Shy, my MIL and SIL are like the people you talk about. When I lost 30lbs. earlier this year they wouldn't say a word about it, stared at me up and down like I was a freak, and just got real snotty toward me. When I gained some of it back here lately they seem to be nicer to me again. Hubby has noticed it as well, so I know it isn't just in my head. It's hard to not feel hurt and rejected, but I have to take care of myself and not worry about them for now.
NSV: I was so very tired tonight and had myself all convinced to skip my JM workout...but, lying in bed early just had this nagging inside me that said "GET YOUR LAZY BUTT UP, you committed to this, now DO IT!" And I got up and did it. I just couldn't let myself down again. This is major step forward for me...I have never felt that guilt and anger at myself before, I would usually just give up.
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