So, I was emotionally disturbed these few days with relationship conflicts in my life.
I came out to my closet friend this week, and it turns out, she was really supportive. To my surprised, she even told me she went through a very similar situation. And, she even gave me advice on how to handle the situation. She told me to keep my head up high and don’t jump to conclusion. These kinds of things comes with time and experience. So, I stop worrying about it.
In the meantime, I took a more aggressive path on my weight. I was growing impatient and.. a little dishearten. I know, I’m not suppose to feel this way, but in recent time, I became very emotional. I blame it on hormones. I don’t know why, but I feel like I’m going through puberty again. And to be honest, my teenage puberty didn’t even make me feel this emotional.
So, I hit the gym on Friday and ran out my heart out. I climb the stairs for an hour while reciting the metabolism pathway for the citric cycle. The lady next to me thought I was crazy. Haha She didn’t really understand what I was saying because I was trying to rap my way to memmorzing all the name and step to the citric cycle. It was kinda funny. But by the end of the hour, my feet feels like it was going to fall off. But now, I can name all of the pathway to the citric cycle in my head!
THen, I hit the tredmill. This time, I couldn’t study anymore. I was just wanted to relax. But then again, my head start to wander again I started to think about my relationship problems again. SO, OUT OF Frustration, I speed up my tredmill and started jogging for 20 minutes straight. During that time, I wasn’t thinking about anything at all! Thank goodness! I keep myself on the tredmill and I ran until I couldn’t run anymore. I was very aggressive because I wanted to prove to myself that I can do this. I can overcome any challenges in my life, and every struggle will only bring closer to my goals and dream.
Yea…and in the meantime, I was breathing heavily. I think I turned purple. Hahaha! But it was okay, because after the run, I felt my body was burning up like crazy, but in the same time, I felt a sense of accomplishment. Not only have i ran for 20 minutes straight, I also stop my brain from wandering into unwanted thoughts.
Oh, I don’t have time to worry about these emotional stuff. My finals is coming soon and this is suppose to be my most difficult quarter yet. I can’t stop myself from getting distracted again. I need to focus. FInals is coming. Finals is coming. Finals is coming. My practical is up first. I need to focus and I need to get my priorty straight as well as my weight. I can’t let myself loose. I need to focus.