I’m excited to share this because it kinda looks like I’m starting to get an hour glass shape… how exciting. — I don’t remember ever having an hour glass shape.  Those are the same pants, they are definitely gettin’ saggy in the butt.  I’m gonna keep ‘em around though and wear them with a belt.  No point in wasting money on a size 16 when that’s not where I wanna stop!  I’ve done pretty ok with food  lately, I’m still not counting calories, but I’m not doing second helpings of anything and I’m still trying to keep under my carb limit which is 150g per day.  That’s hard considering how much of a carbivore I am.  So far I’m 14lbs down and I couldn’t be happier… if I keep working at it, I can make my x-mas goal of making it to onederland!  I also joined a new challenge for Valentines day and I’m hoping to make it to 185 by then.  That’s 14 weeks and 29 pounds… hopefully I won’t tapper off after I hit 199.

Hope everyone else is doin’ alright and attempting to stay OP!  STAY STRONG, we can so do it!!

I’m baaaaack!  Haha, I didn’t do so hot eating wise today, but I did work out with the 30DS and I’m completely wiped.  I really do enjoy exercise, and I hope that I can get back to exercising 5-6 days a week!

About the boy… nothing has happened except his immediate attention to me has let me know that I am worth it, and I wanna work harder to get this extra weight off.  Maybe the next time I see him, he’ll see even more of a difference… and be wishin’ he had gotten in touch with me!  Muahaha!  I didn’t weight this morning (I hid my scale, out of sight — out of mind) but I’m also on TOM so that hopefully I’ll drop a pound or 2 after it’s over.  Yay!

Glad I’m back!  Until tomorrow, STAY STRONG!

In which I didn’t really stay on plan. :/ (as a side note, this is more life bloggy than diet bloggy… I apologize for that, but this blog is kinda both for me!) Friday night my school hosted a Harry Potter Palooza which was a blast… it was like a mini con that I didn’t have to pay for.  It was so much fun.  Saturday I went to the OU/KSU game and I was on TV twice — my aunt had to call my grandma and tell her how good I’m looking now.  w00t!  After the game I went to my friends Halloween party and that’s where my diet really turned south because I had alcohol, and I really have been trying to stay away from the alcohol.  But ya gotta let loose every now and then, and lemme tell ya… put alcohol in me and my shell is completely gone.  I kinda spent the night kissin’ this guy, who luckily for me wasn’t a complete stranger… although I’m not sure if that makes it better.  Anywho, he wanted me to stay the night with him (um, no no… bad idea) and he said that he’d add me on facebook so that I could call him… I jokingly was like, go ahead thinking more than likely he wouldn’t remember who I was… lo and behold he added me yesterday.  That obviously means he’s interested right?  I was really leaving it up to whether or not he was going to add me, and then when he did I had to formulate a new plan for myself… haha.  I can’t go on thinking that he was only interested in me because he was drunk.  That’s my defense mechanism, and it’s a sucky one.  Anywho, I sent him a message on facebook being friendly and a little flirty so we’ll see where it goes from there!

Oh, one thing about this guy is that I met him about 2 years ago.  We weren’t close at all (he was friends with one of my roomies at the time) when I walked into the party, he didn’t even recognize me.  When I told him that we did in fact know each other, he told me that I looked really different.  Taking that for the compliment it was (obviously, cause I spent all night kissin’ him) I decided to look back at pictures from my first year at college.  I can really see the difference, and this whole experience has been eye opening for me… I’ve always been shut off from male attention because of my weight.  When I was younger my grandma used to tell me that I’m so pretty and when I lose weight, I’d get a boyfriend.  That really stuck with me, thinking that I wasn’t worthy of a relationship because I was overweight.  She didn’t intentionally do that to hurt me, it was her way of encouraging me… unfortunately the opposite happened and I’ve been kinda handicapped when I came to men.  Anyway, enough of that… lol, I’m anxious to see if he messages me back.  If not, I hope that I can take this as a confidence booster, and not let it get me down and depressed! 

Hopin’ I can get back on plan… like tomorrow –I’m comin’ back to you Jillian!!  I am still your bitch! ;)  Until tomorrow, STAY STRONG!!