One woman…

…on a mission to get healthy!

Going steady January 8, 2014

Filed under: Exercise, Food — dawnyalh @ 2:37 pm

Yeah, yeah I’m only 3 days in but I’m doing better than I have in times past and that says something. I’m logging my calories, getting in my exercise, trying new foods. Speaking of new foods…OMG Just had some Dannon Light & Fit Greek Raspberry Chocolate yogurt for 80 calories. Yum, yum, yum. Works perfect for when I’ll be craving something sweet.

I haven’t let setbacks that I now call life, hamper my motivation and determination. Yesterday I logged into WOWY to start my workout. I went to the living room to press play and the DVD remote is MIA. I was not a happy camper. I got in a decent workout trying to find the darned thing. I had to wait for the kids to come home and one of them knew right where it was. Last night’s workout I’m sure was a total guilt workout since I’d technically said I performed it that morning. It was worth it even if I did stay up a bit later than I wanted.

Today’s adversity? We have no running water at the moment. I passed a huge gushing water line break this morning taking the kids to school. Luckily I filled up the water pitchers before we lost water a couple of hours ago. So I might stink by tonight but that’s okay. I can always drive out to Mom’s and borrow her shower if need be.

I’ve been to the grocery store and stocked up on snacks and more food to cook. Now to sit down and make a menu for the next week to help keep me on track.

 

I had a dream February 16, 2013

Filed under: Exercise, Food, Goals, Weight Loss — dawnyalh @ 9:05 am

To say this dream was an eye opener would be an understatement. I’ve had weird dreams but this one wouldn’t rank as high on the weirdo-meter than most.
The gist (it started out in movie format but had a moment in the middle with me being an active participant):

It was a Biggest Loser meets Fear Factor type TV show but I had more of a behind-the-scenes look. This one had one guy who was maybe 20 pounds overweight on out who believed the whole show was pretty much fake. The majority of the dream was following the day-to-day activities on the ranch.
Then the final challenge/weigh in. The contestants (who were in pairs this time) would step to the side & give a brief diary spiel then get harnessed in to be weighed. They then had to jump up to a platform that was raised, weighed & then zip lined into a water park type slide, them had to sprint to the end. While sprinting their loss came up on a jumbotron & they did another off the cuff interview. It was down to 20-pounds guy, his partner & a set of twins for who would be the lowest amount lost. Guy gets on the scale & says I expect for us top be the lowest since I don’t believe this works. Oh a Jeff Probst/Bob Harper hybrid was the host. He climbs up to the scale mechanism, gives his which team will be on the bottom speech & leaps them off to commercial. Last guy to weigh in goes to climb onto the scale but production crews start raising the platform. Rather than just lowering it back down, they make him attempt to swing himself up. He knocked over the scale, kicked the cameraman off the perch, but made it onto the platform. Then it cuts to one of the guys doing a victory lap interview making all kinds of funny arm poses, faces & body gestures. Then it showed his family in the stands commenting how he’s a new man & the show had helped him to find his confidence, blah blah. Cut to the host who says sometimes scenes may be weeks old or live & that it was part of the new format. Next shot is of an old woman (picture the lady from the Titanic movie at the end with her hair all down & flowing) doing her victory lap saying she’s just happy to get to go on the ride.
Then it cuts to a shot of me doing the final jog. I can’t remember all of what I said but in my tearful speech I was saying how the kids always tried to encourage me to lose weight & I couldn’t even do it for them. (That’s when I started crying.) I continued with I always just assumed fear is what held me back from losing weight when all along it was pure & simple laziness.

It was so real. My dream switched to me starting to do daily video diaries of my journey. I woke up feeling one of those light bulb moments. I KNOW I can do this. I have all the tools necessary but I’m too damn lazy to want to put forth the effort.
The question is do I truly WANT to change? I want to be able to run a marathon & not have to shop in the plus size section. I want lots of things I know my weight is holding me back. But do I want it enough to put forth the effort to make it happen? Right now? I don’t know. Besides fear & laziness I have hate. I HATE the hand I was dealt & that I have to work so hard @ it. In my mind I know everyone works hard at being fit; not just those of us who need to lose weight but I’m stuck in the “why me” loop.
I don’t mind that I need to log my foods & plan out exercise. I HATE having to come up with menus (and normally I love to plan). We’ve eaten unhealthy for so long that our usual go to items aren’t healthy. I would love to have someone plan the meals for me without having to pay an arm & a leg.
I have just over one week where I have a lot of time to get in exercise Biggest Loser style before I start my new job & life takes on a new twist. The question is will I?
I at least know what I need to do now. It’s time to set out my short-term & long-term goals with my plan to achieve them & to figure out how to lose the laziness.

 

New year, same me…for now! January 30, 2013

Filed under: Exercise, Food, Goals, Weight Loss — dawnyalh @ 10:57 pm

Well it’s been about six months since I last visited (wrote in) my blog. Time has passed. My life’s been lived and yet I’m still facing the same demons—learning how to eat healthy and get regular exercise. I know the ins and outs. It’s the mental battle I’m waging this time.
We are a month into the new year and I’m happy to report I’ve been eating healthy and exercising regularly for the most part. I tipped the scales on Jan. 1 at 336 pounds (just 8 pound shy of my all-time high). I had my brief pity party and looked back on the woulda, coulda, shoulda’s; put on my big girl panties and got to work.
It hasn’t been coming off as quickly as I would have liked (or what I’ve seen in times past) and I’m okay with that. I’m getting healthy and that’s the most important aspect of this journey.
I stepped on my Wii fit this afternoon to exercise and was disappointed that I still weighed the same from Monday—despite working out 2x a day thus far this week (3x today) and staying well within my calories. Then it hit me. I’m taking not one, but two medications that cause weight gain. Not only have I lost a couple inches each in my chest and waist, I’m down 12 pounds in a month. That’s an average of 3 pounds a week. Not too shabby if I do say so myself! (And I’ll address the meds at my next doc appointment and hopefully drop one and change another so I won’t have to battle my medication as well as everything else.)
The year that was 2012 brought many ups and downs in my life (and not just the number on the scale). I quit my job in October. I was tired of all the stress and decided it was time for a change. I’ve been enjoying being a SAHM for now. After Thanksgiving my Dad was diagnosed with non-operable stage-4 pancreatic cancer. That came as a shock. I’ve shed many tears and have cherished the time I get to spend with him. He’s on his second round of 3 weeks on 1 week off of chemo and will continue that for another month before he has a PET scan to see what the chemo has done. He’s been doing amazing! With the type of chemo he gets, it’s unlikely he’ll lose his hair. While I’m working my ass off to lose weight, he’s doing everything he can to gain.
I’m once again working on a 3-month health challenge. I’m utilizing the Slim in 6 series and again attempting the couch-5k program. I’d like to participate in the Color Run and the OKC Memorial Run—both in April. My daughter is doing the training with me because you know, who wants to do the Color Run by herself? :) Depending on how well I’m jogging (or wogging in my case) at the first of March will determine whether or not I enter the 5k or half-marathon for the Memorial. Optimistic I know but I’ve had a dream to run at least the half-marathon for that race for a long time. If not this year, it will be next.
One thing I noticed with her—both Monday with the c25k training Monday and her doing Biggest Loser workout on the Wii tonight—is that even though she may be a healthy weight, her stamina just wasn’t there. She tried to sprint the first 1-minute run and had to walk before the minute was up. The next few times, even though she slowed down, I had better stamina than she did. Tonight she was doing some yoga poses (Warrior, etc.) and had trouble holding them. It really opened my eyes that we (the kids and I) need to workout more as a family. I don’t need to depend on the exercising they are doing at school to be enough. We need to work on their core.

 

Time goes on July 3, 2012

Filed under: Exercise, Food, Goals — dawnyalh @ 12:38 pm

And yet I’ve stood still…or so it seems. Can’t remember the last time I posted anything here. (I’m sure I could look it up.) To say I was derailed would be an understatement. When I figured out we wouldn’t be able to take our amazing trip last month, the wind went out of my sails and I stopped trying as hard. Attempted a challenge at the beginning of the year only to drop out with 6 weeks left because I was just so overwhelmed with everything. I ended up gaining 15 more pounds in the interim…putting me back up to 305.

I started a new challenge yesterday and I’m determined to stick to it. Slim in 6 is going to be my friend. :) I’m on day two and already woke up with a massive migraine that sidelined this morning’s workout. I have the DVD loaded and ready to play. I’m going to have to do it tonight…I HAVE to do it so I can “earn” the extra calories. I’m not sure what is wrong with me but I’m hunger. All. The. Time. I’ve been having small 100 calorie or less snacks and waiting 30-45 minutes between eating them to make sure I’m full drinking a lot of water but it doesn’t seem to help. I’m just going to take it as is and try to make the healthiest choices possible.

I signed up again to do the Race for the Cure in September. I’m going to be better prepared this time with my inhaler and going to work on the c25k program. I guess that’s about it in a nutshell.

 

It’s been a while October 18, 2011

Filed under: Exercise, Food, Goals, Weight Loss — dawnyalh @ 10:52 am

This is my life. It tends to get in the way of my blogging. What can I say? My weight loss is going FANTASTIC. I couldn’t ask for better results! I’ve lost 10 pounds in the last month with 5.7 of them coming off in the last two weeks and that was with Mother Nature’s visit. I’m now down to 279.1. Again I had to look twice because the weight didn’t register when I looked at it. I’m not in the 280s anymore. Most days when I log my calories into MFP it now tells me I can be in the 260s in 5 weeks. It always brings a smile to my face.

The past couple of weekends I have had some excessive eating/drinking. Two weeks ago was the Girl’s Weekend out so that one was completely planned and expected. Back on track Monday morning. Went to the Zoo on Saturday and walked for a couple of hours and then Mom treated us to Golden Corral where I did fine up until the end and went overboard on desserts. It wasn’t near what it would’ve been in the past but I did eat to being completely miserable.

Yesterday we ate at the Arches for dinner and then I was famished (yes famished) last night and snacked on cookies and chips and dip. My healthy portion of my eating hasn’t been where it needs to be. I am logging what I eat though and I did go through a couple of weeks where I was barely getting 1200 calories. I’m guessing my body just needed the extra calories and the carrot sticks just didn’t sound good.

I wish I could say I’ve been exercising like a mo-fo but that is pretty much non-existent except for the 2 hikes from a couple weeks ago and the walking at the Zoo. I just can’t get myself motivated to do it. I signed up to do the World Run Day on Nov. 5 and committed to a 5k and haven’t done any running/jogging/walking since the Race on Sept. 17. I keep telling myself “you need to start” and then don’t. I was going to yesterday and then the I’m getting sick excuse came up. I am getting sick with a sore throat, chest hurting, aching all over like I’m coming down with the flu but it just seems like I can come up with any excuse to keep from doing any exercise.

I keep trying to tell myself just set a date that you are going to start exercising at the very least but then I shy away from it. I don’t know if I’m afraid if I start doing it that I’m going to do too much and then fail or what but I need to figure it out. I really do like to exercise once I start. I can’t get myself to the starting line.

 

I did it!!! September 19, 2011

Filed under: Exercise, Goals, Weight Loss — dawnyalh @ 12:39 pm

I finished the Race for the Cure in under 1 hour…barely. But I made it and that’s what counts. I did start out jogging and had high hopes of jogging at least half of it. That didn’t happen. As soon as I started, my chest started burning and I was having problems breathing. I tried telling myself it was all in my mind. I slowed my jog. I tried to breathe through my nose and out through my mouth. I started out with Eminem’s “Lose Yourself.” It’s a great song and it motivated me well on Thursday. I jogged all the way through that song and halfway through the next one and that was on my third round of jogging on that day. I barely made it through half of the song before I started walking during the Race.
I kept my walking pace brisk for me. Sure I kept getting passed but I didn’t care. It was way different from the first 5k I ever did. That one, I felt like a complete failure. This time, I kept plugging away. At times I even did a long stride fast walk. My total time? 56:09. I met Sheila about halfway through. She and I kept passing each other along the way and finally just walked side by side. She walked for her mom who has stage 4 breast cancer. We both decided to jog the last bit and it took all I had to jog the last less than 2 blocks of that race. I had the same chest seizing up wheezing problems that I had in the beginning. I kept telling myself I can do this and Sheila kept telling me I could do it and we finished the race together.

I am going to go back to the c25k training and see if I can get my breathing under control. If it’s not better today without the adrenaline rush then I’m gonna call my doc and have her order me an inhaler. I really do like jogging and the freedom it gives. It’s calming and peaceful and something to get me away from the stress of life. I don’t want it to be stressful.

While looking up a couple of things before the Race, I came across the half-marathons for Race for the Cure. One has piqued my interest. Yes a half-marathon! Who wouldn’t want to do a half marathon in Hawaii on their honeymoon? :D Yep. There’s happens to be when we’ll be in Hawaii. It comes with added stipulations—like a minimum of $2300 in fundraising—but it also comes with perks—hotel stay. I’ve been tossing it around in my head since I saw it.

It’s time for Jeff and I to have a serious heart to heart and decide if we are going to renew our vows in Hawaii next year or not. I know he says we are going to do that but we are talking a $10k chunk of change that we just don’t have lying around (and that’s not counting a dress, cake, wedding stuff, etc). It is something that we can do if we plan for it now…but we haven’t yet and that scares me. I don’t want to commit to something or tell someone who might be coming that it’s going to happen only to have us not be able to afford to go.

Final note: Down 2 pounds this week.

 

Going to walk it September 14, 2011

Filed under: Exercise — dawnyalh @ 12:30 pm

I’ve come to terms with having to walk the 5k and I’m okay with it…now. This morning I was upset and near tears but then I realized it’s no one’s fault but my own. I haven’t been exercising like I should. Part of it was fear. What if I continued to work out and still couldn’t jog it? I think that’s what has been holding me back. This way I forced myself to have to walk it.

I have at least two other coworkers who will be walking as well so I won’t be alone. I will jog tonight and Thursday and Friday to see how far I can go. Depending how well my stamina holds up, I may try and do the last mile of it jogging.

Everything else is just plugging away. Trying to keep planning meals and having everything scheduled (meetings, etc.)

 

I think it’s working August 23, 2011

Filed under: Exercise, Weight Loss — dawnyalh @ 12:55 pm

It was great to wake up this morning and not have my stomach be all knotted up and hurting. I don’t know if it’s the Prevacid, the veggies and fruits only yesterday or a combination. Frankly, I don’t care as long as I have relief. If you would’ve asked me last night, I was planning on doing ONLY liquids today because I still hurt so bad last night.

I made the green drink and my kids loved it. Go figure. I think they almost had more than me. I’ve still got 3 servings left in the fridge and I’ll have another one tonight for snack and give them more. Shoot, they can have all they want!

I did c25k w1d3 in the pool again last night. Rigged up computer speakers to my cell phone and could hear everything just fine. I even jogged for 4 1/2 minutes in the middle. I still actually want to complete the program but I may start straight jogging 1 day a week soon. Of course that would require me to actually be able to jog and not in the water. We’ll see about tomorrow morning.

I slept horrible last night. Could be because I found the grease catcher to the small George Foreman grill stuck on the heating element in the dish washer and it was melted pretty good. I consider my good sniffer both a blessing and a curse. Last night it was a blessing because I never would have smelled it. I took it out, turned it off and unplugged it. Of course I also thought it was the central air first and turned that thing off. The downside to my super sensitive snout is I can smell every single smell that comes from my coworker and that’s not a good thing. I sometimes get teased because I stay well stocked in any number of candles, plug in air fresheners and sprays. Whatever it takes to keep the air smelling fresh.

This morning on my Wii fit plus, I was down two pounds. I’m going to use that as this week’s weigh in. Why? Because I can. I don’t feel so bloated like I did yesterday even if I do feel like a truck ran me over last night. I didn’t get in my exercise this morning and that means I have to get it done tonight. Such is my life and I am learning to live it.

 

I did it in the pool! August 19, 2011

Filed under: Exercise, Food, Goals, Weight Loss — dawnyalh @ 11:11 am

It’s not as kinky as it sounds. That would’ve required my honey pie to be in the pool with me and ablsiter whole lot less kids out of there for that to happen. LOL.

The blister on my right foot I got when doing c25k w1d1 on Tuesday is still giving me fits. (See photo to the right and please ignore my dry heel. I really need some pampering in that area. Time for a parafin dip or something.)

As I mentioned yesterday about attempting w1d2 and not making it, I didn’t want to be deterred. I’m all about being innovative and improvising.

innovative |ˈinəˌvātiv|
adjective
(of a product, idea, etc.) featuring new methods; advanced and original

New Oxford American Dictionary

Yep. That’s me. Queen Innovator. I’ve become quite good at it, especially after I became a mom.

I figured why not just do the laps in the pool. Sure I might get dizzy going in circles but I could still get the benefits of the walking/jogging intervals. Other than not having speakers to hook my phone into and it not being very loud, it worked out pretty well. I just had Lilly stand by the ladder at the end to tell me when my beeps hit so I could start/stop jogging on time. I did start getting shin splints from the water pushing on them but once I was done, the pain went away.

The down side to working out in the pool was it was at my mom’s and I had to do it after dinner and after being on the phone with Dish network for over 30 minutes. That means we didn’t get home until after 9. I went ahead and ate my scheduled night time snack of a fiber one peanut butter chocolate brownie.  It put me at just over 1200 calories for yesterday. That was the only food I ate after 9 p.m.

I also woke up with horrible heartburn. The heartburn didn’t start until I started changing the way I’m eating. I’ve been eating the smaller portions more frequently and it’s helped. As long as I’ve eaten those snacks at bedtime, I haven’t been waking up with the heartburn. This morning, it was the worst yet. I even lay back down after chomping on Tums. Ended up falling back asleep and coming in to work late. I was already a couple of hours over that I could burn so that wasn’t a biggie. I don’t know if the extra fiber I’m adding into my diet is causing it or what. I just know that I’ve NEVER had this problem outside of being pregnant and I know that’s not the cause.

But…I do have one amazing positive! I am wearing a navy blue mini skirt I paid a buck for off the clearance rack a couple of years ago and was never able to squeeze my fat ass into complete with a red 22/24 shirt that was also too tight. Yay me!

Upcoming

  • Biggest Loser workout on the Wii tonight
  • C25k w1d3 workout either in my yard or in the pool if blister isn’t better.
  • A look back at the ghosts of my dieting past. I do believe I may have learned something.
 

Migraines are… August 17, 2011

Filed under: Exercise — dawnyalh @ 11:41 am

Fill in the … with whatever choice word you’d like. I fear the amount of bad words I could say about them could come close to filling up my space on here so I’ll just leave it with a big ole blank. To say I hate them would be an understatement. I finally was able to see a neurologist last November/December and he prescribed me two different medications that worked wonders with controlling them. It cut them back to one cycle migraine a month. My regular doc switched me to Wellbutrin so I could take Imitrex to handle that one.

That combo worked great up until about three months ago. That would be about the same time last year that they started hitting me constantly. I pretty much had solid head pain from June until November in varying degrees.  This last checkup with my doc, she gave me a high powered pain reliever with phenergran and that’s helped immensely.

Why haven’t I gone back to the neurologist? Ha. Short version. I attempted to go back for my 3-month checkup with him in January. His office calls me the day before and cancels because I haven’t had an EEG done. WHAT? His office was supposed to have had it scheduled after I saw him initially and didn’t. They tried to schedule after they called me but had a run around with my insurance. They stayed on top of it for about a month. I got busy. Life got hectic. I didn’t have the time to keep calling and asking. I did try calling a few times to ask and never received return calls.

Now I’m without health insurance and I won’t be going back to the neurologist. I will be going back to my doc next month and will be talking options. I have 3 more months of refills on the meds I’m taking now that’s supposed to be preventing the migraines. Now that I am losing more weight they are getting better. There is a clinic in the city that offers hormone replacement therapy that I’m thinking of trying. I’m going to discuss it with her. I’ve got a cool doc who actually listens to me and my suggestions and stuff I find. I have no idea how much it will cost but hell it’s gotta be cheaper than the over $400 bucks it was going to cost me to keep my health insurance/medications.

Why the migraine rant? My monthly one hit me yesterday. It was my time, but I’ve been having them for the past month off and on I wasn’t sure if it was the one or not. I woke up at 5 a.m. in pain and reset my alarm for 5:30. Got up at 5:30 and it was gone. Did the c25k thing (see yesterday’s post for that debaucle) and came on to work. Started having some minor pain and second guessed myself and rather than going ahead and taking imitrex I just waited it out which was a HUGE mistake. I ended up having to take the pain killer and imitrex, lay down at my desk with an ice pack on my busiest day at work. It took about two hours for the pain to subside to a dull ache. Another hour or so later and it went away.

The pain returned around 8:30 last night and another round of pain killers. All of this for me to say I was too damned tired and groggy to get up this morning to exercise. I really do prefer if I’m going to exercise to do it in the mornings. It sets the tone for the day. You get it done and don’t have to worry about squeezing it in. If something comes up, I’m not feeling guilty because I didn’t get it done. I am planning to do the biggest loser workout on the Wii tonight. We’ll see.

 

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