Losin it in Paradise

The hell pit is slowly fading :)

Well I decided to take the advise that some of you were willing to give and I spoke to my DH about my feelings regarding the constant mess in the house and my feelings of losing control and how it was causing me to have bad flashbacks…..and instead of blowing me off like I thought [...]

I sat down tonight to write in my blog, and then couldn’t think of what to say.  Anything different in my life, nope. Same old same  old.
Work, eat, sleep, and then work some more. sigh!
I think I am getting so frustrated with the home renovations that I am not even enjoying my days off anymore.  [...]

Yawn!

We can do anything we want to if we stick to it long enough.
Helen Keller (1880 - 1968)
I am so bored!   Work is long and boring tonight.  We only have 21 patients in the whole house.  I put a lot of the staff off low census.  Not used to having it like this so should [...]

I did it!

If you want to do something you’ll find a way. If you don’t want to, you’ll find an excuse. -source unknown
Well I aced my ACLS instructor’s course :)   I am so glad it is over thou, I was so stressed.   My presentation went very well, in fact I have to brag a bit and say [...]

Tata for now!

I am leaving for Oahu in a couple minutes but just wanted to blog really quick before I did.
Yesterday was our 5th wedding anniversary and because we went out for supper over the weekend, it was nothing more than a sleep day for me as I worked the night before.   BUT my hubby surprised me.  [...]

Damn

Well here I was all proud of myself cause I finally got the format for the presentation I have to do in Oahu on Thursday, bought my little markers etc.  Had the outline done and was ready to rock it together tonight at work…………………THEN
I get to work and there is an email from the lead [...]

STRESSED!!!!!

If you want to do something you’ll find a way. If you don’t want to, you’ll find an excuse. -source unknown
OMG, I am so fookin stressed right now. Here it is 0630am and I am NEVER out of bed at this time of day, unless I have not been to bed yet. I [...]

5 things I want to do when I am at goal weight

If you want to do something you’ll find a way. If you don’t want to, you’ll find an excuse. -source unknown
-I want to walk with my head up
-I want to run with my dogs
-I want some one to hug me without being afraid they will be repulsed by the fat rolls
-I want to be brave [...]

OOPS!

heheheheh…….blush!
“Die…..with a T on the end!”
 Duh!

Still here, all of me

If you want to do something you’ll find a way. If you don’t want to, you’ll find an excuse. -source unknown
Well I am still here.  Collarbones, hip bones and all.  I was pretty scared and of course I turned to some comfort food.  I had some clam chowder and garlic bread.  The guilt damn killed [...]