bunch of rocks" and then "i'm sending J inside because he hit someone" and then "I'm sending R and S to you because they are arguing over a ball and not listening to me"....OMG! they don't listen to you because you don't discipline or follow through on consequences....STOP sending all the behavior to me...aargh!!
i just returned to my uni and into a new appartment and i'm crying all day. i don't know what's wrong with me. the appartment is not what i really expected but it's not that bad, my room is great, my roomates are very nice but i miss my family all of a sudden even though we don't get along very well. i'm going home in about two weeks and i'll be able to see them again but i'm never this emotional. on top of all i have an exam tomorrow for which i need to study like crazy today but i'm so tired from travelling. i even started doubting my choice of coming here, i should have just stayed at home i feel like depression is about to hit me
I just want my routine back: eating a reasonable number of calories every day, being fairly active, and losing at a fairly steady pace.
