It feels kind of surreal to be at my 55 day mark with 30 pounds of weight lost. It’s strange because the last time I did this I started september 15 and this year I started september 10… so it feels almost like deja vu. Living the same stuff over again. I can’t wait to get down to 238. That was the weight I was when I met the love of my life. And it took two years, but I put the weight back on. I focused on love and indulging in wine and going out instead of eating right and exercising. What’s great is he is 100% supportive. He even does workout videos with me, goes hiking with me, and doesn’t keep bad food in the house. We both are looking at this as a good life style change. We want to get married and have a family and we want to be an active healthy couple. So I have no excuse. I have a lot of loving support and the motivation. It’s just hard to live the same weight loss journey over again at the same time only 2 years later. It’s kind of discouraging. I believe though that when I get down to that 238, I will feel motivated again….and I will only be 40 pounds from the 100’s. Oh to be under 200! I haven’t been under 200 since I was in high school. Onderland is truly a motivation. I have started and stopped dieting so many times. I can’t wait to finally hit my goal. The one I keep writing down over and over again…but giving up to soon to reach it. Talk about surreal. I just need to reach it this time. I need to do it. I need to know that I can and I need to know what it feels like. It’s going to be amazing.