why do i lately always end making friendship with wrong people???!! i'm so sick and tired of immature and insincere people...there is this girl who i get along very well she's nice and all but she's just so irresponsible...everytime we make arrnagements to meet i end up waiting for her at last half and hour. today i waited for her one hour then i sent her msg that if she doesn't come in 5 min i'm leaving and so i did. and just as i was about to leave i saw her and went after her and she just took her bike and went home without even calling me or letting me know to wait for her since she was so close...i feel like a bad person here but she does that to me every time and i tell her to leave home earlier to get in time but no. and it's always her's idea to hang out. i love being alone but she's so clingy sometimes. i can't tell her i don't want to be her friend anymore because we are in the same class but for now i'll try avoiding her.

That would have made me mad, also. I wear my sunglasses most of the time outside, because my eyes are very sensitive to light. I don't get why some people feel the need to comment on things like that, as if it's any of their business or impacts them in any way whatsoever.

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My heart goes out to you. It sounds like you are really over this relationship and want to move on yet there are strings attached. I hope that you can assert yourself and get the independence that you need from him. If you have to be in contact with him, such as with the car financed, etc, I really hope that you both can be as civil to each other as possible to avoid stirring up even worse feelings. I am sure that has to be difficult to have a car financed together when you are emotionally over him. I wish you all the best with your situation with your ex.

It was hard for me to delete the photos of my ex-b and I still saved one of the color prints and put it into a drawer that has photos which I don't really look at. It's hard because I still think of him romantically and think "Oooo, I kinda miss him touching me and looking at me with those romantic eyes," and all the other funky stuff that we did but I am really glad that it is over. Thank you for your vote of confidence. I really do want to love again but I am scared and nervous, mainly of being hurt again. I guess it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all, in some cases anyways.

I meant to reply to you sooner, I just got busy but I was thinking of you!

Take care.

Is it really necessary to freakin' bathe in perfume??? Hubby and I went out to a friend's birthday party tonight and we ended up having to leave early because of two women who stank to high heaven of perfume. The over powering smell gave me and my husband instant headaches. It was so bad that the scent actually clung to us; we could smell it in the car on the way home! We've both had to shower and I'm washing our clothing.

A little scent is fine but this was freakin' ridiculous. Other people were giving those two a wide berth as well. Ugh. I feel sorriest for my friend as this pretty much ruined her party. Hubby and I weren't the only ones who bailed out early.

My head still aches.

My three kids have all been puking and having diarrhea ALL week... I kept waiting for my husband and I to get sick too, but I'm starting to think my poor babies got food poisoning from Wendy's. Because my husband and I have sworn off fast food, neither of us decided to have anything when the boys got hungry early in the week while we were out... Geesh... Another GREAT reason to eat at HOME.

Was offered a pink carnation at the supermarket today with a big smiley Happy Mothers Day greeting. I said "no thank you" (barely got the words out), she insisted I take it and I said "I'm not a mom. " and she said its ok "you have a mom". I almost burst into tears but I waited til I got outside.

Then stopped at the outlets on the way home. Every store had Mother's Day themed sales. I didn't buy one thing. Was too afraid to have to deal with a Mother's Day reference. And I swear every pregnant woman was out today.

I know my infertility isn't anyone else's problem but mine but it made me so sad today.

My sons are sleeping through Mother's Day and I am royally angry!

I'm about to get dressed and go out by myself, get myself a new handbag or something else that makes me feel good. And I'm not going to pick-up when they call my cell.

All my Mother's Day are memorable for all the wrong reasons. I hate this holiday!

Whining now because i probably have chondromalacia of both knees, IOW sucky knees and since i'm in maintenance, i'm fearful of this.

All i do for physical activity is VERY brisk walking up and down my street for an hour each night, granted part of it is downhill (which sometimes kills my knees so i mince downhill, and sometimes it doesn't) and back uphill, of course, which i use for HIIT, i go up it as fast as i possibly can (i can't run) which does not aggravate my knees. i used to do squats (proper form blah blah) and when i increased weight it permanently aggravated my knees so yea now here i am and from what i understand, Chondromalacia requires extensive REST.

ARRGHHHH

Another Mother's Day rant from me. After my period being more than a week late this week, and having other symptoms that are related to pregnancy, I really thought I had a decent shot at being pregnant. I built it up in my head thinking, how amazing would it be to find out I'm pregnant on Mother's Day?

But nope, big fat negative like always. And now I'm left trying to figure out why my body is so jacked up this month.

And then I ate a bunch of carbs. I worked out for almost 2 hours yesterday, and I was feeling really good about the number of calories I had burned. That is until today when I ate them all back in self-loathing. *sigh*

I would have been so freakin' happy for you, I would have been doing backflips. Sorry it was negative, I know that feeling.

I fully understand your last line. My DS and DIL finally called at 4:30 this afternoon to invite us to a very late lunch at a restaurant that he chose. I had to pay for my own meal and even worse, I got stuck sitting with all the kids while my husband, son, and DIL all chatted. I do know this... they will not treat me this way again. I calmly let them all know I will treat myself to a very nice day of shopping and a fine meal next year.

I am still waiting on one grade to come in so that I can exhale. The last time this course met was 2 weeks ago. The grades SHOULD be in by now. I should get my master's degree this May but am just waiting on this last grade to come in. The professor really didn't like me and I handed 2 assignments in late. I'm not even sure what grade I need to get but I want to know if I graduated. I am relocating in August, therefore it would be a royal pain to make this course up. I keep anxiously checking online. I will know by the 21st at the absolute latest.

My stupid coworker won't stop hinting how she wants to be alone with my boyfriend. What a freaking idiot. I have other people coming up to me telling me how inappropriate she is. I have been cheated on in the past so I hate getting all paranoid about it, since it's clear my man would do anything for me. i know it shouldn't matter, since I should trust him, and i do, but it doesn't stop me from wanting to throw tobasco sauce in her eyes. Stupid b*tch. Back off!

What?? People who try to prey on "taken" people IN FRONT OF THEIR SIGNIFICANT OTHERS are the lamest.

I'm TEETHING - feel my right wisdom tooth breaking the skin. Makes salad, my usual lunch, a chore.

Got my grammar assignment back today and received another **** mark. I call myself a grammar n4zi yet I can't get more that 61%... I feel like giving up so I can repeat the paper next year and get a better mark... I don't know what good that will do though.

On the subject of university...I HATE group work! I'm getting so frustrated with my so-called leader for this presentation. I have to keep her in-line, while she throws out my ideas... I spoke to the lecturer today and asked him if we were on track, something the 'leader' has kept asking to do from the first meeting 5 weeks ago, and it seems that we are. Sigh. I hope group presentations get easier in the working world... Uni is making me so stressed out right now!