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GOOD MORNING s, HOPE YOUR ALL WELL AND IN GOOD SPIRITS, well I,m awake and have had my first for the day, I think I should have thrown it in my eyes instead of drinking it , might have worked faster, I haven,t slept much since the fender bender, that and nearing the end of my treatments and going to the next step just so much going on in my head these days but I,ll get there, for the kind words TIRED, sorry to hear you had a bit of a bingle, cars are just material things, objects, in the long run not worth much, but we are priceless, and we,re OK thats whats important I,ve ten more days of treatment to go and am feeling really and yuk these days but there is an upside I,ve lost 5lb in the last 6 days, but what a way to do it not a diet I would endorse I,m sure like you TIRED all our pants were a bit tight over the holidays, now its time to start afresh and get back to it ROLL, CAROL I hope your both well, miss you look forward to catching up, I bet the snow is lovely TIRED, our christmas is so different , weather wise, I love the beach I don,t swim much, I,m scared of sharks and I don,t sunbathe as I,M a redhead and burn really fast, and anyway greenpeace might think I,m a beached whale and try to throw me back into the ocean well bye for now, take care BLESSED BE, I HOPE WE ALL HAD A :merry: inspite of a few unforseen avents, love to all , JULIE

[tiredoffat]

Hi all. Julie your sense of humor is great. It's so good to hear from you. I'm sending you comfort thoughts and energy. I hope you can find some comfort through all of this. You have such a good attitude.

I'm been off track and trying to get back on. I hate it, but I know I will get back on. I have changed so many habits but the holidays brought me back to some bad habits - old reasons for eating. I'll have to really think this out for next year. Almost all the fat food is gone from the house which is good - if it's not here, I don't eat it. So that's a start. I'm bringing the boys ice skating today and we'll probably play in the snow some more. Tomorrow is my "me" day which should help to center me. Thanks for being here and thanks for all your encouragement.

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GOOD MORNING s, TIRED thank you as always for your kind and warm thoughts, they are always welcome and make me feel uplifted and they seem to come when I need them the most, again thank you, like you all my fat food is nearly gone just some xmas cake left, I didn,t make one this year which for me is a big according to my family but I bought one which is low in cals and fat but is quite dry, but thats a good thing I,m not tempted to eat it the way I am with my own, its definately not GODS food its full of fruit just enough cake mix to hold it together and laced with brandy I usually make it about 2mths before xmas and wrap it in foil and every 5 days drizzle more brandy over the top of it so it soaks in I,m sure the would approve anyway I think you know the reasons you went overboard with the food over the holidays and knowing that you are better acquipped handle it and I KNOW YOU WILL GET BACK ON TRACK, just look at what you,ve achieved so far, you have a driving force, you are sometimes a little to hard on yourself but I know you will not let a small hicup get in your way I hope you enjoy your day with your boys I used to figure skate but I haven,t been on the ice for about 20yrs, OH MY GOD thats how long I,ve been at war with my weight, I,ve been up and down like a YOYO well its won a few battles BUT I KNOW THIS TIME I,LL WIN THE WAR enjoy your "you" day please do something that is just for you, something selfish and all yours HEY ROLL AND CAROL HOPE YOUR WELL and staying safe I,m sure your both still busy with family, and I hope your both happy and in good spirits, well thats it for me for the moment, be good bye for now BLESSED BE, A OF , JULIE

[cacmsc]

Hello everyone! Oh I have been pretty busy but boy do I need the likes of all of you for support. I have pretty much eaten what ever I have felt like. Once in awhile I did make pretty good choices but heck I know my clothes feel a bit tighter. It is time to start geting back on track thats for sure.
Rollmdl my little grandson also had that flu and then my daughter inlaw got it to. I have been lucky enough to escape it so far even with my little kisses from him. What seemed to help alot was that tylenol cold and flu liquid med.. that flu is a butt kicker and makes you feel so tired out. Well I hope ever one is on a mend now. Hope you enjoyed your parents visit had a nice christmas.
Julie I am sure glad you weren't hurt in that fender bender. Everyone is in such a hurry including myself sometimes so much could be avoided. I try to be cautious while driving and I do a lot of driving for work etc. I live in the country and work in the city its 25 miles a day each way no matter how you cut it. Lots of crazy people driving like they own the roads. I am sure you didn't need anymore happening in your life. I hope you had a nice christmas even with all this happening. You need to buy one of those fizzy bath balls and take a long bath with a nice lavender candle lite. I did that last night so relaxing something for myself! Your treatments are coming to an end and I know you will be glad to end them. You know your attitude in this process of treatments has been good and thats a big part of any treatment. Heads up its almost done! Keep us posted. As always we will need your support to get back on track here. Seems as the holidays and good food got the best of us.
I haven't been to the gym since right before christmas as I have had a pinched nerve in my hip area. But it seems a bit better today. I am going to help my daughter in law paint my bathroom today. That will be a bit of exercise and I will try to eat healthier today. I passed up the cheese coffee cake this a.m.. I did manage to send the cookies home with my friends. But we have birthdays to celebrate this week yet and New Years. So I won't be totally on track with intakes written until monday. No sense in fooling myself now is there?????????? But inbetween celebrations I will make some healthy efforts.
Tiredoffat honey I am right there with you its ck in time starting monday for me. I am also off from work all this week. Its so nice spending time with the kids. They will be flying out on friday morning early. I will surely miss the pleasure of their company on a daily basis. They are so wonderful to have around. It looks like they will be moving to Hawaii in the spring. As my son says its just the same as them being in Seattle no matter what its far. They promise to try their best to be home for christmas next year. Oh I hate to see them leave. They have given us some long time gifts for christmas which will remind us daily of them. They have put up a lovely back splash in between my kitchen cupboards and trimmed and designed around my window. The splash is done in tumble stone and ceramic easy to clean. The splash gave a nice finished look to my kitchen. It looks great something I wanted for years. My son and his wife are very talented indeed. We kept telling them this isn't suppose to be a working time but they insisted. They also helped put up the dry wall in my daughters house as a gift for her. That was damage from the flood which ins. never covered. They are so thoughtful and loving. I guess we did something right in raising him. Billy has great values and respect. We are so lucky he has married such a wonderful girl like Lasha. I couldn't of picked her any better myself! Well sorry I rambled on so!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hope you all have a wonderful day and I will try and ck in again soon. This sure does help to get us thinking more positive on geting back on track. We all knew those goodies were going to be there waiting for us to give in . But after all it was a special holiday, but ooops it lasted how many days??????????????????? As Julie says we can do it!

[tiredoffat]

Good Morning.

Thanks for the wisdom Julie. I look forward to your advice and comments. Carol, keep those loving family stories coming. Your children are so wonderful. I love hearing all about them. It shows what a loving mother you are. Roll, I hope you're doing well.

My last post didn't register for some reason. I wrote a real mushy, reflective post - wonder where it went. Anyways I'm back on track. Finally made it to the gym and lost one lb. - unbelievable, but I'll take it.

breakfast - cereal, milk, coffee (300)
lunch salmon burgers (300), smoothie (400)
total so far 1,000 - 500 to go!

exercise - walk/run alternating 1/4 mile of each up to 2.25, 30 mins. Training for the July tri starts today! Thanks for all your help and encouragement. The music and the workout really woke me up! I needed that. I'm also having a "me" day and that's so so so wonderful - I really needed that.

[rollmdl]

Hi all,

It sounds like you all had eventful Christmas'. 2 CAR WRECKS?!! I'm so glad you two weren't hurt.
Carol, your children are so caring and giving. What a wonderful gift that back-splash is, and, as you said, it will remind you of them every day.
It's so gratifying when your kids express their generous natures, isn't it?

Julie, I am uplifted by your indomitable spirit. It's wonderful to hear from you even as you endure your treatment. I know it's the pits AND it's doing the job. I heard a wonderful quotation by Dorothy Parker the other day.
"I hate writing; I love having written." I suppose that sentiment could be applied to treatment as well. I am praying every day for good results for you.

Tired, I really needed to hear about your exercise at the gym. I'm sitting here with a bottle of water(thanks to your suggestion) trying to get back into healthy habits again. I think that I need to purge my kitchen today.
I won't list what I have in the refrigerator, it feels like a dirty little secret. If food is to be defined as nourishment for the body.................I don't have to feel guilty for throwing food away.

Christmas was good and I needed a few days to recover from all the work.
Now I need a few days to recover from all the eating. I don't want to get bogged down with remorse. I gained 5 lbs. I hope they fall away pretty quickly. I feel like I've gained it all in my face.
The food was good and fun. I can really feel the emotional impact of eating so much sugar.

Onward and upward, right?

Thanks for being here. It's hard getting back, and look, here I am!

My plan for today:

breakfast: scrambled eggs

snack: orange

lunch: turkey vegetable soup

snack: orange

dinner: turkey vegetable soup

Yep, I'm up to my old tricks.

I'll be checking in again today.

Love to you all.



Roll

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GOOD MORNING s, great to see you all in good spirits, HEY, ROLL , CAROL, good to hear from you I missed you for all the heartfelt wishes much appreciated, ROLL thanks for the quote I guess when you think about it you could apply it to a lot of things like , I HATE GAINING 5LBS, I LOVE MAKING THEM MELT AWAY and I think we all have leftovers in the fridge and cupboards we could quickly do away with, TIRED a big congrats on your loss of a lb, way to go good luck with your training, DOC gave me some good news yesterday he is pleased with the way the treatment has gone, ROLL it did do the job, it has shrunk the growth to the size of a ten cent piece instead of a golf ball, I may only lose the nipple thats my boobs will look like thier winking at my hubby CAROL I love to hear about your kids too they sound like my own and you should be proud of them they are what you taught them to be, your right there are some people out there, not just on the roads, but thats what makes life so wonderful each day brings something new, no I didn,t need it on top of everything else, but I have been feeling a bit sorry for myself lately when the problems of others in this world are so many and some so overwhelming, I guess the GODS thought I needed a wake up call, to remind me of how fleeting a thing life is and to see the big picture and wonder of it all, I wasn,t hurt but it sure woke me up , my 25yr old daughter was in the car with me and if I had been going just a bit faster around the corner when this joker ran the light she could of been hurt or worse, so from now on instead of dwelling on what may happen I,m going to let the GODS take the drivers seat, like they say in ALANON, LET GO AND LET GOD, TIRED I hope you jot down some of your lost post that you said was a bit mushy I would love to read your thoughts, CAROL I hope your hip is better, I know what you mean when you say you are going to miss your kids I,m the same when mine go home or I come home but its the quality time in everything thats important not the quantity, I know they will be there next xmas with bells on, well thats it for me I,ll try to catch up later I,m a bit today, hopefully by the end of FEB I ,ll be through all this trivial stuff and will be able to start to exercise again funny I used to hate it now can,t wait to get to it go figure bye for now , be good, stay focused, lets all get back onboard the weightloss train and recommence our journey BLESSED BE , JULIE

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OH I forgot ROLL your getting adventurous TURKEY NOT CHICKEN I ,M impressed I was worried that you were stuck in rut, very good now lets see some more changes, look after yourself treat yourself to something wonderful now and then something you only reserve for a special ocassion, but instead have it just for the fun of it. bye again JULIE

[tiredoffat]

Good morning. Roll, I'm glad you're back. Good luck making the transition from holiday refrigerator contents and eating to the healthy track. Julie, hang in there. You're remarkable. Your strength is making me stronger too. Hope you're doing well Carol.

All is well here. Visited old friends last night who really seem to have their priorities straight when it comes to family, home and lifestyle. There are so many choices in this world as to how to live, how to spend your money (though there are limits) and what to do with your time. It was interesting to see and hear about their choices. Something to think about.

Have a good day!
breakfast cereal/milk/coffee 300

[cacmsc]

Goodmorning all! Well today I started off with a good breakfast at least. But its the kids last day home and we are having a pizza and wing dinner tonight. That is my son's favorite and we are celebrating Dec. and Jan. birthdays. I sure will miss them but I like what you said as always Julie you make so much sense. Thanks, for the kind words of wisdom. I am so glad Julie that you got some positive news! It gave me chills when I read it. Thank god your prayers and everyone elses must of come through. You have a lot to celebrate with the start of the new year. Happy New Year to everyone. Rollmdl glad your back and its nice to hear from you. Know that we are all going to be working to getinto the groove. Maybe I should do a jump on the scale? Its been awhile and yesterday I wore a pair of pants a bit tight but they reminded me to make better choices. I know I have really slipped up on my drinking water. So today I will really approach that and get in at least 80 oz. My hip is getting better still a bit tender. I need to get my butt back into the gym. Back to work on monday it will be a real get into the swing of things again. I need to clean out my ref. too! I made a cherry pie, 2 pumpkin pies and brownies for tonights celebration of birthdays. The left overs are going out afterwards except for a piece of pie for the hubby. The kids went out with their friends last night and we had left overs at home. Today they are going to just visit most of the day. I went shopping yesterday and wow the prices are crazy out there. There were 75% off on so many things I couldn't get over it. A foot massage machine for 4.99. The girls and I came to an agreement that for next year a small gift under the tree and then cash for after christmas sales would be fun for the adults. We could all shop together and have lunch etc. We are going to give it a try maybe it will be a new family trend? I made the grandaughter their hats and scarfs and one for my daughter in law this week. Its fun and keeps my hands busy, less eating. Well good luck with your intakes girls and keep up the good work. My just checking in starts my day and helps to motivate me. Thanks for all your support. Tiredoffat I also would love to hear you info. sorry it got lost somewhere. I have had that happen before.

[rollmdl]

It's good to be back. Of course the holiday temptations aren't gone yet. I'm going to a New Years party (pot luck) with my gourmet friends. One day and off the premises. I won't have the food hanging around my house after the party.

Tired, I've had posts disappear, too. With me, though, it was probably exhaustion and THINKING I'd submitted the post. I'd love to have read your post. I sure do have mushy feelings about you guys. I KNOW I wouldn't have considered healthy eating this soon after Christmas last year. I really appreciate your support---I can't say this enough.

I stayed on track yesterday. i really wanted something sweet last night so I had a sweet potato. It was really satisfying. I took in 1100 cal. yesterday, less than my goal, but I feel better today.


Eating healthy food is like a tonic. I know it's a no brainer, that "they" have been making this claim for a long time, but now that I'm older, and I think that "talking" about this, I am so much more conscious of the effects of eating good food. Was that last sentence kind of hard to follow? Well, you know what I mean.

Julie, that's great news about your growth shrinking. Modern medicine has it's place. I'm so grateful for the development of drugs that save lives. I think your attitude is so instrumental in your recovery.

After reading your post, Julie, I am made aware of how much I love to exercise (to music) and how I deprive myself of it. I did a few crunches and lifted some light hand weights yesterday while watching a "West Wing" dvd. It felt really good.

Tired, I have a few friends who inspire me to think the way it sounds like yours do. They are the ones I'm spending New Years with. You lost a pound over the holidays!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That is so beautiful. We should create a new holiday over that! That is amazing. Good for you.

My eating plan:

breakfast---------smoothie

lunch-------------turkey vegetable soup

snack---------------mandarin orange

dinner-----------more soup

snack---------------non fat yogurt

Thanks for being here.

Roll

[I'm Living]

GOOD MORNING, LOVELY s, I,m glad your all well, I get such great coming here there is always such warmth and caring from all of you and it is much appreciated for all the support, its good to know we are there for each other not only on this journey called weight loss but in other ways to, CAROL I hope you enjoy your evening with your family, give them extra kisses and hugs they have to last awhile between visits, I know its hard to say goodbye but the phone is a wonderful thing and you sound so close to your family , like me I bet you can feel the love coming through the line, I like your idea for next year my kids are all grown and it gets harder to think of what to get them every year , I really love the idea of going to the sales afterwards with them and having lunch making a day of it that would be such fun, I think I,ll try your plan TIRED your friends sound like they do what works for them, great, that is so positive, I,m not a materialistic person as long as I have a roof over my head food on the table and the love of my husband and family thats enough for me ,oooh good health would be nice but I,m thankful for what I have , the GODS and FAIRIES seem to be listening to the good people around me and things are turning around in my favour and thats ROLL its so great your exercising, its the little things that I,ve taken for granted that I miss the most, not being able to make love to my husband because I,m sick all the time , not being able to pick up my grandkids because it hurts, not being able to just go for a walk because I,m just to DAM tired, please cherish the little things they seem so unimportant until you can,t do them I,M going to take a leaf out of your book ROLL and make a big pot of soup, I don,t each much these days because of nausea but the DOC said I have to try its important to keep my strength up while I,M having theses treatments he said give soup ago, might help guess what here I thought I was doing so good with this weight loss thing only to get on the scales and discover I have gained 4lb the DOC said that is to be expected in the last weeks of treatment most of it is bloating well I,m off for a then some study, you all take care, be good to your selves, cherish the little things today tomorrow takes care of itself, bye for now BLESSED BE TO EVERYONE, JULIE

[rollmdl]

I hope you are all doing well. Well, once again, I didn't follow my plan and ate healthy food. I think it helps me to HAVE a plan. It makes me feel secure. I don't really understand why I eat better having that foundation, but I do. I guess I don't really need to know the reason right now, do I?

I am so grateful for your posts, Julie. I'll bet you are counting the days till your treatment is over. What is it? Six more days? It's good to know that your loss of energy is temporary. I do feel more inspired to exercise. I may be signing up for a yoga class that starts next week. It will involve some travel time but I think it will be a benefit on lots of levels.

Well, I'd better go. I have a lot to do before the festivities tonight. I'm making a pumpkin cheesecake and black-eyed peas for the pot luck. My daughter is going to a birthday sleepover.

My plan:

breakfast: turkey vegetable soup

lunch: smoothie

dinner: ????????? Whatever it is, I'm going to stay conscious of what I eat tonight. I don't want to start the new year with a food hangover.

Love to you all.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Roll

[I'm Living]

WELL s, its a new year , I hope you all had a good NEW YEARS EVE, I had a quiet one watched a movie with hubby saw in the new year and went to bed, staying up that late was a feat for me these days TIRED, CAROL hope your not to hungover ROLL for the input as always its most welcome, I bet your looking forward to the yoga classes, my mum used to do yogo before her heart surgery and she said that although its low impact you can feel the benefits, good luck, yes its good that I will be back to my old self soon and not so tired but if my destination is a positive one than the journey has been worth the few inconvieniences along the way I think talking to you guys has helped me through this much more than you realize, just knowing your there to share my ups and downs with helps believe me, I agree with you aplan is a good thing to have, not having reached your goal is worse than having no goal at all, anyway you all hang in there keep up the good work, stay focused, keep positive, be good, I,ll catch you all later bye for now BLESSED BE , TO ALL STAY DON,T TO MUCH AND REMEMBER BE GOOOD TO YOURSELVES, JULIE

[I'm Living]

HI EVERYONE HOPE YOUR ALL WELL, just thought I,d drop by to let of some stress, pay no attention its just me venting some built up feelings, need to off load, its about midnight here downunder, didn,t have a very good day OOOH wjo am I kidding I haven,t had a good day for quite some time now but hey thats life, hubby isn,t the most supportive guy in the emotional stakes at the best of times , this was even more evedant when I had my fender bender his lack of concern or comfort really got me down, the words I needed to hear from him , came from my 1st husband instead I guess I need to hear that I was worth more than a car or money, I,ve only three more days of treatment to go and the DOCS really pleased with the way its gone , had another scan done and the growth has shrunk enough that I may not lose anything just have a scar around my nipple about 2ins long I can live with that, so that side of things is going well, lifes funny at times my 1st hubby and I are still the best of friends he knows me better than anyone I guess we were both only 18 and 19yrs old when we got together and were together for 17yrs until he strayed, trust is very important to me and after that I couldn,t trust him again I HAD MY PRIDE, but like the lady in that movie THE WOMAN said PRIDE IS A LUXURY A WOMAN IN LOVE CAN,T AFFORD and its funny after 13yrs I finally get what she meant, please don,t get me wrong I love my now hubby and have no intentins of straying myself its just sometimes he can be a real incensitive jerk but I guess most men are, well today is another day and I,m going to stop feeling sorry for myself it doesn,t help just leads to depression and comfort eating and so do not need that so I,m going to make myself a big pot of vegetable soup and now the silly season is over get back on track I will be off medication and back to normal by mid FEB well as normal as I get anyway, and I still have 10 big ones to lose or about 25lbs WOW THATS SCARY in print but I know I,ll get there I have all you lovely ladies to give me all the motivation I need, SORRY FOR BEING SUCH A DOWNER not like me at all but I guess even I can have a bad day once in awhile , but I,ll be fine just a hiccup but I,ll get through it, life is full of disappointments, and sometimes people are what disapoint us the most but they can,t help it thats just the way they are I guess , oh well I,ve raved on enough I hope I didn,t bring anyone down after youve read this rubbish and if you did read it thanks for the patience and time bye for now BLESSED BE , JULIE