Yearning for… MYSELF.

Cause I’m not sure who this fat chick is!

As I write… February 29, 2012

Filed under: February — jewlz280 @ 11:59 pm

As I write this, I’m trying to talk myself into working out.  Into being flexible.  And into just DOING something.  So far, it isn’t working.  Mostly because I just don’t want to.  No other reason really.  How sad is that?  I don’t know what’s wrong with me that I don’t want to workout.  I mean, I say I do but then I don’t get up and do it.  I know I would LOOK so much better if I did!  I’ve never gotten that ‘workout high’ and I’ve never loved it, but I do like the way my body LOOKS when I’m working out.  I like the more toned look I get.  I just can’t seem to talk myself into it no matter what I do.  It’s crap, I know.  I just slack.  And you’d think I’d want to get on it.  Especially for my legs.  My inner thighs are just horrid.  I’m not exaggerating.  They are smooshy and wrinkly.  I’m not sure what it’s from, but they just look terrible.  It’s always been my main problem area.  I mean, I don’t love my stomach, but at least the reason why it looks like it does is because it carried my babies.  I can live with that.  But just to be gross for the sake of gross is annoying.  I’m not even sure that working out would help them.  AARGH.

On a good note, still 191 this AM.  I was worried I might be up since we went out for dinner and it was Mexican.  I had some chips and LOTS of salsa.  We then ordered an app and our meal and split it.  I stuck mostly to the app.  It was this avocado salad like thing and it was SO good!  I tried to eat it on a couple of chips, but it would fall off so I mostly ate it straight.  I had a few bites of enchilada w/carnitas but I mostly ate the onions.  LOVE the onions!  A few bites of rice and beans and drank unsweet tea.  Dessert later was a cup of coffee and one churro.  Overall, not bad and I was looking back on yesterday and realized I ate a LOT of fruits and veggies.  YAY ME!  LOL  I already eat them quite often, but yesterday it was the bulk of my day.  I expect a good bowl movement later.  LMAO!  But since I’m not sure what my calorie intake was yesterday, I’m going to be a bit more careful today to make sure I am well within my numbers.  I really would like a good weigh-in this Sunday.  :)

You know, I think I mentioned before that I was able to get into my 14’s?  But that I hadn’t moved into them fully?  I am thinking in just a couple more pounds I will be in them fully!  My 16’s that use to be tighter (they are a slimmer fit) now fit perfectly.  And when I tried on the 14’s again, I could put them on pretty easy, too.  I just don’t like my jeans snug.  I’d rather they be a bit loose.  So, I’m really stoked!  I mean, I’ll have about half of my wardrobe back then.  And seeing as how I’ve gotten rid of almost all of my fat clothes, its down or naked!  :O  HA!  It’s just nice to see that I’m making a bit of progress.  Even if the scale is slow at times, I just want to stay positive.  The scale was kind this AM, though.  I just hope I can maintain it — it being momentum.  I mean, they’re already putting out summer stuff like swimsuits!

It’s late now and I don’t feel like typing a bit long ending.  So, I’ll just post this for tonight and start fresh tomorrow.  G’night chicks!!!

 

3 Responses to “As I write…”

  1. pepagirl Says:

    Great job getting so close to your next size down! Since I had been gaining right now I’m down to like 2 or 3 pairs of jeans that fit… uh, maybe this time around I should really get rid of everything as soon as I shrink out of it!

  2. familyaffair Says:

    I’m right there with you on exercise! I used to run. Hated it. Yet, I miss it somehow. I daydream about how good it felt to work my body & get really stoked. However, when it’s time for the rubber to meet the road (literally), I find every excuse I can not to run.

    Congrats on being down a size! It always feels good when you can say “good-bye” to one size & embrace the next one down!

  3. jelbelle Says:

    Sometimes you just don’t have the motivation. I totally understand that. For a long while, I just couldn’t see what I’d loved about it to begin with. Frankly, I just felt way more concerned with other things, and I didn’t want to take the time. But now I’m back on my kick and I do, admittedly, get into the whole “workout high”, I’ll send some mojo your way!

    Grats on fitting better in your jeans! Here’s hoping you get into those 14s right quick!

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