well, i got the treadmill out. but in order for me to not trip over it during non-treadmill times or the back of it against the wall-i need an extension cord. but now my back is hurting form moving it around the room. so i am taking a ‘break’ before i start searching for a cord. though i may not want to get on the treadmill in 20 minutes. ha!

so i figure i won’t be on it very long because i have no endurance, even though i quit smoking 6 months ago. yay me! this sucks, the feeling has passed to exercise. ugh! how did it come about? i think actually feeling the fatness of myself. being present and not pushing it to the back of my mind.

i’ll come back and report on if i did it or not.