I am starving but it's too early to eat! I don't know how I'm gonna make it through today

Oh so many things I could whine about...well went camping over the holiday weekend. The trip was great overall and the stars were beautiful. However, everything just went terribly wrong. Nice stroll along the river, put my feet in the water to rest...leeches. Hike in the grassy trails...end up with 2 ticks. Gaze at the stars...no on brings bugspray...get eaten alive. Rest foot slightly too close to the warm fire...shoe begins to melt. And to top that all off...it stormed both nights so it was freezing and damp, and I was annoyed from my severe lack of sleep. Generally I love the outdoors, but this was ridiculous...

Work keeps sending Hubby out of town for a week at a time! I miss him when he's gone!

I started feeling a dull ache in my abdomen yesterday, and I thought it might just be a gas bubble that refused to move. Last night went to eat at On the Border, and while I stayed mostly in my calories (went over by 150 or so), I gained over 3lbs of water weight this morning. Add onto that the dull ache is more pronounced and I think it's a UTI I have no insurance, so I'm going to try over-the-counter stuff first. If no improvement in 24 hours I'll make an appointment and just have to worry about the few hundred dollars it will cost me without any coverage.

What I wouldn't do to have a job with insurance right now

My Hubby is a really good guy but ever since he retired, he won't shut up and leave me alone! He follows me from room to room talking the whole time. When I go to the bathroom hoping to get some alone time, he stands outside the door and talks to me! He stays up until 2:30 or 3:00 a.m. wanting to talk and then gets annoyed with me when I demand to go to sleep earlier.

Holy crap, he is driving me crazy!!!!

When we were dating 30 years ago, he hardly talked and told me that I didn't need to talk so much. I was just trying to create a conversation with him. Now he won't shut the F up! What's with that? I keep thinking that he is either lonely or misses schmoozing with his office buddies.

I have asked him to stop and told him that I need alone time, then he pouts and storms out of the room. Pretty soon after that, the talking starts again.

I know that I am lucky to have him and that of all the things there are to gripe about, this is a good problem to have.

One of my closest friends is having a really hard time right now with personal stuff, and I really want to be there for him, but I've got so much on my own plate right now that all I've found myself avoiding him. I feel HORRIBLE for this, but how can I help him if I can't even help myself right now? I want to even just sit and let him vent, but I can't because I'm ridiculously empathetic by nature so it overwhelms me when there's so much inner turmoil already. I feel so so so guilty, but the worst part is that I really don't think he understands why I'm being distant. I've tried to explain, but it's not getting through. Am I not allowed to have my own problems, even if you don't think they're as bad as yours? Ughhh

Feeling the weight of assignments on my shoulders. Had a total breakdown last night over an unfinished one that was submitted today. It was my fault for not asking for clarification and hating the subject I'm studying. However, with my next assignment being extended from Wednesday to Friday and that today is my b'day, I feel uplifted and ready to keep moving forward.

For not completing that assignment, I've lost 25% of my total grade, so I now have to work my butt off to make up for it. I'm so glad it's all going to be over July next year. Though, that is now hanging on how hard I work for high grades

Happy Birthday, Rhiko!!!!!!

Many hugs regarding school. Hang in there.

Grrr I over indulged this weekend and appear to have undone all the good work and weight loss from the past two weeks I'm so sick of the 150s, I feel like a total failure for still being in them and not being able to get my act together enough to get out of them....

Wish someone cared about me. Sorry.

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Liz31 If no one else cares about you, then I will
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Time to whine again

The weather sucks. I hoped it would be warmer by now and that I could sit in the lounge without my fingers freezing so I can't move them. In fact, this entire house sucks! It's colder inside than it is out, mould grows in abundance (including the lounge which has the heater on for hours at a time), there is a hole in the bathroom floor that makes cold air blow on my back on a windy day and there are gaps in the doors that big, fat slugs get inside. House hunting sucks too because someone else bought the one we wanted and all the ones at our price are in bad neighbourhoods.

Gah!

Really annoyed. I've been trying so hard to cut down on calories. Today I had a fairly big lunch (must have been at least 800/900 calories) so for dinner I went with a friend to a place that called itself a Healthy Living Cafe which boasted really healthy food, and ordered a small turkey sandwich. When it came, it was slathered in butter, with coleslaw and mayonnaise on the side and a packet of chips which, on the packet, said it was 450 calories! I was so irritated! How can they possibly say it was healthy at all! I didn't have the chips or most of the coleslaw, but what a waste of money!

The weather sucks (it's rained for over a month now, I need to build an Ark) and I feel unmotivated. I've been walking but not doing any resistance training. I'm trying to get motivated to re-engage in my exercise and to eat properly- my diet has just been awful lately.

So tired of not seeing the scale budge! Its like a .1 or .2 pound loss, and NOT the pound + numbers. I work my butt off at the gym and it feels like I am doing it for nothing. Grr.... Hope to be under 300 on Monday!

Oh, I have another one-

You ever have one of those days where you wake up feeling "skinny" and you jump on the scale only to find out you've gained weight? I jumped on the scale this morning feeling fantastic, like I must have lost weight...only to see I gained 4 lbs. Argh.